Warning: This is probably spoilery, the more spoilery part, I put under the cut.
There is the surface reading and then there’s the Buddhist reading. The literal reading goes:
No death, no extinguishment, no godhood.
What is death? The cessation of life. One must live before one can die, as Kunlun has told him: all living things must have an end, rocks are forever, but they don’t live. Death for Shen Wei, chaos given form, is simply from form to formlessness. To chaos.
What is “godhood”? If we require both ‘death’ and 'extinguishment,’ we can safely change 'god’ here to 'enlightenment.’ Which is what all the yao in the novel are working towards. Shen Wei is already a demigod of sorts, and in terms of what he can do, it doesn’t really change before he ‘attains godhood’ and after. You can become enlightened when you’re alive, but you can only be in Nirvana after death. And Nirvana literally reads “to quench” or “to put out” (a flame.) The Buddha was asked, “Where does an enlightened person go after death?” and the answer was, “Where does a flame go when it is blown out?”
What is “extinguishment”? The extinguishment is of the 'three fires.’ This means the cessation of greed, hatred, delusion. Most of that, in Shen Wei’s case, is tied up in his attachment to Kunlun.
His greed is for forever with Kunlun.
His hatred is for everything that could take Kunlun from him.
His delusion is that he can stop death.
The entire novel, we’re witnessing Shen Wei’s “extinguishment,” or his path to true enlightenment.
Ok, so the new Phainon trailer gave me instense brainworms and I had to look into so much shit for this so feel free to give it a read and tell me your thoughts.
full analysis of the gnostic aspects in the new Honkai Star Rail trailer or
The Gnostic Interpretation of Phainon's Trailer ft. Anaxa:
In particular, I will be focusing on these specific shots as these are the ones that have Gnostic or more vaguely Biblical references
O1:
Anaxa and Phainon: Adam and Epinoia, The First Man and Wisdom.
I believe these scenes and very specifically, Anaxa being the one to meet Phainon in Aedes Elysiae (Paradise) is to reference the awakening of Adam, the First Man in Gnosticism.
The Apocryphon of John details that Eve is created from Afterthought / Wisdom (Epinoia) in her likeness by Yaldaboath and is the one who leads an amnesiac and sealed Adam to discover the truth of the world, a role she played when she was still inside Adam as his guide.
Specifically, she was his Erudition.
This connection is still there under her alternative name, Ennoia which is connected to Nous.
Now? What does this have to do with Anaxa and Phainon?
Anaxa is Eve / Epinoia and the one who not only sees Phainon for who he is, outside of his role as Delieverer but is also the Knowledge that guides Phainon to the truth, being one of the keys to his Origin behind both himself and Amphoreus' cyclicality.
By having Anaxa ask Phainon that question, he is effectively handing Phainon the proverbial apple that allows him to make the first step to understanding who he is. This is further pushed by the fact that it's Anaxa meeting Phainon in Aedes Elysiae which is effectively Phainon's Paradise or more accurately, it is the Garden of Eden.
Anaxa is in the Garden of Eden (Aedes Elysiae) where the First Man (Phainon) and the cycle is born and confronts him with the truth, asking him what does he want. Phainon inherently associates Anaxa with the Truth of the World, with him being Epinoia or better yet, his Eve as they are the only two and the first two in Paradise.
O2:
Crucifixion.
This one is both self-explanatory but also deeper due to Sethian Gnosticism.
Phainon is being cruxified as he ascends to his new form, almost as if he is being sacrificed or paying the price for Amphoreus' sins. You can see the pronounced cross behind him and while he lacks the T-pose, he's not far off.
However, there's another layer. It was Christ being crucificed that allowed him to reascend to his seat as an Aeon in Sethian mythos as his "death" as a human allowed him to be freed from his mortal shell that he undertook to save others from this prison, thus being freed himself.
It is a twisted way to showing that by ascending to the seat of a Lord Ravager, Phainon will be freed from his mortal shell and the cycles. Christ is also seen as an 2nd coming of Adam in some gnostic circles as well from my research.
