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drone sona thingy

the shoes stay cause yeah LKJSKG and top scars just cause i think it's cool

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By the end of the day full company is end game to me, I just like that kinda in between area where they’re figuring stuff out still a bit

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Touch starved uzi and n, staring at v and j with the BIGGEST wettest eyes: cuddles? Cuddles with girlfriends? Hold??

V, still mostly touch adverse: if they touch me for more than 30 seconds im leaving the polycule

J, just as touch adverse but terrified of fucking things up: if i dont let them touch me for more than 30 seconds they're gonna kick me from the polycule

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YEAH YOU GET IT YEAH

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By the end of the day full company is end game to me, I just like that kinda in between area where they’re figuring stuff out still a bit

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Touch repulsed yuri ..

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Can i. Make this about oilrose (with nuzi on the side) Cutely Begs plus Fingers Touching emoji

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Looks at you with my big big eyes and flutters my big eyelashes

Hell yes

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OkAY SO

All those 4 dinguses? Touch starved in some way

The way it manifested with nuzi? They are CLINGY, touchy as fuck, they are ALL over each other (uzi LITERALLY resting her head against his chest like day 2 of knowing N, and N wanting to pet her head)

With J and V tho, it goes the opposite way.

Because J and V have HAD physical contact plenty of times, (mostly based on my headcanon of them just. Hatefucking casually from time to time)

But their touch either always starts aggressive, or ends up aggressive.

V and J do not know how to be soft/gentle anymore. They dont know how to be soft AT

They see Nuzi casually holding hands cuddling nuzzling gettin on each other's back

And its so. Alien to them

V has no problem kicking and punching and biting and clawing J, nor with J doing so to her, but everysingle time they try to casually lean against the other, both get SO fucking tense and end up just leaning away from the other all together

It feels. Gross almost. Their chassis feeling like sandpapaer when it rubs against the other's

Because for the LONGEST time, v and j touching meant that one of them was going to attack

And now they have to learn how to deal with it

And who knows maybe in time they'll figure out how to, but for now they just. Sit near the other

Pinkies almost close enough to touch

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I really like the mention of their chassis feeling like sandpaper as a sensory thing and them settling on pinkies being close together as enough for them

After everything that's happened to the both of them with Cyn, being vulnerable enough to be emotionally intimate would probably be like pulling teeth for either of them.

Also just like the idea that neither of them wants to really acknowledge the underlying problem so they never talk about it, because J's an ass and V is .. V lkasdjglaksdg so they just slowly push their limits over a long period of time, though I don't think they'd ever hug.

I just really like the idea of them settling on being close enough with their pinkies, there's just something about how trusting it is to extend your hand/finger out to someone who has hurt you physically. It's like an olive branch, a shaky one but an olive branch nonetheless.

just imagining them being like this with n and uzi lolol

Also N and Uzi finding comfort in physically being super hand holdy is huge brained, Uzi'll climb all over N like a jungle gym if given the chance to be taller in my head laksdjglkdg

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Also thinking about how bit v and j have someone haunting their own narratives tonight/this morning

J has Tessa

V has herself, or N i think

Just thinking thoughts is all

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Touch repulsed yuri ..

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Can i. Make this about oilrose (with nuzi on the side) Cutely Begs plus Fingers Touching emoji

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Looks at you with my big big eyes and flutters my big eyelashes

Hell yes

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Touch repulsed yuri ..

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more doodles, last guy is my oc!

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more cyn, trynna figure out how to draw them drones again

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new music video dropped

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cleaning time

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some rock and q stuff

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the

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Hey everyone, I'm back after being mia for a while.

I wanted to give an update on what's been going on and how thankful I am for the people who tried to support me in getting my dog a wheelchair!

Sadly we had to put our dog down a month back and it's been even more stressful afterwards due to some health problems with my family. It doesn't feel right to keep any of the money I've gotten from the commissions when they were meant to go towards a wheelchair for my baby. Been thinking about it and I decided to donate to a relief fund and a local shelter, half and half.

Thank you guys again for the support and sorry for the long wait!!,, It really means a lot to me even if things didn't turn out the way I wish they did. I'm gonna take another few days to kinda get settled after everything that's happened and keep to my little bubble for the time being.

I hope everyone is doing okay and thank you again!

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WAHH THANK YOU GUYA SO MUCH 🥹🥹🥹