closed. thank you.

closed. 

[ayeateez]

update

alright i have gone through all 4217 (i think) posts and now only 214 (215 when this gets posted) remain, and they are all fics (some exepctions of me promotions ans better than ans ent themselves🙄) so i will now be logging out, and i do not know when or if i will ever be logging back in. again, thank you all so so much for the memories you all have given me. i am so happy to be some people's favorite atiny fic writer and some people's favorite atiny, and to be one of the token yeosang stans on this app (yes i still bias him!)

i would like to say one more sorry because as i went through all my old posts, i could definitely tell how much i have grown as a person, and i'm sorry you all had to deal with 13 year old me. so, i'm sorry. but also thank you.

i will now be logging out. i will check one more time on december 16th for any dms or replies or people who want my stan twt and/or personal instagram. (only if we were close or interacted a lot). after december 16th, i'm not sure if you'll hear from me on this blog again.

thank you all for all the wonderful memories. i am logging out now. goodbye <3 (yes i will use tags to boost this incase people remember me)

[ayeateez]

thank you.

hello. it’s been awhile since i’ve last gotten onto this blog. i still get so many notifications every single day from people liking all my writing, and i appreciate that so much! but, as i grow as a person and mature and figure out what i want to do with my life, i decided that i would no longer like to be associated with this blog, as i’ve had my real first name on here as well as my face plastered all over my blog. i have not come to a final conclusion yet, but i have decided that i will be going through all my posts (yes, all 4217 posts) and deleting everything that is not a fic. after that, i’m not too sure whether to still leave this up or not, but i’m sure i’ll figure out something.

to all my mutuals and followers who supported me the 6-7? months i was active, thank you. i appreciate all your kind words (and not so kind words i guess) that were sent to me and i’ll forever remember the love and support (and sometimes lack of) i received. it was a nice time on here despite the ups and downs, but i think i’m finally ready to let go. if we were close/interacted a lot and you want to keep in contact, please message me and i will give you my twitter or instagram!

i also would like to say i’m sorry. i’m sorry for the way i handled some things, i’m sorry i basically begged for attention at times, i’m sorry for the way i handled relationships, i’m sorry for the way i acted and handled things in general. if you couldn’t tell, i was not ready/mature enough to actively put things about me and my life out on here and i didn’t know how to limit what i said and what was appropriate and what wasn’t. and sadly, i didn’t realize that and my parents didn’t realize that until it was almost too late to pull me off of here. i did and said things that weren’t the smartest nor were the most mature. and i’m sorry. i want to let you all know that i have grown these past 10 months i’ve been off tumblr and while i still have lots of improvement, i can assure you all i am a better person than i was when i first started this blog.

if you have any questions, please feel free to send me an ask or message me! thank you for all the great memories on here, i’ll forever remember the events that happened on this app. i hope you all understand my decision and support me. thank you. <3

[mashumiwu]

Hey ik your close to @ayeateez, do you know why she hasn't been active as much?

I'm so glad i have her saved in my contacts so I can ask her since I was getting worried about that too....

She's kinda restricted off of tumblr now, so I don't think she'll be coming back soon, which I was kinda sad about because I won't be able to see her awesome writings anymore :(

But yeah, that's basically why she isn't active anymore

[ayeateez]

mtl to listen to classical music?

MOST

hongjoong

seonghwa

yeosang

san

jongho

mingi

wooyoung

yunho

LEAST

hongjoong, seonghwa, and yeosang def seem like the most to listen to classical music tbh. hongjoong as a composer himself might get a few ideas by listening to classical music pieces, like maybe getting an idea to use a violin or a cello for a solo in a softer song, like a ballad. seonghwa and yeosang are classy men with style, so i just have this big feeling that they like to listen to bach or mozart every once in awhile.

i feel like san, jongho, and mingi would listen to some classical music sometimes. idk. they’re just... in between. like, sometimes but never too often.

wooyoung and yunho respect classical music, but it ain’t their type.

[ayeateez]

mtl to run a youtube channel

MOST

seonghwa

yeosang

hongjoong

yunho

mingi

wooyoung

san

jongho

LEAST

seonghwa, yeosang, and hongjoong definitely seem like they’d run a youtube channel to me. seonghwa has said he wants to have an asmr channel and i think san did too. yeosang would probably run a mukbang channel reviewing different chickens and sweets and food and it’s be so adorable🥺🥺🥺 hongjoong would probably show people how to write lyrics, how to produce, and post covers on his channel. i can just see it so well.

yunho, mingi, wooyoung, and san would maybe run channels as duos. yungi would def run some type of prank channel where they lose more braincells and do more dumb shit. so would woosan, but they’d do more of like “reading fanfics” and “reading thirst tweets” type of things where they embarrass atiny lmaoo

jongho probably wouldn’t run his own channel and just appear in the others channels every once in awhile. but if he did he’d probably just post workout videos or dumbshit his hyung’s do lmao.

[ayeateez]

@ 🐧 anon, i’m working on ur request i’m just very stuck atm, sorry!

