Wandering Soul

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[avaguesenseofknowing]

Fake it till you make it

I was in a pretty ass mood the other day and I had a small sort of revelation that helped me feel better.

By sitting there, wallowing in my shit, I was getting nothing done. While it sucks ass to continue sometimes, its gotta be done. So the next day, which would be yesterday, I kinda thought “Fuck you, get it done and you won’t feel as shit” and I felt a bit better. Not quite motivated to feel happy, but motivated to finish. Which eventually led to somewhat of a better mood. I guess to a point, faking it till you make it works in every sort of mood. Just forcing yourself to do things can help. I know it’s hard to sometimes, but taking the first step towards improvement, even in small cases, can lead to overall improvement.

Bleh, being all introspective and shit. Whatever. I guess. 

[avaguesenseofknowing]

I feel less like I’m living for myself and more like I’m living to keep others from being disappointed. But I’m to a point okay with that. 

[avaguesenseofknowing]

I'm like an open book.

Well known idiom.

You know, I was thinking about this phrase and I came to a conclusion. I’d rather not think of myself as an open book but rather a library.

Yes, I’d fancy myself a library. Why?

Well, humans are far too complex to simply be one book. Far too many topics, far too many genres to simply cram into one book. Thus, an entire library should suffice!

Anyone could enter, as libraries let anyone in to read, and just get lost. You could explore every aisle, every shelf. Flip through every page available, be they dull, exciting, or sad. Find yourself adrift among the many tomes and chronicles detailing everything you’d want to know. Tales of glory, lessons, adventures, and experience. Deep non-fiction novels to light and airy fiction fantasy books. Now of course there’d be a restricted section where there’d be books you couldn’t touch, but there’d be enough to keep you occupied possibly forever. 

You could acquaint yourself with every comfy nook and cranny of that building. Have your favorite sections to browse through while avoiding those which don’t pique your interest quite as much. You could really get to know the place inside and out, make it a place where you’d enjoy spending your time. 

Or you could waltz in, find the pamphlet of the library’s general contents, maybe skim through a book or two, and leave, not having explored any bit of it’s majesty or perhaps only going surface deep. 

[avaguesenseofknowing]

The brightest mind the world might have ever seen, had he not died at the young age of eighteen.

[avaguesenseofknowing]

New blog

So, I guess this is going to be my blog for more “personal” stuff, thoughts, matters and ideas. Guess it’ll be fun.