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@badrcmance
badrcmance - penned by amethyst, 25+, she/her
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evelyn adding interest to a promise she'd made before everything else went down wasn't anything less than sasha would expected from the woman. they both knew she'd do anything to see her outside of work, and getting her to cook for her obviously meant it probably would turn into another night of them going to bed together, so it had made sense. "i wouldn't mind having a kitchen this nice to myself, but if you think i'm about to be in here acting like rachel ray without me forcing you to come in and help sometimes, you're wrong." she taunted. "and there better be good wine, or tequila, stocked up too if you want me cooking." after all, she certainly couldn't make it through cooking a full meal without a drink in her hand — it was the only way slaving over a hot stove was tolerable for her. and this would be different from cooking for her friends or just for herself, so the extra incentive would just help set the vibe. it was also how she knew her other plan would work, and as soon as she could feel the heat radiating off of the older woman's body, sasha knew she'd succeeded. taking in evelyn's question, she decided against a verbal answer, deciding to refocus on the house. "so far, this kitchen has me sold on this house, but let's see the rest." she agreed before gently pulling herself out of evelyn's grasp to follow the realtor. "this is such a big space for just you, ev." she commented back, even if she knew the woman would have her there as often as sasha would allow. stepping into the dining area, it was still a huge space for one, or even two people, but she figured if evelyn wanted to host anything here, it would be suitable. "you could definitely host your family here, or maybe even a friendsgiving. oh maybe even watch parties for the extensive amount of reality shows i'm about to force you into suffering through." she would have stuck to the family angle but since she didn't entirely know what evelyn's arrangement was with her folks, she figured she'd leave that open to discussion later. the realtor smiled at them as evelyn questioned the specifics of the house before motioning for them to follow to the living room. "this house has four bedrooms, or three and an office, and three and a half baths." she answered as sasha pulled evelyn along. "now, the living area is designed as an open concept great room. flows seamlessly to both the dining room and the kitchen, has the vaulted ceilings, and gigantic windows that let the perfect amount of sunlight in. you mentioned hosting here, and you could pretty much utilize this space as a means of everyone still being connected whether they're over in the kitchen or at the dining table. or, if children were on the table, birthday parties and sleepovers would give you ladies the peace of mind of being able to keep an eye on everyone from any point down here. one of the full baths and the half bath are down here too, so all of your guests could be kept downstairs." sasha's eyes widened at the mention of children, a line they hadn't, and wouldn't, be getting to for a while, she would assume. but she just nodded along anyway, not wanting to make the woman think she'd overstepped some imaginary line. "honestly, i think you could set this living room up like a movie theater: get the largest flat screen you could find, a comfortable u-shaped sofa, and a large coffee table that could serve as a great place to set up snacks. it'd be perfect."
the woman chuckled before reassuring sasha, "trust me. i'm not like some husband who'd banish you to the kitchen and leave you to it, i'd be more than happy to help." being sold on the kitchen, evelyn knew she had to see everything else before she jumped to any grand conclusion. she knew that majority of homes had a couple things that weren't pleasant about it, but she hoped in the market she was buying in, that wouldn't be an issue. hearing sasha's comment, she let it go in one ear and out the other. she knew the space was normally too big for one person or even two, but when she was set on something she didn't let it go. "oh no, we're already planning on reality show parties?" she groaned playfully before nodding, "i mean i'd be up for that and yeah...family can visit if they'd like." evelyn's relationship with her parents weren't the strongest bonds ever. she loved them deeply but separating herself from them when she went off to college was one of the most liberating experiences. it took nearly decades for them to accept her. the two of them being from an even older generation was like communicating to a brick wall about what they deemed as her 'problem'. taking a few steps around the dining area evelyn was impressed. this home was already an upgrade from the house she shared with natalie which was perfect. that meant she was only moving towards bigger and better things. listening to the realtor explain a little more about the house, evelyn felt her eyes widen and her eyebrows perk up at the mention of birthday parties and sleepovers - something children had, which she had none of. "i really love the natural lighting the whole house seems to get. the house would be perfect for hosting guests - i like to deem myself as a great host so there's another positive check-mark on my list." she chuckled before nudging sasha's arm, "i'm kind of surprised interior design wasn't your career choice. that sounds like a great set-up." gently kissing the top of sasha's head she commented, "you see why we had to wait for her...she really does have exquisite taste." evelyn smiled back at sasha before the realtor commented, "they're certainly not bad ideas. she's really helping me too. we could make a great team, you and i." evelyn glanced to the side and quietly went, "hm." clearly jealously wanted to erupt inside of her but she knew the agent was being kind. "if the whole house is as impressive as the rooms we saw, i am going to be sold if the backyard is even better." without thinking about it the realtor nodded, "oh the backyard is the best. we have to save that for last. there's a ton of room for gardening and there's a pool. which can be a little bit of a safety hazard for the kids, but there's a lot of space where you guys can have a small playground set or even more areas for toys." evelyn chuckled not believing the woman had mentioned kids once more, "we don't have kids, so the pool safety is nice to know but it doesn't affect us too much." she didn't even know if sasha wanted to be a mother, the two of them never discussed that far into the future, even though they probably should have. the way they were rolling with things.