[ayeateez]

The Hunger Games AU - Part 3 - Finale: The Final Fight

GENRE: Angst

PAIRING: None

WARNINGS: Major character death, sexual harassment, mentions of murder, weapons, and just harmful things in general

WORD COUNT: 3182

It had been days since Seonghwa died. It was miserable. I was too familiar with this feeling, I wanted it to stop, I wanted it to end.

Knowing the same man who killed Seonghwa was coming to my district today made me sick. I wanted to throw up, I wanted to kill him. He deserves it.

I’ve learned how to live with the blood on my hands. It doesn’t mean I still don’t get nightmares, or that I don’t feel bad, it means I can deal with it. Hongjoong had been so cocky on his tour, meanwhile I couldn’t even speak properly.

Keep reading

[ayeateez]

Distance Between Us - Choi San

YOUTUBER AU

WORD COUNT: 7166

GENRE: fluff <3

WARNINGS: fluff overload, cussing, my cringe writting

Who was Sanshine? And why did this username keep appearing in my comments? I just decided to brush it off and continue scrolling, but there were barely any comments about the video I had just posted, they all just said Sanshine. 

I just decided to ignore it and continue with my night. 

Keep reading

[ayeateez]

i might do the same thing i do in bts and have an ult bias, another bias, and then my wreckers just in ateez tho-

[ayeateez]

hand holding - kim hongjoong

(bulletpoint)

OKAY SO

holding hands with this babie would just be so cute

i feel like he’s someone who loooooves to hold hands with his s/o

like 25/8

any chance he gets, he’s holding ur hand

like if he’s at the studio working and ur next to him ?

he’s holding ur hand

if y’all are eating dinner and sitting next to each other ?

he’s holding ur hand

if y’all just laying in bed or watching a movie ?

he’s! holding! ur! hand!

and it’s just so sweet and cute

bc like it’s known that hongjoong has smol hands and tbh that’s adorable🥺🥺🥺

ugh who doesn’t wanna hold hands with joong

but like every time he just kinda snatches ur hand and laces his fingers with yours and gives you that cute sly smile each time

n like he’ll rub his thumb against your hand and he’ll adjust his hand often so your palms and squeezed together tightly

this adorable smol man will WHINE if you refuse to hold his hand so u better hold his hand

or else he’ll be telling everybody like

“y/n wouldn’t let me hold their hand :(“

and he’ll be like

“hold my hand!!!!!!!! >:(“

n like he’ll make lil grabby hands towards u with a cute lil pout on his face

so like

u better hold his hand

holding hands is his favorite type of affection that he can like... give (?) in public bc it’s simple and it’s not anything crazy

and like if y’all are out and your hands are full or something he’ll just put his arm around your shoulders or around your waist idk

but he def prefers to hold ur hand

back to the studio thing

hj works vv hard but that also means he probably gets frustrated and stressed easily

and he likes having you there to hold his hand as a way to tell him to calm down and to breathe and to think

tbh sometimes you can’t tell if he loves you for you or for your hand lmao jk

but idk it’s just comforting to him

and he likes to hold hands when it’s sleepy time are ur all snuggled up in bed

he likes the position where he can spoon u but also reach over to hold ur hand

he just likes holding hands okay!!!!!!!! we don’t discriminate!!!!!

in a nutshell: holding hands with this lovely man otherwise he will be a sad boi and a sad boi is not a good boi

[ayeateez]

[10:15]

a sore throat and a sniffly nose was just the best thing to wake up to. you turned to face seonghwa, only to see he wasn’t there. it was a sunday, so he more than likely had work off. you usually could tell if he was home by the smell of a yummy breakfast, but your sense of smell was basically dead.

throwing on sweats and hwa’s hoodie, you made your way to the kitchen, for there he was, cooking breakfast.

sneaking up behind him, you hugged him from behind and rested on his back, enjoying the closeness and warmth of your boyfriend.

“well good morning to you too” you could hear him speak, the vibrations of him speaking slightly tickling your face. you hummed as a response and he stopped whatever he was doing.

“hun, are you sick?” he asked, turning around to feel your forehead, but not before looking at your adoringly in his hoodie, although he’s seen you wear his clothes plenty of times. sometimes you wonder how he could immediately tell if you were sick or not, but that’s probably just his motherly instincts.

“nonono, go back to bed sweetheart. i’ll be there with some things in a minute” he sighed, opening cabinets and pulling things out.

“but i’m fine-“

“you’re not fine, go back to bed. i’ll be there in a few” he said a bit more sternly, and arguing with seonghwa while he was in mother mode was kind of a bad idea. walking back down the hallway back to the bedroom, you slipped back into bed as you waited for seonghwa to appear. and well, he eventually did after a minute or two.

