pennies under my champagne

i wanted to be one of those people who have streaks to maintain - who scorch the ground with their intensity. but for now, at least i knew such people, and they needed me, just like comets need tails

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📱 | camila ⇄  lauren

[ Corners of lips tug into a smile that her face starts to numb unable to control the unexplained happiness she's currently feeling. Being this happy almost scared her because it was so unusual before she met Camila. The teasing falls naturally between them as she tugs her bottom lip, delaying a proper answer.]

Lauren: I did, but I wouldn't want you to think I'm easy for anything.

[ Emerald hues squints as she brushes her nose against her fingers, trying to stop the blush that was slowly creeping its way to her face even though no one was around to see it. She takes a deep breathe and pauses, longer than necessary and let's the line fall silent for a few seconds or so before she clears her throat.]

Lauren: I've been thinking about this recently.... We had our struggles but lately I feel like we're in such a good place at where we're at right now.

[ Another pause was being dragged and Lauren had to press her lips together to stop herself from smiling.]

Lauren: I think our foundation...though it was a little rough at first is stable enough...now. I wasn't always the biggest fans in making commitments but everything else going on, I feel like it's time.

[ Words were said softly, but a serious tone carried to it. A much needed break was made to take a deep breathe, before releasing it slowly, making a dainty hum sound.]

Lauren: Will you..Will you...be my date for AMA?

[Camila takes in every word of Lauren's entirely, never the best at expressing her own, the thought of reciprocated feelings made her heart beat out of her chest. She's in love with her, and has never felt more confident.]

Camila: A girl against commitments, huh? How did I get so lucky that you've changed your mind?

[It’s the second time Lauren's asked her accompany a red carpet and Camila acts as if any part of her needs a second to think. Her lips press together so a light 'hmmm' is her only reply, head tilting towards her left shoulder for her own emphasis.]

Camila: Lauren Jauregui, are you asking me to go public with you?

[The idea perks Camila up immediately and through her surprised tone, enthusiasm is superior.]

Camila: Of course I'll go with you. It's hard to believe you're even asking me to something as huge as the AMA's and all I've ever taken you to is a photoshoot

Camila: I want to see you.

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📱 | camila ⇄  lauren

[The smile on Lauren's face was close to being permanent her face starting to hurt by how much she was smiling but she didn't care. She was happy which was rare that's why she's willing to grab every inch of happiness given to her. Tempted to scream on top of her lungs how much her now lover meant to her, she composes herself with little dances of victory, joy and gleefulness, she couldn't contain how thrilled she was.]

Lauren: Who knew you were such romantic. I'm not exactly certain when I fell for you but what I'm sure is that my feelings for you are not going away soon. I just wish there was a better way I could have showed you how I felt and feel right now.

[ A sigh that carried a bit of sadness was released as she emerald eyes disappeared. With fame, popularity came with a prize of having their sense of normalcy being taken away. Lauren would pay to have a little bit of normal, just for today. ]

Lauren: You weren't entirely wrong. I had a feeling she was using us again - like she always had. Keana had always been.... a safety blanket of some sort. She had always been the made reason why the relationships after her never quiet worked.

[ Laying it all out, she bit the insides of her cheeks at the new information not a lot knew about. Her relationship with Keana has always been a factor, since they were labeled the IT couple, it soon became part of her career - publicity wise.]

Lauren: But for what its worth, she had never come close to making me feel things you have.

[ Genuine and honest she added, in a softer tone. A smirk gradually morphs at the idea of Camila being her girlfriend. The idea alone made her heart flip.]

Lauren: I don't know..does it?

[Exhaling a laugh, she teases, her nose scrunching lightly as she felt her cheeks heat up]

Lauren: Camila?

[Subconsciously Camila chews on her bottom lip at the thought of Lauren with her ex-girlfriend, for a moment she's caught up in her own world, zoning back into Lauren's voice just as she finishes her sentence.]

Camila: I trust you Lauren, and I trust your decisions. It's gotten us this far. We both know that this is going to be hard -- distance between us has always been hard, but we have something worth fighting for.

[Camila's lets the line fall silent just long enough for her to eventually crack a smile at the sound of Lauren's laugh. She misses her in every aspect.]

Camila: I asked you. After all, aren't you the one who always says you make the decisions?

[Sarcasm, as most times, is present in her tone.]

Camila: Yeah babe?

