genderfluid bunnygirl gendervoid thing. straight in the gayest way possible (heterogay).
transharmful in the ways people don't like & transitioning ^_^
byi: i am genuinely a terrible person, so please do be aware of this. not saying that to be edgy or wtv i am actually just awful
.co/tachyonz <- me irl (i will block dbls of my dbls dni appearances)
i am also EXTREMELY low empathy. (low empathy autistic + aspd combo)
also, no tone tags, please. if i am unsure of what the tone of a message is, i will ask. usually, i am pretty decent at figuring it out myself, so having tone tags used without me asking just kinda pisses me off lol (i will use them for other people, though)
the crowd DOES care and is interested in the tea 💅
but i hope the situation improves, take care of yourself!!
okay well sit tight because there is a LOTTT to talk about
heads up, i may sound a bit evil here, specifically in point 1 so pls bear with me. i promise im not pulling stuff out of my ass, i have genuine reason to believe what i do about that point
tw for trauma invalidation, mentions of csa and trafficking, and mentions of cults
okay, so the girl i have been talking about in my past few. tweaker posts. is actually my current gf who i will absolutely be breaking up with because of the insane amount of shit she keeps pulling
i will number each situation just to make them easier to refer back to if needed. ts is GENUINELY RIDICULOUS
1. she has been consistently lying about everything about herself. if this was done by someone who was rq or at least pro transid, i wouldnt care as much bc idk, maybe its like a transtrauma thing. however, she has gone out of her way to make fun of transids, specifically transabled & transtrauma people. also, her lying isnt even the main reason im bothered by it, but rather that she uses me & my bf's trauma as inspo for her stories. and you might be wondering what i mean by this.
WELL. when we first met, within like a month of speaking, she sent a long lengthy paragraph about her trauma, basically giving us a full timeline of everything she had gone through, all with the purpose of informing us that she was actively in a situation where she was being s/a'd every day by her father. now at first, we expressed sympathy, as people do when someone opens up like this. but we quickly noticed that whenever either of us would vent about our trauma, she would take pieces of it and suddenly also have something new to add to her story that was similar. for example, when she gave us that big extensive timeline, she never mentioned anything about trafficking. however, after i vented a few times about my trafficking trauma, she started implying that she had also gone through it. she did very similarly with my cult trauma; i had vented vaguely about my cult trauma, and about how it affected me as i grew up, and at one point emil also vented about his religious trauma. she picked out little pieces from both of us mixed it together to suddenly mention a cult that she had supposedly been in that she had never mentioned before until it was convenient for her because she was attempting to take a media appearance away from me. (<- will elaborate on that in situation 3)
also, after i vented last night about the permanent physical damage i suffered to my hips as a result of the brutal treatment i faced while being trafficked as a child, she is now talking (today) about physical issues being caused. shes never ever mentioned this before at all ever, she is only mentioning it NOW after i have vented about similar. she is claiming this only after trying to 1-up me repeatedly on my trauma last night.
you might think that this is just coincidence, however she has done this numerous times, and she does it specifically with the intention of 1-uping me and emil. all the fucking time. i really dont mind people lying about trauma and such bc at the end of the day, its not really my business. what i DONT fuck with is taking inspiration from my vents about what i actually went through, making it your own, and then going on to use that to 1-up or invalidate me, or steal my media appearances from me??
and while it is possible that these are things that did happen or are happening, i am on he fence because not only do they oddly only come after me or emil vent. also the fact that she herself had said that past friends have left her because of her copying them when it comes to their trauma or struggles.