O3:
The Tree of Life and Knowledge, the Call Back to Anaxa and Phainon and its representation in the trailer
Now, this section will be the most in-depth as it also ties back to the Anaxa is Epinoia and Phainon is Adam point.
In this shot, Phainon is walking into the new cycle with a tree splitting between the decaying old cycle and the new cycle in Aedes Elysiae (Paradise).
I believe this to represent both the Tree of Life and the Tree of Knowledge, as well as its duality across Gnosticism (specifically On the Origin of the World which HSR does paraphrase in Golden Scrapegoat Mutterings and The Apocryphon of John).
OW states this —
And the tree of immortal life, as it was revealed by the will of god, is in the north of paradise to give life to the immortal saints, who will come out of the fashioned bodies of poverty in the consummation of the age. Now, the color of the tree of life is like the sun, and its branches are beautiful. Its leaves are like those of the cypress, and its fruit is like clusters of white grapes. Its height rises up to heaven. And next to it is the tree of knowledge, possessing the power of god. Its glory is like the moon shining forth brilliantly, and its branches are beautiful. Its leaves are like fig leaves, and its fruit is like good, delicious dates. And this tree is in the north of paradise to raise up the souls from the stupor of the demons, so they might come to the tree of life and eat its fruit and condemn. the authorities and their angels.
The highlighted parts are important to this section. The Tree of Life and the Tree of Knowledge are interconnected (to the point where they are seen as one in the same in many gnostic sects.)
The Tree in the trailer is encased in the Sun, the light from Aedes Elysiae reminiscent of the Light of Heaven. It symbolises a new life (and as we have seen in the trailer, an immortal one due to this being the beginning of his 33,550,336th cycle) and considering this Phainon has Flame Reaver's mask, his own journey to show the truth of Amphoreus to the next. It also is an angiosperm tree like the fig tree shown in the excerpt, to the point of looking identical to one.
This also connects back to Anaxa again as this is not the first time we have seen a Tree of Knowledge.
It's in Anaxa's Ultimate animation and the leaves match up. On top of this, Anaxa has a connection in the sense that the Tree of Knowledge is Epinoia. According to Apocryphon of John, after Eve was created and Epinoia moved into her body, she led Adam to the Tree of Knowledge which is then revealed to also be Epinoia. Both Eve and the Tree of Knowledge are one in the same.
Anaxa himself is planting the Tree of Knowledge so he can awaken them to the Truth of their existence. In his Ultimate animation, the Tree of Knowledge originates from inside him, the same way the Epinoia originates inside Eve after it was forcibly removed from Adam (who in turn became ignorant to the truth).
Another aspect is the Moon connection that Anaxa had and how it is linked to the Tree of Knowledge.
In CN, Anaxa's E1 is called 月掩星夜的魔术师 (Magician of a Moonlit Starry Night). A characteristic the Tree of Knowledge has is that its glory (appearance) is like a moonlit night, shining down which compliments the Tree of Life being the Sun (Phainon). This is further pushed by the crescent moon imagery in Anaxa's weapon and the officially commissioned Hoyo piece of Anaxa that shows him with the Moon phrases.
(Funny tidbit, he is also green like the Tree of Life & Knowledge)
On top of that, it's repeatedly stated that both the Tree of Life and the Tree of Knowledge are both North of Paradise, we can see the same for Phainon and Anaxa's scene together as Anaxa (Tree of Knowledge) walks up northside to speak to the Tree of Life (Phainon, his other half). Life needs Knowledge to work.
The Tree shot also shows the duality of the Tree of Life as it is also associated with forbidden knowledge, evil and desire.