unfortunately, monty wasn't as cutthroat as she wanted to present herself. going off on her own softened her a little, and she was always desperate to please the worst people. if she didn't have cagney, she was sure she wouldn't be in the place she was. "i don't know how well i could pamper you. i'd probably try and then you'd turn it all around on me and somehow i'd be in the custom robe set, and you'd be running the place!" she laughed, because it was true and because monty often pictured things as if her life was a sitcom. it was kind of the only way she could get through life. "what? cagney doesn't even want me around. she would not try to fight you for time with me!" no, cagney would be excited to see someone that she had fond memories of. or, well, the ghost of fond memories. monty knew that her daughter was basically a porcupine when it came to feelings, but she knew her mom and she could see her eyes soften when she spoke about the past with evelyn. "she'd probably thank you. she'd probably tell you to keep me forever so i don't keep showing up at tournaments that don't count for overall scares." grinning, she watched the familiar area come into view. "i'd like to hang out with you and catch up." her voice softened, she wasn't joking around anymore. not hiding behind trying to be funny, or sarcastic.
TIME JUMP
"she reminds me of you...a lot. she makes the same cute mischievous faces as you. and god, she definitely got that sarcastic attitude of yours." evelyn hummed quietly to herself. being able to see cagney really put time into perspective. time was unfair, she was robbed of all of the memories that she could have partaken in. a little part of her blamed monty for that, but what could she do about it now? nothing. she was grateful her daughter seemed to have loved her, the reunion evelyn never imagined happening in a million years. let alone cagney actually being stoked about seeing her, regardless of being so young when her and her mom left the city.
tracing her fingers along the desk evelyn nodded her head, "not a bad business you have going on here monty. who knew you'd be able to take charge and run a place." a small chuckle came from evelyn before she teased, "because from what i remember...you always had to follow my lead. i guess i rubbed off on you quite a bit hm?"
she couldn't blame evelyn for being mad at her. but she could blame her for not choosing to trust her when she'd never lied to her once before-- which she didn't do either. "i didn't think you actually wanted the physical proof, but, you're welcome." she just gave a short nod. if there's one thing jada wasn't, it was a liar, so she went above and beyond to prove that. "no, it's.... i get it," she shook her head. "i won't," she promised, turning to look at the woman. "yeah.... i like you too," she stated.
"great," she smiled warmly. evelyn knew she'd have to eventually dive into her feelings for jada soon - the way she was starting to become even more territorial over the younger woman. "you like me in what kind of way though? as a friend? partner?" she raised her eyebrows in question as she proceeded to push more, "what do you want from us jada? do you see something more serious unfolding between us? i mean for fucks sake, you got a restraining order on the other woman in your life and that leaves me." evelyn sighed softly as she played back all of their moments in her head. clearly the two of them were inching towards something more serious, but the older woman couldn't admit that to herself.
“that she’s hot? i should hope so. otherwise she might need some help with her self esteem,” natalia snorted playfully, putting two and two together slowly about who selene was eluding to but opting not to press her on it just yet. “now. see, how do you know she’d say no? she might say yes, if you actually ask her.” she prodded, taking note of the unease in selene's tone and trying to lighten things a little bit.
"because i know her natalia. i know how she operates and i've played all the scenarios in my head, even if it works out...eventually she'll get bored of it, of me." selene sighed and it must have been very obvious she was speaking directly to her, about her. normally she would be saying everything she wanted, selene usually didn't hold back but how could she be so willing to possibly ruin such an amazing friendship. maybe this was part of a new chapter she needed to start, "but you don't think about dating women right? it never crosses your mind so why would i change any of that?" she confessed.