2. transphobia! yep, thats right. so, due to being genderfluid, i am very on and off with my transition. when my dysphoria is low/absent, i will present as masculine, but when it is present/high, i will present feminine. with this in mind, for the past two weeks or so, i have been venting pretty consistently about my gender dysphoria being really intense and how i am really heavily relying on my feminine media appearances for euphoria because i dont feel feminine enough on my own & i heavily rely on my media appearances for my sense of identity.
so, with all of that in mind; she referred to me as her boyfriend constantly even after i changed all of my socials (that she has access to) to she prns and fem terms. she changed her github 3 times, fully completed rethemes, within those two weeks, and yet she didnt change "boyfriends" in her bio to "partners" until i made it even more abundantly clear that i was already very dysphoric and wanted to be seen as feminine/a girl by her. as if adjusting my profiles and then sending the updated versions wasnt abundant enough. she also had repeatedly used they/them pronouns on me only AFTER i vented about feeling dysphoric. it was never a problem when i was still using he/him prns, only when i went back to she/her. i have made it extremely clear numerous times that i hate they/them prns used on me unless it is a specific headmate OR unless we say that we are comfortable using them. not once during our time knowing her have we said that we are fine using them. ever.
now if that misgendering wasnt odd enough, she also directly misgendered me to my face the other day on a call out of nowhere. i had a cute pastel blue pfp of a character with flowy, long, white hair, i was going by exclusively feminine names, i had vented THAT DAY about transfem dysphoria. yet on vc, we were all joking around, and then said "all men do is lie!" which i found odd because at that point, i had been presenting fem and using she/her mostly on myself for like around a month and a half and had been venting for two weeks about wishing i was a hyperfem cis girl. so i respond "im not even a man!!" because i am not atm. she went silent for a second and then corrected herself to "all cal does is lie!". so she was able to use an incorrect gendered term, but when i correct her, suddenly she doesnt want to use a gendered term at all. also yes i KNOW that the "all men do is lie" joke is a common thing but she has known me as a girl for longer than shes known me as a guy.
additionally, she has also implied that my trans male bf is not a man which is. insane !
3. she LOVES to steal media appearances and f/os from me. for example; i was going by tracy when she met me, we had a tracy introject in front, she was calling us tracy, we were sending gifs of tracy saying like "me btw" and such. she went onto take tracy and say she was her, and yk i didnt mind sharing bc i felt generous. but then more recently, she made an irl list and set tracy on dbls dni with no exceptions. hello?? i shared her with you, that was me first, and now youre looking at me and telling me i cant have her? how is that fair like at all??? also not to mention she only even knew of tracy BECAUSE of me. she wouldnt have even gotten into idv if it werent for me. meanwhile, i have been playing idv for the past 2 years and i have had most of my media appearances since the beginning of me playing, INCLUDING tracy. this also applies to my f/os; i have been a luca selfshipper since i started playing the game bc i truly adore him, and she has now put luca on her non-sharing, no exceptions list. LIKE ARE YOU FOR REAL?? i dont even mind sharing f/os, i literally was fine sharing him w her, but then she decided that only she could yume with him? like ok. she also put florian brand. yk. ME. on her non-sharing, no exceptions list despite florian being my primary name and such and also knowing that florian has been emil's f/o for 2 yrs as well. like its fucking ridiculous. she also did this with amanda gaddis, and in fact she even fabricated cult trauma just to 1-up me on my own cult trauma (which was part of why i related so heavily to amanda), and then proceed to sulk and whine when i didnt roll over and give her amanda. she did this with linnea from genshin as well; she literally made up a family member that had never been mentioned ever before and hasnt been mentioned since just to relate to linnea after i had been saying that i was linnea since the girl leaked. linnea also held a lot of sentimental and personal value to me, so i wasnt comfortable sharing her, and i made that super clear, yet my gf themed to her everywhere, started going by linnea, etc. then one day on call, she waited until i had gone to the bathroom to say to emil "now you have two linneas" after i had expressed quite a few times that i was not ready to share linnea because of how much the character meant to me. mind you, this girl claims every pink character she sees. im not exaggerating. any girl with pink hair, she takes, even if you were them first. so i got lucky winning for linnea.
now this next example, i have screenshots to go with it because. ^_^ holy fuck. so silver wolf recently got an sp on honkai star rail, and i had sent something in my channel where i mentioned that she was me. the first screenshot is that. the second screenshot is the first ever instance of gf posting silver wolf in her irls channel.