In Apocryphon of John, it is described as this
"And I shall teach you (pl.) ' what is the mystery of their life. ' whict is the plan which they made together, ' which is the likeness of their spirit. The root of this (tree) is bitter and its branches are death, its shadow is hate ' and deception is in its leaves, ' and its blossom is the ointment of evil, ' and its fruit is death and desire is its seed. and ' it sprouts in darkness. The dwelling place of those who taste from it is Hades and the darkness is their place of rest"
These are all traits associated with Phainon's downfall which the tree leaning into the previous cycle represents. Phainon's hatred, his desire and the deception of his existence causes him to break down into Flame Reaver and work into the hands of Lygus as he becomes his perfect Lord Ravager.
Amphoreus is a prison that Phainon suffers through, his dreams and his desires cause him to feel pain when he loses them and in the end, he's stuck in the cycle which is exactly what the Tree of Life represents. It was created to ensure humanity remains in the cycle and the physical realm mandated by the Demiurge who rules over it. It is ran by hate, controlled by hate and death is a ruling motivation.
The Tree represents both new life and the destruction of life. A cypress tree represents mourning and death and a fig tree represents knowledge, fertility and enlightenment. It representd the dichotomous nature between the Phainon of the Old Cycles and the Phainon of the New and also how Life needs Knowledges to exist or else, it will decay away.
O4: Conclusion
Phew. Okay, I wrote a ton. I hope this was all coherent and a good read as well. These drove me insane all day, especially with the Anaxa scene and helped reaffirm some thoughts I had about both in the past.
alright. i know i said previously that i was working on their general relationship analysis, AND I AM! but all of this has been eating at me the entire time i've been composing it and i've been in a dilemma on whether or not to include it in the analysis or make it a whole separate thing because it's really its own other topic. and!!!! here we are. it's a whole separate thing. phainaxa is kind of crazy #tbh
this post can also be titled 'Anaxa Haunts Phainon & The Entire Narrative', and you'll see why very soon.
this post will be tagged with the proper content warning labels, of course, but please be wary that i briefly talk about anaxa and his suicidal/self-harm tendencies in one part of this.
i'm pumping all of this out BEFORE 3.5, so all information here will be things we already know.
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Simulation name meanings
first things first, i want to go over their simulation names: neikos496 and skemma720.
starting with phainon's:
what does neikos mean? does 496 represent anything?
neikos is of greek origin, meaning discord or strife. along with that, tying in with empedocles' famous cosmogonic theory of the four elements, he was also the one who proposed the concept of that in which love and destruction would mix together and separate the elements.
and because i mention empedocles' philosophy and his concept of love and strife dividing and bringing together the four elements to maintain balance, i should also mention cyrene's simulation name, PhiLia093; philia, also of greek origin, meaning friendship, and is one of the four types of love in greek language—the others being éros (sexual desire), agapè, (altruism), and storgê (familial).
and we know all the eternal recurrences started with cyrene & phainon—cyrene sacrificing herself so that khaslana would be able to continuously experience the same cycle and collect the coreflames. khaslana kills cyrene during the destruction of aedes elysiae from the black tide so that she'll be able to do what she needs to to keep the cycle going, which is why she says "may this woeld never have need for a deliverer", because she's been aware this entire time, doing this since her and the original phainon put this plan into motion.
until the four millionth eternal recurrence, it is the original phainon/khaslana experiencing the loops—he had killed each loop phainon until that point. the hero within eventually begins to fail within his body, and in order to keep his plan going, he instead has the loop phainons kill him at the end of every cycle now, so that that phainon will inherit the previous coreflames he's consumed and his memories. and because he knows himself, he knows that each phainon will choose the same path as him and become "khaslana."
the number 496 is a perfect number.
phainon has been constantly praised by aglaea and some of the others as being the "perfect" chrysos heir, one without flaw.