unlike evelyn, sasha could at least fake it until this tour was over, and the realtor taking her hint and heading for the kitchen was exactly how she'd wanted to handle this. they were here to see the house, so they needed to get it done before they worried about this work bullshit, in her opinion. as soon as she followed the other woman into the kitchen, she seamlessly concentrated on the countertops first. she couldn't recall when or how she became intrigued with the interior designs of houses she didn't own, but this was why she'd agreed to tag along in the first place. walking over to examine the appliances, which were proof that they had remodeled and installed new stuff instead of just tossing the old shit back in, she smiled over at the realtor. "this is a gorgeous kitchen! thank god whoever designed this had the sense to match the wall backsplash to the color scheme of the counters." she praised, because truly this could have turned out much more hideous if someone tried to throw too many colors together and it all clashed. she was so busy admiring the layout that she'd momentarily forgotten about leaving evelyn clearly dumbstruck until she felt the hand on her, and at the woman's question, she gently nudged her. "probably." she whispered back before quickly turning back to the realtor to try and persuade evelyn to drop this for now. as soon as the woman suggested that this kitchen was perfect if they liked to cook, sasha smiled. "well, she works entirely too much to cook often, but this would be my ideal kitchen to cook in." she teased, and knowing the best way possible to try and get evelyn from freaking out, she spun around to face her. "i do still owe you a home cooked meal, remember?" she hadn't forgotten about it even all this time later, so it would be perfect to do it in a kitchen that hadn't once been shared with evelyn's now ex-wife. "and then you can lay me out on this island and have me for dessert." sasha whispered, figuring if nothing else would get her attention, dangling sex in her face would surely do the trick.
evelyn's eyebrows furrowed as she looked at sasha, but she did her best to smooth out her expression. comparing the way sasha looked when she first walked into the house to now gave evelyn a small bit of confidence to try taking it easy. maybe hr was investigating them, but she didn't have to assume the worst outcome. bringing herself back to the reality of the moment they were in, evelyn nodded her head in agreement. the kitchen was lovely and it was very much her style: very chic and modern. "i think you owe me more than one home cooked meal," she teased, trying her best to shake off any negativity that lingered in her head. "i kept a little bit of interest intact on that deal, but i'm sure you wouldn't mind having a brand new kitchen to yourself." evelyn wasn't against cooking, but her schedule didn't leave her time to really whip it up in the kitchen as often as she would prefer. the weekends were her only real time to wind down, but even then she tried filling her free time with sasha. the younger woman had been upfront many times that she refused to be a second thought to evelyn. she knew better than anyone else how easily evelyn could disappear into her work, so evelyn was going to make sure she didn't damage the relationship they were slowly building together. evelyn's felt her face heat up when sasha whispered, "oh yeah?" was all she could get out before she whispered back, "is part of the house hunting imagining spots to fuck in?" she teased with a small smile before clearing her throat noticing the realtor clearly letting them have their moment. "so is the kitchen a winner?" the woman asked and evelyn chimed in, "it's great, so far so good. she definitely has a better eye than me, so if she thinks it's gorgeous i'll follow suit." the realtor told them to follow her along and evelyn did just that before commenting to sasha, "can you imagine late night dinners around that island? i think it'd be pretty nice." coming into a separate room for the dining area, her eyes took notice at the size of the space and the realtor clearly had the same thought on her mind. "i know you said you love having a big space and the homes i've found are typically more suitable for families, but if you love to host things this space is perfect for it. there's nothing wrong with having space in a home, gives you more excuses to go shopping and decorate." evelyn chuckled before asking, "how many rooms and bathrooms does this house have again?"
sasha knew that evelyn was essentially an expert on reading her now, so the second the woman questioned whether there was a rush, she knew where this was going. the other woman would put everything aside to find out what was wrong and how to fix it, even with a stranger standing there with them, but she wanted to be respectful of the realtor's time. they also didn't need to bring their issues to the doorstep of this lady's job, so when she intervened, sasha quickly shook her head as she turned to her again. "it's fine, you don't have to rush and show us the house. take your time and do your thing." she suggested, and considering that they were looking at houses for evelyn, she was merely just there as a plus one and shouldn't be in the way of them seeing this house at whatever leisurely pace realtors usually went for. she was also aware that both she and evelyn had gotten themselves into this predicament, so it wouldn't be right to take their drama out on an innocent bystander. glancing back at her lover now, sasha appreciated the concern, but all she could muster up was a forced, crooked smile in response. "i'm fine." she lied, and her voice going up in pitch was a clear indicator that she was lying, so she figured it didn't make sense to keep it up. "or as fine as someone can be when hr ambushes them on their way out of the office. but..we're here to find you a house, so we should conquer that first." not that they had a knack for doing what they should do, but the last thing she wanted to do was start panicking in the middle of a newly remodeled home and leave the realtor thrown off by whatever was happening here. "okay, can we start with the kitchen first? if there's no marble countertops, i'm already ruling this one out." sasha teased, her attention having gone back to the other woman in the room so she could try and get evelyn to refocus on the task at hand.
