a/n: a little something to get it out of my head. don't know where i'm going w this yet. promted by @psychiatry-and-poetry here
benedict bridgerton x reader
the carriage pulls away the moment her feet touch the stone, its wheels echoing far too loudly in the quiet of grosvenor square. she sways, laughter still lingering on her lips from lady danbury’s soiree. too much wine, too many married women speaking far too honestly once the men had gone. her cheeks ache from smiling, her head light and warm, but her chest feels tight the moment she looks up.
home.
the bridgerton house looms the way it always does. it's imposing, elegant, utterly unforgiving. she hates it tonight. hates the way it waits for her, like it already knows.
inside, the foyer is too quiet. marble gleams. candles burn low. everything perfectly in place, as though appearances still matter here. she shrugs off her cloak with more force than necessary, laughter dying abruptly as the silence presses in.
she tells herself not to think. just go upstairs. just sleep. just don’t look at him.
the door opens behind her.
she doesn’t need to turn to know it’s benedict.
the smell hits first—alcohol, sweat, smoke, something unmistakably sweet and foreign that does not belong to this house. she closes her eyes for half a second, jaw tightening.
“late,” he says, voice loose, careless. amused.
she turns then, slow and sharp, taking him in. his coat hangs open. cravat gone. shirt rumpled, collar tugged wide as though someone had been impatient with it. his hair is a mess in the particular way that makes her stomach twist—not disheveled from work, but from indulgence.
“funny,” she says, bitter already spilling over, “i was just thinking the same.”
he smiles. actually smiles. like this is nothing. like she hasn’t been counting his late nights the way other wives count prayer beads.
“lady danbury’s?” he asks, eyes flicking over her too casually. “i didn’t expect you back so soon.”
“and i didn’t expect you to smell like someone else’s perfume,” she snaps, the words finally breaking free. “yet here we both are. full of surprises.”
his smile falters. just barely.
“don’t start,” he mutters, stepping further inside.
oh. that does it.
“don’t start?” she laughs, sharp and ugly, pressing her palm into the banister to steady herself. “you stagger in at this hour, half-dressed, smelling like sin and bad decisions, and you think i’m the one starting something?”
his expression hardens. defensive. familiar.
“you’ve been drinking.”
“yes,” she says flatly. “and somehow i still managed to come home alone.”
the words hang between them, heavy and deliberate.
he bristles. “you don’t know what you’re implying.”
“i know exactly what i’m implying,” she fires back, stepping closer now, anger cutting clean through the haze of wine. “because you don’t even try to hide it anymore. the parties. the disappearances. the way you look at me like i’m an obligation instead of your wife.”
his jaw tightens. “you’re being dramatic.”
she laughs again, this time without humor. “no, benedict. i’m being married to a man who would rather be anywhere else.”
silence crashes down between them, loud and suffocating. the house feels like it’s watching. listening. memorizing every fracture.
she swallows, chest burning. “do you know what the worst part is?” she says quietly. “i used to wait up for you. used to make excuses for you. used to believe you when you said it meant nothing.”
her gaze lifts, sharp as glass. “now i just dread coming home and finding out how little i still matter.”
then his hand closes around her arm before she can turn away.
it’s not gentle.
she sucks in a breath, more from fury than pain, as he pulls her toward him. “don’t,” she snaps, trying to wrench free, but he’s already moving, already steering her down the corridor like this is something he can still manage. still contain.
“we are not doing this out here,” benedict says tightly, glancing toward the staircase, toward the closed doors that hide his family behind them. “not where my mother might hear. or hyacinth.”
“oh,” she scoffs, stumbling slightly as he tugs her along, “forgive me. i forgot discretion only matters when it’s inconvenient for you.”
his grip tightens just enough to make the point clear. not enough to bruise. not enough to be unforgivable. just enough to remind her that he still thinks he has control.
the study door opens with a firm shove. he ushers her inside and shuts it behind them, the latch clicking like a warning.
this room is nothing like the rest of the house.
ledgers are stacked across the desk, neat but overwhelming. correspondence spills from trays—bills, notices, requests bearing the bridgerton seal. account books sit open, numbers half-scratched and rewritten. anthony’s domain, once. now benedict’s burden.
the air smells of ink and paper and responsibility he never wanted.
he releases her arm, rubbing his own hand over his face as if already exhausted. “this,” he says, gesturing around them, “is where your voice belongs if you insist on having this conversation.”
she stares at the desk. the mess. the weight of it all. something bitter curls in her chest.
“how fitting,” she mutters. “we fight where you hide from everything else.”
his head snaps up. “i don’t hide.”
she laughs, short and sharp. “you disappeared into brothels when anthony ran this family. now you disappear into women and come back smelling like them, and somehow this—” she gestures to the ledgers “—is supposed to absolve you?”
his jaw tightens. “you have no idea what this room costs me.”
“oh, i do,” she says, stepping closer. “i watch you sit at that desk every morning like it’s a punishment. i watch you resent every bill, every responsibility, every reminder that you are no longer free.”
his voice drops. “be careful.”
“careful?” she scoffs. “i married you, benedict. i didn’t sign up to be collateral damage in your resentment of anthony’s shadow. then, i’m expected to remain silent,” she says coldly. “convenient.”
he whirls back around. “i would appreciate it if my mother did not hear you accusing me of infidelity.”
there it is. not denial. just decorum.
“accusing?” she repeats softly. “benedict, you come home smelling like someone else’s skin and expect me to call it what—artistic exploration?”
“enough.”
“no!” she snaps. “enough is when you stopped coming to bed. enough is when you started treating this marriage like another obligation in this room like-like i'm something to endure until the season returns and relieves you.”
his silence stretches.
she laughs then, but it’s hollow, brittle. “do you know what they told me when we were promised to each other?” she asks quietly.
benedict doesn’t answer. he looks tired. cornered.
“they told me love would come later,” she continues. “that duty was enough. that if i gave myself fully, if i bent, if i learned you, it would all make sense eventually.”
she steps closer, voice lowering, sharper now.
“so i did.”
his brow furrows. “what are you talking about.”
she swallows, throat tight, and when she speaks again it sounds like a confession she’s been holding too long.
“ because if i am anything, i am yours,” she says, teary-eyed. “before i am myself, before i am a person, before i exist at all, i am yours. that’s what i believed i was meant to be.”
his breath stills.
“i made myself smaller. quieter. easier to live with,” she goes on, eyes burning. “i told myself my soul was made for yours. that my body was crafted to fit yours. that i only existed properly when you chose me.”
her voice cracks—not loud, not dramatic. just real.
“i tethered myself to you,” she says. “because that is what a good wife does in an arrangement like ours. she disappears so her husband can breathe.”
she laughs again, this time sharp with fury. “and you know the cruelest part?”
he finally looks at her.
“you didn’t even notice.”
silence floods the room.
“i ceased to exist to be myself long before you ever stopped coming to bed,” she says quietly. “and still, i stayed. still, i waited. still, i belonged to you—unhealthily, achingly, incessantly.”
her chin lifts. “so don’t you dare tell me to be discreet. don’t you dare worry about who hears. i gave you everything i was before i even knew who i could have been.”
she steps back, creating distance for the first time that night.
“and if i had to live through all this again, i would…” her voice falters, shoulders trembling. “you, of all people, know… you know i would. if it meant you had my heart.”
the silence that follows is unbearable.
her breath breaks first.
then she’s crying—not prettily, not quietly. it rips out of her, years of restraint and swallowed devotion collapsing in on itself. she presses a hand to her mouth like that might stop it, like she’s still trying not to be a disturbance.
benedict doesn’t think.
he crosses the space between them in two strides and pulls her into his chest.
it’s instinctive. desperate.
her forehead presses against his collarbone, fingers clutching the fabric of his shirt like she might fall apart if she lets go. he wraps his arms around her, one hand firm at her back, the other sliding up to cradle the back of her head, holding her there.
“i know, i apologize,” he murmurs, voice rough, undone. “i know.”
she sobs harder at that, body shaking as if the words have cut something loose inside her. his chin rests against her hair, breath uneven. he smells like regret now—like smoke and alcohol and something fractured.
he doesn’t shush her. doesn’t tell her to be quiet.
for once, he lets her be heard.
his grip tightens, grounding, as though he’s afraid she’ll disappear if he loosens it. maybe he’s afraid of how close he came to letting her.
they stand there in the study—surrounded by ledgers and debts and responsibilities neither of them knows how to carry properly—holding onto each other like this might be enough to keep them from breaking completely.
it doesn’t heal them.
it doesn’t absolve him.
but for a moment, in the quiet after the storm, he holds her like she is still his wife.
and she lets herself believe—just for a breath—that he remembers why that ever mattered.
When will the five times series be updated I’m in loveeeeee
hi anon! ik its been a year and more for my reply but its been a while since my hiatus in writing.
tbh, i lost the spark with five times. like the ending is plotted in my head but i lost my shit i ended up nitpicking my work and how i work with my plot and everything lmao but i'm currently working on it so i could close this chapter for five times.
just wait around. it's gonna be linked there when it hits me. love lots! ciao bella!
for the mean time, pls enjoy wanderlust's revenant and all the feedback for my fics are ABSOLUTELY appreciated!❤️
a/n: please leave comments and suggestions on my writing and the story hehe would absolutely love imporving my work always. enjoy!
one. two.
Nice, Sardinia - April 13, 1816
The ship arrived in Nice just after dawn, and everything looked dipped in honey and morning light. From the deck, I watched the coastline unfold slowly—sun-bleached rooftops, ivy-covered balconies, a watercolor sky softening into blue. The sea was unusually calm, shimmering like glass, and the air carried that gentle, briny promise of a good day.