“okay, so this should get rid of the achy-ness and the cough, i’ve got this thing and honestly i don’t know what exactly it is all i know is that it helps get rid of stuffy noses and-“

“seonghwa i’m fine”

“anyways, i’ve already started on the soup, and i’ll bring all the blankets from the living room to here and then we can cuddle all day. got it?” seonghwa continued but didn’t even let you respond to him before he walked out of the room again. sometimes you question if he’s your boyfriend or your mother.

[ayeateez]

[13:49]

“san, stop that!!” you yelled at your boyfriend as he dumped another bucket of water on you. after not hearing a response from him, you turned around only to be thrown over his shoulder.

“choi san, put me down!!” you screamed, the bucket the was once full of seashells now has reduced by more than half.

“as you wish”

you could hear the smirk in his voice as he tosses you into the water. the impact was harsh yet soothing on your back, but as soon as you went to check your bucket full of seashells, it was empty.

san was doubled over laughing until he saw your pouty expression.

“my sea shells...”

“aw, don’t worry, we’ll get you new ones” he choked back his laughter, but adored the way you cared for your seashells.

[ayeateez]

bc i’m bored and uncreative... requests are open!

[ayeateez]

[23:47]

wooyoung knew something was off after he not so secretly broke into your apartment for the hundredth him with the key you gave him. what he didn’t expect was to find you laying on your bed, tears continuously falling down your cheeks.

“oh my god y/n...” wooyoung approached you quickly, instantly wrapped you into a tight hug.

“baby what’s wrong? what happened?” he asked. you let out another choked sob.

“w-wooyoung-“

“shhh...”

“p-please... j-just hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright... please”

[ayeateez]

[20:08]

“seonghwa?”

“yeah?”

“do i disappoint you?”

seonghwa stopped running his fingers through your hair and looked away from the tv to his lap, where your head laid. the shock and worry was prominent in his eyes.

“b-baby no... no why? why would you ask such a thing?” seonghwa’s voice wavered, now scooping you up into his arms.

“w-well i just... with everything that’s happened recently i-“

“baby no, it’s okay. well, i mean it’s not okay but it’s okay to make mistakes as long as you learn from those mistakes. even though it’s been two days, i can tell you’re learning quickly, even if it’s just around me. you’re doing fine” seonghwa held your face in his hands, making sure you didn’t break eye contact while he spoke.

you could see seonghwa’s heart shatter when a tear rolled down your cheek, and he was quick to wipe it away with the pad of his thumb. he kissed your nose, and then your forehead before bring you into his chest. you sighed, being comforted in his embrace.

“this year will get better, i promise”

[ayeateez]

[22:20]

“i can’t... i just feel horrible about it”

“i know you feel horrible about it, but that doesn’t fix your situation now does it?”

“i know..”

“so, what are you going to do about it?” seonghwa asks, sitting next to you while handing you a cup of steaming hot tea. you take a small sip, careful not to burn your tongue.

“i don’t know. i can let it surpass?” you shrugged, mind too clouded to think of anything.

“well, then you’d be attacked and as an older brother, it’s one of my duties to make sure that doesn’t happen. even if you fucked up like right now” he sighed, fingers tapping the side of his cup a few times.

“well, what else can i do, then? ask for them back? hwa, that’s worse” you chuckled.

“i wasn’t going to say that, and yes that’s a horrible idea. i still can’t believe you’ve done this”

“hey, it could’ve been worse...”

“you’re not wrong. try to take your mind off of them, even if you’re not in any pain. a break up is always hard for both sides, no matter what or who is hurt more. i hope you learn from this” seonghwa ruffles your hair as he leaves you sitting in the living room, alone.

“i hope so too...”

[ayeateez]

[21:09]

you leaned back against the headboard, throwing your phone further onto your bed, sighing. you can’t believe you just did that. yeosang was a fragile boy. everybody knew this.

at first it was a joke. then it wasn’t. it made you so sick to your stomach, having the boy believe that you too, were in love with him. you were disgusted with yourself, not knowing how much longer you could unintentionally lead him on. of course he was destined to find out sooner or later the longer you kept it from him.

[yeosang]: is it true?

[y/n]: is what true, babe?

[yeosang]: that you don’t love me? that you were just leading me on?

[y/n]: oh... yeosang...

[yeosang]: well? is it?

[y/n]: yes but... just not like that

[yeosang]: did you actually ever love me?

[y/n] no...

[yeosang]: then why? why did you agree to be mine then?

[y/n]: i thought i did. but after hours, i realized i didn’t. but i couldn’t take my words back. i didn’t know when to say it, how to say... i was going to.. i just didn’t know when

[yeosang]: well congratulations, y/n. everybody knows and now i’m being called a loser. are you happy? are you happy with yourself, y/n? are you happy knowing that all this time i thought we were so in love with each other and that we were inseparable? are you happy knowing you’re the reason i’m now broken? are you happy?

[y/n]: yeosang... none of this makes me happy... why would i be happy? why do you think i’m happy about the fact that i lead you on and broke your heart because i was too slow? why would i be happy that you’re being humiliated?

[yeosang]: because you’re a fucking asshole

[y/n]: yeosang...

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