when sasha casually dropped the news that hr had called her in, evelyn felt like her heart sank to the floor. there was an uneasy blend of curiosity that lingered in her mind, but she was also terrified to hear more. however when sasha dismissed it to continue looking at the house, evelyn felt like she didn't know how she'd maintain all of her questions for the end of the tour. she was honestly caught speechless, watching sasha interact with the realtor like nothing left her a bit stunned. maybe she was being respectful of the woman's time, but she was able to have that settle down. the fresh new made evelyn raise her eyebrows, "what the hell is happening?" the mention of countertops made her stop in her tracks as the two led ahead before she quickly caught up again. the realtor went on and on about the home, how she made sure it checked off evelyn's wants. "you're just in luck because the kitchen does have beautiful marble countertops. there's a lot of space in here if you ever need an extra pair of hands in the kitchen." evelyn let one of her hands fall to her hip as she looked around the kitchen area. she was actually impressed with the size, but in the back of her head she was concerned about hr approaching sasha. she didn't know how word could get out like that besides grace giving a small lead. stepping closer ot sasha, her hand fell at the small of sasha's back. she came closer to try whispering under her breath, "are we in trouble?" evelyn needed to know if they were taking a very serious point, if they weren't she could finish off this tour to wait for bombarded question. not wanting to completely ignore the agent, she did comment, "the kitchen is very beautiful, it feels really spacious and i love that." the realtor responded, "well if either one of you like to cook, i know this is a dream kitchen to many others." evelyn grinned to be polite, she hand let her hand off of sasha's back. "i can't get that off of my mind," the reality of their happiness started to kick in. consequences they knew were possible, were starting to come to light.
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arriving at the address evelyn had sent her, sasha had to exhale a deep breath as she climbed out of her car. coming back from the conference, she'd been on cloud nine given the way things had played out between the two. they had at least established that they were going to explore this the right way this time: with no wife and no ex-boyfriend in the picture, thankfully. she'd also spent every night of the trip in evelyn's bed, and the older woman didn't hold back this time either, so she'd come back home and back to work in a rather good mood. that all changed when human resources called her into their office just before it was time to clock out. they made it clear that evelyn didn't know about this, and that they were just investigating a claim someone had made, yet it felt like an interrogation as far as sasha was concerned. being cornered like that triggered something inside of her, and once she denied everything and was allowed to leave, she made her way to the house tour as planned. yet now that she was here, her excitement for helping her boss find a new house was shattered, and part of her just wanted to go home and sulk. it was too late for that, however, so she just attempted to pull herself together as she walked into the house. spotting the realtor first, she greeted the woman as warmly as she could before she turned her attention to evelyn. "i need to talk to you after this, so can we get started? i don't know how these tours work but..i'm ready, i guess."
evelyn's love life was starting to morph into everything she had been wanting for the past few months. not even long ago she felt as if this version of her future felt almost impossible. the way sasha set up boundaries made her panic, she didn't know if the other woman would ever forgive her and finally she did. their relationship had deepened - they finally crossed a level of intimacy that helped evelyn uncover new emotions for sasha. evelyn was suspended into a bliss so strong that she couldn't imagine anything pulling her down. finally evelyn was starting to tour homes, she was slowly inching towards getting rid of all memories of natalie and they made her excited. she knew once her old home was out of the way, sasha could start staying with her and the two of them could hopefully further their relationship. patiently waiting with the realtor she stood there talking about how amazing sasha was. she asked the agent to not mention it when she arrived because she didn't need a whole speech about how obsessed she was, she just wanted to make it known that sasha was an amazing person - as she emphasized she was hers. turning her head quickly when she heard another pair of footsteps, she greeted sasha with a bright smile before nodding her head. "oh, i mean yeah we can talk but it's not a rush is it?" she could clearly tell something was bothering her. the two of them had been all lovey dovey, so her entering the home with almost a cold shoulder felt like a small punch to the gut. the realtor butted in, "i won't be too long, i promise. i am sure the two of you will love this home, the space is newly renovated and there's a lot of good perks this home has." evelyn glanced at sasha and quietly asked, "are you alright?" she didn't know if this was an appropriate time to ask, but there was a certain look displayed on her face.