Down at the harbor, life was just beginning to stir. Fishermen hauled in heavy nets with practiced ease, and from nearby windows, the shutters creaked open like lazy eyelids blinking into morning. I hadn’t planned to disembark—my slippers were ill-suited for cobblestones, and my satchel was still cluttered with half-written letters I’d never post. Then, like a breeze cutting through a too-still morning, Colin appeared at my side. “You look like someone trying very hard to stay aboard a perfectly unexciting ship,” he said, his voice warm, touched with mischief.
I turned, tilting my head slightly. “Perhaps I’m just admiring the view.”
He smiled—slow and knowing, as if the sun had dared him to be charming. “Then come admire it closer.”
So I did.
The streets of Nice felt as though they’d been swept clean just for us. Pale sunlight draped itself over the stone buildings, and the breeze off the sea fluttered against the hem of my shawl. We walked side by side, his arm offered without question, mine slipped into his without thought. The promenade curved along the beach like a quiet invitation, and we wandered at its pace. He didn’t speak right away, and neither did I. There was comfort in the hush between us—the kind of silence that didn’t press for anything, only made room. His stride matched mine effortlessly, and when the wind pulled a strand of hair across my face, he reached without hesitation and tucked it back gently behind my ear. His fingers lingered, just for a second. My pulse jumped. Eventually, he gestured toward a restaurant nestled between two weathered villas—its façade sun-warmed and covered in flowering vines. “How do you feel about grilled fish and reckless amounts of citrus wine?”
I gave him a mock-serious look. “I feel like I’ve just been offered a proper Mediterranean morning.”
The waiter, an older man who looked like he’d grown straight out of the coastline, offered the menu with a shrug. “Grilled sardines, ratatouille, citrus wine. That’s it.”
Colin glanced at me, eyes alight. I gave an exaggerated nod. “Rustic. Simple. I like it.”
We chose a table right by the edge, where the sea played its music softly and the awning threw gentle shadows over us. The tablecloth flapped in the breeze, and I leaned into the sunlight as I unpinned my gloves. The salt air teased at my skin, warm and promising. The sardines arrived first—smoky, lemon-bright, falling apart at the touch of a fork. The ratatouille followed, rich with garlic and sweet tomatoes, all piled onto rough ceramic plates that looked handmade. Colin poured the wine—pale and clear as melted sunlight. He raised his glass toward me, eyes dancing. “To unexpected stops.”
“And even more unexpected company,” I said, and we clinked gently.
He took a sip, then let the glass rest against his bottom lip, eyes drifting toward the sea. “So. What does one do when the ship docks in Porto Antico?” I exhaled slowly, tracing my finger along the rim of my glass. “I suppose one tries not to fall back into old patterns. I haven’t decided what comes next.” He nodded, a strand of hair catching the light. “Neither have I. Though I do have a ship lined up. It leaves two days after we arrive in Genoa.”
“That soon?” I tried to keep the disappointment from reaching my voice, but he seemed to hear it anyway.
“It was meant to be a practical journey,” he said, eyes still on the horizon. “Handle family business. Get back before anyone noticed I was gone.”
“And now?”
He turned to me then, his gaze lingering. “Now everything feels a little less… practical.” I let that sit between us, like sunlight pooling on the table. “Well, that’s what happens when you let lemon pastilles into your life,” I said lightly, smiling to ease the weight of the moment.
His brow arched. “Lemon pastilles?”
I sat up a little straighter. “Yes. The single greatest invention of mankind. Don’t tell me you’ve never had one.”
“I suppose I haven’t lived, then.”
I gasped. “Scandalous.”
“I’m willing to be educated,” he said solemnly.
“Then come along,” I said, rising with a grin. “There’s a little shop I passed earlier that I plan to liberate of its entire lemon stock.”
“Lead the way, Miss Ali” he said, offering me his hand. “I fear I’m already far too deep into your influence to resist.”
We strolled back through the bright, cobbled streets, pausing to look at painted tiles, seashell bracelets, and a man playing an accordion with dramatic flair. The candy shop was just as I imagined—small, sunlit, and bursting with color; tucked between a boulangerie and a cart selling lavender soap. The windows were fogged slightly from the morning sun, and inside, shelves sagged under jars of every color. The air smelled like sugar and orange blossoms. I marched up to the counter and pointed. “Vorrei una confezione di caramelle al limone, per favore.” [ENGL: I would like a pack of lemon drops, please.] I paid and bought out a paper packet of lemon drops tied with a cheerful yellow ribbon, and handed one to Colin like it was the rarest treasure in the world.
He popped it into his mouth and paused dramatically. “I see the light.”
I beamed. “I know. Sunshine and sugar, all in one.”
We shared the pastilles as we walked, passing the little packet between us. Our hands brushed once, then again. Neither of us moved away. The world felt dreamlike—sunlight gleaming off the tiled roofs, sea spray catching in the wind, the distant toll of church bells marking an hour I didn’t want to keep.
“You know,” he said after a moment, “I’ll think of you every time I see a lemon now.”
“Good,” I replied. “Let it haunt you.”
He turned toward me, slowing his steps, something soft and unspoken in his gaze. “You already do.”
I looked away before my smile gave me away. The ship was visible again now, docked and waiting. “We sail by nightfall?”
He nodded. “Genoa by morning.”
I rolled a lemon drop between my fingers, then slipped it back into the packet. “Then I suppose I should make the most of the sunshine while it lasts.”
He offered me his arm again, and I took it. We walked the rest of the way back like that—slow, easy, sweet with the sour still on our tongues. I didn’t know what tomorrow would bring. But for now, it was enough just to walk beside him, sunlight on our shoulders, and a little paper bag rustling softly between us.
Evening draped itself over the ship in silk and shadow.
By the time we returned, the air had cooled, brushed with salt and violet dusk. The last rays of sun cast a copper glow along the deck rails as the harbor receded behind us. Colin had walked me back to my suite, our hands still faintly sticky with sugar, our steps unhurried. We hadn’t spoken much—not because we had nothing left to say, but because the silence between us had taken on a kind of meaning I didn’t dare disturb.
He had pressed my hand gently before parting. “Until tomorrow,” he said.
I nodded. “Tomorrow.”
But I wasn’t sure what that word meant anymore.
Now I was alone. The door to my suite shut with a quiet finality behind me, and I leaned against it for a moment, letting the hush fill the space around me. The room was softly lit—lamplight flickering against rose-colored wallpaper, the sea murmuring just beyond the glass of the window.
I sank onto the edge of the chaise by the vanity and exhaled slowly, the way one might after holding in a breath far too long.
My journal lay open on the little writing desk, the same page I’d meant to fill three ports ago still waiting for something honest.
I picked up my pen and hesitated.
How does one write about something they haven’t fully admitted to themselves?
Nice was beautiful today. A sliver of a morning, wrapped in gold and sea breeze and grilled sardines. I walked the length of the shore with a man I’ve only just met, and somehow I feel I’ve known him longer than I know myself these days.
My pen paused again. I stared out the window, where the last light of day shivered across the water.
The truth is, I hadn’t meant to be here at all. Not on this ship. Not in this season of waiting. I told everyone at home that I needed time. That I needed space to travel, to breathe, to see something that didn’t remind me of what I left behind. But in truth, I think I boarded this ship because standing still had become unbearable.
They keep calling it “taking a break,” I wrote next, the ink darker here, as if the pen itself had lost its patience. But a break from what? From expectation? From the mirror? From the stifling, perfect version of myself that I polished and wore like a gown for too many years?
I pressed my palm to the page, smearing it slightly.
Home had become a chorus of voices that weren’t mine—an aunt who fussed over suitors and schedules, a family that measured love in letters and legacy. I’d smiled. I’d nodded. I’d played my part so well, I forgot where it ended and I began.
And then, suddenly, I’d stopped. I didn’t announce it. I simply packed a trunk, bought passage, and left a note that said I’d write soon. But I hadn’t written back. Not once.
I thought I would find clarity out here, I scribbled next. That salt and time and foreign skylines would make something inside me click into place. But clarity isn’t as obedient as that. It comes in strange shapes—like a man handing you a lemon pastille with a smile that makes your breath catch. It comes in conversations that stay behind your eyes longer than they should.
I stopped again. My chest felt full—not heavy exactly, but like a tide was rising slowly within me.
Colin is not what I expected. He is far too observant for someone I barely know. And yet… there’s an ease to him. A quiet sort of noticing. Like he’s watching the world because he actually wants to, not because it’s expected of him.
I stood and wandered to the window. The sea was black now, streaked with faint gold where the ship’s lanterns caught the surface. Somewhere behind us, the coastline of Nice had folded back into the dark.
I rested my forehead against the glass.
What happens when this journey ends? Will I become who I was again? Or someone else entirely?
I don’t know yet. I don’t think I want to know yet.
For now, I will let the ship rock me gently, let the sea carry my indecision like a lullaby. And tomorrow—tomorrow I will step off in Genoa and pretend that I am not unraveling in ways that feel almost like becoming.
As the evening had deepened, and the world outside my window had gone velvet-dark. The sea churned in soft rhythms below, and inside, my room was steeped in quiet. The lamplight flickered against the polished desk where my journal lay open, half a page already filled with ink and half still waiting.
I dipped the pen again.
Tomorrow, we dock in Genoa.
I stared at the words a moment before continuing, the truth rushing forward like it had been waiting.
And they’ll be there—just as I knew they would be.
