I read this in a book and it completely changed the way i look at myself.
Maybe the reason you don't want to lose weight enough for the process to be simple is because you feel pressure to be thin, but not desire. Maybe, in other words, you kind of don't care that much, really. You think you look pretty good, even if every magazine in the world says you're a fat cow. Maybe you think, yeah, still. So the wiser section of your brain that would rather be learning Italian keeps throwing cupcakes at you while you pan fry your blocks of soy protein in oil substitute. Decisions are beautiful. They are evidence of though and care. Decisions are the polishing cloths of life. There is absolutely no shame whatsoever in deciding you'd rather spend your life paying attention to something other than the weight of your physical body. There is no shame in deciding you look fine just as you are. Or even better than fine. There is no shame in deciding to just be fat. - Augusten Burroughs