sasha could tell from the sparkle in evelyn's eyes that the woman was surely about to amplify her compliments, the way she gazed at her, and all of her cheesiness all around — which meant she'd be blushing nonstop in response. there was no way they'd keep this a secret at work for long, not at this rate with how smitten they were now that they were clearly dropping the boundaries and making this something exclusive, so they would probably have to go to human resources once they got back from this trip to inform them about this new development. how they handled everyone else finding out, she didn't know, but one look at evelyn and people would be able to tell anyways. "trust me, i know." she teased. "you were too busy being obsessed with me, and making time just to take me out, so i figured you didn't have time for your wife, me, and another mistress." after all, the woman had no time for work, and more than the two women she'd been balancing, especially not when she'd been finding ways to spend more time with sasha, so she was aware of that fact at least. as evelyn explained her line of thought when packing for this trip, it added to the confirmation that this was why the woman had wanted her here so badly. "so basically, you didn't want me to get here, change my mind about the boundaries, and you not be prepared?" she didn't blame her, especially with how quickly she'd folded already, so evelyn had obviously made the right choice. raising a brow as she sat up and just gawked down at her, sasha's face started turning a bright shade of pink as she took in the compliment. "are you always going to be this in awe over me? i'm not complaining, and i'm flattered, but there's no way you'll be able to hide this when we get back." she knew evelyn would argue otherwise, but it was clear as day as she was pulled into yet another intense kiss. once the older woman rolled off and laid next to her, she smiled as she turned onto her side as well and snuggled up into her, draping an arm across evelyn's body. "so cheesy, but yeah, i think i'll sleep like a baby tonight." not that sasha struggled any other time, yet tonight was bound to be a much more peaceful sleep if nothing else. letting evelyn get one more compliment out, she waited until she'd finished before kissing her once more. "okay, you're not gonna sleep at this rate if i don't stop you right there, so no more flattery. we have to be up early for this conference bullshit, so close your eyes, and let's sleep."
the word obsessed was how sasha liked to describe evelyn. the older woman would dismiss it as an exaggeration, something that was laughable. however hearing it over and over again, she found herself wondering if it were true. she'd sit back and think about the feelings sasha would give her. the thoughts she had about sasha when she wasn't even around and it always clicked to her. she was obsessed. she wouldn't call it a dangerous obsession though, it was a playful and harmless one if anything. she didn't see any issue in praising a woman - she knew sasha loved it, so she didn't plan on stopping any time soon. "i'm still too busy being obsessed, but look where that got us." the two of them laying naked together with no real prying eyes set on them. "that'd be correct sasha," she chuckled quietly loving that her plan had worked, despite a few obstacles they had to encounter before getting to this point. her fingers lightly caressed sasha's bare skin before she teased, "it sounds like you're complaining just a teeny tiny bit about me being in awe of you. i mean if we're able to do as we please after work hours, i think i can handle myself. i just have to hold my head a little low when i'm around you in the office." evelyn knew that was easier said than done. her eyes glued to sasha like a hawk, even when she was doing her best trying to ignore the beautiful woman. "if my eyes find you, blame yourself for that. who told you to be such a magnet hm?" her eyebrows raised in question. the weight of sasha's on draped on top of her earned another smile that she couldn't seem to wipe off her face, however dramatically evelyn groaned. for a second she buried her face in the pillow before peeking back up at sasha. "you know, most people would be over the moon to receive this level of admiration. and yet here you are, cutting me off - silencing me, god." her tone was obviously playful, teasing the other woman knowing it'd get some sort of reaction out of her. "but i won't say you're wrong...this conference shit is going to kill me tomorrow, especially knowing i have a hot date for dinner tomorrow." clearly not listening to sasha she let another compliment roll off her tongue, "i just like being here with you. it's hard to shut my brain off when you're so pretty." letting her arm find sasha's lower she rubbed it slowly before giving in, "fine. i'll go to sleep now - i mean close my eyes pretending to sleep as i lay here thinking how lucky i am." evelyn knew she must have been killing sasha and it amused her even more, "goodnight baby." softly her lips pressed against her forehead as she snuggled her head closer to hers.
she stayed framed in the doorway a beat too long, as if distance alone might keep the words from hitting her square in the chest. a dead end, she had called it — two syllables that tasted like gunmetal. if it was such a dead end then why, was the truth hell hot, why had she chosen this dress instead of the bullet proof vest? why was her pulse thumping against a gold necklace so fine it could snap at the gentlest tug of evelyn’s hand? she forced her feet to move. closer, until the light pooled over both of them and elara could see the faint salt shine beneath the other womans lashes. “he built an empire on fear. “i have been trying ... failing — to rule it on something cleaner. respect. order.” words came out half to the room and half to the memory of her dead husband glaring down the back of her eyelids. a bitter laugh ghosted her mouth. “no one tells you those things still want their pound of flesh. i just don't want it to be your flesh." she lowered herself onto the couch’s edge, hand wrapping around evelyns. "if i make you go, you’ll resent me until resentment looks a lot like hate. and if you stay, someone will try to carve leverage out of your skin. tell me which wound you want me to live with.” gaze drifted to evelyn’s mouth, cataloguing details she’d memorize if the world ended tonight. she could almost feel the slide of silk against her ribs as she leaned in. almost hear the inhale she would take when intention turned to action ...
