Do you ever wonder how people change right in front of our eyes and we donāt see? A little gap and in walks Satan. And he speaks lies that people believe without giving the benefit of the doubt to their loved oneā¦ā¦and they buy the lies hook, line, and sinker. And then they use those lies to plan their next step and in turn, begin lying to their loved one to cover their tracks to f their sin.
I miss the guy who used to be so excited for me to come home from work. The guy that used to send me text messages throughout the day to say he missed me and could wait for me to get home. The guy who used to send me flowers and tell me how he proud he was that I was HIS wife! I miss the guy who loved JESUS and talked about what GOD was doing in his life and how GOD spoke to him through the WORD. Yep, I miss that guy.
We are in the last days and deception by the master deceiver is real! Satan may think heās won, BUT GOD!! šŖš»š As hard as this has been, Iām not the same woman I was 33 long months ago. I now know this was allowed for a reason. To strengthen my faith and help me to stand in the gap for my man. Like the woman in Luke 18:1, Iām persistently praying for reconciliation, which GOD promised very early on in my stand. He gave me two promises then a few more throughout these hard years. Every time I want to give in or give up, HE sends a message to me that Iām so close to breakthrough and I should not give up!
Some things I learned along the way:
Our spouse is not our enemy! We have one and his name is Satan! Donāt confuse the two!
My husband deserves my respect whether I feel like it or not. Yes, respect is earned, but I was severely lacking in this before all this happened. Iāve learned honor and respect.
Serving my spouse is my privilege as HIS wife.
Satan is actively trying to destroy my marriage and he knows EXACTLY what to dangle in front of my husband to divert his attention away from JESUS.
Spiritual warfare is real and only prayer and standing on the WORD as it is written can change the situation!
Nothing is hidden from God and nothing is too hard for him - no matter how it looks right now!
GOD is bigger than any problem we have. Greater is HE that is in me than he that is in the world!!!!
GOD is able!!!
HE wonāt allow this season to be for naught! HE is working behind the scenes and HE will have the final word. While HE wonāt force my spouse to turn from sin, HE can make him want to! Iām counting on that.
I meant every wedding vow I spoke before GOD and Iām cling to GOD with everything in me! āļø
This post is just me sharing some of my struggles as a stander. I will not give in or give up! I may cry big tears, BUT GOD knows and sees everyone!
