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Commission for @bardsareplayers! The prompt was "Dragon-Girl vTuber please have fun with it". I went with a medieval style dragon because yes :) Thanks for the awesome commission!
Omfg I hate Reddit there’s a post on Am I The Asshole rn where a guy was treated like shit by hospital staff for being frustrated that his appointment was delayed because he was “late” despite being there EARLIER than his appointment time because he allegedly should have known he had to get there 45 minutes earlier to check in, and every fucking comment is siding with the hospital. Saying you should know better, that it’s common practice to get to appointments that early, insinuating that the guy must have been aggressive / threatening to hospital staff about it and now is softening the encounter to sound like the victim (nowhere does he describe anything like that). There’s even a guy who works at a hospital in the comments snidely being like “patients yell at me and then play dumb all the time 🤣” like omgggg people whose health and safety and medications and quality of life are in your hands are frequently mad at you and THEY’RE the bad guys?? I hate it so bad. Fuck doctors bro people who don’t have to deal with doctors frequently have no idea how much it suckssss to be at the mercy of these institutions.
I just had to ask my endocrinologist to up how often i get a blood draw because I have no idea what my progesterone levels are and she literally refuses to take the lead in my treatment. She's basically just writing the scripts and not giving me nearly enough info to for what is basically supervised diy
Eventually at some point I'll make a Spotify account when my stubborn ass finally caves, so I can make a playlist for y'all for Where the Roots Burrow + my CotL AU
In the meantime, have a few songs that I've added to Hastur's playlist in my head. I'll separate it based on which one fits better with WtRB Hastur vs CotL Hastur:
"But Never a Key" - the Dirt Poor Robins (CotL)
"Brutus" - the Buttress (CotL)
"Along Came a Spider" - Tesco Value (CotL)
"Insanity" - Oingo Boingo
"Can You Hear It?" - the Aviators
"Over & Over" - Rio Romeo
"Edward" - American Murder Song
"Misanthropologist" - Will Wood
"They're Coming to Take Me Away" - Napoleon XIV (WtRB)
"In the Woods Somewhere" - Hozier (WtRB)
Bonus - some ship songs:
"From Eden" - Hozier (Leshycat - CotL)
"Horror of Our Love" - Ludo (Leshycat - CotL)
"Two Birds on a Wire" - Regina Spector (Ambrose/Hastur - WtRB)
Curious as to y'all's thoughts based on this playlist
okay but what about a youtube playlist of your favorite amv of each song?
since they haven’t posted it yet
@zipmode I hope you don’t mind me posting this~ if you do please just let me know and it will be down as soon as I see the message
anyway go check them out! (She says to 0 followers)
So I have a girlfriend now! She's soft, and warm and amazing! She has a pain tolerance that's way higher than mine so I can bite as hard as I can and she brushes it off like it's nothing~
Oh and she’s at least neutral on the biting! We had a whole conversation this morning before I went to bed about status and limits and while i’m feeling a little weird about her being *very* down for me sharing nudes online. That’s… I mean i’m not in opposition to the idea. I’ve even been continuing to do so (she gets exclusive pics+everything I share obviously)
So anyway we met on Taimi and wound up chatting for awhile, eventually moving to discord and on 12th (tuesday) we went to The Funhouse Seattle for Karaoke but the crowd was a bit sparse, like really sparse, staff got up to try to build energy three times while we where there. So three drinks in we decided to move over to El Corazon for the Master Boot Record show. Wait actually before karaoke we went to Katsu burger so that we weren’t drinking on empty stomachs, I got the tokyo classic it was pretty okay, I probably won’t order it again but I didn’t mind eating it. Anyway so we moved over to El Corazon and both had another drink in the corner of the bar pit. I’m glad we were in a corner because there was groping and biting and kissing for like the entire set. Oh and we ran into on of her friends over at karaoke because he didn’t like the opener so he wandered over to karaoke for a breather before master boot record came on.
So the tail end of show drags on a bit long but i’m starting to see that be normal as I go to more shows so it’s fine, plus it gave us more time to chat. Of course i’m sobering up at this point so worry worry worry but eventually the show ends and we queue for merch because I always buy merch because we love our bands.
So we head out of the venue and to the car, a bit more chatting I make sure to cover that i’m ace and i’m currently fully sated but if she’s not MOTHER HELP ME PLEASE TELL ME I’M HAPPY TO DO YOUR THING TO, though not that loudly. Anyway so we chill for a second and realize I probably should kill a bit more time so we look up food near us and find a burger shop a mile away. *up hill* but it’s fine I brought my cane so up we go. Chatting the whole way. Of course I forget that when i’m drunk french slips through. WHICH MAKES NO SENSE BECAUSE I HAVEN’T USED FRENCH SINCE I WAS SIXTEEN PLAYING RANDOM FRENCH BROWSER MMOS IN HIGHSCHOOL. but anyway that doesn’t matter we make it tot he burger shop and the burgers are surprisingly cheap, like 4 bucks a piece. So we both get a burger and a shake and head down hill drinking the shakes get to my car and chill in the car eating the burgers.
