azom

TALKS ABOUT HIMSELF TOO MUCH neurotic degenerate wreck, red punk with strong opinions smashes with hammer, squeaks like dog toy 17

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tiktok: @/krmlkino

telegram: cucumberkaramelkimo (I’m logged out as of now, I will change the name when I get back)

strawpage: azom.straw.page

discord: azom.bie

airbuds: alxi.o0

pronouns.cc: azom_bie

if you want to see anything that isn’t spouting bullshit, please look at anything not tagged #text post (for example: #image post or #my art)

facts:

I have severe anxiety, low empathy, and sensory issues, I am immoral, and I am neurodivergent.

I am voidpunk.

I also like Psychonyashki, I just don’t put it in the intro because i don’t like the community on TikTok

I draw with Procreate on my iPad, Magma on my phone, and I edit with CapCut

use of my art (besides vents) is fine with credit

i do requests and trades

messages are fine, spam is welcome, you can draw my characters or designs (w/ credit)

I spell america with a k on purpose

DNI

racists, homophobes, transphobes, xenophobes, misogynists, misandrists, radfem, etc.

proship, radqueer, and related identifiers

under 13

heavily religious

«zoos», «MAPs», «necros», etc… any pro-contact harmful-philiacs

politically right-wing

anti sw

18+/21+ only blogs

pro-war, war-neutral, pro-genocide, genocide-neutral

if you are 14 or under and consume adult-oriented content (hazbin, helluva, psychonyashki specifically), I am going to block you. This is very uncomfortable for me to interact with because I can tell your immaturity and do not want to be associated with it whatsoever.

I block freely and respect fringe identities, please do not interact if you do not. also, I like comments in batches, so if you’re an 18+ account, sorry! I’m not going on your profile, you see.

tags

#azom’s cuties (keychains of joe and igor)

#azom’s saves (posts within communities)

#almost writing

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I am very unwell, I think I’ll stop posting besides art for a while

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it’s not a good idea to sit around chemical fumes for a while. my head hurts very badly and I nearly threw up

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more (mostly me) under cut

I am quite happy with the claws despite somehow not noticing that there should have been five (I realized there was another slot when I got home lol). Been wanting something like that for a while, tried with finger picks for guitar, but they go on backwards. Might try to find another set for the other hand.

Centipede has a friend, I am an insect whisperer

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I don’t like buying physical books because it’s unnecessary and I usually just use internet archive, but I want to be a piece of shit and carry citr around with me (actually, it’s just a book I’d probably flip through even when not rereading, im not pretentious)

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Went to the bookstore and realized

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the newest Russian music censorship stuff is finally reaching me and god, it’s annoying. I forgot about it so I didn’t download anything + it would probably take up too much space on my phone, sigh, more artists should switch distributors and many probably will but still

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artfight attack for my friend finnzospinzzo yup

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my mother killed my plant :( mostly :( again :((

[beatlamentsworld]

everyone talks about how holden caulfield isn't meant to be liked but while i was reading the book i never resented him or found a reason to, if anything i just felt sorry for him. he's a depressed, suicidal teenage csa victim who's still mourning for his brother who died from leukemia. he broke his hand after punching a window and to this day he can't properly make a fist, which could symbolize how he could never truly get over allie and it became a part of him. the passages where he talks about allie are incredibly realistic and gut wrenching and they really make you feel for him. i feel like having to deal with the loss of someone he loved so much was another reason why he was afraid of change, which is why he loves museums because the exhibits are always the same. it's only you who changes. you can return anytime you'd like and you'd be in the same environment. it's the same thing with how he said he likes carousels because they always play the same song.

when people call him an incel it's such a character assassination. he gets so worried that stradlater would assult jane to the point where he feels physically ill and can't stop thinking about it. he remembers small things about her, like how she keeps her kings in the back row when playing checkers because he loves her as a person. when stradlater doesn't care for holden's request to ask her about if she still keeps her kings in the back, it's implied that he sees her as an object and nothing more which infuriates holden and holden literally starts a physical fight with him over jane. in the flashback scene he gets on jane's lap and kisses her all over her face when she starts crying and goes to the movies with her afterwards even though he complains about how phony they are.

he does hire a prostitute but it's because he was so depressed that he didn't know why he was doing the things he did and even then he didn't want any sexual favors from her, he just wanted someone to talk to. that's how lonely he is. he clearly despises "macho" men and says the difference between him and other guys is that he stops when the girl asks him to and they don't.

it's not that holden hates everyone, he clearly has a lot of love in his heart. it's just that he's become cynical and closed himself off because of all the trauma he had that he doesn't know how to navigate. so he runs.

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I don’t like buying physical books because it’s unnecessary and I usually just use internet archive, but I want to be a piece of shit and carry citr around with me (actually, it’s just a book I’d probably flip through even when not rereading, im not pretentious)

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oh wow I wasn’t trying to post on catcher’s 75th anniversary im just goated like that

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oh man, tomodachi life reminding me that I didn’t draw for another birthday. I’m a loser, I’m so sorry!!!! Maybe next year I won’t be busy with school prep.

In other news, there’s an LWAZ video essay… I need to watch it. With a translator, blah. I have been thinking about making one for a while but my computer is only now being fixed again after two years of it being completely useless save for a few weeks last year. Maybe I’ll still make it, and I’ll speak, in English, who knows…

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sorr y I really like catcher and I just wrote an essay about it two days ago along with four others one of which is about my personal experience with war and I really wish I didn’t have spellcheck on right now so you could understand what I’m typing like

I love holden caulfield and it makes me sick and also my pain meds aren’t great so I’m in a sad and annoying mood and if you hate him then I hate you back

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any catcher in the rye fans in the year of our lord 2025

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I'm so sorry in advance

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Hold on…Holden Caulfield…

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I don't smoke cigarettes but i swear to god I need one when I'm talking to most people about The Catcher in the Rye. No, that 16 year old is not the spawn of satan. He is not a bad person either. Yes, teenagers are still children. Yes, it is heavily implied through his behaviors, thoughts, perspectives, fears, and compulsions that he was sexually assaulted, even if there isn't a chapter where Holden says out loud "I was assaulted." Yes, it is anti-war. Yes, it is actually commentary on world war 2. Yes, it is actually that deep, and that is why it has been remembered & celebrated & read for this long. They wouldn't make you read this book multiple times in classes about important literature during your formative years if it wasn't at least a little important.

Yes, Holden Caulfield's ideas are hypocritical and self-contradicting. No, that does not mean he is a bad person. Everyone is contradictory, and if you aren't, you should become more nuanced in general.

Yes, I am aware that Holden describes himself as being an incredibly sexual person, then freaks out at the mention or thought of intimacy. Did you see the part where I said that he was implied to be a survivor of childhood sexual assault? Yeah, this is one of those parts that's supposed to make the CSA plotline click in your mind. Did it click? No. Is that J.D. Salinger's problem? No. Are people who experienced CSA more likely to understand Catcher than people who haven't? Yes, because the novel portrays Holden's trauma incredibly well. Is Holden "just an immature selfish creep" because he's fixated on childhood and laments the inevitable loss of innocence that could happen to anyone at any moment? NO. ONCE AGAIN, READ THE PART WHERE HIS KID BROTHER DIED UNEXPECTEDLY & HOLDEN WAS SEXUALLY ABUSED AS A CHILD.

The book makes more sense when you actually read it, I swear to God.