can you guess who she now has on her dbls dni; no exceptions list? if you guessed silver wolf, ding ding ding ding!! thats right, 9 whole days after i had mentioned being silver wolf, she decided that she was actually the real silver wolf, and then more recently decided that i wasnt allowed to be silver wolf at all anymore.
this also almost happened again more recently (yesterday) where idv released the trailer for their newest character; cléo. i went to my channel to talk about her because the lore we got for cléo genuinely made me feel sick because of how close to home it hit. i sent this:
now. as you can see by the pfps here, we were both themed to cléo. i themed to her first because i found myself connecting so much with her, and then she themed to her and also changed her name to cléo. when i tried to talk about how i related to the character, she proceeded to make it about herself and then try to 1-up me using her trauma.
im not going to include the trauma stuff because i just personally dont feel weird about posting screenshots of the things she claimed. the things she said were a bit more detailed and in-depth than the stuff ive already mentioned, and i am also just genuinely not in a good place mentally to go back and screenshot the things she said in an attempt to 1-up me.
now, while that is only 3 points, each point is just covering a specific topic. these things have been occurring over the span of the last month, and it is only getting worse. how we know that we arent just paranoid and imagining these things either is because she had admitted that her ex friends have left her over the exact same things mentioned in point 1 & 3: her stealing media appearances away from people as well as copying other people's trauma or struggles in their life.
she was not doing any of this stuff prior to us dating her.
the crowd DOES care and is interested in the tea 💅
but i hope the situation improves, take care of yourself!!
okay well sit tight because there is a LOTTT to talk about
heads up, i may sound a bit evil here, specifically in point 1 so pls bear with me. i promise im not pulling stuff out of my ass, i have genuine reason to believe what i do about that point
tw for trauma invalidation, mentions of csa and trafficking, and mentions of cults
okay, so the girl i have been talking about in my past few. tweaker posts. is actually my current gf who i will absolutely be breaking up with because of the insane amount of shit she keeps pulling
i will number each situation just to make them easier to refer back to if needed. ts is GENUINELY RIDICULOUS
1. she has been consistently lying about everything about herself. if this was done by someone who was rq or at least pro transid, i wouldnt care as much bc idk, maybe its like a transtrauma thing. however, she has gone out of her way to make fun of transids, specifically transabled & transtrauma people. also, her lying isnt even the main reason im bothered by it, but rather that she uses me & my bf's trauma as inspo for her stories. and you might be wondering what i mean by this.
WELL. when we first met, within like a month of speaking, she sent a long lengthy paragraph about her trauma, basically giving us a full timeline of everything she had gone through, all with the purpose of informing us that she was actively in a situation where she was being s/a'd every day by her father. now at first, we expressed sympathy, as people do when someone opens up like this. but we quickly noticed that whenever either of us would vent about our trauma, she would take pieces of it and suddenly also have something new to add to her story that was similar. for example, when she gave us that big extensive timeline, she never mentioned anything about trafficking. however, after i vented a few times about my trafficking trauma, she started implying that she had also gone through it. she did very similarly with my cult trauma; i had vented vaguely about my cult trauma, and about how it affected me as i grew up, and at one point emil also vented about his religious trauma. she picked out little pieces from both of us mixed it together to suddenly mention a cult that she had supposedly been in that she had never mentioned before until it was convenient for her because she was attempting to take a media appearance away from me. (<- will elaborate on that in situation 3)
also, after i vented last night about the permanent physical damage i suffered to my hips as a result of the brutal treatment i faced while being trafficked as a child, she is now talking (today) about physical issues being caused. shes never ever mentioned this before at all ever, she is only mentioning it NOW after i have vented about similar. she is claiming this only after trying to 1-up me repeatedly on my trauma last night.
you might think that this is just coincidence, however she has done this numerous times, and she does it specifically with the intention of 1-uping me and emil. all the fucking time. i really dont mind people lying about trauma and such bc at the end of the day, its not really my business. what i DONT fuck with is taking inspiration from my vents about what i actually went through, making it your own, and then going on to use that to 1-up or invalidate me, or steal my media appearances from me??
and while it is possible that these are things that did happen or are happening, i am on he fence because not only do they oddly only come after me or emil vent. also the fact that she herself had said that past friends have left her because of her copying them when it comes to their trauma or struggles.
