bring me that horizon

im emma. forgot i owned a tumblr

[joeinct]

Sequoia Roots, Mariposa Grove, Yosemite National Park, California, Photo by Ansel Adams, c. 1960

[theallart]

Andy Warhol, “Hammer and Sickle with Vibrator”, 1975

[ginger-ale-official]

C

[ginger-ale-official]

Cummunism

[stability]

its weird how different your life could be if people found you more or less attractive

[australiansanta]

why do babies need twice as much sleep as us like they literally do nothing all day shouldn’t it be the other way around fuck babies

[httpbrokensblog]

I'm only beautiful to you when I'm convenient. I'm the only one you "love" talking to when you have no one else around. I'm the one you "love" when you have me drunk and naked at 3am. I'm the only one you care about when you're bored and alone. I'm never going to be good enough for you. I know that. But here I am risking everything I have for you, and you're only "loving" me when no one else is around.

[lisettescreemo]

[textsthatiamtooafraidtosend]

I hate how I am always willing to be there for my friends but they never reciprocate. I will drop everything I am currently doing to help them. I’ll stay up all night, drive for hours, buy them things, yet not once would they ever do any of that for me. Half of the time I only ever hear from them when they need something.

When I reach out for help, silence.

But then again, I cant really blame them. I wouldn’t want to deal with me either.

[br-o-ken-poetry]

Them: Hi-

Me: Do you secretly hate me am I annoying am I a terrible person am I ugly do I come across creepy in any way or make you uncomfortable is my voice ugly am I a good person do you mind when I message you do you really want to talk to me or are you just being polite am I too clingy is my laugh annoying are we really friends are you sure it's okay for me to sit next to you am I annoying am I-

[lisettescreemo]

[textsthatiamtooafraidtosend]

I dont think you should be my friend anymore.

I'm not a good person. I can never seem to do anything right. I'm always being a disappointment to others and always getting in the way of others.

I desperately want friends. To not feel so alone all the time.

But honestly, do I even deserve it?

[worthless-misery]

I don't want to wake up again.

[worthless-misery]

I can't get you out of my mind.

I still love you.

And it hurts so much...

[silently-screaming-insidee]

I don't deserve to be happy.

[worthless-misery]

I shouldn't be here anymore. I should've died years ago. And yet here I am, in 2020, still wishing I was dead, just like every year.

Nothing has changed. Everything still hurts the same. I still want to die.

[lisettescreemo]

[lisettescreemo]

[cassaleia-deactivated20220423]

i’m sorry for being such a burden