blame + kuroyas. it gets me horribly that akio is the youngest, leaves behind his three elder siblings who take responsibility for him, who also desperately still hope he will come home.
additionally insp. for haruo's realisation of what the kagemoris are like from here like good god tumblr user tokkimins we are fucked . i was drafting this up when i saw that comic for the first time and fell over. haruo morality issues FOREVERRRRR . AND ALSO INSP FOR SHORT HAIR NATSUKI I FOUND IT SUPER CUTTTEEEEE
my insane kuroya notes and hc explanations that only means anything to me:
haruo got his tsugai first. he did so when he was a younger than usual, around 11-12. i'm thinking its either an accident (LOL) or maybe passed on from his adoptive parents. receiving a pair that was good for fighting accidentally sets his siblings down a combat specific route-- the kuroyas were already connected to the kagemoris, now it is just a bit more closer to the four of them
natsuki and fuyuki swap hair styles a lot lol. influenced by each other a little bit, and when their hair is down, they are mistaken for being biologically related.
despite having drawn them earlier i've changed my mind. i picture about three years inbetween each sibling, so akio 22 -> haruo 25 -> fuyuki 28 -> natsuki 31. throughout the flashback panels where they're younger, each sibling (besides haruo lolll) receives their tsugai when they come of age
the school uniform vs. kagemori bodyguard uniforms are also kind of purposeful but idk how successful i've been LOL. the more they align themselves with the supernatural/tsugai, the darker the inks get (黒!!!!!!) . also serves as a childish equivalent for what they eventually become and have very similar outfits with the school tie/sweater -> blazer and tie.
top right panel of page 3 has akio and natsuki look away. they're the two who want to get out of the clan which is so fun for me. it makes me miserable that she empathises with him after his betrayal and the whole comic was spurred on by the idea of her always wanting to have her siblings away from this life, and she feels that she failed to protect them (which is kind of like saying "i should have locked in and invested in property when the prices were low but i was busy being 10 years old)
fuyuki does not often say 'i love you' out loud. he does many other things to try to prove both his love and loyalty, but is a man of few words anyway. and is not very expressive. i think this bombs a lot of his interpersonal relationships (to me this is about fuyujin but i will not get into it otherwise the sniper will take the shot) but has kind of believed his siblings understand that he loves them regardless. this is true. but in hindsight it makes him feel miserable and horrible that he never says it outloud to anyone
for haruo and natsuki their worries are extremely situational (to do with the world around them) and almost out of their control but fuyuki's is personal. which is just fun for me because i think fuyuki is the least outwardly emotional of his siblings about this whole situation. we get to see natsuki try to reason with akio and understand why he did what he did, and haruo is the one who is desperately trying to find a way to save him. wanted to give fuyuki some spotlight since i think the only people he'd feel comfortable with to say any of this (and he doesn't say a lot!) is with his siblings who understand wholly what he is going through
kuroya sibling memories have an overlap throughout in an incorrect order. page one has a natsuki's memories with akio having a plaster that fuyuki puts on him in his own memories in p5. also serve as age identifiers, eg. haruo remembers why fuyuki (aged about 18) said he wanted to join and help the kagemoris, he has the same hairstyle as he does in natsuki's memories in the early days of first having a contract with blacklist. YAY
i think i have more points but i need to sleep so im leaving it here. lol
everyone get more weird about the kuroyas RIGHT NOW. feel as though something will happen to make some of the things i am saying non-canon but for now hold my hand and i'll lead you through my mind palace
atla doodles from the other day which I decided to properly colour since I have had way too much caffeine and I can't SLEEP- *ahem. anyway. this was fun :D
huge fan of when characters love each other and are closely bonded in an explicitly nonromantic way. however ☝️ i am very much not a huge fan of what happens when characters like this are introduced to fandom
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