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📱 | camila ⇄  lauren

[Corner of her lips curve upward and for a moment, the world ceased. Those words were thrown thoughtlessly to her many times but this was actually the first time that it meant something to the hopeless romantic singer. Droplets of tears started escaping from virescent hues that she didn't bother to wipe off. It was one thing to read it from a text, it was an unworldly feeling hearing Camila actually state those words.]

Lauren: R-Really? Do you.. Do you really mean that?

[ A lightness sparks in her chest as she questions shyly, her voice close to a whisper as her lips trembles. She waits for a few seconds for a response but couldn't stop the huge smile from creeping in her face. Camila was hopelessly in love with her and she felt the same way]

Lauren: I love you too - like a lot. GOD, I freaking love you, Camila Cabello. You have no idea how much or how long I've been wanting to say that.

[Her head shaking as she laughs at herself. It was so unlike her to be so uncanny but somehow Camila always brings this side of her]

Lauren: If you tell anyone I cried when I told you I love you, I'm gonna deny it. What we had with Keana was nothing compared to what I have with you that's why you have nothing to be jealous about. What we have is special, you're special Camila.

[There was something bout Lauren's reaction that calmed Camila, often dauntless, her words left her mouth with ease. She has felt this way for awhile now, her feelings for Lauren concealed in more ways than one, the weight on her shoulders was lifted, she was finally free.]

Camila: I've meant every word I've ever said to you. I fell for you the first night we met and a little more each time after that. Every time I look into your eyes, each time I'd see you after weeks of being away, how much I miss you right now. I don't need any more confirmation than that.

[Her tone reflects a mixture of enthusiasm and solicitude, Camila would kill for her fingertips to feel her skin, for her lips to express the feeling she couldn't possibly transcribe into words.]

Camila: I know, and I'm sorry for getting mad over her. I just hate the thought of someone else having you the way I do, especially when I can't be there to remind you that you're mine. I didn't mean to make you cry, even if they're happy tears

[Camila bites her tongue to silence herself for a moment, this was her reality even when it all felt like a dream. She cocks an eyebrow at her thought before saying it aloud.]

Camila: Does this make me your girlfriend?

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📱 | camila ⇄  lauren

Lauren: Give me a reason to stay then

[ A smirk falls on her lips, her tone light, playful yet longing. The stick between her fingers is now trapped between her lips, husky voice slightly muffled due to the action.]

Lauren: Of course I miss you. One minute you were here and now you're gone. I miss you when I laugh or something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is bothering me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other; for those were some of the best times of my life.

[ She hopes those words were enough to match Camila's earlier admission. Tossing what was left of her stick, she flicks it off the street and watches it fall ungracefully. Gaining the courage to be more open, something they both clearly need, she exhales and wait for Camila to process everything she had said.]

Lauren: How was that? Did I pass?

[Occasionally Camila found bliss in solitude, an empty hotel room giving her the freedom to say, and do, whatever she pleased. Her voice held no restrains in spite of the pout rested on her lips, if Lauren wanted a list of reasons, Camila would happily oblige.]

Camila: I'm pretty sure I've given you a reason to stay every single time my lips have been against your skin and yet you never have

[She listens carefully, Lauren's words sounding like art. She's always admired her articulated thoughts, convinced she'd gotten lucky falling for someone with her amount of passion, a writer.]

Camila: Lauren Jauregui, I'm hopelessly in love with you

[She admits, carelessly.]

Camila: You'd pass if I was able to kiss you right now. But since you're a thousand miles away, and I can't, you get a free pass

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📱 | camila ⇄  lauren

Lauren: [Emerald eyes look up, blinking a few times as she releases the thick cloud of smoke from her mouth leaving her a little light headed. A wave feeling emerges not one who was used to this intensity of being strongly attached to someone, she hesitates, ponders if she was willing to risk what could be the most painful heartbreak from the owner of the husky voice on the other line.] You don't know how many times I wish I could just stay with you and never leave [ A hand runs through her dark locks as she leans against the railing. If there is one thing she hated it was arguing with Camila especially when they were already hundred miles away. Grinning to herself, she tips her head to the side playfully letting the sound of Camila's voice flood her ears] Have I told you how much I love your voice? While we're at it, you should sing for me. As I recalled, you called me for a reason.

Camila: So don't leave me, baby

[The long distance game was one she played well, and when it came to Lauren, she knew how to play her cards right. The pet name rolled off her tongue like silk and she had high hopes it wouldn't leave her unfazed.]

