I'm doing my best everyday...!!

"Every time I get on stage I always start to doubt myself — can I really heal every person in Mondstadt? But I look at you now, and I feel that as long as we keep marching forward, maybe one day I might just— Huh? I've already healed you? Well, one's not enough! I've already healed a lot of people? I suppose..."

[averylonelysimp]

Friends/Close moots only

Mostly venting? Or just really personal things that're going on irl

Don't interact unless I've given you the url or rbed your post with this blog

uhh rbing to side or priv is fine just not main ig

Uhm yeah, i think that's all? I'll try to tw as much as i can in the tags... but lmk if i forgot something/need to add something? it'll always be in the format of "tw (thing)"

emetophobia gets mentioned a lot here :')

i'll probably talk a lot about, like, my recovery and calling myself out for a lot of stuff so. i'd really appreciate if you don't think of me much differently because of the things i'm now aware of

anyways thank u all ily <3

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you ever?

https://open.spotify.com/track/0L0qikeCR07Gm1Ep7Gipkv?si=2a2e7a229a1b48f1

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me literally vibing:

spotify playing sushi soucy: 🙃

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unrelated but the only thing that's keeping me from posting that "moving blogs" notice rn is that i really fucking like my side's (grass-cant-save-me) theme like that shit's PRETTY god vioev theme so true

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....oh

he says slurs? "as a joke"? yeah fuck no gtfo of my sight

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...i mean i do have a url i snagged a bit ago that i like

but i also don't want to leave this one?

like i love... being a content creator. i like making things. a lot. but i just have no energy to make anything and it feels. horrible, quite frankly

i mean i've been hyperfixated on genshin for... well over a year now. i'm really scared that i'm falling out of love with it bc. it's literally been my entire life for months and i just. what will i do without it?

i don't want to stop creating, that's like. everything to me. i'm an artist, i'm a writer, i've been creating fanwork since i first hopped on the internet. before that actually, i wrote fanfics before i knew it was an actual thing that people do. and ykw? i'll say it. feels like shit to not be able to do that anymore

i don't have the time, the energy, the motivation, nor the inspiration to do much of anything, really

i might not become completely inactive.... but i'll probably make a separate blog where i can unapologetically spam in between actual content. this one feels like everything i post has to be of such a high standard... i don't have the energy to meet that standard anymore

i might officially come back one day, it'll just be a while, probably...

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everything feels like it's moving too fast. like life is just... going by. too fast to keep up. wave to it as it goes by ig !!

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i mean i only interact with like... 3? 4? of my mutuals now

i.. might as well

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okay i'm not really one to go about interpreting dreams but i uh. now i'm a bit worried !! i do occasionally get those wonky prophetic dreams and i hope this isn't one of them !!

like shit you may have been a horrible parent but still !! doesn't mean i want you to be dying in the near future

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just ah... quiet screaming and data comparison at 3am

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..... yeah no i'm sad now

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..... i literally told you it was my favourite one. why are you hating on it so aggressively to my face

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..... i literally told you it was my favourite one. why are you hating on it so aggressively to my face

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"don't you need to practice" ma'am i've been emotional as fuck all day and am consequently very tired please. just stop.

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I FEEL SICK GODDAMMIT I DON'T KNOW WHY OWOWOWOWOW-

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ow pain pain pain ow hurt pain is all i feel i live in agony ow ow owww

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the way she? the fucking? the mf wicker chicken man.... welcome to pt ??? of sobbing in math class again