Luna's digital diary

A Gemini Baby!

[avalunaaa]

25/09/2025, Thursday 7:44 pm, Hey loves! My exams are over but the hustle hasn't stopped. Day after Day I've been in classes from 3 to 6 after school and study from 9 to 12 and finally sleep. But yesterday I went out with my friends to celebrate a festival. It was so amazing but back to hustling I guess. Lots to do. I love it.

[avalunaaa]

Thursday, 8:00 am Hey loves! My last exam -English- is tomorrow. I cannot wait for them to be over so i can focus back on my entrance. Anyways, these days haven't exactly been eventful. I did get a hair cut yesterday though. And maybe it was a mistake. But we aren't gonna dwell on it. And I'm gonna try becoming a tea person because i made an extra large mistake of a shaken espresso in a big jar and I faced the consequences of it till 2 days. So coffee, HELL NO. To-Do list for today: 1. complete English syllabus. 2. Passages for clat 3. Gk revision I'll update at night

[avalunaaa]

13.09.2025 Saturday, 5:44 pm. Hey Babies, I haven't posted in a while because my mid terms are going on and I've been busy. But, I'm not stressed I'm actually enjoying having time off. I can sleep on my days of. No homework and no school and tuitions. It's amazing. But I have been studying a lot. Honestly tho, It's not that bad. I'm consistent with my studies and having an easier time. I cannot wait for this year to get over man. I want a huge break. Be done with entrances, boards and school for now. I want a vacation. Ahh well. Another day, same cycle.

[avalunaaa]

9:55 pm, Thursday 03/100 days of productivity, 1. Biggest chapter of math and hence math syllabus completion 2. Gk magazine 3rd week 3. quants, 2 passages also went out to get coffee and pastries woke up early, did some yoga. made lunch today as well. I made pasta which turned out pretty good. sleeping early cuz EXTREMLY tired. MID TERMS IN 5 DAYS AHHHHHHHH!!!!!

[avalunaaa]

11:52 pm, Wednesday 02/100 days of productivity 1. differentiation 2. determinants

[avalunaaa]

Monday, 11:47pm

1/100 of hundred days of productivity - math ch1: 12 marks - accountancy mock I completed my first day of the challenge. It was pretty good. I finished a 12m chapter of math which took me all day. first study session - 9am to 12pm mock from 3 to 6 second study session - 9pm to 11pm I studied the whole day but also went out with a friend for waffles after mock. I had kunafa waffle. HEAVEN. ALSO, I went on a run yesterday morning which went GREAT. I love running. My routine is pretty simple right now - eat, study, sleep and repeat. It's been going good. I cannot wait for mid terms to get over.

[avalunaaa]

GUYS, So....I've been thinking. There's like a 100 days left to my Entrance exam. I WILL BE STARTING A 100 DAYS PRODUCTIVE CHALLENGE. YES. omg omg omg. I will update everyday. I am sooo excited.

[avalunaaa]

Hey girlies, This is an Impromptu trial of an adorable ice cream. It looked so amazing and it genuinely tasted good. BUT, I had heard mixed reviews about it and the hype all around made me a bit disappointed. It's good but not as good as i had expected.

[avalunaaa]

12:35 am, Friday, hey darlings! AHHHHH, I'm so excited. I made a study vlog. Lemme know how you guys feel about it and if i should do more of these?

[avalunaaa]

Wednesday, 6:31 pm. Good Evening darlings! The past two weeks have been chaotic. But nonetheless amazing. It was my best friend's birthday on 14th. So I spent the entire Thursday, Friday AND Saturday at her house just rotting away and lemme tell you IT WAS SOO FUN. I had such a great time. But, when I came home on Saturday, I got a fever and I was also fasting and my parents had their friends over as well. Safe to say that I wasn't a pleasant company. I just spend all day in my room sleeping and watching Netflix. After the weekend Monday rolled around which was hectic as usual- classes, classes and more classes. I have an eye infection right now. I wasted Tuesday, which wasn't so bad. I met up with a friend, made a dance reel, ate and caught up which was pretty fun. AND THEN I pulled an all nighter. i got so much work done yesterday night. I slept for an hour before school. so today, i got scolded a lot in school because i kept sleeping. but i didn't mind. My teachers are so shitty. They give us homework like we are robots and I don't even understand what they teach. My mid terms are coming up and I really need to complete my syllabus and also keep focusing on preparing for entrance exams. They can go to hell for all I care because in the end, for BOTH of us, marks are all that matter in this world. No matter how much i hate it, it's a fact. I came back from school and slept. I was supposed to sleep till 4 only as i had a class at 5, but i overslept. Ugh! but it's fine. This one was just a revision class. I have another class in a while at 7:30 pm and this one is more important. It's good i slept 5 hours almost because now I can stay up again. I study the best at night. I'm also skipping school tomorrow as i have entrance exam coaching. OH OH ALSO... I made ginger turmeric shots yesterday for an entire week. can i keep prepping them for an entire week? is that safe? and also now that I'm staying up constantly, when do i actually drink those? AND I COMPLETED 2 ENTIRE CHAPTERS OF CRIME AND PUNISHMENT.

