20th June 2020 19.40.Ā
This is becoming a common thing, we fall out, I get over you, stop wanting you to text, stop checking your instagram, stop waiting for a message, then you come back and the really fucked up thing is that I let you. I make you sweat a bit, be direct and a bitch and tell you that I canāt trust you but every single time you win and your back in my life and your screenshots are filled with pictures of me. Every single time. I canāt keep doing this. Im tired. Tired of feeling used but itās my fault. I let this happen. Iāve got no one else to blame or be angry at apart from myself and thatās the hard part, that the buck ends with me. I control who I let into my life and I let you. Asking me to come up to yours, me accepting a few days later and then nothing, no text, no message and no call. Itās Saturday night, the night I was supposed to come up and youāre leaving me on read? Again? seriously? Oh IĀ need to get a grip, why did you expect something different? He doesnāt ever change and you should have known better. So now you feel embarrassed, annoyed, angry? Well so what, these are emotions youāre all too familiar with feeling when it comes to him. Its time to go, to move on and donāt let him back in, not now, not next week, not ever. He is no good for you and heāll never give you what you want. If you go back to anyone of your exās, then we both know which one it should be. He was fun and non committal. This one is a virus. He gets under your skin and into your head. You need to let that go. You deserve so much more and the thing is you know this. Let it go, let it go, let it go.Ā
