Sabastian

A hole in the dark

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I’m genuinely happy right now.

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Snow concert was so fun. Had an amazing night and for some reason now I’m home and it’s four am and I’m watching my content and thinking about tonight and just having this weird anxiety about how people perceive me. I deleted some tweets and I’m just like weirdly embarrassed of myself and I hate it. I had such a good night, and I just was honest about what was happening tonight in a way I thought was funny. And now I want to delete everything. I hate that I saw that video of me talking about how the ups worker thought I was cis and I didn’t believe it. It happened to me. But my first thought was that no one would believe that I ever passed. I do all the time though. What’s wrong with me. I had so much fun…. I wish I was different

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You know what’s fucked up. Talking to a friend with depression about my adhd problems and having them go... are you sure your not just using that as an excuse bc you’re just lazy? It’s crazy the things you will let someone say to you when you see them with rose colored glasses. Hahaha fuck you bro.

But now I never want to talk about it publicly or share posts about it and it’s just like...... 🙄🙄🙄

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I wanna ruin our friendship but I can’t imagine life without it 🥺

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I don’t want to bring my dark cloud near you.

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You would make me feel so much better. Even if you said nothing 🏕

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I just want this to say 2 notes

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The place I have the some of the most fun experiences is also my greatest form of self harm. 

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Hi. It’s me again 🤡

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You ever been so lost in your mind you forget the limitations of your body?

I coughed. I’m back.

Thank you for joining I’m gonna jump back in now....

[bastianthebastard]

I don’t want to bring my dark cloud near you.

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You would make me feel so much better. Even if you said nothing 🏕

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I hate my life. I’m constantly trying to change it but I really don’t know what I’m doing. Sometimes I wanna kill myself but I’m not even strong enough to do that.... I hate living

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I really fucking hate xanax with a passion. But right now it would be pure bliss.

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Because sadness isn’t funny when it’s excessive

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To say my Twitter has been problematic is.... lmao an understatement

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The pressure to “man up” is something idk how to talk about

[bastianthebastard]

The place I have the some of the most fun experiences is also my greatest form of self harm. 

[bastianthebastard]

I don’t want to bring my dark cloud near you.

[bastianthebastard]

I’m on mushrooms and I couldn’t decide if this was funny. I’m having a hard time figuring out which jokes people will understand now. Maybe I’m over thinking it right now. Maybe funny is funny regardless. Idk. I don’t have anywhere to share these thought right now so...