a faint smile crossed evelyn's lips, though it carried no trace of amusement. the smile demonstrated pain and disbelief. the realization that they had let things spiral out of hand that led them to conclusions neither of them wanted. paths that ended with destruction, no matter what they decided to do. the warmth of elara's hand made the woman land her gaze upon hers. the small gesture of comfort meant more to evelyn than words could ever express - that's why she showed her longing in action and now that had to come to a halt. "i wish my answer was simple. i wish i could walk away," that was the truth. she knew if she was strong enough to walk away, they could go back to their separate lives and stop worrying about the other. however that was only an offer a perfect world could give, but perfection was a stranger to their situation. the world they created together demanded caution, calculating every move they made together. they already let too many moments slip through the cracks and now people were beginning to notice evelyn. they could see the lust that presented itself in her eyes. noticing the way elara was leaning in closer made evelyn's body shift closer to the other woman. "can i ever hate you?" her question was rhetorical. her breathing felt like it had stop the more she inched closer. "if you have to live with a wound no matter what...i'd rather the wound come from me staying. at least the pain would mean something more than just hate. the pain would show how i was able to have you for a little longer." softly pressing her lips against the corner of elara's mouth, she exhaled slowly before leaning her head back. "let them carve leverage out of me. i don't want to live in a world where you simply don't exist. i couldn't ignore you and that's danger within itself. i wouldn't know how to keep away from you." evelyn sat there feeling like she could feel her heart beating louder now, "i hate how we let us happen. i really fucking do elara, but we're past that. i can't just let all of my feelings go."
open to: w or nb, 30+.
plot: evelyn and your muse are best friends or exes. you can come up with why your muse is ignoring evelyn or you can lead it in the direction where evelyn hung out with her best friend's ex, evelyn cheated, or she backstabbed in them any kind of way.
"can you please just talk to me?" evelyn sighed as desperation crept into her voice. the silence was unbearable. after all of her calls and texted were ignored, she had no other choice but to drive to their house hoping to catch them in person. evelyn hated when shit fell out without any explanation or sense of closure. she needed answers. "i won't accept your silence as an answer. i need you to tell me what you're feeling...what's going through your head?" she said firmly, though the hurt beneath her words was impossible to mask. she sat in her car as she looked in the other's direction, "i really want take no as an answer, i'm sorry. i know i fucked up, but you have to believe me - i didn't want to hurt you."
as evelyn shot right back at her, jada just stuck up her hands in resignation and sighed. clearly that wasn't the right approach, and jada hated feeling like she was walking on eggshells for something that never even happened the way evelyn was assuming and not trusting her enough to believe what she'd said. "look, i already said i was sorry, and clearly nothing else i can say is gonna help, so.... i don't know what else you want me to say here." she sighed. "i'm trying, okay?" at the snarl, jada just wordlessly looked at her, since there was nothing she could say to that. it was true the woman didn't exactly need her, but hearing it almost shouted in her face stung somehow more than she thought possible. not one to get kicked while she was already down, most of evelyn's next words went in one ear and out of the other as she hardened her nerves. picked up the bottle and refilled the woman's glass. she was surprised the woman had even still had a please in her after everything she'd just said, but she didn't have time to dwell on it as evelyn brought up the restraining order. "i dumped her almost two years ago, and i met you basically a year ago. so that was at least a year in itself, but the harassment was.... maybe the last six months." she explained. "we're in my apartment, and my laptop's here. i might as well just print it now, i guess." she stated, pushing herself up and heading to her laptop to print it. the printer across the room came to life, and seconds later sheets of paperwork were popping out of the top. "there's your copy." she was still in disbelief she'd actually wanted a copy, but nonetheless she did it.
"i'm not looking for a different or another apology. i know you're trying but i'm trying to understand why this affected me so much," and all that anger come outward towards jada. sighing softly, evelyn she listened to her explain the timeline of events. throwing more whiskey back no words fell from her mouth the entire time. instead her eyes followed jada around her apartment when she took matters into her own hands, until she handed her the copies of the restraining order she had on her ex. scanning the documents with her eyes, there was a relief she felt in her chest. she finally felt more comfortable to breathe properly, "thanks for these." setting the papers down she felt as if a light switch turned on after knowing jada was being completely honest with her. evelyn hated liars more than anything. a lie wasn't just a lie, to her it was a huge sign of disrespect. knowing jada didn't disrespect her in that way made her bring the softness that she had acquired for jada over the last few months. "i'm sorry. you have to see why it'd drive me insane," with the loads of work coming in, true coming back into her life, and this on top of everything made the older woman spiral. "don't go filing one on me too alright," evelyn teased before scooting herself closer on the couch. at first she kept a big distance but now she was more willing to be close to jada. "i react the way i do towards you because i like you."