2. transphobia! yep, thats right. so, due to being genderfluid, i am very on and off with my transition. when my dysphoria is low/absent, i will present as masculine, but when it is present/high, i will present feminine. with this in mind, for the past two weeks or so, i have been venting pretty consistently about my gender dysphoria being really intense and how i am really heavily relying on my feminine media appearances for euphoria because i dont feel feminine enough on my own & i heavily rely on my media appearances for my sense of identity.
so, with all of that in mind; she referred to me as her boyfriend constantly even after i changed all of my socials (that she has access to) to she prns and fem terms. she changed her github 3 times, fully completed rethemes, within those two weeks, and yet she didnt change "boyfriends" in her bio to "partners" until i made it even more abundantly clear that i was already very dysphoric and wanted to be seen as feminine/a girl by her. as if adjusting my profiles and then sending the updated versions wasnt abundant enough. she also had repeatedly used they/them pronouns on me only AFTER i vented about feeling dysphoric. it was never a problem when i was still using he/him prns, only when i went back to she/her. i have made it extremely clear numerous times that i hate they/them prns used on me unless it is a specific headmate OR unless we say that we are comfortable using them. not once during our time knowing her have we said that we are fine using them. ever.
now if that misgendering wasnt odd enough, she also directly misgendered me to my face the other day on a call out of nowhere. i had a cute pastel blue pfp of a character with flowy, long, white hair, i was going by exclusively feminine names, i had vented THAT DAY about transfem dysphoria. yet on vc, we were all joking around, and then said "all men do is lie!" which i found odd because at that point, i had been presenting fem and using she/her mostly on myself for like around a month and a half and had been venting for two weeks about wishing i was a hyperfem cis girl. so i respond "im not even a man!!" because i am not atm. she went silent for a second and then corrected herself to "all cal does is lie!". so she was able to use an incorrect gendered term, but when i correct her, suddenly she doesnt want to use a gendered term at all. also yes i KNOW that the "all men do is lie" joke is a common thing but she has known me as a girl for longer than shes known me as a guy.
additionally, she has also implied that my trans male bf is not a man which is. insane !
3. she LOVES to steal media appearances and f/os from me. for example; i was going by tracy when she met me, we had a tracy introject in front, she was calling us tracy, we were sending gifs of tracy saying like "me btw" and such. she went onto take tracy and say she was her, and yk i didnt mind sharing bc i felt generous. but then more recently, she made an irl list and set tracy on dbls dni with no exceptions. hello?? i shared her with you, that was me first, and now youre looking at me and telling me i cant have her? how is that fair like at all??? also not to mention she only even knew of tracy BECAUSE of me. she wouldnt have even gotten into idv if it werent for me. meanwhile, i have been playing idv for the past 2 years and i have had most of my media appearances since the beginning of me playing, INCLUDING tracy. this also applies to my f/os; i have been a luca selfshipper since i started playing the game bc i truly adore him, and she has now put luca on her non-sharing, no exceptions list. LIKE ARE YOU FOR REAL?? i dont even mind sharing f/os, i literally was fine sharing him w her, but then she decided that only she could yume with him? like ok. she also put florian brand. yk. ME. on her non-sharing, no exceptions list despite florian being my primary name and such and also knowing that florian has been emil's f/o for 2 yrs as well. like its fucking ridiculous. she also did this with amanda gaddis, and in fact she even fabricated cult trauma just to 1-up me on my own cult trauma (which was part of why i related so heavily to amanda), and then proceed to sulk and whine when i didnt roll over and give her amanda. she did this with linnea from genshin as well; she literally made up a family member that had never been mentioned ever before and hasnt been mentioned since just to relate to linnea after i had been saying that i was linnea since the girl leaked. linnea also held a lot of sentimental and personal value to me, so i wasnt comfortable sharing her, and i made that super clear, yet my gf themed to her everywhere, started going by linnea, etc. then one day on call, she waited until i had gone to the bathroom to say to emil "now you have two linneas" after i had expressed quite a few times that i was not ready to share linnea because of how much the character meant to me. mind you, this girl claims every pink character she sees. im not exaggerating. any girl with pink hair, she takes, even if you were them first. so i got lucky winning for linnea.