Camila: I didn't call to sing to you, I called to hear how much you've missed me and how badly you want me there right now

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📱 | camila ⇄  lauren

Lauren: [Lauren patiently waits, and picks the phone up from the first ring, a chuckle leaving her lips at the first words she heard on the other end] I think I can deal with you being mad at me and missing me at the same time [A smile slowly grows as she makes her way outside into the balcony, balancing a phone in one ear as she lits a cigarette graciously with the other. A moment of silence passes as she takes a dramatic drag of her cigarette, letting out a sigh] I wish you were here...

[The sound of Lauren's voice soothes Camila in what she proclaims the second best way possible, fights normally leading to one girl between the other's thighs, she settles for the rasp that enthralls her. Tranquility on the line as Lauren's inhale can be heard, she pictures the times she'd end up shotgunning the smoke as she was pulled in for a kiss.]

Camila: That makes two of us

[Camila's hesitant to speak knowing what originally initiated the call, she doesn't want to take her words her back as much as she wishes she could save them. Tone in her voice softer than usual resulting from uncertainty.]

Camila: How many times are we going to say we miss each other before we stop leaving?

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[Lips pressed tightly, a smile being suppressed as her forehead scrunches as though she was in deep thought yet a teasing smile surpasses as she sang her reply. "Maybe just a little." Familiarity seeps through her as a thought sheds her some light of what it would feel like to be in a relationship again. The idea doesn't scare her as much anymore only makes her yearn for something she can call home. Pulled from her thoughts from a voice she had missed, the memory encourages a smile as she takes a sip of the best wine money could afford. "I still want a personal copy. Something I can take home and enjoy. Besides, I want to see if they caught some of the hickeys I placed on you." Excitement filled emerald hues at the prospect of going on an event with Camila. With all the rumors spreading around it was being taken a photo with the one person she deeply cares about was a welcome change from all the lies spreading around. "No, I want you there with you. I want you to experience what its like dating someone famous." Nothing but pure practiced confidence left Lauren's lips as she internally smirk. She didn't want Camila to know how excited she was getting to walk on the red carpet with Camila. Something she had been looking forward to ever since Camila played an important role in Lauren's life. "I've never been on a date before," she admitted shyly, vulnerability sipping in. "The people I've with...most of them were for press and some of the relationship I had...didn't seem like it was necessary to go on dates. This is..This is actually the first formal date I had and.. I have to say, I'm glad it was with you."]

[Camila nearly rolls her eyes at her response, her eyebrows narrowing in attempt to take Lauren seriously, but instead she can't help but laugh. Her grin lasting way too long, Camila could feel the heat building at her cheekbones, the first time she'd felt euphoric in a long time, somehow the feeling always lead back to Lauren. "Right. Well then I can't wait to be your date," The brunette's tone matched Lauren's, eyes darting from the rim of the champagne glass to the emerald pair across from her. "And see my name plastered everywhere for the very first time." The reality of the situation settles in and leaves butterflies in the pit of her stomach, she'd imagine being with Lauren one too many times and suddenly she was agreeing to their first public appearance. What would usually leave her crippled with anxiety under her exterior left her eager for what was to come. Hanging onto every syllable that left Lauren's mouth, Camila once again tries her hardest to mask the smile that takes over her features to no avail, her upper body leaning toward the center of the table in attempt to get closer to the Latina. "Those people were really missing out." Camila's lips purse amidst her sentence, struggling to piece together how her past lovers hadn't fallen completely head over heels at just a glimpse of Lauren like she had. "You deserve someone who shows you off and isn't with you just for the publicity it'll bring them." Camila's nervously choosing her words around past relationships on both their ends. "Someone who loves everything about you. Something genuine." She ends with subtle shrug of her shoulders, endeavoring the chance at getting to call Lauren hers.]

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📱 | camila ⇄  lauren

Lauren: Isn't that why you love me? Because I make you laugh?

Lauren: Por favor, mi amor.

[Camila doesn't reply to the texts, instead, she waits a few minutes before giving into Lauren's request. Upon the dial tone ceasing, she speaks before Lauren greets her. ]

Camila: "Just because I called you doesn't mean I'm not still mad at you. I wanted to hear your voice."

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💬    text:  lauren jauregui   .

Lauren: Shes's in the other room sleeping. :)

Lauren: I like yours better

Lauren: Please call me. I wanna hear you say it.

Camila: You're really funny Lauren

Camila: That doesn't make me want to call you..

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💬    text:  lauren jauregui   .

Lauren: I might need something to help me forget what you said.

Lauren: Some nudes would be nice.