Father’s associates. Family friends. The well-meaning acquaintances who would say things like “There you are, my dear, we were beginning to worry you’d gone and turned into a sailor!” all with rehearsed laughter and the scent of champagne lingering on their collars. They’ll be standing at the docks with polished shoes and predictable smiles, ready to sweep me back into a world I haven’t quite missed.
The Duartes will likely be there. So will Madame Fontanelli, her latest husband, and her dreadful perfume. And someone—surely—will ask whether I’ve given more thought to Lord Ferrin’s proposal. As if time and distance and salt air hadn’t made me feel more certain than ever that I’d sooner marry the sea.
Genoa is beautiful, I wrote, but I can already feel the way it will try to cage me in silk and obligation.
My family’s presence there is no small thing. The Ali name has held weight in the trade circuit since before I could spell it. My father—the brilliant, immovable Adil Ali—built one of the strongest textile enterprises this side of the continent. Silks, wools, rare dyes from every direction of the compass. Our house is a palace built on thread and reputation.
And I am the daughter who knows how to greet a merchant in four languages, who learned how to judge the weight of a bolt of cloth by feel alone, who has stood beside her father at more galas, auctions, and showings than she can count. I’ve been raised to be part diplomat, part decoration. To be graceful, well-spoken, observant. Presentable in every direction.
It is expected that I will attend the gallery on his behalf—another display of art and textiles, part exhibition, part business masquerading as leisure. Normally, I’d dread it. The elbow-brushing with the elite, the sharp smiles, the calculated way everyone speaks as if their words were wrapped in lace.
But this time… the art might save me.
I think of the gallery’s light-slicked walls, the smell of varnish and old stone, the way silence pools between paintings like a tide. I remember standing in front of a brushstroke that felt like someone had painted my very bones. That’s why I said yes. Not for my father. Not for diplomacy. But because, for a moment, I might stand in a room where beauty is allowed to just be, without having to speak for itself.
Still, I wonder.
Will I remember how to be her? The girl in pearls with the polite smile? The clever one who knows which questions to ask and when to laugh? That version of me feels both familiar and far away, like a song I once knew the words to but can’t quite hum anymore.
I glanced toward the yellow paper packet of lemon pastilles resting on my vanity. The ribbon had come slightly undone.
I thought I was running from the stifling predictability of home. But maybe I’m just afraid I won’t know how to fit into it anymore. Or worse—that I’ll slide back into place too easily and forget what it felt like to be… here. To be uncertain. Untethered. Alive.
To walk along a sunlit shore with someone who makes time feel like it’s breathing beside me.
Colin will disembark too, I suppose. But not for long. He’ll board another ship soon enough. I don’t know where to. I haven’t asked. He hasn’t offered. But part of me already mourns it. The ending. Even though nothing’s begun.
I closed the journal gently, pressing the weight of my hand to the cover. For tonight, I will let the questions hang like stars I’m not yet ready to name.
Tomorrow, I will be my father's daughter, a guest of Genoa, patron of silk and scenes. But tonight, just for a little while longer, I am only me. A girl with pastilles on her tongue, and salt still in her hair, and something like the beginning of a story still warm in her chest.
a/n: a lil sumn sumn on this idea brewing in my head for a while. i hope you, dear reader, enjoy my imagination. ciao raga!
colin photo credits to @winnie-the-monster (took it from their post!) thanks <3
one. two.
Marseille, France - April 11, 1816
There I stood at the edge of the ship’s deck, the salty sea breeze tugging at my hair, the gentle swoosh of the waves below filling my ears. It was then that I saw him. A striking man—scruffy, sun-kissed, the kind of traveler who seemed as much a part of the journey as the ship itself. His hair was tousled by the wind, his movements effortless as he made his way through the crowd. In his hand, he clutched something —perhaps a notebook, a personal journal. I couldn't help but wonder what thoughts filled its pages.
As my gaze followed him, he paused in front of the officer, showing his ticket. And that’s when the light of the morning sun revealed him—dashing, like a prince charming brought to life, out of a bedtime fairytale, travelling to save a damsel in distress.
A squawk from a seagull snapped me back to reality, shaking me from my thoughts. Silly, fleeting thoughts. Even in the midst of my travels, I find myself yearning for the kinds of romances I’ve read about in books. My mother would’ve called me light-headed if she could hear my mind racing like this.
I glanced back only to lose sight of him. With a huff, I sat on one of the benches. The wind was still cool in the early morning when the crew members in the rigging started unfurling the sails, signaling that they were preparing to leave.
I looked out toward the sea, feeling the weight of its vastness pressing against my chest. How insignificant do I feel, standing here amidst these endless waters, beneath a sky that stretches farther than I could ever comprehend? In the grand scheme of life, I am but a mere speck, a fleeting moment in time. And yet, I like to believe that the places I’ve visited, the landscapes I’ve wandered through, have become a part of me—etched into my soul like the waves etched into the shore.
This journey, this soul-searching quest—what my father humorously calls my "soul-searching gig"—began after I realized, with a sinking heart, that I would absolutely loathe entering the marriage mart back home. It wasn’t that my parents would ever force me into anything; they were always kind, always gentle with their expectations. But the thought of being tied down to a life I didn’t choose, a life of rules and conventions that felt so foreign to me, was enough to push me out of the comfort of home and into the world. I needed to breathe, to discover what truly made my heart race—not the promises of an arranged future, but the freedom of finding my own path, even if it meant wandering far from the life I once knew.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t despise the idea of becoming a homemaker. In fact, I’m quite skilled at it. I can create a warm, inviting home and take care of the little details that make life comfortable. But the idea of raising another human, shaping their thoughts and their future, fills me with a deeper sense of responsibility. If I’m going to do that, I want to fill them with stories—stories of places far beyond the walls of our home. I want to teach them about the world, about the beauty and complexity of life outside our small circle. But how could I possibly impart those lessons if I haven't experienced them myself?
On the other hand, there’s this restlessness inside me, a deep desire to break free from the weight of my family’s name, to step out into the world without the expectations that it carries. I want to explore, to experience life on my own terms, far away from the path that’s already been laid out for me. It’s not that I reject my roots, but rather, I long for the freedom to define myself—not by what others expect of me, but by what I choose to become in the vast, open world.
I like to believe I am meant for greater things, I am meant for the highs and its lows. I am meant for the worl—
“Oh!” I gasped, as my knees were knocked to the side and my clutch flew from my grasp, scattering everything across the floor—my journal, pens, powder kit, and more.
“Ah—shit. Oh, gosh, I’m so sorry! I wasn’t looking where I was going. Let me get that for you,” a voice said, rich with a posh accent.
As I looked up, my heart skipped a beat. There they were—Prince Charming, the man that captivated just moments ago. "It’s you…" I whispered, my gaze locked with his as he handed me my scattered belongings, a small, sheepish smile tugging at the corner of his lips.
"Come again?" he asked, his voice laced with confusion. He paused for a moment, then cleared his throat and looked at me with a small smile, continuing, "Apologies, I wasn’t paying attention to where I was going. I truly apologize for causing this ruckus. I’d be happy to replace whatever I’ve damaged in your things, Miss…?"
"Y/L/N. Y/N Y/L/N," I replied, offering a soft laugh. "No need for such formalities. Please, call me Y/N."
“Y/N, a pleasure,” he replied, his tone smooth and measured. “My name is Colin. Colin Bridgerton. Quite unfortunate that we meet under such embarrassing circumstances, all caused by my clumsiness.”
"Oh it's alright. I've had my fair share of tumbles." I laugh.
“Let me make it up to you,” he asked, his tone polite yet warm. “Might I delight you with some lunch at the mess hall? It’s hardly the finest, but I’ve heard it’s not half bad.” I looped my arm through his, offering a playful smile. “A traveler’s never picky about the fare. Unless, of course, it’s really bad—like goop.” He let out a hearty laugh at my words, “I think I know what you mean by goop. I’ve probably had that somewhere.” He replied as we walked together, making our way toward the mess hall.
“So, Y/N,” he began casually, glancing over at me. “Where do you hail from, if you don’t mind my asking?”
I glanced at him, an amused smile tugging at my lips. “Oh, here and there, mostly. I suppose you could say I’m a bit of a wanderer, like yourself. And you? Are you the type to stay in one place, or do you prefer the open road?” He grinned, a glimmer of something mischievous in his eyes. “I like to think of myself as someone who stays just long enough to become a familiar face, but not long enough to get too… involved.” His words carried an air of mystery, as if he were speaking more to himself than to me. “A bit of a wanderer, I suppose, but with some boundaries.”
I chuckled, intrigued. “Boundaries, hm? Sounds like there’s a story there.”
“Perhaps,” he replied, a hint of something unreadable in his expression. “But I’m afraid some stories are best left untold for the moment.”
As we reached the mess hall, the faint scent of the day’s special—cioppino—filled the air, mingling with the aroma of fresh baguette. We grabbed our servings, a bowl of hearty stew and a slice of bread each, and found a quiet corner to sit.
“You know,” he said between spoonfuls, “I wasn’t sure what to expect when I saw the word cioppino on the menu. But this isn’t half bad.”
I smiled, taking a bite of my bread. “I think that’s the charm of it—it's seafood stew and bread; no expectations. Just… whatever happens. It just happens, and when it’s this good, like this stew, it's good.”
He nodded thoughtfully, his gaze meeting mine for a brief moment. “It’s good to be reminded that not everything has to be fancy and perfect to be… worthwhile.”
I met his gaze, a silent understanding passing between us. It was strange—how quickly we’d fallen into this easy rhythm, exchanging words like we had all the time in the world. There was something familiar about it, even though we were strangers.