“well damn,” jada blinked, a little stunned by the woman’s boldness, but nonetheless she didn’t flinch. she had a backbone, and she’d realized she needed to start using it— she just didn’t think she’d have to use it with her own boss. “you do realize you’re kinda undoing the whole getting past it we just spent however long doing in your car, right?” she sighed out of mild frustration.
“you hate to admit it because you’re obviously still mad at me, you mean?” she decided to challenge her wording as she poured herself some tequila and knocked it back. “i’m just doing my job. which is to make your job easier.” she stated with a small shrug. she wasn’t exactly sure how to go about conversations while evelyn was obviously still resentful of her when all jada was trying to do was make things right so she would stop being so resentful. “what’s inappropriate about your assistant working out of your office?” she challenged. she hadn’t really worked an office job before, mind you. but she saw no issue in it. as evelyn ordered her to stay out of trouble, she just furrowed her brows, then shook her head. “considering i filed a restraining order on her, you don’t have anything else to worry about there. do you want a copy of the paperwork too, as proof or something?” jada hummed.
"at least appreciate that i'm somewhat forgiving you. we've been separated the past few weeks, my anger isn't just going to fly out the window immediately." she sassed back at jada. "just because you can bat your pretty eyes at me doesn't mean they'll persuade me in any kind of way," but they did. clearly they worked well enough to have evelyn suggest going back to jada's.
finishing off her glass faster than she expected, she set the glass down on the table near them. raising her eyebrows, she didn't know if jada made the job comment as a small jab. "you know i was doing just fine without having an assistant. i don't need you." she snarled. evelyn felt as if jada took a jab at her ego and clearly it caused a reaction, "it's inappropriate because people can perceive that as clear favoritism. if i'm not in the office, but you are - it'll overstep authority and there's confidential things i have in that office and on my computer. you might help me with a few things, but there's a lot i manage myself." taking in a small breath, the older woman tried to bring herself back down. she knew she was getting riled up over nothing. "i need another glass," she reached for her glass and handed it back to jada. "please?" the one nice thing she was able to utter. then her eyes went a bit wide, "restraining order? so how long has she been trying to come back here that you've gathered enough proof of harassment?" now there were more loopholes than she expected. how could she have missed the little bitch coming back, or was that who was texting and calling jada at all times. "i need the proof. you can print out a copy at my place later."
it almost felt foreign having evelyn in her apartment, although she wasn't complaining. "whiskey on ice, coming right up," she grinned and headed to pour out a glass, then put some ice in, unfazed by the quickness of the response. things were going well... at least until evelyn chimed in about her ex again. "jesus christ, ev," she sighed and rolled her eyes at the remark, but didn't bother wasting any breath on it. jada had made sure her ex didn't ever leave a single thing in her apartment so she never had a reason to come back, she'd filed a restraining order, blocked her number, the works. "wait, what?" she blinked. "so you were just gonna go off on your trip and not tell me if we didn't make up?" she didn't blame evelyn for it, but knowing that the woman was her boss and it was her job to know these things so she could better serve evelyn while the woman had withheld that information mildly annoyed her, but she shrugged it off. "watching me like a hawk now, huh?" she snorted in mild disbelief. "well.. i mean, do you want me there? because i can just work from your office if... you know."
"yup," her answer was simple and she still didn't see what the problem would be. "i was going to leave you stranded here while i enjoyed myself at a beach. i thought you'd prefer me gone anyways. you wouldn't have to sneak around," evelyn sighed. she knew they were supposed to be past that, but it was still fresh in her head. if she were to be honest with herself, it was more than likely she'd never drop it and any inconvenience would trail her back to those accusations.
thanking jada for her glass, she took a good sip of it before wiping her lips with her tongue. "i do want you there...as much as i hate to admit it, you're a big help when it comes to work. i love when things are organized and ready to roll-out." bringing the glass to her lips again she took a smaller sip before saying, "i don't want you alone in my office. it'd just be highly inappropriate. i told you, we have to get you your own space at work." there were things in there that she didn't want jada to find, probably. she also didn't know any of her employees making assumptions about the two of them. "make sure not to get in trouble with me again or else i will cancel your reservations and make you work from home when i'm gone."
seeing the gears turn in her friend's head-- a state she knew all too well when selene was trying to lie her way out of a question, natalia's eyes narrowed slightly. "you sure?" she pushed a little, not trying to pressure, just get to the bottom of things. as she listened to selene explain, she nodded. "hm. well, is she hot at least?" she hummed.
