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𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐍  𝐎𝐅  𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍     【  …  】     this  is  an  independent  &  low  activity  writing  blog  for   𝒎𝒆𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏   of  arthurian  legend.     a  study  in  …   sacrifice,  a  parent's  grief,  the  curse  of  prophecy,  &  defeatism.   written  by  ...merlin,  since  2021.     bio. pkmn v. hoyo v. other v.

aff. @vitriolec, @aurivore, @resolutepath, @drakonlot.

typical dni criteria applies. i will not tolerate homophobia, ableism, racism, transphobia, or any other stances that could be described as bigoted. i will not engage with the following fandoms: any vivziepop properties, my little pony, murder drones, the amazing digital circus, or attack on titan. this includes multimuses; do not follow me if you have these fandoms on your roster.

please do not mention real life animal death or my little pony around me.

i am very slow to replies and post a lot of ooc. i do not engage with callout posts unless i consider the person a genuine danger, nor do i engage in vagueposting.

shipping is not my main priority, though i am easily convinced. it's truly as simple as walking into my dms and going "we're kissing now". i will hop on it that fast.

kinoko nasu is my personal enemy. i still align my merlin's lore to type-moon's worldbuilding, but i associate myself much more closely to the lore i've built myself after an exhaustive amount of reading ye olde scripts as well as more recent retellings.

religious themes are overtly present with this muse, so please be aware of that when interacting! other themes that may come up in passing may include time period-typical queerphobia, human sacrifice, child abuse, war-related ptsd, & similar topics.

merlin is a shapeshifting genderfluid slutty bisexual and a demon on top of that. he came out the gate as horrible representation. i cannot change this. 😔

header c. nozaki tsubata

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' wimbo woobly? wobbly wumbo wingus woodle, '

❛ by the gods, assassin, that's the most eloquent you've ever sounded! perhaps you should wear my face more often~ i just might be a good influence on you! ❜

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merlinm

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she's not sure if she has the right to touch him anymore. or even be in his presence. but the years have been lonely, and nimue rushes to embrace him anyway.

the sight of her makes his chest ache—and as her arms wrap around him, as she buries her face into the ruffles of his robe, he feels...

he feels.

it's a painful thing, to have to love so deeply. to feel such sorrow at the sight of a familiar face. but despite the cold iron taste in his mouth, he returns her embrace; hugging her closer, tighter. no matter their past, he still cares for her, he still loves her.

❛ how i've missed you, ❜ he mutters, warm and gentle in his tone. he squeezes just a bit tighter, ❛ it's been truly horrendous. ❜

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important things about merlin that probably will not make it into the bio when i write it up

merlin is the antichrist and is considered a beast of humanity. he shares his beast title with his familiar, beast iv: primate murder / cath palug. they are both the beast of comparison. merlin will not reach his potential as a beast so long as he remains within the garden of avalon, distanced and separated from mankind. no one knows what would happen if beast iv matures and awakens. good thing it's not gonna happen!

flowers grow at his feet everywhere he goes. it's subconscious and cannot be helped. it gets annoying fast.

he has undiagnosed and untreated AuDHD, BPD, CPTSD, and has a history of manic depression, mania, and psychosis.

merlin's twin sister, ganieda, was the queen of another kingdom and achieved such by fully hiding her demonic origins and essentially disowning their mother in order to truly hide who she was.

merlin has one (1) biological child named melissa, who was his only true apprentice in magic and became his "gravekeeper", guarding the entrance to avalon until she became involved with the paladins of charlemagne a few hundred years after merlin's imprisonment.

will add more as i think of it

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secret middle of the night shipping call

[valtsv]

obsessed with the tragedy of the monster that understands humanity actually. to humans they will always be a monster, or forced to hide their monstrosity to fit in. pull their teeth, blunt their claws, file down their jagged edges and soften their sharp points and become something they're not until they can feel it screaming beneath their skin. but they cannot return to monsterhood entirely, either, with their knowledge. they understand, and a part of them can't help but want to belong. even if it hurts. even if it destroys them.

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secret middle of the night shipping call

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when i call merlin fruity this is the shit im talking about

[opttwoodrow]

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" children know more than we give them credit for. " // from wamdus! or if you aren't familiar with gbf maybe artoria then?

❛ bah, i'm certainly aware. ❜ she nods as she speaks, gazing at the other entity with softened eyes. ❛ mine grew up far faster than i wanted her to. i couldn't believe it, nor keep up with it, so i treated her as a child long after she became an adult. i'm sure that enraged her. ❜

❛ you, too, seem very wise for your apparent age. if i'm not mistaken, your body must not match your true self? ❜

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guy who is annoying ^

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i'm fine. i can do this. (From Yamato!)

merlin is someone who feels antsy when someone is struggling near them, and it comes with an overwhelming desire to either step in or give unwanted advice. it's not as if they can help it, the taste of struggle is metallic and sharp on their tongue, anyone would want to get rid of that as quickly as possible.

❛ i don't doubt your capability, ❜ spoken with a distant, sing-song tone. sweet and unassuming. ❛ but this isn't about you needing help. this is about me wanting to help! surely, there's something i can do. ❜

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secret merlins ft. that goth baby

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can you PLEASE take his white ass to funkytown

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oh what a queer little fellow..!