~Nio Bartholl~

❁ SOMEONE ❁ USUALLY ❁ DIE ❁ Independent rp for an OC. Will contain NSFW and triggering content, and I'm bad att tagging things, so follow at own risk. Please read the backstory and headcanon pages.

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all i wanna do is sing bob dylan uh

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i might audition for that thing.. 

just wondering if my voice will be enough though hah

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~*Open*~

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cecilia-rose-moran:

"No, don’t do that. You have nothing to apologize for." She pushed his hair back again. "I understand how you feel." Her thoughts drifted to Jasper, she wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for him. "Don’t ever feel the need to apologize to me, Nio. You’re my friend and I care about you. I was terrified when I heard that you were in the hospital. I’m just happy you’re getting help."

Perhaps it was so that Nio didn't truly wanted to die. Self starvation wasn't the most efficient way of suicide. Somewhere at the back of his thoughts he'd told himself that if it was slow, Damien might still come back, finding him and saving him. And well, that was what had happened. Damien had come back just as Nio was walking on the edge. Nio drew a shaky breath through pale lips, he felt himself drawing closer to tears. No, he wouldn't allow himself to cry this time. It had been too much of that lately. "I wasn't supposed to survive..." he told her. "I hadn't expected to. I didn't know he'd come back."  

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~*Open*~

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cecilia-rose-moran:

Cecilia obliged to him and pulled a chair up to the edge of his bedside. She tentatively moved her hand to move some of his hair out of his face. Hospitals were not a happy place for her, just walking in her made the scar of her collar bone itch. She was here for Nio and that was it. Just looking at him made her sick, her friend, one of the only she had left, had tried to kill himself. It wasn’t fair that everyone she ever cared about died or tried to.

"Do you want anything from your flat or I could get you a book to read?" She honestly didn’t know what to do now, she wasn’t good at comforting people.

"No," Nio said again. "No, I don't need anything." His voice was low and hoarse, his lips dry from the long time he'd spent without water, his body still wasn't in balance. Keeping a glass of water down was hard. Nio couldn't focus for long enough to read anything, though he missed his books, and he missed drawing. He missed Damien, and hoped he'd be back soon. 

"I'm sorry," he then said, feeling a need to apologize for having her sit here. "I just couldn't..." Nio felt tears collect in the corner of his eyes, and he looked back up to the ceiling. "I can't be without him."

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thecharmingkiller:

Finally making it through the hospital, Victor peeked into the room before fully stepping inside. Nio looked horrible. In the back of his mind he wondered how Damien was doing with him hospitalised like this. He managed a faint smile as he approached the emaciated man, and sat down beside him.

"Hey. You look like hell."

Victor was never great at comforting words.

Nio turned his head to the side, seeing the man sitting next to him. A short, hoarse laugh rose from this throat at the comment. "Thanks," he mumbled. "Good to know. Feel like it too." Damien was spending day and night by Nio's side, and there were few moments -such as now- when he'd let Nio out of his sight. Nio didn't appreciate being alone, or away from him at all. Nio had never before asked for friends, he supposed once saw life in a different light after such an experience. 

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~*Open*~

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cecilia-rose-moran:

  "Because you’re my friend," she replied. He looked horrible. Cecilia couldn’t believe that this had happened to someone close to her. She didn’t want to look at him, his face resentment of a skull but she was his friend and she had to be there for him.

"Do you want me to get you anything?"

Nio felt bad for the girl, having to watch him like this. He hadn't expected this to happen, and certainly he'd never thought that he'd be stuck here for months. Yet, there he was. Every intention he'd had with this girl was as blown away. He couldn't bring himself to harm her for his own amusement any longer, especially not after he actually did need her. And now, he would actually let her be hi friend. 

Nio looked to her. "No," he said in a breath. "Just sit next to me."

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thecharmingkiller:

I’m on my way. -V

Nio felt like a bother, asking for things, asking for help. Asking for friends. That was something he'd never done before. Nio had never felt a need to rely on other people until now. Now, when he couldn't take care of himself. Nio laid staring up the white ceiling, the only sound filling his ears was the soft beeping of the machine -until he heard footsteps at the far end of the corridor- telling him he was still alive. His thin arms were resting by his sides, and he drew short breaths through his mouth. There wasn't much than skin and bones left of the ginger man. Though Nio fought for his life, to get well again. 

He'd heard someone say that that would never happen. 

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thecharmingkiller:

Alright. Where are you? -V

Hospital. ~Nio

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Alright, so I think I'm deciding to do both RPing with Nio on both the accounts...

Though everything that happens there will have happened here as well. 

So as Nio progresses in this whole sickness period over there, he will also do so here?

I'll probably be most active on the sunshinestore though...

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~An update on Nio~

[thesunshinestore]

Alright, so an update on what’s actually going on with Nio. 

Damien disappeared for a long time, leaving Nio to think he’d never return (perhaps he’s been killed or dragged back to hell forever). This caused Nio to become suicidal, having become so attached to Damien that he isn’t able to live without him. So dramatic as Nio is, he slowly started to starve himself to death. 

He didn’t have long left when Damien actually returned, and found Nio lying half dead, merely skin and bones -with large sores on his back- on the bedroom floor. He took him to the hospital, where Nio was put in an induced coma to help him recover from the worst of it without any pain. 

Currently he is slowly learning to process food again, and in the future he’ll have to learn how to walk again before he can finally return home. 

So he isn’t too cheery. Go keep him company. 

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Just tell me and I'll write you a starter. 

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If we RP a romantic relationship:

I want them to argue. I want them to be sad. I want them to worry. I want there to be tension. Because that’s what a relationship is. They can love each other, but that doesn’t mean they get along or are happy all the time. It’s perfectly normal for people to be sad and worried or fight. Them being happy and loving all the time just doesn’t feel right to me.

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~*Open*~

     "There's not much to see" he told the person who stood in the doorway, tilting his head towards them. Nio's features were thin, cheeks hollowed and eyes pale. Starvation really took on your body. 

    "Why're you here?"

[thecharmingkiller]

"Love ruined me. I liked it." Endless nagging, go to bed Nio.

"It really is t’e best kind of pain."

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"Good enough to kill you if you're not careful."

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An update on Nio.

Alright, so an update on what's actually going on with Nio. 

Damien disappeared for a long time, leaving Nio to think he'd never return (perhaps he's been killed or dragged back to hell forever). This caused Nio to become suicidal, having become so attached to Damien that he isn't able to live without him. So dramatic as Nio is, he slowly started to starve himself to death. 

He didn't have long left when Damien actually returned, and found Nio lying half dead, merely skin and bones -with large sores on his back- on the bedroom floor. He took him to the hospital, where Nio was put in an induced coma to help him recover from the worst of it without any pain. 

Currently he is slowly learning to process food again, and in the future he'll have to learn how to walk again before he can finally return home. 

So he isn't too cheery. Go keep him company. 

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Oh right so you should know that thesunshinestore is a side blog, and that i will follow anyone from a blog called roboticsunshine. 

I realize nio doesn't have (m)any friends, though it'd be nice if some of you followed me over there (some of you already have, you're presh <3)

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have I told you you should go visit Nio at the hospital?

Because you should. He's lonely. 

you'll find him HERE

i'll write a starter if you wanna

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go say hi to nio in the hospital

he's not well

but at least he's not dying

you'd find him HeRE