[avalunaaa]

Hey girlies, This is my first ever vlog. Yesterday I started vlogging my day just little clips of it. It was so fun and exciting. I loved vlogging and I'm still pretty immature but I look forward to imporving. I hope you guys like it. It was a hectic day because i had back to back classes after school. I finally came back home after 9pm, and just freshened up for bed. I was so exhausted to even eat dinner. This week has been pretty bad. I just wanna sleep till it passes. I have been so frustrated and angry because all the bad things seem to be happening to me. I just wanna cry. I've ranted about it as well but no one seems to understand me man. I feel alone. I keep trying to be hopeful and positive, I really do but I don't know how to anymore. I'm so burnt out. I need someone.

[avalunaaa]

Wednesday, 12:24 am Good afternoon darlings! My weekend was busy and eventful. I watched a movie with a close friend and had so much fun. It was such a good movie. Currently, Wednesday, I missed school. I feel so disappointed in myself. I actually woke up at 5:20 am and then went to sleep. But the concerning thing is, yesterday I slept the entire afternoon from 3:20 to 7pm and then ate dinner and slept back at 11 pm. I was so exhausted and i think I am coming down with a cold again. Ugh! i was going to take a holiday tomorrow because I have classes every Thursday morning for my entrance exam preparation but now, tomorrow is a hectic day because of my idiocy. I come from school at 1pm leave for Math class at 2pm which will last till 4pm and then straight to exam prep class which is from 4pm to 8pm. I have to come home and complete some work. Hectic right? But that's going to be punishment for missing school today. I've been toying with the idea of vlogging my days and I actually picked up my camera today just to see how it feels and it was actually fun. I will try it out for a couple of days before I actually make a vlog to post. What do you guys think?

[avalunaaa]

Monday, 11:47 pm

Good Evening my darlings! Girlies, I didn't go to school today because i was very exhausted. The whole week was very hectic. Classes. tests and mocks and just yeah. But the weekend was amazing and I had a lot of fun. I socialised and also gave an outside mock. I didn't score as much as i had expected but its fine. Today I completed 2 of my projects which i will submit tomorrow and I will start a new project this week which is due next week so i have this whole week to complete. But what i am planning is I will complete mostly everything before the next month which is in 3 days so that i can give a whole month to rigorous entrance exam preparation. I need to up my scores from now (65-70) to my desire results for the month (95-100). It will be pretty hard but I am willing to work hard for it. I have also 98% completed making the vogue birthday magazine for my friend. ITS GOING PRETTY WELL, I AM SO EXCITED FOR IT. So the next things I have to complete before the end of the month are: 1. Weekly magazines of May, June and July. I have already completed most of June magz. 2. business studies chapter- marketing. It'll mostly take me 3 days, 2 hours each because I write notes as well. 3. IED till unit 4. 4. Math ch1. 5. June and may monthly magazines. So yeah this week is going to be hectic as well. but I'll try my best as usually.

[avalunaaa]

Tuesday, 10:45 pm. Good evening my loves! Today, on the surface seems like a perfect day. I studied and completed all my goals. I exercised. Got a good score in my mock. School wasn't as shit as it always is. But it doesn't feel perfect? why don't I feel happy? Why am i not excited that i achieved all my goals today? It feels unusually empty- my heart. How do i interpret this feeling? I am very confused as you can read. I've been watching Gilmore Girls lately. Well rewatching it. Also my Mazzy Star obsession has been growing day by day. Is it because of the songs i've been listening to that I feel so gloomy? I got a 55.5/80 in my English unit test. Bad right. I hadn't studied anything and wrote the paper on a distant memory alone. But still I feel this huge lump is mu chest because I disappointed my teacher. She had high expectations of me and she told me that she had been shocked when checking my paper. It makes me want to cry. I have been disappointing a lot of people lately. My parents, my teachers, myself. I don't know what to do about it. I've cramped up and studied today. Even yesterday I studied, exercised and went on about my day and slept instead of staying up and studying at night like i was originally supposed to. I was extremely exhausted. I slept as soon as i hit the bed in a weird position not even on a pillow or a blanket. I cannot even identify what this feeling is. Loneliness? sadness? Will it go away? Should i just give in and wallow? I cannot speak to anyone about it because one- i should be able to handle my feelings. I know my own self i should be able to manage what i feel and separate them. Two- Everyone is going through the their own shit. I don't want to burden my friends. They're busy handling their own lives. Third- My family would just be like, "take a break." , "you should plan." This and that. They blame me instead for taking stress, for being depressed and staying in my room all day studying. Well I do not like going into my living room. The house that's supposed to be my home, a safe place, does not feel like it. It never has. Should i just cry and let it out and let it be? I don't want to cry. Its useless crying. I don't know why i keep crying. Even when I'm with my friends I feel alone. I miss them. And I miss myself. Why does it feel like I'm being fake and deceiving my friends. I do not have any choice other than pretending everything is great. What do i even have to be sad about? I myself do not know what I'm feeling how would I answer any questions about how I am other than saying that I am fine.