After a few moments of comfortable silence, a shared chuckle broke the stillness. We’d both taken a bite at the same time, and for a brief second, our eyes locked in amusement.
There it was again. That connection. A silence hung between us, but this time, it was different. We weren’t just two people talking anymore. We were two people caught in a moment, a shared experience that didn’t need to be explained.
He held my gaze for a beat longer than usual before the faintest smile tugged at his lips. “Well, Y/N,” he said, voice low and teasing, “I must admit, I’m glad to have stumbled into you. Even if it was under less-than-ideal circumstances.”
I laughed, feeling a warmth spread through me that had nothing to do with the heat of the meal. “I’m glad you did, too,” I replied softly, not looking away from his eyes. “So, where are you headed to?”
I took a moment before answering, letting the rhythm of the ship and the warmth of the stew settle into the conversation. “I’m heading to Genoa, Italy. After that, I’ll probably stop by Livorno in Tuscany. I might make a detour through Nice or Monaco along the French Riviera—if the boat I’m on happens to make stops there.” I paused, considering the unpredictable nature of travel. “It’s not set in stone, but that’s the plan, for now.” He nodded, a glimmer of interest in his eyes. “Funny enough, I’m headed to Athens. Maybe I’ll take the same route, who knows?” His smile was easy, though something in his gaze seemed to suggest he was more intrigued by my journey than he let on.
After lunch, we wandered back onto the main deck, eventually settling into a pair of reclining chairs near the railing. The sun had dipped just enough to cast a soft golden light across the waves, and the wind had eased into a gentler breeze. The sea stretched endlessly before us, sparkling and vast, and time seemed to slow to the pace of the tide.
We spent the afternoon simply… talking. The conversation ebbed and flowed like the water around us—easy, unhurried, genuine. He spoke of nights spent under starlit skies in Alexandria, of bartering for trinkets in Istanbul’s crowded bazaars, and of a strange dinner invitation in Algiers that turned into one of the most memorable evenings of his travels.
I shared stories of a spontaneous hike along the Dalmatian coast, a rainstorm I got caught in outside of Dubrovnik, and the time I stayed with a family in Malta who insisted I learn how to knead bread properly before I left their home. We spoke not just of places, but of feelings—of how the world changes you in the quietest ways, of how foreign lands can somehow feel more like home than the one you left. We laughed often. Sometimes too loudly. At one point, a passing steward gave us a look that was somewhere between amusement and scolding. But we didn’t care. It felt good—light—to laugh like that. Eventually, after retelling a particularly chaotic story about a luggage mix-up at a port in Valencia and how I ended up with a bag full of children’s clothing and candied figs, our laughter softened. I looked over, and there he was, already watching me.
The silence that followed wasn’t awkward—it was comfortable. Like we both knew the conversation didn’t need words anymore. The sun was low now, casting amber light across his features, and the wind had tousled his hair just enough to make him look like a portrait out of a romantic novel. For a moment, we just looked at each other. No performance. No agenda. Just that quiet, lingering gaze. The kind that says, I think I’d like to know you a little longer. He looked over to his pocket watch, brow lifting slightly. “Ah, nearly time. I should freshen up—change into something less windswept. I was invited to a small gathering in the communal room this evening. An Italian friend I met on board is hosting. He insists it’s nothing formal, but I suspect otherwise.”
The air between us shifted—lighter, then suddenly a bit quieter. I didn’t quite know what to say. It felt silly to admit I didn’t want the day to end just yet.
“Well… I hope you have a good time,” I said, managing a polite smile, though it came out softer, almost uncertain. I busied myself brushing a crumb off my skirt, hoping the sun would hide the slight tint rising to my cheeks.
He stood, hesitated, then looked at me with a half-smile that was far too charming for my own good. “Do you think I’d go there alone and without you?” His voice was low, sincere. “There’s something about you, Y/N, that I don’t think I’d want to walk away from just yet. Besides… I’m not done getting to know you. A few hours in one afternoon doesn’t feel nearly enough.”I blinked, startled for a beat by the honesty of it—how easily he’d said it. That fluttering warmth stirred again in my chest, and without missing a beat, I tilted my head, lips curving into a playful smile.
“Well,” I said, rising to my feet with an exaggerated sigh, “if you insist. Though I’ll warn you—I don’t make for quiet company at parties. And I’m rather opinionated about communal wine.”
He chuckled, offering his arm once more. “All the more reason to have you there.”
The communal room was already thrumming with music by the time we arrived—fiddles and accordions singing together in lively harmony, the rhythmic stomp of shoes keeping time on the wooden floors. Laughter floated in the air, accompanied by the scent of roasted chestnuts and cheap wine. Lanterns strung across the ceiling swayed gently with the motion of the ship, casting golden halos of light over the dancing crowd.
It was a riot of life—children darting through legs, elderly couples swaying arm in arm, strangers spinning one another as though they’d known each other for years. No titles. No polished etiquette. Just joy. Colin kept close, his jacket exchanged for a looser shirt with sleeves rolled to the elbow, a small kerchief knotted at his neck. He looked… less like the well-bred gentleman I first met and more like someone who had been made for this kind of evening. Real. Unbuttoned, in every sense.
“Do you dance?” he asked, raising a brow.
I smirked. “Well, I try.”
The fiddle struck a playful tune, and before I could get a word in edgewise, he had already grabbed my hand with a grin that spelled mischief. “No more hiding, Miss Y/N.”
“Wait—what are you—oh!”
He spun me out, then right back into his chest, laughter bubbling out of both of us as I collided with him. “Apologies,” he said, not sounding the least bit sorry. “You're surprisingly light on your feet. When you’re not resisting.”
“I’m not resisting,” I shot back, breathless. “I’m regaining balance. There’s a difference.”
“Oh? Then let’s test it.”
He twirled me again, the movement sudden, dizzying, delightful. I caught a glimpse of strangers whistling from the sidelines, clearly entertained. The air smelled of wine and salt, the floorboards trembled beneath dozens of stomping feet, and my hand stayed firmly in his.
“Alright,” I said between breathless laughs. “You dance better than I expected.”
He raised an eyebrow. “I’ll take that as a compliment—though I’d ask what exactly you were expecting.”
“A stiff waltz. Lots of counting. Maybe a pained expression.”
He laughed—freely, deeply. “And here I thought I was being charming.”
“Oh, don’t worry,” I said, flashing him a grin. “You’re charming enough.”
The music shifted again, a sudden sharp beat that made him raise both brows. “Think you can keep up?”
I narrowed my eyes. “Try me.”
We threw ourselves into the rhythm—arms swinging, boots sliding, skirts swirling, our laughter melting into the music. He moved with an ease that surprised me, like someone who’d danced like this before, not in ballrooms, but on docks, under lanterns, among strangers. I matched him beat for beat, driven by nothing but adrenaline and the way he kept looking at me like I was the most entertaining thing in the room.
There was a moment—just a breath—when he caught me after a quick turn, our faces inches apart. His hand had slid a little higher on my waist. My own hand had curled against the collar of his shirt. He was smiling, but softer now.
“I don’t think I’ve ever seen you smile like that,” he murmured, voice just loud enough for me to hear over the music.
“You’ve only known me for a day,” I replied, teasing, though my voice was quieter now.
He smiled, eyes locked on mine. “Then I suppose I’ll need another. And another. However many it takes.”
I tilted my head, leaning in just a little. “Careful, Mr. Bridgerton. You’re starting to sound like a man with intentions.”
He grinned, unbothered. “Maybe I am.” And as the tune slowed to a gentle end, we broke apart, reluctantly, still smiling. The moment hung between us—warm and fuzzy, like the last note of a song that refused to fade.
Just then, a voice called out from across the room, rich and rolling, with an unmistakably Italian lilt. “Colino! You made it!” A man with wild dark curls and a mischievous smile made his way through the crowd, arms wide as if he might sweep the entire room into a hug. “And with company, mamma mia! Who is this enchanting creature?”
Colin chuckled and stepped aside slightly, hand still resting at the curve of my waist. “Y/N, meet Luca. The life of the ship, as he’ll tell you himself, multiple times.” Luca gave a dramatic bow, then gently took my hand and pressed a quick kiss to my knuckles. “Piacere, signorina Y/N. You are as radiant as a Tuscan sunrise. Has my friend been charming you with his brooding poet routine?”
“More like tripping over my belongings and pretending it was fate,” I replied with a grin. Luca laughed, delighted. “Ah, then he is being himself—good. You must stay close, cara mia. If I had known Colin would arrive with such lovely company, I would’ve prepared a proper serenade!”
“I think she’s had quite enough of your serenades,” Colin said, nudging him with a mock glare.
“Only because you’re jealous I sing better,” Luca shot back, winking at me. “He hides it well, but he’s soft for pretty things. Books, paintings… now you.” I blinked at that—half flattered, half unsure how to respond. Colin only shook his head with a small, sheepish smile. Luca turned to him and clapped a hand on his shoulder. “Don’t let her slip away, amico. She has the kind of spark that makes other women look like half-lit candles.”
“Alright, alright,” Colin said, laughing now. “You’ve said more in one minute than I’ve said all afternoon.”
“Because you speak with your eyes,” Luca said knowingly, giving us both a teasing look before disappearing back into the crowd, swept up by another group of dancers.
There was a beat of quiet as Colin and I watched him go.
“Remind me not to let him talk to my mother,” I joked, lifting my brow. Colin turned to me, that familiar softness in his eyes again. “Oh, I don’t know. I think he rather approves of you.”
