Monster
How do I tell someone that I love them
Do I carve it into my skin like a pumpkin
Wear it like a brand, like she’s my favorite band
A shameless fan who has a playlist, jammed
Full of every breath she ever fucking took
And I’m so fucking hooked
Album after album, platinum is the outcome
Until my balls are flat (numb)
And the walls are coated in fresh paint
Sprayed unevenly all over the goddamn place
The paste I use whenever I see her face
Copying the routine on every inch of space
Until I’m in a well-cummed home
Gel, foam, from the laptop to the telephone
I’m truly never left alone
I just want us to be one
To give her my lung so we can breathe the same fucking air
How do I confess that (that I love you)
When I’ve seen you undress (because I love you)
From a stuffed toy on your bed (because I love you)
That I snuck in while you slept (because I love you)
She’s the cocaine to my abuser
I’d choose her to be fused with
Even if she remains clueless
She remains ruthless, teasing me
By speaking to me with that sweetly speech
She’s keeping me glued to any screen
As if every pixel is a fucking miracle
That needs to be burned into my reticles
Churned testicles, making nutted butter
Cumming out like milk from an udder
Milking the shit for all its worth
Ante, Christ, I bet I can give birth
To the Anti Christ with a panty slide
A Benzy high and a fancy knife
She can’t hide, she can’t fucking hide
If she fucking tries, I’ll find because she’s fucking mine
How do I confess that (that I love you)
When I’ve seen you undress (because I love you)
From a stuffed toy on your bed (because I love you)
That I snuck in while you slept (because I love you)
And I’m never gonna stop watching, stalking, haunting
The ghost who tip toes around her house
Without knocking, searching through her laundry like I won the lottery
Before I stand in the corner to watch her sleep
Fatherly, cuz it’s what my father did to me
In a tournament, I was fucking third seed
Meaning I was bottom bitch to Hercules
Mercilessly, until my insides were bursting
Like a Hershey cherry, yet he was so care free
Kissed me on my split lip like “thanks for sharing”
Leaving with a power trip like he stuck his dick
Into the electric socket
But if that’s what love is, then fuck it
Even if I have to force the glove to fit
I’m going to make sure you fucking love it (love you)
How do I confess that (that I love you)
When I’ve seen you undress (because I love you)
From a stuffed toy on your bed (because I love you)
That I snuck in while you slept (because I love you)