We keep chatting the whole way to her place but her roommates aren’t super down for unvetted visitors so i’m just dropping her off/ then i drive home and it’s like a ninety minute drive but it’s super worth it because she’s amazing. She’s asleep when i get home so i text her than i’m home safe and then just kinda chill and process until bedtime which is several hours because nightshifts are a things. I wind up chatting with my friends about her and gushing a definitely normal amount.
We keep texting for the next couple days and then on thursday my friend uh let’s call her Marisa, that’s not her name but it will work for our purposes. So marisa loves to troll and as i’m saying that i thought my camera was lying so I looking in the mirror to check if there was like a filter or something and there wasn’t and i’m actually kind pretty now she starts getting philosophical about mirrors being illusions and not us so i get philosophical back at her until eventually i type “ Is an illusion of one’s self, embraced and accepted any less real than the illusion hated and cast out? Is all our concept of self not in some invariable way made of an illusion? Whether of silver or water or lettered page. We all must accept some illusion of ourself or forever lack a self entirely. I like this illusion. More than any before. And newer ones may sway me to accept them. But for now? This pleasing cute illusion that does not cause me recoil is mine and me. And I am cute.
“ and that causes like a whole bunch of issues but the reason i was taking a picture was a stupid joke on overwatch about “i’ll send you a foot pic if you carry” to someone who had just fucked around in the backline the entire match i met them in who it turned out is a masters smurph(i am silver3 on a good day) and like sending that was super fun and over the next few hours I work up to sending a clothed chest pic and then a picture with my dress straps undone, details are unimportant. And that’s a fluffing rush so that’s currently being unpacked but we aren’t here for that.
So after the I am cute incident i realize i believe myself when i say i’m pretty. This is new. I’ve hated mirrors for the last 20 years and now they are friend. So we have a good cry about it. Basically as soon as i’m done the girl i’m dating texts me and we start the status and limits conversation. Of course i explain that literally today personal breakthrough and i sent a couple images to a stranger and a couple images to an 18+ discord’s nsfw selfie channel and she responds by telling me to keep doing that because people wanting me and me wanting her is hot and that’s like okay, yes ma’am. And so we finish that conversation with the limits which are basically just
Flirting allowed
Private photos allowed for theatre reasons(advice, comparison, sanity checking)
Public photos allowed and encouraged
Dating denied
Kissing denied
And like, okay so this is way more permissive than I expected but i’m down for it. I of course apply the same back and she’s cool with it so as of thursday we’re official a couple.
And of course she gets a copy of all the lewds and extra exclusive ones(especially since she’s the only one that gets the ones that include my face) immediately and so far i’ve been taking photos every morning after work and sending her them to wake up to and then reading her responses when i wake up to start my day because her reacting thirsty is like the best thing ever omg. Someone reacting just to my words or messages like that is like the hottest thing ever and while i should probably unpack exactly which things are causing that i don’t care to at the moment.
And like i’m a little worried about her sharing images, not because i’m not okay with it but because i can be a little clingy and jealous normally and i have no dating experience so i’m not sure how that’s going to interact. But we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.
But anyway so now we’re officially a couple and we’ve got another date on wednesday and i’m learning so much about her from the planning. I’m at the point i’m pretty sure i’m just going to start sending her itineraries with approve, comment, deny because omg please answer the questions directly i beg you. But like if that’s my biggest gripe then we’re fluffing set.
I’m also worried because i don’t think she’s ace and i don’t know if/when she’ll want lewd activities and like i’m down with them but i plan meticulously and i have no idea what the plan is here! Like i’m down for literally any plan that still involves be getting cuddles. But again, we’ll build that bridge when we get there.
So now i’m sitting here at work, she’s asleep and 80 miles away and i’m writing a blog post because at some point i have to have like a definitely gush about how amazing she is and how we started dating, and she soft, and warm, and tastes good, and responds super cutely to lewds, and omg omg omg.
Also she apparently likes to cook so if we get a place together homecooked meals might be a thing instead of my fairly passable attempts at stews.
Also despite calling most everyone gem, she gets called dear. A position she shares solely with my phone. Which now that I say that might be a little weird. Eh, we’ll fortify that bridge when we cross it.
So i’m just sitting here, fluttering my wings as I idly pine from afar because she’s 80 miles away in the settled lands and i’m out here in the woods until wednesday.