“And what about you?” He tilted his head thoughtfully, the corners of his mouth tugging into that smile I was starting to memorize. “I think I’m already in trouble.”
The music swelled again, brighter and rowdier as another round of dancers filled the room. The party had picked up pace, growing louder with every cup of wine poured. Laughter rang out from every corner, people clapping in rhythm, spinning and stomping as though the night itself depended on it. I was mid-laugh, turning to say something to Colin when a rather enthusiastic—and clearly intoxicated—dancer stumbled back into me. His elbow hit my shoulder, and with a sharp slosh, a mug of mead tipped over and spilled down the front of my lace front skirt.
“Oh!” I gasped, stepping back, lifting the hem slightly as the sticky liquid soaked into the dress underneath the lace front. The man slurred out something that vaguely resembled an apology before being swept back into the dancefloor, unaware of the chaos he left behind.
I blinked, trying to shake it off with grace, but the weight of it—warm, syrupy, clinging—was quickly testing my patience. “I think I need some air,” I muttered, brushing at the fabric. Colin was already beside me, concern etched across his face. “Come on,” he said gently. “This way.” He guided me out of the crowded room, weaving through the corridors and up the narrow stairwell until we stepped out onto the upper deck. The contrast was immediate. The cool night air kissed my cheeks, and the hush of the sea wrapped around us like a balm. I walked toward the railing, holding up my skirts to keep them from dragging, and leaned over slightly, breathing in the salt and moonlight. The stars stretched above us, uninterrupted and infinite.
“That was graceful,” I said dryly. “I’m a walking tavern now.” Colin gave a quiet chuckle behind me. “If it’s any consolation, you wear mead well.”
I turned, raising a brow. “Now that’s a line.” He leaned beside me on the railing, smiling. “No, a line would be something like: ‘The stars seem dull next to how you shine even when soaked in drink.’ But I thought I’d keep some mystery.” I let out a small laugh, shaking my head. “You’re impossible.”
“I am persistent,” he corrected, eyes steady on mine. “Which, in my experience, is more useful.”
There was a long pause. The waves whispered below. The ship creaked gently. The air between us buzzed—not loud or demanding, just aware. I looked out to the sea, then back to him. “You really aren’t in a rush to get to Athens, are you?” He smiled slowly, like he was savoring the question. “Not if it means missing this.” I reply with a shy laugh, What a charmer.
A gust of wind tugged at the soaked hem of my skirt, and I shivered slightly—not entirely from the chill. “As charming as your compliments are,” I said with a tired little smile, “I think I need to change into something that doesn’t smell like a tavern floor. And I’m fairly certain my feet have started a quiet rebellion from all that dancing.” Colin turned to face me more fully, his smile softening. “Of course. You’ve been quite the star of the evening. And generous with your company.”
“I think I’ve just used up a week’s worth of words,” I murmured, brushing a stray strand of hair from my cheek. “And I’m starting to sound like an old woman.” He chuckled. “Then you’re the liveliest old woman I’ve ever danced with.” I nudged his shoulder lightly with mine as I passed by him. “Flattery, Mr. Bridgerton, will get you only so far.”
He walked with me down the deck, the mood between us quieter now—still light, but threaded with that kind of late-night tenderness that follows shared laughter and too much wine. As we reached the stairwell that would lead me back down to my bunk, we paused. “I’ll let you get some rest,” he said, one hand resting casually on the railing. “Though I’ll admit, I had half a hope this day wouldn’t end so soon.” I smiled at him, fingers curling slightly around the banister. “Then I guess you’ll just have to charm me again tomorrow.”
He bowed his head slightly, grin tugging at one side of his mouth. “A challenge I very much look forward to.” I lingered for just a moment longer, then turned to go. My skirt still stuck to my legs a little, the scent of mead faint in the air, but my chest was light, and my steps even lighter.
As I walked away towards my lodging, I didn’t need to look back to know he was watching.
bridgerton is so fucking fun. each season they pick the two hottest people you've ever seen in your life, tell a ridiculously romantic story with them, set the whole thing vaguely in the regency era but make the costumes more camp and ridiculously elaborate in the best way every season, make the hot people bang, craft intricate and breathtaking sets, flesh out incredibly well a bevy of characters, then cast some more super hot people of colour to play characters that were white in the books. all of that from source material that is cheesy and they make it excellent and more progressive. I want a million seasons.
a/n: can't believe i'm writing this to a t. swift song lol let's just say miss y/n is in her lover girl era (as she always has been duh!) apologies for the loooong delay, here is the fourth! enjoy! ciao raga!
five times series: the first. the one point five. the second. the third. the three point five. the fourth. at last.
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the fourth.
A gentle knock echoed at the door as Grandmama stood at the threshold of my study. "I shall be with you shortly, Your Grace. I merely need to finalize these accounts for our subjects," I replied softly my nose buried deep in papers, my voice perhaps subdued as I tallied the month's expenses.
"Y/N dear, I am merely here to check on your well-being," she remarked, gracefully lowering herself onto the velvet chair by my desk. The soft rustle of her gown accompanied the taps of her cane with her movement. "This laborious work should be left to our stewards. The task of accounting is their duty, after all. I have compensated them generously, for I can no longer endure the perplexity of these numbers," she continued waving her hand, and her tone a blend of authority and genteel exasperation. The flickering candles' light cast a warm glow across the room, highlighting the rich wood paneling and the intricate embroidery of her attire.
I chuckled softly at her remark and looked up from my work. "I understand, Grandmama. While we do employ capable estate managers, surely it is prudent to review our accounts ourselves from time to time," I responded, but gave her a quizzical look as she is dressed for the night. "But I see you are dressed quite elegantly. Is there an occasion I am unaware of? Am I amiss of something?"
Grandmama's eyes twinkled with a hint of mischief as she responded. "Ah, my dear, have you forgotten? The Bridgerton Masquerade Ball is tonight. I rather suspected you might need a reminder," she said, a teasing smile playing on her lips as she adjusted the folds of her gown. "It appears you have been quite forgetful of late, given how much you’ve been gallivanting about recently."
I scoffed as I placed my quill down. "Me? Gallivanting? Whatever gives you the idea that I have been gallivanting, Your Grace?"
"You may be the season's paragon, Y/N, but you are my blood, and I know you well," Grandmama replied, rising with a regal air, her cane tapping the wooden floor of the study with a soft but firm rhythm. "And you are under my roof. Best to remember that nothing escapes my notice in my own home."
I felt a flush of embarrassment rise to my cheeks. Her knowing gaze left me momentarily speechless as she stood to close the door.
"Dear, you may not consider me one to meddle or delve into the ton’s gossip sheet—Whistledone or whatever it is called, I do not pay mind—I am quite aware of the mention it made of you and your suitor, Mr. Bridgerton, on the past week." she said tinged with concern. She sat on the nearest couch and motioned I join her by sitting beside. "Amazingly, it has blown over. You know how the ton moves from one gossip to another but I couldn't not help but wonder how you are doing."
"Grandmama, how did you really know?" I moved towards her, the weight of last week's events pressing heavily upon me. Her calm demeanor offered a comforting invitation to discuss what I wished to forget but could not.
"Ah, Deborah told me. Our servants talk, you know."
"This is all part of the courting, isn't it? The season is not yet concluded, yet none of the other suitors compare to the connection I feel with Benedict, Grandmama." Some steamy connection by ivy tendrils we have then, I thought.
Her Grace regarded me with a gentle but concerned expression, her voice carrying the weight of years of experience and care. "My dear, courtship is a wondrous journey filled with emotions that can sweep one off their feet. Your connection with Benedict is undoubtedly special, and I can see the joy it brings you." She paused, a hint of sadness touching her eyes. "But remember, my darling, our world can be both beautiful and unforgiving. While love is a treasure, marriage brings not only joy but also stability and the assurance of a secure future."
Her hand gently rested on mine, a gesture of comfort and guidance. "The ton's expectations and the passing of time are relentless. I hope you find someone who cherishes you and our family's legacy as much as Benedict seems to do. Your happiness and our honor depend on it. Unfortunately, we both are all but women."
"Grandmama," I began, my voice almost amiss on what to say, "I know the importance of our family’s legacy, and I am grateful for your guidance. But I can't ignore the small voice within me that longs for something more than just duty."
"Benedict is… admirable, and perhaps he does see you for who you are," Grandmama says softly, her gaze piercing as ever. "But I wonder—can he truly grasp the dreams that live inside you, the ones that defy the walls society builds around us? Or would those dreams wither in a life governed solely by duty and honor?"
With that, she turns toward the door, her graceful movements echoing her own years of mastering the role she now urges me to consider. I watch her, words slipping from my grasp, feeling almost foolish as I stand there in silence. I know her intentions are good; she has always devoted herself to guiding me, preparing me to inherit our family legacy. After all, she is my Grandmama, a Viscountess—and a formidable one at that.
Pausing briefly at the doorway, she casts me one last knowing glance. "Well, then," she says, her voice light yet layered with meaning, "do make haste if you intend to be charmed by any particular prince at tonight’s ball. I daresay the heir to your heart might be waiting… if only you’re brave enough to seize him."
And with that, she sweeps out, leaving me alone with the delicate ache of her words—an ache that lingers as I consider just what I desire beyond the expectations of our world. Her departure stirs something restless within me, a longing that stretches beyond gilded halls and fine silk gowns, reaching for something I cannot quite name.
But I do know this: tonight, at the masquerade ball, I owe a certain prince charming at least one dance, or all the dances of the night.