[avalunaaa]

Monday. 9:44 pm. Good Evening darlings'!! My week was good. Ups and downs are normal but relatively i felt so much better during the week and so much more energized. Well however much energy a person can have with cough and cold. Yes that was pure hell. My chest and lungs were TORTURED. Apart from a little cough and cold, i majorly stuck to my routine and My fun weekend plans motivated me a LOT. I had a housewarming party to go to on Saturday. I had been waiting for it for so long because I missed my friend a lot and finally got to see her. The house was amazing. It was so pretty i loved it. Especially her room. On Sunday, after an Important mock and classes (of which i bunked one cuz family law is shit) I went to a sleepover and had sooo much fun. We watched the movie meg, TALKED , baked brownies and stayed up on a school night which was fun. But consequences are a bitch. I did take a 40 minute nap in school today though so it wasn't as bad. And then after school, the same old thing. Lunch, classes and studying. Coffee makes everything better. It was a fun day. I know routine might seem boring but i like it. Its peaceful and calm and you just have to follow it. I like monochromatic days. Lately I've been listening to a lot of Mazzy star. I've come to adore her songs. This week is full of studying as well. I've to focus and keep my eyes on the prize. I believe i can do anything and that belief is keeping me on the track. My teachers seem to think that I am a student that should be in Top 5. But honestly, I know right now I am not living upto my capabilities and I really really want to. Studying is my only job and i wanna do it to the best of my abilities. AHAHAHHHHHH, sorry for yapping so much today loves. I hope i can motivate you guys for even an hour to stop procastinating and get to work. Trust me it might seem fun now but I know there's guilt eating you up inside and you should just get of the bed and start working cuz babes feelings follow actions not the other way around. You would not work because you feel like it, you will feel like working and studying when you start doing it without a second thought. Don't give your brain a chance to persuade you otherwise. All the best for the week.

[avalunaaa]

11:07 pm 14. July Monday Hello Darlingss! AH what do i even say about today. It was overwhelming. I achieved all my daily goals. I exercised and drank 2 Liters of water so that was a good thing. But other than my goals and discipline, everything is all over the place. I don't feel good today but I showed up for myself and I am honestly very proud. I woke up at 5:30 am and yeah Its not 5am but its still a step closer to my goals. I need to figure out what i need to do after waking up. I didn't have enough time to exercise today because i have to leave for school at 6:40 ish am, but then what do i do with the 30 mins? I have decided I will either read a book or maybe listen to some songs and stretch and get some energy, dance while getting ready and massage my face and stomach to debloat myself. Lets see how tomorrow goes. The main reason today was rough is because of my family. I am so done with the toxicity, i have made up my mind. I will be selfish and protect my mental peace instead of giving into them. I am seriously done this time. No amount of Crying or passive aggressiveness or blackmailing will change my mind I SWEAR TO GOD.

[avalunaaa]

9:15 pm. Friday. Good evening darlings! Today was such a chaotic day, but my fit was sexy which got me through the day. I felt extremely lethargic the whole day and it was so exhausting. I almost slept while my econ teacher kept on explaining a concept. I also ate an entire biscoff cheesecake jar all by myself and my god it was heavenly. Im still sleepy and tired but i will power through and do some sectionals before i sleep. i did not exercise today because my body hurt. I am recovering from a high fever. I ALMOST woke up at 5 am. I legit woke up and see i was dreaming about something really great, so i snoozed my alarm and went back to my dream because to me 'what better thing do i have to do except dreaming' and then SMILED and went back to sleep. I HAVE BEEN FEELING MORE TIRED EVER SINCE. UGH! what do you girlies do when you dread the day?