(and he's really, truly not, if that wasn't obvious. this, too, actually ties into anaxa, his ideologies, and how he sees phainon, but that will be in my relationship analysis instead because wow. hey!!! they are kind of insane!!! what the fuck!!!)
moving onto anaxa's:
what does skemma mean? does 720 represent anything?
skhema, of greek origin, means something along the lines of form or figure, which could possibly tie into anaxa being the representation of reason and embodying erudition within the simulation.
however, skemma, of old-icelandic origin, means to (usually permanently) damage, to spoil, or to ruin. i mention this particular origin meaning because of anaxa and destruction's relationship, which i'll discuss soon.
as for if 720 represents anything, i'm not too sure.
i do, however, have one idea in mind, but it's not exactly the most obvious or sound.
in geometry, polyhedra/polyhedrons are 3D figures with all straight edges from all vertices connecting to each other. which goes along with the meaning of skhema, being form/shape/figure. 720° is the sum of all defects of any polyhedron.
and what does defect mean? a fault or flaw.
in geometry, an angular defect is the failure of some/certain angles not being able to add up to 360° or 180°.
fault, flaw, and failure, unlike 496, which is a perfect number.
anaxa who is reason and is the simulation embodiment for erudition, being a failure. whereas phainon, who is worldbearing and is the simulation embodiment for destruction, is perfect. irontomb, being a lord ravager of destruction, meant to eliminate erudition.
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Anaxa & Destruction
now that we've gotten that out of the way, let's get into the relationship between anaxa and destruction.
starting off with anaxa's past and character stories—all of his character stories are presented to us in a way that tells us that the form of media it was previously was already destroyed, forgotten, or never found.
in character story 1, cerces is flipping through his past memories before being promptly shut out by anaxa. and post 3.2, cerces is dead, having died alongside anaxa when he took the coreflame out of his chest at the very end.
in character story 2, we read the contents of a parapsychology experiment log anaxa had conducted. however, the original copy had already been destroyed.
in character story 3, we are shown a speech anaxa had improvised during a meeting between the sages of the grove. with the grove now destroyed and it being from just a simple meeting out of many, it's already been forgotten.
and finally, in character story 4, an echo in anaxa's memories had been made by him after the grove fell, but no one discovered it, so it vanished.
along with all of that, we really know nothing about anaxa aside from his ideals and personality—his backstory is never explored within the trailblaze quests, his sister is only mentioned in passing, his parents only ONCE, and his mentor, who we did see in a flashback, but has been dead pre-canon timeline. his mentor's name was also empedocles.
his parents, his sister, his mentor, and cerces, who had inhabited his body for that short time—they are all dead.
his previous home before he was able to leave to the grove was never named and was destroyed pre-canon timeline, and we witnessed the aftermath of the grove after it had fallen—both of his homes destroyed.
aside from that, anaxa had a grave that he would regularly clean and take care of, as if he was already anticipating his death.
i do not think i've ever talked about this in other posts, but i think that anaxa was definitely suicidal but not ready to actually take action to kill himself properly, instead resorting to harming himself repeatedly during his experiments, to the point where empedocles had told him to stop and never again harm himself once he had found out. anaxa had promised him he wouldn't anymore, but after empedocles had passed, that promise was soon broken.
anaxa is self-destructive and self-sacrificial—his body is littered with spells and markings from experiments. not only that, but when he had conducted his experiment to be able to see his sister one last time, we know that he carved his own left eye out as a sacrifice for the process. he also carved out his own heart as a sacrifice to make the stone tablet that would be able to guide castorice on her journey to find thanatos.
cerces themself even asks him at one point in 3.2, "why are you always trying to find ways to die? isn't it good to be alive?"
anaxa dies in Every Single eternal recurrence. not once does he survive, unlike the others who have all survived various times across multiple eternal recurrences.
not only that, but his body is eerily similar to flame reaver/khaslana's—both are void-like, cracked, and on the brink of destruction.
and he haunts the narrative without fail. he is brought up continuously in 3.4 by khaslana AND lygus. he seems to always be the last one shown when we're peering into khaslana's memories of past recurrences. his teachings still hold dear to hyacine and phainon both, even though he's been gone.
he is the only one we really know nothing about, and yet he hangs over everything like a looming shadow.