–Lily-Sapphire
just had to unfollow someone on here ive been following for literally 5 years because she suddenly started defending incest fetishisation??? hello??? i blinked and suddenly incest was the hot new thing people want to be posting about all the time. am i going fucking insane whats happening
finally get rid of the mold and now the fucking spiders are back. its always something in this damn flat
Are they cute spiders? Can you share pictures?
this thing is so big i might ask it to chip in on rent and i dont think taking pictures of your roommates without permission is considered polite unfortunately
Fair, sad not to get pictures but I understand.
finally get rid of the mold and now the fucking spiders are back. its always something in this damn flat
Are they cute spiders? Can you share pictures?
dead horse of a topic ik ik but the Onceler craze on here really is like. insanely funny in retrospect
I think I missed that. May I ask for a history lesson?
For some reason when the CGI Lorax movie came out in 2012, yk the mid one that was so convoluted in its added characters and subplots that it severely muddied the messaging of the original Dr Seuss story + Illumination did brand collabs with car companies and shit LMAO, people on here became like. Obsessed with the Onceler. I mean I say “for some reason” but in fairness the art direction / character design of the movie opted to make him look like an alt acoustic indie musician of the era ? Complete with making him like a sorta charming awkward geek with family trauma who plays ukulele I’m so serious. Like:
So for some reason they like, decided that the core audience demographic they were trying to appeal to with this character was horny millennial women on the internet. I guess. So anyway it worked & everyone wanted to fuck him I suppose. But because this was tumblr and these were all like, online nerdy types what they REALLY wanted was to make yaoi of him. And there aren’t really any other [attractive + grown adult] characters in the movie so the solution was to ship him with himself. In the movie he has this sort of descent into madness villain arc where he dons a top hat so it became like. Really popular, like ABSURDLY popular, for people to ship the Onceler from Illumination’s The Lorax 2012 with himself. There were SO many blogs dedicated to this. Irl cosplay meetups. AUS and ask blogs and RP blogs and AMVs. It was lowkey inescapable for a second on here. To this day when people say “tumblr sexyman” they honestly kinda just mean The Onceler tbh. Genuinely a really funny moment in hindsight like it’s just ridiculous.
That may be the single greatest thing i've ever read. Thank you for the write up!
Many I forgot how kind of insane that movie was. The video essays about it were great though~
dead horse of a topic ik ik but the Onceler craze on here really is like. insanely funny in retrospect
I think I missed that. May I ask for a history lesson?
This is either healthy, or worrying.
So girl I cuddled with at a show and then went on a date with texted me today saying she wasn't feeling a romance vibe. C'est la vie. I'll go be sad for a couple days and hit a show since those have proven super fun.
And now I have a date with Venus for Karaoke on the 12th. I'm super excited! but like a bit worried? I dunno man dating is weird.
But you know, when in doubt, we continue.
I hope she's okay.
Hasn't even read a message after I told her I got home safe. It's now the day after next and i'm starting to worry but I also know i'm clingy. We didn't even get to cuddle on the date and I really wanted to plan another one. I don't think I message her from here i'm pretty sure the correct play is "You've sent a text saying you really want to meet again and you want to kiss her so shut up and let it be. She'll reach out when she's ready, IF she's ready."
Welp, I'm fully out
As of today, 5/3/2026, I came out (gently it just came up in conversation about concerts and outfits and the fact I had boobs in the outfit pics) at work. This was the last place in which I was still closeted. As I am, just now, officially, fully out of the closet and will not be introducing myself to any new people by my dead name.
Other updates, based on mostly vibes and testing, I have decided on the name that will eventually be my legal given name. Lily-Sapphire. For those of you that know me well as Lily nothing needs to change; Except that I now only use two L’s and Lily isn’t short for anything anymore, and if you introduce me to someone I would prefer you introduce me as Lily-Sapphire. If you wish, I fully intend to answer to all three options this presents and any or all of them are valid methods to address me. As are any of my active handles(Kieri).
And finally, I’m alive, I have an iron deficiency so we’re fixing that, and progesterone is apparently an anti-inflammatory so my arthritis is doing WAY better recently.
Love you all!~ Lily-Sapphire
A comment copied from one I typed on youtube TW POLITICS
They aren't even close. Even comparing the levels of threat between the two parties is giving a win to the fascists.
It's vote blue or die. I'm glad you have the luxury of not being in immediate risk of being kidnapped, tortured, and raped to death over your intrinsic characteristics but for many people their states are in very real danger of going exactly there in the *very* near future.
One party thinks large swathes of america deserve no jobs, no safety, no freedom, and no food. The other doesn't.
If you abstain from voting because one side is "almost as bad as the other" you are choosing to let the objective, cartoon evil, bad guys win.
hate it when you see something in media that has great kink potential so you skedoodle post-haste to ao3 only to discover there's none fic left beef and then you have to sit there going oh I see I'M the pervert weirdo I'M the problem with society and everyone else in the world is going to heaven with a hundred innocence dollars preloaded onto their ole fashioned wholesome funtimes themepark fast pass card like fuckin oath man
Or, everyone else is too scared of messing it up and it's time for you to be the kink writer the fandom needs!