The carriage rattled gently as it wound its way through the cobblestone streets, its lanterns casting flickering shadows on the elegant facades of London’s finest houses. I leaned back against the plush seat, my gloved hands clutching the sapphire-encrusted mask Grandmama had insisted I wear. Her words lingered in my mind, an intricate web of wisdom and caution.
Was she right? Could Benedict truly grasp the essence of my dreams, the ones that extended far beyond the season’s fleeting amusements and whispered promises?
The thought clung to me like ivy as the carriage slowed, its wheels crunching softly over the gravel of the Bridgerton estate. From the windows, I could see the golden glow spilling from the ballroom’s tall windows, accompanied by the faint strains of music.
“You’ve arrived, milady,” the footman announced as he opened the door. I smoothed the folds of my gown, its deep sapphire fabric shimmering like a calm sea under moonlight, and took his offered hand to step down.
The scene was dazzling, even from the courtyard. Carriages lined the drive, and figures adorned in silks and masks ascended the grand staircase in pairs and clusters. Laughter mingled with anticipation in the crisp night air, and my heartbeat quickened.
I adjusted my mask as I reached the top of the steps, the intricate design both concealing and amplifying my identity. Tonight, I could be someone else, if only for a moment. Someone bold, someone unencumbered by the weight of my family’s legacy.
The footman at the entrance nodded, his white-gloved hand pulling open the door to reveal a world of light and color. The ballroom was alive with movement, the guests spinning like constellations against a backdrop of gilded grandeur. Chandelier crystals glittered like stars, and the scent of roses and honeyed wine lingered in the air.
I stepped inside, my entrance drawing a few curious glances that quickly melted into polite nods. My late arrival had not gone unnoticed, but the anonymity of the masquerade granted me a somewhat reprieve.
Across the room, I spotted Grandmama near the far wall, her crimson gown a beacon amidst the swirling crowd. Her discerning gaze met mine for a brief moment, and though she did not approach, her slight nod spoke volumes.
It was a moonlit night, and the crisp air of London's season hummed with anticipation. The Bridgerton estate had outdone itself, hosting a grand masquerade ball to celebrate the close of yet another bustling social season. The manor glared with golden light, spilling from tall windows, and masked guests moved like wraiths of silk and jewels across the polished floors. The air buzzed with murmurs and laughter, and the melodic strains of a string quartet.
As I descended the marble steps into the heart of the ballroom, a hush seemed to ripple through the crowd. It was subtle, a shift in the air that only those attuned to the nuances of the ton would notice. The Season’s Paragon, as they so often called me, had arrived.
I felt the weight of their gazes—curious, admiring, envious—all fixed upon me. The soft rustle of my gown against the polished floor was the only sound I registered amidst the symphony of murmurs and the faint strains of the orchestra. The sapphire hue of my dress, paired with the glittering mask, seemed to catch the light in just the right way, casting a glow that matched the chandeliers above.
Whispers followed me like shadows.
"Is that Lady Y/N?"
"She always knows how to make an entrance, doesn’t she?"
"Late, but worth the wait," another murmured, their voice tinged with awe.
I held my head high, my mask granting me the confidence to ignore the flutter of nerves in my chest. Tonight, I was not just the dutiful granddaughter or the heiress to a noble title—I was a mystery, a dream wrapped in silk and jewels.
At the base of the stairs, a figure stepped forward. His tall frame was unmistakable, his presence commanding despite the anonymity of his own mask. Benedict Bridgerton. His gaze locked onto mine, and I swore the air between us grew warmer, charged with an electricity neither of us could deny.
"Lady Y/N," he greeted, his voice a low timbre that sent a shiver down my spine. He bowed slightly, the movement elegant and deliberate. "Fashionably late, as always. You have the uncanny ability to steal the room’s attention, even when you try not to."
"And yet, Mr. Bridgerton, I find myself wondering if you waited just long enough to see it," I replied, a playful lilt to my tone.
His lips curved into a smile, one that reached his eyes. "You wound me, my lady. Would you deny me the pleasure of the first dance after such a dramatic entrance?"
The orchestra struck up a waltz, the perfect cue for his outstretched hand. I hesitated for only a moment before placing my gloved hand in his. His grip was firm yet gentle, and as he led me to the center of the floor, the crowd parted like waves for us, their murmurs fading into the background.
The music swelled, and we began to move. Benedict’s hand rested lightly at my waist, guiding me effortlessly through the steps. The world around us blurred, the other dancers mere apparitions as our movements synchronized in perfect harmony.
"You’ve been avoiding me," he said softly, his voice low enough for only me to hear.
"I’ve been busy," I replied, though the words sounded hollow even to my own ears.
"Busy," Benedict repeated, a bitter edge creeping into his tone, though his lips curved into a faint, rueful smile. "I suppose that’s one way to phrase it. But tell me, Lady Y/N, is it the kind of busy that fills your day… or the kind that keeps your heart at bay?"
His words hung in the air between us, the waltz carrying us effortlessly across the floor. His hand on my waist tightened just enough for me to notice, a silent plea he couldn’t quite mask.
"You presume too much," I replied, keeping my voice light and measured, though I refused to meet his gaze directly. The truth there—his yearning, his ache—was too much, and I dared not confront it here, under the eyes of the entire ton.
"You think me a fool," he murmured, his breath warm against my cheek as he leaned in closer under the guise of guiding our dance. "But I see it in your eyes, Lady Y/N. You feel it too. What we shared that night—after the party—it wasn’t fleeting. It wasn’t nothing."
The memory of that night rushed back unbidden: the laughter and daring beneath ivy-covered arches, the sharp taste of wine and sweeter whispers in the shadows, his hand brushing mine in a way that left my skin alight with a thrill I hadn’t felt before—or since.
"And what would you have me do, Mr. Bridgerton?" I asked, my voice laced with feigned indifference. "Shout my secrets to the rafters? Proclaim to all that I—," I caught myself, pulling back from the edge of an admission I wasn’t ready to make. Instead, I tilted my head, my lips curving into a soft, disarming smile. "You misunderstand me, sir. Whatever you think you know of me… you do not."
He faltered for a beat, his step out of sync with the music, but quickly recovered. His jaw clenched, and I felt his frustration simmering beneath his otherwise composed exterior.
"You’re wrong," he said after a moment, his voice strained with an emotion I could not name. "I know you better than you think. Better, perhaps, than you know yourself."
The final strains of the waltz swelled, and with it, the tension between us reached its breaking point. As the applause of the crowd erupted, I curtsied, the movement graceful and deliberate, before he could press me further.
"Thank you for the dance, Mr. Bridgerton," I said, my tone polite but distant, an unspoken barrier erected between us.
"Lady Y/N, wait," he said, reaching out as if to stop me, his voice now raw and almost pleading. "There’s something I must ask you—something I’ve carried since that night…"
But I didn’t give him the chance. "Another time, perhaps," I interjected smoothly, retreating a step with a faint smile. "I find I am in need of some air."
Before he could protest, I turned on my heel and glided toward the terrace doors, the cool promise of the garden beckoning me away from his questions, his gaze, his unrelenting presence.
The night air was crisp against my skin as I stepped into the garden, the distant murmur of the ballroom fading into a hushed symphony of rustling leaves and the gentle trickle of a fountain. I let out a breath I hadn’t realized I was holding, my gloved hands gripping the stone balustrade as I gazed into the moonlit expanse.
The wisterias surrounded me like cascading waves of lavender, their delicate blooms swaying in the cool breeze. I sank onto the bench at the center of the hedge maze, my chest tightening with each unsteady breath. My gloves, damp from the heat of my frustration, slipped from my fingers onto the ground. I didn’t bother picking them up. Instead, I reached for my mask, undoing its clasp with trembling hands, and set it beside me as tears finally spilled over.
I tried to steady myself, inhaling deeply and exhaling shakily, but the ache inside me only seemed to grow stronger. My thoughts swirled, tangled like the vines above me. I couldn’t ignore the pull Benedict had on me any longer, no matter how hard I had tried. It was maddening. Every time I pushed him away, every time I told myself I could avoid him, the universe conspired to prove me wrong.
My heart felt like it might burst from my chest, the weight of it all pressing down on me. How could he stir something in me that I didn’t even understand? It wasn’t fair.
“Y/N.”
I froze, my name a soft plea carried on the night air.
I looked up, startled. Through blurry eyes, I saw him standing there, framed by the moonlight and the wisterias. His expression twisted something deep inside me—concern, longing, and something I couldn’t quite place.
Before I could gather my words, he was in front of me. He knelt down, his hands reaching for mine, but then he did something that undid me completely—he pulled me into his arms.
His warmth enveloped me, and the tears I had fought so hard to control came pouring out. My sobs shook me, muffled against his shoulder, and his arms only tightened around me as if to shield me from the world.
“You’re safe now,” he murmured, his voice gentle, yet filled with a quiet strength that seemed to wrap around me like a comforting embrace. “I’m here with you, and I won’t leave you, I promise.”
I clung to him, my fingers curling into the fabric of his coat. For a moment, I allowed myself to rest in his embrace, to feel the steadiness of his heartbeat against mine. But the storm inside me refused to quiet.
I pulled back slightly, enough to look at him. “Could you truly grasp the essence of my dreams, Benedict?” My voice trembled as I spoke. “The ones that extend far beyond the season’s fleeting amusements and whispered promises?”
His brows furrowed, and he looked at me with a tenderness that made my breath hitch. “Tell me,” he said softly. “Let me understand.”
I hesitated, searching his face for any sign of ridicule or dismissal, but all I found was a quiet intensity. Taking a shuddering breath, I let the words spill out.