and the way anaxa not only haunts the entire narrative, but literally khaslana himself as well—looming over him, inside his thoughts and actions, consuming him. not to mention, every time worldbearing is somewhere, of course, reason is not too far behind, even in the game mechanics. same with destruction and erudition when it comes to amphoreus.
anaxa's golden boons within the divergent universe primarily have to do with Destructible Curios. which really makes me crazy, because again, he who is reason & erudition, seems to always be destroyed in one way or another, except by the one who is meant to be molded into something that destroys, and that is khaslana.
anaxa's as i've written/divergent universe art is of him depicted upside down and hanging, referencing odin in norse mythology and the hanged man tarot card (since tarot cards are cyrene's thing, especially with her connections to oronyx and time.) he is the hanged man tarot card in cyrene's deck.
what's important about that?
the story of odin in norse mythology is that he hung himself upside down from yggdrasil for nine days and nights to obtain knowledge of other worlds and to understand the runes.
before doing that, odin had sacrificed his eye into mimir's well and then pierced himself with gungnir, his spear. all of this was considered something of a ritualistic suicide.
as for what the tarot card symbolizes; the hanged man in tarot readings means ultimate sacrifice and surrender. shifting your perspective to give in to time so that things may unfold naturally—a pause in action.
and all of this fits quite well with anaxa.
his as i've written log also explains that his survival priority approaches zero. (which. what the hell. cmon anaxa stay alive for once)
because he is the first individual to uncover the truth of amphoreus, his evolution rate is stated to be extremely unreplicable. along with that, his behavior demonstrated the possible self-destructive inclinations of erudition.
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Phainon & Erudition
moving on, with phainon & erudition, it's not as blatantly laid out like anaxa & destruction—much of phainon's connections with erudition are sourced through anaxa himself, because anaxa is Reason.
phainon's dream, before being roped into a hero because of the prophecy and destruction of aedes elysiae, was to be a scholar.
when aglaea had sent him to the grove to study, originally, he applied for a different school but admittedly got reassigned to anaxa's nousporism.
anaxa and phainon's relationship is important for a multitude of reasons, but for now, let's focus on one particular aspect of their dynamic while phainon was in the grove—anaxa and peace to phainon.
like i had just stated, phainon's dream was to be a scholar. when studying in the grove, he was able to do just that. but it's VERY important to know this while also remembering the fact that anaxa is the only one who sees him for Phainon and not the prophesied Deliverer.
anaxa is constantly addressing him as only Phainon or Phainon Of Aedes Elysiae, never hero, or worldbearer, or deliverer, etc... phainon struggles with seeing himself past the role he was forced to be and continuously thinks everyone around him really only sees him as such as well, so he doesn't try to think otherwise because he assumes this is all he is meant to be.
him being able to live his dream of being a scholar, paired with the fact that anaxa views him for Him, instilling his sense of self once more, is what gave phainon peace.
the average student takes about 4 years to complete their studies and graduate the grove, but phainon took much longer than that—up to 5 to 10 years instead.
and phainon isn't stupid by any means—he is one of, if not the most, exceptional student anaxa has ever had, stated by anaxa himself. he is extremely good at debating, has earned consecutive wreaths for it, and is a fast learner.
him taking 5 to 10 years instead of the normal 4 could very well likely be due to the fact that he did not want to leave the peace he felt while in the grove and with anaxa—he was free of weights there, able to be himself, rather than the Worldbearer.
and anaxa never did anything about it either; it's never stated that he tried to get phainon to leave back to okhema after the 4 year mark, and that is something anaxa would never do anyway.
phainon is just as important to anaxa as anaxa is to phainon. phainon is one of the few people anaxa allowed himself to be close to, and i won't dive into this too much since i think it would be a better fit for their general relationship analysis, but phainon was constantly trying to break down the barrier between them of teacher/student, whilst also trying to respect anaxa as a person he admires.
in the original cn text, phainon uses informal terms towards anaxa, and anaxa doesn't make any effort to correct him—this is because despite phainon trying so hard, he never really had to in the first place.