Camila: A please would be nice

Camila: Ask Keana :)

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💬    text:  lauren jauregui   .

Lauren: I don't know whether or not I should find your sarcasm sexy or annoying? Probably sexy though.

Lauren: I didn't. We stayed in the same hotel and I came home, alone. Is it odd that I find it weird justifying myself to you? Don't get me wrong, I don't hate it. I just never had someone who cared as much as you did. Like, genuinely cared.

Lauren: I never agreed to anything by the way. She broke up with me out of nowhere. There is no PR relationship or whatnot. Either sides just like to get something out from us seen together and even I didn't agree to any of that.

Lauren: Wow. What'd y'know. Camila Cabello. One of the most stunning women in the industry actually loves me. If only she would say that to me face to face.

Camila: Of course I care about you, Lauren. We wouldn't be having this conversation right now if I didn't. I care about us, whatever we are

[.....]

Camila: Can we just forget I ever said anything?

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[Overwhelmed by Camila's presence, her focus remained on the girl that had her eyes set on the small digital screen in hand as a smile creeps within the corners of her lips. The artist tries her best to hide her fluttered state due to the complement with a eye roll as she guides them both back in the table she had set up. "You always make it sound like I have a dozen in line waiting for me back home, it might surprise you but I don't." She admitted genuinely and just in time for waiters to arrive with their food. Lauren was thankful for the cold weather so she could have an excuse as to why her cheeks were burning up so much. Unable to think of a reply good enough, she pulls the seat for the model and plants a quick kiss on tan cheeks just because she can. "When did you become so charming, I thought that was my job." She said with a bashfully smile, looking down at their meal in order to distract herself from staring at Camila too much. "How was your photo shoot? Will I be getting a copy personally signed by you?" She teased, pouring herself and Camila's some wine. "And I don't want to pressure you by any means, but I was wondering if you're still up for VMA's. I know you have a lot going on, so I won't get mad if you'd say no." In reality, Lauren was a little nervous about the idea of being publicly out with Camila, and after things went down on them the first time the last thing she wanted was to risk whatever they have established at this point. "Can I be honest with you?" With a deep breath, she asked not sure if this was an adequate question for this type of things.]

[Camila tilts her head in response to Lauren, the girl piloting the pair as she's left pondering just a step behind, never has she meant anything she's said towards the other in a negative manner, but for the first time, she could see her words coming across that way. The brunette's eyes light up at the sight of a set table, topped with petals and candlelight, she swears she's somehow stepped into a Nicholas Sparks novel and for a moment, it leaves her breathless. The feeling of Lauren's lips against her skin draw her back to reality, and Camila can't help the grin pulling at the corner of her lips in result of pure and utter joy. "I guess we must really like each other, huh." She breaks her small amount of silence with sudden realization, she's in love with Lauren and for the first time she's admit it. Shaking the thought, Camila glanced across at the girl across from her, the tip of her tongue gliding across her bottom lip as her eyebrows raised in amusement. "Considering what happened in the dressing room after the shoot, I'd say you already got your personal copy." Camila teased, attention drawing to the amount of wine filling to the brim of her glass. She'd almost forgotten about the invitation to the awards, postponing her answer by taking a sip of her drink. "If you're sure you want me to come, then I'd love to. We could always skip the red carpet." The brunette suggested, up for anything that'd make Lauren comfortable even if it meant staying out of the media. "Sure."]

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💬    text:  lauren jauregui   .

Lauren: It's not as easy as you think. I don't like stringing her around but we have a project we've been working on months prior - even before we broke up. I can't just drop that because of personal issues. We barely make conversations. Everything is purely professional, you have to believe me.

Lauren: About that, I asked to stop and she said it was her PR team who started it. She didn't know we were a thing and she said she would back off.

Lauren: I'm sorry if I may have come off as not taking this seriously but I'm not used to situations like this. I'm sorry about how she is, I didn't mean to upset you. You mean a lot to me, Camz and I would never do something to jeopardize what we have. What can I do to make up for this?

Lauren: This wasn't how I planned it to be. I was picturing something romantic not in the middle of an argument.

Camila: Right. I'm sure being forced to be around a beautiful girl a majority of your time is such a huge compromise for you to make. How ever does Lauren Jauregui get through the day?

Camila: I don't need to tell you that there are two sides to a RP relationship. It might have been her idea at first but you agreed to it, contract or not. There's no denying you saw her right after you were with me, how am I supposed to just forgive you for that?

Camila: I guess we don't always get what we want, do we?