Satin

Heal my heart and make it clean.

[worshipgifs]

[taylorisapuppy]

I’m alive to both pain and joy now. I have my old laugh back, as my mom says. The one that takes over my body and sends me out of myself for a few seconds. And only a couple years ago, I had hoped I’d die.

[avrageman-blog]

Today

You never really appreciate left overs, until you’re hungry, never really appreciate water until you have nothing else to drink, you never really appreciate friends when they’re always around. You never really appreciate a conversation until you have no more. You never really appreciate love, until it says goodbye.

My love, i have loved for years now, 3 to be exact. But everyday with you in that 3 years feels like it was like our first. Its just been days, but days start to feel longer than months, and weeks feel more like years. Missing you isn’t the right term anymore, its no longer a useful or a necessary term. Its i long for you, my heart yearns for the day i get to be with you. But sometimes even that feels blurry.

Trust, something i’ve always had a hard time dealing with. Trusted my love with my entire life, not just in the 3 years but in the forever. There are still things that other people are unknown to, but you do. 

Ive loved before, and ive loved today. None of which was like my love for you. 

I miss you my sunshine, i miss when my days were all sun, now its all rain.

[infimityonhigh]

[avrageman-blog]

@snkingdeep

Sunshine! I miss you my bestfriend 

[avrageman-blog]

To self

Something is wrong with you,

Not even the rhythm blues when youre near

The stars corrupt when you cry and everyone tell you youre wrong.

You convince yourself everyday that things will get better tomorrow. But really they dont.

Every f day sean, you remind yourself you were one step better than how you were yesterday.

No. No one loves you, not even the man lying on the streets would love you and listen to you, what more her.

Youre nothing but a useless, piece of crap who wants nothing more in this life than to die. Maybe it is time to.

So selfish all you freaking think about is your own feelings, vanity is something you hide but something you are. Youre a lie, a fraud and a mere mess in the table.

There is no hope for you,

No hope for a baby like you who wants nothing more than someone to listen, but wake up stupid. No one will listen to you. No one loves you. No one cares about you and no one will ever see you as something more than a burden.

Bella was right, youre a child.

Your parents were right, you shouldve died and not your brother

Your family was right, you arent smart.

You are nothing. Not even andrea cares about you bitch.

[samxcamargo]

““Often what feels like the end of the world is really a challenging pathway to a far better place.”

— Karen Salmansohn

[thebeautifulmind]

Follow for more! @thebeautifulmind

[juansendizon]

[avrageman-blog]

@snkingdeep

[remanence-of-love]

[bnmxfld]

“How amazing it is to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head.”

— Nina LaCour / Hold Still

[love-personal]

[psychodaddyy]

So cute when someone knows you’re asleep and they text you a long paragraph about how they feel so that’s the first thing you read in the AM.

[avrageman-blog]

This is youuu ❤️❤️ @snkingdeep

[apikaliaa]

“Laying in bed

with the ghost of you,

and missing you

more than I am supposed to.”

— a.a.

[surqrised]

“You know you are on the right track when you become uninterested in looking back.”

—

Unknown

[latenights]

you never gotta worry about me cheating on you.. I might eat something that was yours but that’s about it

[snkingdeep]

@avrageman

[iamfinallybreakingfree]

My home will be a home with no loud anger, no explosive rage, no slamming doors or breaking glass, no name calling, shaming or blackmail. My home will be gentle, it will be warm. It will keep my loved ones safe. No fear, no hurt and no worries. I may come from a broken and twisted place but I will build something whole and safe. I’ll sing in the shower again, cook with a smile and dance in all the rooms. I will heal.

[snkingdeep]

@avrageman our dream someday

[8-bitfiction]

[snkingdeep]

@avrageman