So I have a girlfriend now! She's soft, and warm and amazing! She has a pain tolerance that's way higher than mine so I can bite as hard as I can and she brushes it off like it's nothing~
Oh and she’s at least neutral on the biting! We had a whole conversation this morning before I went to bed about status and limits and while i’m feeling a little weird about her being *very* down for me sharing nudes online. That’s… I mean i’m not in opposition to the idea. I’ve even been continuing to do so (she gets exclusive pics+everything I share obviously)
So anyway we met on Taimi and wound up chatting for awhile, eventually moving to discord and on 12th (tuesday) we went to The Funhouse Seattle for Karaoke but the crowd was a bit sparse, like really sparse, staff got up to try to build energy three times while we where there. So three drinks in we decided to move over to El Corazon for the Master Boot Record show. Wait actually before karaoke we went to Katsu burger so that we weren’t drinking on empty stomachs, I got the tokyo classic it was pretty okay, I probably won’t order it again but I didn’t mind eating it. Anyway so we moved over to El Corazon and both had another drink in the corner of the bar pit. I’m glad we were in a corner because there was groping and biting and kissing for like the entire set. Oh and we ran into on of her friends over at karaoke because he didn’t like the opener so he wandered over to karaoke for a breather before master boot record came on.
So the tail end of show drags on a bit long but i’m starting to see that be normal as I go to more shows so it’s fine, plus it gave us more time to chat. Of course i’m sobering up at this point so worry worry worry but eventually the show ends and we queue for merch because I always buy merch because we love our bands.
So we head out of the venue and to the car, a bit more chatting I make sure to cover that i’m ace and i’m currently fully sated but if she’s not MOTHER HELP ME PLEASE TELL ME I’M HAPPY TO DO YOUR THING TO, though not that loudly. Anyway so we chill for a second and realize I probably should kill a bit more time so we look up food near us and find a burger shop a mile away. *up hill* but it’s fine I brought my cane so up we go. Chatting the whole way. Of course I forget that when i’m drunk french slips through. WHICH MAKES NO SENSE BECAUSE I HAVEN’T USED FRENCH SINCE I WAS SIXTEEN PLAYING RANDOM FRENCH BROWSER MMOS IN HIGHSCHOOL. but anyway that doesn’t matter we make it tot he burger shop and the burgers are surprisingly cheap, like 4 bucks a piece. So we both get a burger and a shake and head down hill drinking the shakes get to my car and chill in the car eating the burgers.
We keep chatting the whole way to her place but her roommates aren’t super down for unvetted visitors so i’m just dropping her off/ then i drive home and it’s like a ninety minute drive but it’s super worth it because she’s amazing. She’s asleep when i get home so i text her than i’m home safe and then just kinda chill and process until bedtime which is several hours because nightshifts are a things. I wind up chatting with my friends about her and gushing a definitely normal amount.
We keep texting for the next couple days and then on thursday my friend uh let’s call her Marisa, that’s not her name but it will work for our purposes. So marisa loves to troll and as i’m saying that i thought my camera was lying so I looking in the mirror to check if there was like a filter or something and there wasn’t and i’m actually kind pretty now she starts getting philosophical about mirrors being illusions and not us so i get philosophical back at her until eventually i type “
Is an illusion of one’s self, embraced and accepted any less real than the illusion hated and cast out? Is all our concept of self not in some invariable way made of an illusion? Whether of silver or water or lettered page. We all must accept some illusion of ourself or forever lack a self entirely. I like this illusion. More than any before. And newer ones may sway me to accept them. But for now? This pleasing cute illusion that does not cause me recoil is mine and me. And I am cute.
“ and that causes like a whole bunch of issues but the reason i was taking a picture was a stupid joke on overwatch about “i’ll send you a foot pic if you carry” to someone who had just fucked around in the backline the entire match i met them in who it turned out is a masters smurph(i am silver3 on a good day) and like sending that was super fun and over the next few hours I work up to sending a clothed chest pic and then a picture with my dress straps undone, details are unimportant. And that’s a fluffing rush so that’s currently being unpacked but we aren’t here for that.
So after the I am cute incident i realize i believe myself when i say i’m pretty. This is new. I’ve hated mirrors for the last 20 years and now they are friend. So we have a good cry about it. Basically as soon as i’m done the girl i’m dating texts me and we start the status and limits conversation. Of course i explain that literally today personal breakthrough and i sent a couple images to a stranger and a couple images to an 18+ discord’s nsfw selfie channel and she responds by telling me to keep doing that because people wanting me and me wanting her is hot and that’s like okay, yes ma’am. And so we finish that conversation with the limits which are basically just
Private photos allowed for theatre reasons(advice, comparison, sanity checking)
Public photos allowed and encouraged
And like, okay so this is way more permissive than I expected but i’m down for it. I of course apply the same back and she’s cool with it so as of thursday we’re official a couple.
And of course she gets a copy of all the lewds and extra exclusive ones(especially since she’s the only one that gets the ones that include my face) immediately and so far i’ve been taking photos every morning after work and sending her them to wake up to and then reading her responses when i wake up to start my day because her reacting thirsty is like the best thing ever omg. Someone reacting just to my words or messages like that is like the hottest thing ever and while i should probably unpack exactly which things are causing that i don’t care to at the moment.
And like i’m a little worried about her sharing images, not because i’m not okay with it but because i can be a little clingy and jealous normally and i have no dating experience so i’m not sure how that’s going to interact. But we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.
But anyway so now we’re officially a couple and we’ve got another date on wednesday and i’m learning so much about her from the planning. I’m at the point i’m pretty sure i’m just going to start sending her itineraries with approve, comment, deny because omg please answer the questions directly i beg you. But like if that’s my biggest gripe then we’re fluffing set.
I’m also worried because i don’t think she’s ace and i don’t know if/when she’ll want lewd activities and like i’m down with them but i plan meticulously and i have no idea what the plan is here! Like i’m down for literally any plan that still involves be getting cuddles. But again, we’ll build that bridge when we get there.
So now i’m sitting here at work, she’s asleep and 80 miles away and i’m writing a blog post because at some point i have to have like a definitely gush about how amazing she is and how we started dating, and she soft, and warm, and tastes good, and responds super cutely to lewds, and omg omg omg.
Also she apparently likes to cook so if we get a place together homecooked meals might be a thing instead of my fairly passable attempts at stews.
Also despite calling most everyone gem, she gets called dear. A position she shares solely with my phone. Which now that I say that might be a little weird. Eh, we’ll fortify that bridge when we cross it.
So i’m just sitting here, fluttering my wings as I idly pine from afar because she’s 80 miles away in the settled lands and i’m out here in the woods until wednesday.
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