compared to others, when phainon addresses anaxa as Anaxa and not anaxagoras, rarely, if not ever, are there instances where anaxa corrects him, instead, letting it slide.
phainon has never had to try as hard as he thinks because anaxa was already letting him in.
he keeps anaxa's teachings dear to him, remembering them even if he graduated so long ago.
khaslana, while experiencing the loops before having to change his methods of obtaining the coreflames, never had to worry about anaxa being one he would fight with or have to kill. anaxa was willing to help him regardless, despite not being able to fully believe his words and what he would tell him.
and what's more is that, before the four millionth eternal recurrence, khaslana always killed the loop version of himself when he had to kill cyrene—anaxa, of all those loops, had never meant the phainon in any of the other loops.
but khaslana had told him that he was once his pupil, and anaxa let him in regardless. he helped him despite it all.
and we know, in the 134th loop, anaxa confronted him on his methods as well, being Reason and trying to get khaslana to turn back, because not only was he hurting the humanity he swore to protect and love, he was hurting himself too.
again, anaxa had never met phainon. but he still did all of this. and not once had khaslana try to destroy him—not even during 3.1 when they were all fighting against him. he attempted to go for the coreflame in anaxa's chest, had tried to, for once, harm anaxa because it was the only way, and yet, when anaxa instead took the coreflame of time from him, he only tried to yank back the ceremonial blade instead of killing him then and there.
and khaslana has never truly lost himself because of Reason—anaxa has always haunted him.
one who is destruction finds peace within the thing he is born to destroy.
along with all of this, phainon's BP lightcone, A Dream Scented in Wheat, is an erudition lightcone.
wheat being the symbol of aedes elysiae, his home, and it being an erudition lightcone amongst all else—yet again, the peace phainon desires.
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Conclusion
dude i'm gonna be honest. i actually have no idea how to finish this off, but do you see it all now. how fucking crazy they are. how utterly intertwined they are.
they're quite literally programmed to go together in one way or another—within amphoreus, destruction & erudition are always hand in hand some way, somehow, like worldbearing & reason.
and them also having SO MANY references and callbacks to kevin & su. a bit crazy!
considering phainon, cyrene, & anaxa are the only ones amongst the heirs that have multiple callbacks to kevin, elysia, and su, respectively, it was bound to be this complex.
i'd really like to talk about phainon being the sun, cyrene the moon, and anaxa being the stars, along with the anaxa-march connections but. again, i feel like that's a whole new topic for a separate post (<- guy who says this and she's going to take 6000 years to finish it), and i still haven't even finished my phainaxa relationship analysis.
OKAY..... ANYWAYS. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS FAR.... IF YOU DID..... #PHAINAXA4EVER
Now that IS5 is complete, I have some thoughts about how it was pulled off.
IS5 wanted to be the IS you could make anything work. The player has so much control over RNG and snowballing with almost any core operator becomes trivial once you learn how to use Lamp of Wishes, and once you learn which godawful stages have a direct solution and which ones you should just dodge, winning becomes fairly consistent as you become so strong even reserve operators start hitting for 5k damage.
But ironically that also made it the IS with the least amount of variety. No matter what roster you went with, the macro gameplan was always the same: Talons of Hatred for ultra farm 100+ collectibles run, or Lamp of Wishes for guaranteed Hands + King's relics, as both playstyles made you play at 1 HP for the entire run and forcefeed ATK, ASPD, and SP to all your operators.
On a surface level it's fun, Hypergryph's aim was clearly to emulate the feeling of snowballing IS2 and to make it consistent, but they failed to capture that while IS2 was RNG hell where runs could end because you never got a medic voucher and rolled a poison stage, it was also the best one at inducing that scrappy feeling of cobbling together a team and hoping for the best.
By taking away the ability to just get randomly fucked by RNG AND making every run easily turn into an IS2 golden chalice-tier godrun with any operator you want, IS5 partly lost the thrill of roguelikes.
