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TW: eating disorder and depression

Bts reaction you have anorexia

(rap line)

Yoongi wouldn't find out soon enough, you've been eating much less than the bare minimum to function and you were slowly shutting down.

He would find out the time he saw your skin getting paler, your blueish nails and constant headaches, anorexia is horribly common among idols and he instantly knew what was going on.

"how long? How fucking long?! Don't you see that if you hurt yourself you hurt me too?! Just... please. Tell me how I didn't notice"

Hoseok would pretend to be naive about your new habits, food rituals, getting black coffee instead of funny drinks when he took you out, checking the calories of the food you ate and avoiding the snacks he offered you.

You knew how to keep your secret but he was smarter.

He's the kind of person to get multivitamins for himself and convince you to take them with him, give you compliments in hopes of making you happy and realize that you're beautiful just the way you are.

"I can't point at a single thing I don't like about you, you're truly perfect to me y'know? You're going to be okay I got you"

Namjoon though you were able to take care of yourself without him needing to check up on you, and you were but your perfectionism changed that.

You were more distant and get distracted often. He's very smart and knew that something was off but didn't know what exactly

Slowly he would try to find your breaking point and make you confess.

The last week you've been restricting more than ever to lose weight but you were in a plateau, it was so frustrating and you had a breakdown, namjoon found you crying and you told him everything, you needed to.

"this is not uncommon, I've seen it so many times and if you let me help you we'll find a way out okay? Let me in, I wanna be part of everything about you even the bad things"

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☽︎bts reaction you get overwhelmed in a public place☾︎

(maknae line)

Jimin knew how to calm you down, no matter how loud itwas he's the most comforting person ever. He would wear a fluffy hoodie and hug you until you feel better. If he had to leave you he would take of the hoodie leaving it smelling of him.

"don't take it off okay?"

Taehyung would never put you in a situation where he knew you might feel anxious, and if he did he would take you out inmediatly asking someone to take you somewhere calm or driving you himself.

"I know you want to be part of everything I do but I'm an idol and quiet places in my life are hard to find, don't be mad I know you love me"

Jungkook would try really hard to try to understand how you could get so stressed but he would never completely understand how you feel, instead he would help you find all the possible getaways of the places you go together in case you had an emergency.

"don't retain yourself from leaving if you have to, just send me your location and I'll be there in no time, you understand baby?"

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☽︎ᗷTՏ ᖇᗴᗩᑕTIOᑎ☾︎

When you feel overwhelmed on a public space.

Hyung line

Namjoon:

He can be extremely oblivious to almost everything but when it comes to you feeling bad he'll be the first one to notice.

He knew that he shouldn't have let you come with him to a photoshoot, there's people everywhere, moving fast, yelling, the members messing around and it was too much for you. Without being aware of it your hand reached your neck and you began to scratch your skin and trying to control your breathing.

1 2, 1 2, 1..... You felt someone putting headphones on your ears with and all you could hear now is rain sounds, when you turned around namjoon gave you a kiss on your head and run away to get his makeup done.

Jin:

He knew something like this would happen and he knew you knew, but you really wanted to go with him to that award show.

So many idols, staff members, loud music and people crying because they won or not, too much, way too much.

Your eyes wandered around looking for a calm place to sit but someone grabbed your hand guiding you to bangtan's private space, suga was sleeping so the rest of the members were extremely quiet.

Jin kissed your hand "you are ok now"

Suga:

When Bts wants to go shopping, they are going shopping, the thing is they're not in Korea where idols can walk around the city without half world screaming their names.

You barely got out of the car and fans were yelling, paparazzis blinding you with their lights and people shamelessly trying to touch you and the members.

Everything blurred out and yoongi took your hand and pulled you both back to the car

"we're not doing this, neither of us" he spoke with the car's driver "back to the hotel please"

He hates this kind of situations as much as you do.

Hoseok:

You insisted on going with him to film their new music video, what could possibly go wrong?

Too many sounds, lights, people and hoseok being the loudest person on set, you were happy to see him happy but it was too much for your senses.

You turned pale and grabbed your head in exasperation, then hobi ran to you putting your head on his shoulder.

"baby what's wrong?" you couldn't even speak properly at this point "too. Loud" he inmediatly understood and felt bad about being to energetic.

He used his turned on mic "everyone keep it down please, no need to be this loud" then he hugged you covering your ears until someone called him to go.