“I can’t live a life bound by society’s expectations,” I admitted. “I don’t want to be confined to the role of a dutiful wife, expected only to bear heirs and keep a perfect household. That can’t be all there is for me. I need more, Benedict. I want more. I want to be more.”
Tears welled in my eyes again, and I turned my head away, ashamed of the vulnerability I’d just laid bare. “I don’t know if you could ever understand that,” I whispered.
To my surprise, he gently cupped my face, his touch warm and steady as he turned me back to him. His thumb brushed away a tear, and he leaned closer, his eyes meeting mine with an intensity that made my heart stutter.
“Y/N,” he said, his voice low and sure, “I would never ask you to give up your dreams. Whatever it is you desire, whatever you want to become, I want to be the one who stands beside you, not the one who holds you back.”
I stared at him, his words sinking into the cracks of my guarded heart.
“You are so much more than what society expects,” he continued. “And if that means defying every rule to let the world see you for who you truly are, then I’ll defy them with you. Every step of the way.”
A soft sob escaped me, this one born of something other than despair. I reached up, my hand resting against his cheek, feeling the warmth of him under my touch. “Benedict…” I whispered, my voice breaking.
“I mean it,” he said, leaning into my hand. “Whatever it takes. You’re not alone in this.”
His words hung in the air like a charged current, his eyes never leaving mine as I absorbed the weight of what he was offering. The moonlight bathed him in a soft glow, making him look almost ethereal—yet it was his sincerity that struck me with full force.
“Marry me,” Benedict’s voice was quiet but filled with an urgency that left me breathless. He cupped my face more firmly, his touch tender yet desperate, as if the words had been long buried in his heart, waiting for the right moment.
I blinked, unable to process what I had just heard. "Marry you?" My voice was a whisper, torn between disbelief and an ache I hadn’t known how to name until now.
He nodded, his expression unwavering. “Yes. Marry me, Y/N.”
I took a shaky breath, my chest tightening. "But... Benedict, you don't understand. I—"
He interrupted, his gaze deepening, searching mine for the truth behind my hesitation. "I do understand. More than you think. You are not just a duty, or a responsibility, or a future mother of heirs. You're more than that, and I will show you a life beyond the confines of this society. A life where we are not defined by titles or traditions but by the love we choose to share."
I looked at him, still stunned by his words, his declaration. How could he, the second son of the Bridgerton family, one of the most influential houses in London, be asking me to step away from all that? I was nothing more than a girl with dreams too vast for the world to contain. I couldn't fathom a future where I wasn't bound by duty—duty to my family, to society, to expectations.
“You—You’re not the perfect cut of the ton either,” I whispered, my voice trembling with confusion. “Why would you choose this life? To be tied to someone like me, someone who defies the very order of things?”
Benedict’s lips curled into a small, understanding smile. “Because I’m not perfect,” he said, his voice full of warmth and certainty. “And neither are you, Y/N. But I’ve never been more certain of anything in my life. I love you, truly. Not because you fit some mold or role society has set for you. I love you for the woman you are—brave, passionate, and unapologetically yourself. More than duty, more than heirs, more than any expectation of this world.”
I stood frozen, my heart thundering in my chest. Could I believe him? Could I step into a world that was not constrained by the suffocating rules of society? A world where Benedict was willing to offer me his love—freely, unconditionally?
He reached out and gently took my hand in his, his thumb tracing over the delicate skin of my wrist as he looked into my eyes, unwavering. “Y/N, marry me. And let me show you a life where we are free to live as we choose. A life where you are more than just a dutiful wife. You are the woman I love. The woman I will fight for.”
Tears welled up in my eyes again, but this time, they were different. They weren’t born of fear or confusion, but of hope, of a possibility I had never dared to imagine. Could I really leave behind everything I had known, everything I had been taught to accept, and walk beside him into a future of our own making?
“Benedict…” I whispered again, my voice trembling with something deeper now—emotion, desire, and the pull of a future that seemed too perfect to be true.
His fingers gently cupped my chin, bringing me closer to him as his lips hovered just above mine. "Marry me, Y/N. I promise you, it will be a life beyond your wildest dreams. A life we build together, without the restrictions of duty, of society’s gaze. I will give you everything I have."
I looked up at him, my heart in my throat. Could I take this leap? Could I trust him with my dreams, with my heart?
For the first time in my life, I felt the weight of all the impossible choices fade, replaced by the pull of a love that felt like freedom.
“Yes,” I whispered, the word slipping from my lips like a prayer. “Yes, I will marry you.”
The moment the words left my mouth, he smiled, his face lighting up with a joy that mirrored my own. He leaned in, his lips capturing mine in a kiss that was soft, yet full of promises too vast for words. In that kiss, I felt everything—the weight of the world lifting, the chains of expectation falling away, and the undeniable truth that no matter what the future held, we would face it together, free.
Benedict pulled away slightly, his smile softening as he looked down at me. His thumb brushed against my cheek, wiping away the last of the tears that had slipped from my eyes, leaving a gentle warmth in its wake. I felt as if I had just woken from some long, foggy dream, but his presence anchored me firmly in reality.
“You know,” he said, his voice teasing but still filled with that underlying warmth, “as much as I would love to stay here with you, I’m afraid someone might notice we’ve been gone a little too long.”
I blinked, the seriousness of the moment dissipating like fog in the morning sun. “Oh, goodness. You’re right,” I replied, suddenly feeling aware of the late hour, the whispered chatter inside the ballroom that I knew must be continuing without us. A small laugh escaped my lips, light and almost a bit incredulous. “What would they think of us? Disappearing into the maze in the middle of the night?”
Benedict grinned, his eyes sparkling with a mix of mischief and affection. “They’d think we were off having some forbidden tryst, of course.” He winked. “And I’m sure some of the older chaperones would have a lot to say about that.”
I couldn’t help but laugh, the sound of it carrying through the night air, easing away the tension that had lingered in my chest. The weight of everything—of dreams, of responsibilities—seemed lighter now, like a distant memory. Benedict had a way of grounding me, of bringing me back to the moment, and this was one of those rare moments when the chaos of the world outside felt far removed from us.
“Well, we certainly wouldn’t want to give anyone any ideas,” I said, my lips curving into a playful smile.
Benedict's eyes softened again, his hand brushing against mine. “Of course not,” he said with mock seriousness. “But, truly, before anyone thinks we’ve become completely lost in here, I think it’s time to rejoin the festivities.” He looked around, almost as though the garden itself was a labyrinth of endless possibility, and then returned his gaze to me, his voice low and full of affection. “Though, I’d much rather stay here with you. But duty calls, doesn’t it?”
“Always,” I replied with a mock sigh, suddenly feeling a little lighter. His easy way of handling everything, his ability to turn the most serious of moments into something that didn’t feel so heavy, was something I found myself increasingly drawn to.
He took my hand, guiding me gently to my feet. “Come now, before someone notices we’ve been gone for too long. Let’s slip back inside before anyone becomes too suspicious.”
I nodded, allowing him to pull me along as we made our way out of the maze, the soft scent of wisteria still lingering in the cool night air. As we neared the garden’s edge, the lights from the ballroom grew brighter, and the sounds of laughter and music filled the air once again.
We paused for a moment, standing just beyond the hedge, our hands still intertwined. Benedict turned to me, his smile warm and full of promise.
“You know, the moment we step back in there, I’ll have to return to being that dashing, perfect gentleman everyone expects me to be,” he said, his voice light and teasing. “But right now, in this moment, it’s just us. And that’s all that matters.”
I chuckled softly, squeezing his hand. “Let’s keep it our little secret, shall we? The world inside can wait.”
“Agreed,” he said, his eyes twinkling with mischief. “Now, let’s go before your Grandmama sends someone to find you. I believe she has a particular fondness for making sure you never miss the next waltz.”
I laughed again, a full, genuine sound that felt like music in my own chest. “You know, I think you may be right,” I said. “Let’s not give her any reason to worry about her wayward granddaughter.”
Together, we emerged from the maze, our laughter still echoing softly through the night, as the path ahead opened up into the grand, glittering ballroom. For a moment, it felt as though the world had paused—just for us.
But as we entered the ballroom, the illusion of time caught up with us, and with a final, lingering glance, Benedict let go of my hand, the flickering lights and polished floors once again drawing us back into the well-practiced dance of the ton.
Yet, something had changed. A shift, subtle yet undeniable. For the first time in a long while, I felt as though the masks we wore were no longer just a way to hide our true selves, but perhaps the first step toward revealing something far more real, far more powerful than any of us had known before.
The ballroom was in full swing, the grand chandeliers casting a warm glow over the guests as the music swelled and twirled, just like the dancers on the floor. The air was thick with conversation and laughter, the weight of the evening’s festivities almost palpable. My Grandmama was engaged in lively conversation with the Dowager Viscountess, Lady Violet Bridgerton, as we stood near the drinks table, offering polite nods and smiles to various acquaintances who came and went.
“Lady Y/N, my dear,” Grandmama’s voice broke through the chatter, drawing my attention. “The last dance of the season is fast approaching. You simply must accept a few more dances tonight to close out the evening, and, of course, the season.”
I stifled a sigh, but I knew better than to argue. It was tradition, after all. And though I wasn’t particularly fond of the idea of dancing with every eligible bachelor in the room, I knew it was expected. I gave Grandmama a reassuring smile, nodding in agreement.
“Of course, Grandmama,” I replied, my voice a touch too bright, as though I hadn’t just spent the evening contemplating everything that had transpired between me and Benedict in the hedge maze. “I’ll be sure to take part in the dances. It wouldn’t do to disappoint anyone, would it?”