When I would randomly come across Hand of Diffusion in IS2, I would have that "We fucking won, my dudes" in my heart the moment a Caster voucher showed up because it meant a Godssenger run. It wouldn't happen every time, the stars had to align, but damnit when they did that was amazing.
You don't get that in IS5. You can make EVERY run a Godssenger run if you want, because all you need to do is pick Passenger for your first 6 star and get the Lamp of Wishes, it GUARANTEES that the first wish node (which you are more likely to get on refresh with the Lamp) will have Hand of Undulation. I'm no longer gathering different pieces looking for the stars to align on at least one of them, I'm going in with a specific game plan and making it happen.
It feels very much like a change made to reduce friction and also make for easy content. (For example, back in the day, one of the popular Arknights videos was Unlimited Bibeak Works for rolling Bibeak and Deathmatch in IS1, and now you can almost always guarantee such cheesy, youtube-ready combos.) but I think that friction, that randomly losing a run on Floor 2, was what made IS2 really shine.
That's not to say IS5 is bad (although personally I think Qui'lon and Amiya being balanced around Lamp existing is fucking bullshit), it's still much MUCH more fun than the true unfun RNG hell that was IS3, but I still hope IS6 tones down player control somewhat.
Let me get this strong again but make me need actual luck to get it in IS6. Always getting strong, never losing without an ending boss that reaches 2 million HP, that's not as fun. The random terrible runs just make the amazing runs sweeter sometimes (SOMETIMES, DON'T RETURN TO IS3 PLEASE) you know?
“That's not to say IS5 is bad (although personally I think Qui'lon and Amiya being balanced around Lamp existing is fucking bullshit),”
I’ve been talking with a friend about IS5 and this was the crux for me. Everything you said is true, it really loses the thrill factor of a roguelike because now I don’t go in with a checklist to cobble something together, I actually just have a gameplan. It’s very fun when I want to have Chongyue delete entire maps with unending voice clips and 70% DEF ignore. But, it’s really felt, well, too predictable, and like I just don’t get to experiment a whole lot. I could, obviously, but when I can get Hands and King’s for free, and also when Shit Like Qui’lon Exists… I was wondering what was it about IS5 that lost me for a while whilst also not at all disliking it (unlike, for contrast, IS3, which I kept playing despite truly hating it), and it is in fact that missing sense of thrill indispensable to the genre.
as much as i like the apothecary diaries, and maomao's character, this trend i'm seeing of people being like "finally! a female MC in anime who's well-written and doesn't suck! This Has Never Been Seen Before." is irritating me beyond belief. sorry, but well-written, complex and iconic female characters have always existed in anime. your inability to watch anything except the most mainstream dudebro-y shounen anime written by men who hate women sounds like a YOU problem.
the part in heaven's feel where sakura is like actually this is all the work of my evil twin personality (meaning there is still such a thing as "the sakura who is pure & good" and I don't have to take responsibility for my actions or the emotions that drive them) and kirei is like, no the fuck it isn't lol, really is so good. & I love how that line of thought is extended into CCC with the sakura clones too, like okay, what if that desire to separate all the undesirable parts of yourself into someone else who can take the blame for those inconvenient desires while you remain pure could actually be enacted, wouldn't that be fucked up. your undesirable self is now also trying to separate her undesirable self into a separate person to punish for having inconvenient desires. we can't keep doing this girl
idk man if the mere mention of gacha games makes you launch into a rant about soulless coomer cashgrab gambling that doesn't make me think you actually care about exploitative practises in the (mobile) gaming industry. if you can't imagine why anyone would care about these games, be it playing or making them, for reasons other than "sexy png" and "gambling addiction" I don't really have any reason to believe you know what you're talking about. and you're kind of an unpleasant person also.
My Logos lore document has been updated with the release of CH13 for the global servers. Please read it on desktop if you would like to see the screenshots, resizing them is a ding dong.
Completely Normal Thesis Here
Feel free to send any asks for clarification or further speculation. It's 1:40AM and I really should go to bed.