"she is hot, i'm more than sure she'd agree with me too." adjusting herself in her seat, she tucked one leg under the other before shrugging. "i don't even have to try asking or confessing any kind of crush to know what her answer would be. you know me, i hate humiliating myself. i think that would immediately send me over the edge, so why bother right?" she tried to laugh but she was more than sure natalia could hear the shakiness behind her tone.
ava wasn't sure what she was expecting to come out of evelyn's mouth when she heard the other woman had something to share, but it certianly wasn't what she got. for a second, it froze her up. just a brief second. the kind not even someone as close to her as evelyn would notice, but ava did. it was a deep, bone sort of freeze, one that struck inside the deep nerves of her chest and the bones at the center of her fingers and said danger--and not the good kind. the good kind of danger was the kind that came with risk and reward, pleasure and satisfaction, chasing highs like she had since she was too young to be doing it. but real danger, the kind that truly terrified her, was the kind that tempted her into soft places, places she couldn't go, places that got everyone hurt.
evelyn coming back to town was one of those dangers. almost specifically becuase she was exactly who ava wanted to spend her free time with, exactly who ava wanted to tell that her marriage felt suffocating in the worst possible way, and worse yet, exactly who ava knew who could get that softness out of her. despite all of her best efforts to keep it away. she didn't give ava that fear though. instead, she gave ava a wide, genuine smile, the raise of her glass like a toast before she sipped it. "now that is news. i can't imagine why i'd hate it. having you back? getting to do this? is there a reason to hate it that i'm missing here?"
raising her glass shortly after ava. the woman chuckled and shrugged her shoulders. why did she think ava would hate the news? was it because in the back of her mind she remembered all the hurtful things ava had told her in the past? she knew it was the drugs talking, but there had to be a bit of truth that lingered behind all of those confessions. one of the confessions that ava told her she was overbearing and she needed to get the fuck out of her life. evelyn knew she could overstep, but she only did that when she cared about another individual. she knew ava wouldn't fall back into those habits, yet there were new things to worry about with her. that being the relationship she managed to get herself in - to which evelyn had several bad opinions on. "maybe you're going to hate how often i try arranging dinner or shopping plans?" evelyn said with a smile. "i know we're both busy majority of the time, but i wouldn't mind taking my head out of work to see you more often." setting her glass down, her own hand wrapped around her arm. her eyes rested against ava as no words fell from her mouth, she didn't know what she wanted to say. there was so much to say, but she knew all of those words had to be in a vault forever. "i hope we can at least arrange something once a week...it'd be really nice." evelyn knew there were other people in the city she could occupy herself with, people who'd beg to have her presence around them but she didn't care about giving them that thrill. "if i have to steal you away from michael, i will."
time jump
less than an hour later, there jada was tugging evelyn up to her apartment. the older woman had been right— it really had been a long time since she’d been to jada’s place, after all usually it was her summoning jada to her apartment next door instead. “i probably should’ve cleaned up a bit but i wasn’t expecting company.” she chuckled. her place wasn’t even that messy, at least until you got to the bedroom. her own clothes everywhere sprawled out over the floor. glancing back at evelyn as she locked up, jada shrugged. “do you want something to drink? i have tequila, wine, whiskey… i can’t stand beer so i don’t drink that shit.”
evelyn wasn't a stranger to jada's apartment, but she certainly wasn't over as often as jada was at her place. jada had practically been living with evelyn, the two of them were so inseparable at a point jada only went back to grab more of her clothes. evelyn didn't mind it until her ex decided to show up that one night - that's when she made sure they stayed apart from one another.
"i'll take whiskey on ice," she replied a little too fast. her eyes wondered around her apartment wondering if she could catch a small glimpse of her ex, if that bitch purposely left anything behind to have a reason to come back. lowering herself down on her couch, evelyn couldn't help but make a smart ass remark. "god, i hope this isn't where the two of you decided to fuck." propping up her arm, her leaned her head against her hand before nodding her head slowly. she wasn't able to catch anything out of the ordinary, "oh yeah, i was supposed to notify you sooner but with everything that happened i didn't get the chance. i have to go away for a work trip soon and i already made the reservations in the mind set that i didn't need to bring my special assistant with me." turning her head towards jada she shrugged, "maybe that was a mistake. i think i need to have you by my side to watch you at all times," she said it with a small smile but was dead serious. "if you want, i can go ahead and book the trip for you."
