The Underived Formula

@ayrasalvador

Simple but sophisticated. 17-year old student who loves art - dance, music, fitness and photography. There's more to that, but maybe you can stalk me on other social-networking sites. I am usually very happy at some point in time then depressed the next hour. I can't understand myself so this blog really is one hell of a roller coaster of emotions. Also, I often have problems between this account of mine and my weight loss blog whenever I post something. IF YOU'RE A FITLBR, FOLLOW ME THERE INSTEAD: Journey To Be Fit. I am more active there. Thank you so much.

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animalsnaps

feeling sad? look at this baby animal blog!

animalsnaps

cutest posts imaginable!

You don't know how much I wish I knew how to decide for myself.

But this is who I am and I make bad choices - and I don't know how to prioritize myself before others.

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Being suicidal doesn't necessarily mean you're holding a gun to your head.

Sometimes, it means smoking a cigarette in the hopes that you’ll get cancer and die. Or jaywalking across the street without looking, because you don’t care if you get hit by a car. Sometimes it means having sex with a stranger, hoping you’ll get an STD and die. Or not sleeping and not eating in the hopes that the exhaustion will kill you. Or even not washing your hands in the hopes that you’ll get sick and die. Sometimes it means being cruel to the people you love or ignoring them, because if they leave you’ll have less reason to go on living. Or not setting your alarm for work, so you’ll get fired and have less of a purpose. Sometimes it means partying hard in the hopes that your liver will fail and you’ll die. Or putting yourself in dangerous and potentially painful situations, so maybe it’ll be the last straw. Being suicidal doesn’t necessarily mean trying to die. A lot of times, it means not putting any effort into living.