as someone who has followed antagonistzini (back when she was purple) for a while now, you aren't as innocent as you think 🤨
i've been investigating her account and from what we know, you two have been interacting since august, then she deactivated in october, and came back in november. from november you two have been interacting like a couple (but there i honestly assumed this was just some sort of homoerotic friendship stuff since nothing was confirmed) on tumblr until january 2nd when rai finally announced that you guys are actually dating. everything seemed fine, that is until jan 4 where you posted a post about someone sending you hate, and then after that on jan 8 you announced a hiatus due to a mix of personal situations and the person that was hating on you. on jan 4 rai posted for the last time before being completely inactive for five days, and then she posted a new post on jan 9 about deactivating her discord (which may seen like a useless fact, but this will be relevant soon) and after that she never mentions your name again, like you weren't even important in her life. now, i know that partners don't need to be mentioned on someone's social blog all the time, but before that point you two were interacting on tumblr almost daily, and suddenly there was nothing? it made me suspicious.
and my suspicions were right, because on jan 10 she posted this post that indicated that she was in a difficult situation, and she was trying to go through it with a positive mindset like "reminding herself of her own worth and coping with humour". now, this could literally be about anything, but the post on jan 18 cleared it up for me. she said that the song "cornerstone" by arctic monkeys was making her yearn for "her"... now, we all knew she wasn't yearning for that toxic ex that leaked her old account to most of her college, so this could only mean she was yearning for you. but why would she yearn for you even though if you guys are dating? trick question, because you guys broke up. this meant that you two broke up around jan 4 to jan 18, but i doubt it would be as late as jan 10+.
that's where we see her not being active anymore after jan 18. rai becomes inactive for 4 days before posting about her heart attack, and then inactive for an entire 10 days before announcing her indefinite hiatus on feb 1, one of the reasons being listed was the break up.
from that point forward i immediately felt something iffy come from you, and i needed to dig into it further, and after some searching, i managed to snag up one of rai's friends for a call. due to them wanting to keep themselves anonymous, they will be censored and referred to as rai's friend. during the call we talked about rai's current mental state, which was worse than we expected. they said that after the break up rai was starting to go back to old habits (which we know in her hiatus post), and that rai started to isolate herself from reality. i asked them about the person that was hating on you, and they actually said that rai told them it was some crazy ex, but nothing more. however, after another hour of talking, we found out they broke up because of that ex after rai's friend went through some older text messages. i also asked on where you two were texting on, and they first said on twitter, but then you moved to discord, which absolutely made sense on why rai disabled it. it is absolutely clear that after you two broke up, she had been deteriorating mentally, and the burnout added on because of the heart attack. i asked rai's friend why it happened, and they said that rai gave them very vague but inconsistent answers. one time she told them it was because she had a lot of assignments and exams, another time she said it was because she kept getting injuries from her dance classes and they just got worse until the heart attack happened, before we finally came to the conclusion that she was lying just to save your name from being cancelled.
while i am not accusing you of being some sort of abusive girlfriend, i definitely do think there was some truth on what that anon said about you being the ultimate root of rai's problems and leading her to an indefinite hiatus.
now, you can answer this ask, or don't, but inevitably i will post this proof to my account so it won't be ignored by rai, because simply we need the truth from both of you.
TW: sexual assaulted, stalking
simply, this is odd behavior.
i’m not a celebrity, nor is rai. our lives aren’t yours to dissect and analyze, and having exact dates on when we broke up or whatever is invasive.
while i don’t owe you any explanation, i will briefly explain for my own sake and for rai’s.
we broke up on jan 6 because of my ex, who was sending me hate and threats through my inbox on here. this consisted of derogatory names, threats towards rai, and persistent fear mongering. because i broke up with her after she sexually assaulted me, she’s been stalking me for a year and a half. so yes, she is a crazy ex. when i found out she found this tumblr account, i told rai about how she was acting and how i was worried for both of our safeties. i broke up with rai so my ex wouldn’t try and do anything to her.
furthermore, i showed this ask to rai, so she’s completely aware and denied much of what you said. however, for her privacy, i will not say more.
i think its crazy to be digging into both of our lives over complete speculation. i understand the curiosity, but you have to realize that these are real lives you’re messing with.
you can “cancel” me, although i don’t know what there is to cancel me for, but go ahead. at the end of the day, rai and i are the only ones who know what happened, and i would love if you could respect that.
please, if you care about her as much as you claim to, let her rest. she is going through a lot with mental health and her heart attack, as you recognized. you can come at me as much as you want but leave her out of it.