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Bts reaction: they find you smoking 🚬 maknae line

(yo my English is so crusty sorry about that)

Jimin:

6pm, you always loved the golden hour, warm sunlight illuminated your face as you breathe out a cloud of smoke

A camera sound beside you broke the peace

"sorry you looked so aesthetic I couldn't help it"

He stood beside you and snatched your cigarette before it could touch your lips

"since when do you smoke??"

He let out a pretty laugh and messed your hair up a little

"baby I'm a superstar, what did you expect?"

Taehyung:

Sunday morning, you've been sketching for a while before lightning up a cigarette, everything was so calm until someone breathed out all of his smoke right in your face

"I don't know how you smoke that thing, this is way better" you collected a lot of smoke before breathing it out right in your friend's face

"taehyung you only vape bubblegum flavored shit if I wanted bubblegum I'd chew it" you turned to look at him and you saw smoke rings in the air

"yeah but I'm way cooler besides you smell like crap"

Jungkook:

After a long day of studying you stopped at a small store to get a little red box and a lighter

You could hear thunders at the distance and the smell of rain filled your nose, suddenly an umbrella covered your head

"Aish you're lucky I was near" you hugged him and continued walking beside him

"are you going to use those?" he said pointing at your ciggs and lighter

"you don't mind?" he chuckled cutely

"no, yoongi hyung smokes in the dorms all the time, he taught me the other day, want to see?"

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Bts them finding you smoking🚬 hyung line

(I've only seen negative reactions to this topic so let's give it a twist)

Seokjin:

You are a songwriter hired by big hit, however you've been having a writer block.

So you walked to the balcony of the 7th floor with a lighted cigarette trying to relax, the view was nice and not many people are on the streets at 2am.

"care to share?" a pretty voice said making you flinch

You were confused because you never thought of Jin smoking before so you hesitantly hand him your cigarette, surprisingly he inhales deeply relaxing his muscles

"try getting flavored ones next time, these are boring"

Suga:

You were at the rooftop smoking after an argument with your parents, headphones on when you saw smoke coming from a hidden section so you walked there to see who was there, cigarette in hand.

And there he was smoking just like you were a few minutes ago, teary eyes stared back at you.

He invited you to sit beside him and you gave him one of your earburs, the silence was always comfortable with him.

Hoseok:

Self care is waking up at 5am, grab a monster, ciggs and go to take a walk, so you did.

You were almost done when you saw him running to you

"cancer water and cancer stick, who would expect someone as cute as you regularly smokes like a divorced truck driver huh?"

You only giggle and he gave you a forehead kiss

"let's go get a proper breakfast okay?"

Namjoon:

Song producing was hard, especially at 4am, you've been working non-stop for hours, "fuck it" you said as you lighted up a cigarette and walked to the window completely forgetting that you weren't alone in that room

"can I have one too?"

Your eyes widened thinking for a second that namjoon would kill you right there but he was just as stressed as you were so you gave him one and lighted the cigarette while it was between his lips

"you know, when you're stressed you should try aromatherapy it's so good and I also have this amethysts on my pocket that totally do the trick because did you knew that we're like plan-"

"let's get back to work shall we?" you laughed lightly and you turned just to see puppy eyes asking for permission to talk again, you threw your cigarette to the floor and stepped on it.

"alright tell me more about that therapy or whatever"

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Types of people: bts biased

🌹Jin: hot tea, comfy sweaters, pink skies, kind souls, pink lip gloss, soft giggles, freshly baked brownies, impulsiveness, cute stickers, late night snacks.

🌹Yoongi: 2am drinks, all nighters, dark aesthetic, lazy smiles, lightheaded, red wine, skipping meals, loud music, vans, messy journals.

🌹Hoseok: dancing in the rain, laughs easily, moody, daydreaming, cotton candy and sticky fingers, kidcore, sleeping early, lemon bars, rosy cheeks, gold sunlight.

🌹Namjoon: existential questions, soft heart, conversations with plants, good grades, few but very close friends, moongazing, stressed but doesn't show it, hugging trees, antistress balls, always warm.

🌹Jimin: smell of flowers, holding hands, flower crowns, singing in the shower, shy but knows how to flirt, ice cream as breakfast, braided hair, writing on a diary, cat person, cherry blossoms.

🌹Taehyung: too many playlists, fairy lights, coffee dates, old theaters, brown lipstick, acoustic covers, cold hands, sun sets, talk a lot or nothing at all, down to earth, dark academia, cinnamon rolls.

🌹Jungkook: leather jackets, s'mores, cuddling with dogs, probably had an emo phase, singing at 3am, dim streetlights, soda cans, Disney movies, burning the corners of pages, all black outfits.

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