Phoenix Tail.

Why Phoenix Tail? Because Nganny named us that. Jubilee H., Brianna G., Ngan Ha N., & Brittni F. 050210<3

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AJ OMG I’LL TELL YOU THE WHOLE EVERYTHING TOMORROW BUT AAAAAAAAAHNSKSMDKMS WHY. —B

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WAIT

WHO IS THIS PERSON

?????

--N

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In the middle of slow dancing, you can’t just start telling me things like you wished you had met me sooner, and that you wished we had more time together, and that you’re really gonna miss me, and that you wish the night wouldn’t be over so soon.

Like

WHAT THE HELL

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK OF THIS?

—B

PS: I DIDN’T EVEN GET A FUCKING PICTURE WITH HIM AFTER ALL OF THAT KLFSJKFLJDSOKFJDSKLFJDLKSJFLKDSHJFDKSJCILA.

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I've found that...

With the end of my relationship with Nick,... So have my feelings for Vanessa gone away... -J

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I know.

I know you're here for me...but I don't want to think about it. I just want him back... -J

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Don't say that, okay?

It is not your fault. It is not your fault. Talk to us. We're here. 

EDIT: If you need some time and space, we'll be here whenever you need us. Yes...it might not be the same anymore, but you two are still friends. It's going to take time adjusting to, but time will help heal the hardships you'll have to overcome. A little birdie once told me that. 

Hang in there, love.

--N

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Why?

I trust you...I always have. You just never saw it. You never trusted my word. But that's ok. I understand.

My anger...

It's all my fault.

Why did I have to be angry all the time?

If I weren't, this never would of happened...

All my fault. All my fault...

-J

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Nick broke up with me... -I don't have to address myself

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Whoops, I just realized that I've been reblogging things on this account. Sorry!

-J

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The long version.

Because I’ll probably say less tomorrow morning so I don’t cry or anything… And let me start off with that this wasn't just his fault or just my fault. It was a chain of unforeseen events.

Sigh. Okay. So yesterday/last night we basically had a huge argument. I assumed that he was gonna pick me up for the Key Club banquet but he wasn't and when i told him this i ended up kind of lashing out at him. And he got upset because in a way, I was getting mad at him for something that wasn't his fault (and it wasn't his fault, i shouldn't have assumed such).

And today we talked after getting drinks and he said that he feels he doesn't have the time to hold a romantic relationship anymore b/c he isn't being there for me enough. And i told him that that wasn't true and that what mattered was that at the end of the day we still cared about each other and are there for each other. But he felt that he cant be there as a boyfriend for me anymore and he really thought about this for a long time last night and felt this was the best way to end it. Because we would've had to end it by the end of summer anyway and it would hurt more then.

He still really cares about me and so do i, but he admitted that he doesn't exactly feel the same way about me as he did in the beginning. We agreed that we’d still be good friends and he really is my best friend and we’ll be there for each other…its just that it wont be as boyfriend/girlfriend anymore. At least for now. Maybe in the future, we said, that we might have another chance if we want to try again/circumstances allow it, but for now we have to break up..

But the world will keep on turning. The sun will come up tomorrow. He is still my best friend, and I am still his. He is still the bagel to my bahgul. And maybe someday our paths will cross again romantically. But for now, we are best friends.

--N

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Hey.

Don't beat yourself up. He may just not know how you're feeling right now. Call him if he's free. That's what I do when I get sad and feel like I've messed up. Also, there are always going to be fights in a relationship. What matters is that you two get come back out of it together. These things can strengthen your relationship. -J

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I really messed up. I know. ): I hope you don't want to break up with me. We haven't really talked since last night, and you won't reply to any of my messages. I miss you. I was hoping we could talk today, but I really don't see that happening.

I hope you still love me. And if you hate me now, I think I understand. I was a bitch yesterday and a shitty girlfriend. I kinda hate me, too.

--N

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Good and bad news.

Sean told his parents about us. And there were very good and very bad things. The good thing, the bright side, is that they approve. That they’re okay with us dating. His mum likes me.  The bad news, is the news that makes my heart break a little more every time I think about it. The bad news is, is that they know that I’m graduating this year, and they don’t want him to distract me, so when I leave for college….we should end it. And it would be the best for the both of us, because we would only distract each other. That much, I agree with at least. I don’t want him to throw away all his hard work during his senior year because we’re distracting each other. I’m trying not to cry. But, like, it really hurts, and it breaks my heart a little more every time I think about it. But we’re going to make the most of what time we have left, we agreed to that. And that we will still be friends no matter what, when we do..have to break up. The feelings will still be there…but I don’t want to hold him back from pursuing other relationships, and neither does he for I. I asked him if when he graduates, if we could give it another try. And we know it’ll be really hard. But it’s worth a shot. As much as I don’t want us to break up at all, I’m not going to go against his parents suggestion. I love Sean, with every fiber of my being. And I know we’re still a fairly new relationship…but I do. I love him. And he makes me happier than I’ve been in a long time. But sometimes…I just have to let go.

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I need to go dress shopping soon… @ Twin & Joobs — where did you get yours?

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It’s safe to say that I like him now. ^________^ —Ngan-Ha

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It felt so nice, just to sleep in his arms. Prom was so wonderful.  Sigh sigh. I just want to relive prom again…the not-stressful part, but everything from when we first got into the limo and on. How do I deal with all these feels? x___x —Ngan-Ha

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Blaaaagh. You’re both so stupid. Okay, yaaay, you got to see each other, you’re glad she went the distance, but making her break the law to go see you? I’m sorry, that’s just really stupid to me.