She chuckled softly, her sharp gaze sweeping over the ballroom as if already measuring the gentlemen who would soon approach. “Good girl. You’re much too proper for your own good, but I do hope you’ll choose a dance partner wisely.” Her eyes flickered briefly over the room, as if weighing her options.
I, however, had already begun to scan my own dance card in my hand, taking it out and glancing at the names already written across the night’s list. As I scanned the page, I couldn’t help but let out a small laugh, my heart fluttering slightly at the sight.
Benedict. Benedict. Benedict. His name was written on every single line. My gaze lingered on the flowing script, feeling an odd sense of warmth bubble up in my chest. It was both absurd and endearing that he had taken the liberty of filling out my entire card. A few quiet chuckles escaped me as I lifted my gaze to meet his across the ballroom.
As if on cue, Benedict’s eyes met mine, and for a brief moment, the entire room seemed to fade away. The crowded dance floor, the lively chatter, the twinkling lights—all of it dissolved, leaving just the two of us locked in a gaze that spoke volumes without a single word being exchanged.
He grinned, a mischievous glint in his eyes, before nodding to me in acknowledgment. I could feel my pulse quicken, and for a moment, the absurdity of the situation—a card entirely filled with his name—seemed to wrap itself around me like a cocoon, softening the edges of everything else.
After a moment, Benedict began to make his way across the room, cutting through the sea of people with an easy confidence that somehow drew every eye. I couldn’t help but smile softly to myself as I watched him approach, his stride purposeful yet somehow still casual.
The ladies, including Grandmama and the Dowager Viscountess, watched him with a certain knowing air, no doubt having seen many a flirtation and polite request for a dance in their time. I could sense their amusement, though they said nothing aloud.
When Benedict reached us, he stopped just in front of me, his eyes flickering down to my dance card before meeting my gaze once more.
“I do believe I’ve taken the liberty of filling in every line of your card for the evening, my lady,” he said, his voice soft but teasing, a faint smile tugging at the corners of his lips. “I was rather hoping you might allow me the honor of the last dance of the night.”
I raised an eyebrow, the corner of my mouth twitching into a smile. “You seem to have been rather ambitious in your choices, Mr. Bridgerton,” I replied, my voice light, though I felt my heart flutter at the prospect of a final dance with him. “But I suppose it’s only fitting, isn’t it? You’ve already danced your way across my card without even asking.”
Benedict laughed softly, a rich sound that filled the space between us. “Well, I couldn’t very well leave it to chance, could I?” he said, his grin widening as he glanced at the amused looks of the other ladies in the group. “So, will you grant me the last dance of the night, Lady Y/N?”
My gaze flickered down to my card again, then back to him. There was no escaping it now, not that I wanted to. His presence, his warmth, had become an undeniable part of the evening, as though fate itself had decided we belonged in each other’s orbit for just a little longer.
With a soft, almost imperceptible sigh, I gave in. “I suppose it’s already been decided,” I said with a teasing smile. “You may have the last dance, Mr. Bridgerton.”
His smile widened at my acceptance, and without missing a beat, he offered me his arm. “Then, it’s a promise.”
I accepted his arm, the weight of the evening and all its emotions fading away in that simple gesture. The music swelled again, the air light and filled with promise. The moment I had been dreading—the end of the season—suddenly didn’t seem so dreadful after all.
The last dance of the night arrived with a soft swell of music, the orchestra’s strings and woodwinds weaving a melody that seemed to capture the very spirit of the evening. Benedict’s hand found mine, steady and warm, as he led me onto the floor, the crowd parting just enough to allow us a space among the final few dancers.
The soft glow of the chandelier above bathed us in golden light, the flickering shadows from the flames reflecting in his eyes. Our steps were fluid, effortless, as though we had danced this same dance a hundred times before, though it was only the second time our bodies had moved together like this. Benedict’s hand rested at the small of my back, his touch gentle but certain, guiding me with a confidence that made me feel as though the world outside the ballroom no longer existed.
I could feel the subtle sway of his movements, the rhythm of his heart beating in time with mine. He didn’t speak, not yet, but there was a quiet understanding between us, a connection that seemed to transcend the formality of the dance and go deeper—into something more personal, more fragile, than anything I had ever known.
As we glided across the floor, I found my breath in rhythm with his, each step carrying me further into the moment, away from the expectations of society, away from the responsibilities of my family, away from the constraints I had long believed I must carry. The dance had become a metaphor for everything I had feared and hoped for—freedom and belonging, duty and desire, all wrapped into a single movement, a single step.
For the briefest moment, I forgot about the future, about the weight of family legacy and expectations. I forgot about the mask I had worn all evening, the one I had placed so carefully on my face. In his presence, there was no need for pretense. It was just him and me, two souls caught in the fleeting moment of something pure.
And yet, even as we danced, my heart fluttered with the memory of the words Benedict had spoken not long before, his proposal hanging between us like an unspoken vow. “Marry me,” he had said, his voice steady but full of emotion. And I, without hesitation, had said yes. It wasn’t a decision made out of duty, but out of something deeper, something undeniable that had been growing between us since that first secret meeting at the party. I knew then that I didn’t just want him—I needed him, just as he seemed to need me.
As the final notes of the music echoed through the room, Benedict pulled me closer, his arms strong and secure around me. We finished the dance with a slow, graceful spin, our eyes locking in a silent promise. The crowd clapped, but the applause felt distant, almost irrelevant. All that mattered in that moment was the quiet between us, the shared understanding, the knowledge that the season had come to an end, but perhaps, this was only the beginning of something far more significant.
When the music stopped, Benedict didn’t immediately release me. Instead, he held me for just a moment longer, his face a mix of affection and determination.
"Until next time," he whispered, his breath warm against my ear.
I nodded, my heart racing, but my smile soft, certain. "Until next time."
As the crowd resumed its chatter and the last notes of the orchestra faded, we walked together off the dance floor, our steps in sync, neither of us yet ready to face what lay ahead—but knowing, with the smallest flicker of hope, that whatever the future held, we would meet it side by side.
And so, the evening closed, the final dance of the season over, but the possibilities of what came next lingering in the air like a soft, sweet promise.
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I don't think I have ever seen a "first time" scene so visceral, sincere, honest and incredible to watch. The gentleness, the awkwardness, the shyness, him constantly seeking her consent at every step, the passion, them giggling because they can be friends even while making love...it felt like I was actually intruding into someone's bedroom, every moment felt so genuine and sensuous.
This is why this season is hitting differently. The scene could've been just about raw sexual passion and we'd have lapped it up, but it was about two friends discovering each other for the first time together as lovers , it was kindness and sexuality and relief and joy in every frame. I refuse to ever get over this, they DELIVERED.
i just absolutely love to read posts around here on tumblr that analyze (dare i say, an over-analysis (a bit, a little) but pls understand that i understand the reach bcs it actually does make more sense) the bridgerton series. the scenes, provided in gifs or photos, and the characters especially their reactions to the premise of the happenings in the episode.
idk i'm probably just a sucker to adding more and more and MORE depth to (a) character/s (in worlds and realities i like) bcs tbh i do daydream about living during whenever and whatever timeline is set like in bridgerton.
these posts make the characters tangible, to me at least, in a way that it no longer feels like an actor doing their job or an artist interpreting an author's made-up character in their own artist way. it's as if they're real and they are someone who's lived a life just like i did (theirs is a more advantaged life, that is).
it also makes me reinterpret the meaning of what i've already watched and have had an understanding of the feel seen on screen. i'm gonna be honest.... i am not the most attentive person out there lmao my attention span is very short and i always want to do something while doing something else already.
and honestly, bridgerton is set durirng the regency and they do more unspoken than spoken emotions. i do get confused, probably bcs english isn't my 1st language and i have trouble identifying emotions.
posts like that make me think "wtf" too but i'm very open to entertaining bridgerton ideas of any kind esp since the tv series has already spun from its original writing. i mean, i was introduced to bridgerton through netflix and have not read the book (pls don't hate me😅) so i don't really know what to expect than what i've read around here on the internet.
but here i am reading away bcs it makes sense and it makes me feel all squishy having to feel emotions.
It’s the sheer happiness in her eyes for her brother and best friend followed by the sudden drop of emotions into that familiar pit of utter loneliness and sadness and the feeling that everyone around her is finding people they love and find comfort in but when she looks around her she can’t find that person for herself and she can’t figure out how to find that person for herself because she doesn’t even know herself right now and how the hell can she look for someone else when she’s still searching for herself?
I love how the hand holding scenes in each season are a perfect reflection of each couple's story. I realize that's precisely the point but it's still beautiful to see.
Daphne and Simon just sort of slowly come together until Daphne tentatively, tenderly moves her hand into his and he lets her. She chips away at his wall a little more and he allows it, even participates in it, like he knows it's what he needs.
With Kate and Anthony we don't actually get the holding part. Their story is all about wanting but not having, reaching but not meeting. It's painful to watch.
And with Colin and Penelope, we see them bump and fumble their way together until they both commit to it with equal strength and certainty, holding each other steady. A shaky start that leads to perfect harmony.
I'm sorry, but this is visual storytelling at its finest.
how i'm sleeping tonight knowing colin and penelope are happily married with a healthy baby, benedict and francesca are bi, kate and anthony are going to india to visit edwina and give birth to their baby (and maybe already have since penelope has), eloise is friends with penelope again and going to see more of the world as she wanted, francesca is on her honeymoon with john, michaela end game is on the horizon, violet finding love again, and benedict is next season.
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