now this next example, i have screenshots to go with it because. ^_^ holy fuck. so silver wolf recently got an sp on honkai star rail, and i had sent something in my channel where i mentioned that she was me. the first screenshot is that. the second screenshot is the first ever instance of gf posting silver wolf in her irls channel.
can you guess who she now has on her dbls dni; no exceptions list? if you guessed silver wolf, ding ding ding ding!! thats right, 9 whole days after i had mentioned being silver wolf, she decided that she was actually the real silver wolf, and then more recently decided that i wasnt allowed to be silver wolf at all anymore.
this also almost happened again more recently (yesterday) where idv released the trailer for their newest character; cléo. i went to my channel to talk about her because the lore we got for cléo genuinely made me feel sick because of how close to home it hit. i sent this:
now. as you can see by the pfps here, we were both themed to cléo. i themed to her first because i found myself connecting so much with her, and then she themed to her and also changed her name to cléo. when i tried to talk about how i related to the character, she proceeded to make it about herself and then try to 1-up me using her trauma.
im not going to include the trauma stuff because i just personally dont feel weird about posting screenshots of the things she claimed. the things she said were a bit more detailed and in-depth than the stuff ive already mentioned, and i am also just genuinely not in a good place mentally to go back and screenshot the things she said in an attempt to 1-up me.
now, while that is only 3 points, each point is just covering a specific topic. these things have been occurring over the span of the last month, and it is only getting worse. how we know that we arent just paranoid and imagining these things either is because she had admitted that her ex friends have left her over the exact same things mentioned in point 1 & 3: her stealing media appearances away from people as well as copying other people's trauma or struggles in their life.
she was not doing any of this stuff prior to us dating her.
holy GET IUT OF THERE!!! that is such a shitty situation girl i hate that 4 u. trauma is such a fickle thing to the point where even if her trauma supposedly was like urs, it'd be processed differently. there's literally no way for her to js somehow have the exact same trauma it doesn't work likethat🥹
atp its starting to feel like an evil ex tierlist with the way they js keep getting worse... in the end, u r u, she is not u, so keep ur head up queen!! do not let the evils get to u
ALSOTHE TRANSPHOBIA IS CRAZY if she couldn't accept something as baseline as ur gender there is no way the radqueer softlaunch was gonna go well.. like at first i was like "oh maybe she's just straight"AND THEN THE TRANSMALE DENIAL BOMBSHELL DROPPED LIEK WHAT IS HER PROBLEM
iam manifesting nothing but rainbows and sunshine 4 u 4 now on because u have gone through WYA too much 🫶🫶🫶
thank you anonn we do genuinely plan to leave sometime in the very near future because things are genuinely getting so strange, and like year sure some of it is petty bullshit but jfccc
this is going to sound evil but a big reason i am waiting is bc she has promised money and i am broke as shit, so im hoping that i will receive it. and then whether i receive it or not, i am definitely leaving sometime before my bday because this shit is genuinely ridiculous atp 😭
the crowd DOES care and is interested in the tea 💅
but i hope the situation improves, take care of yourself!!
okay well sit tight because there is a LOTTT to talk about
heads up, i may sound a bit evil here, specifically in point 1 so pls bear with me. i promise im not pulling stuff out of my ass, i have genuine reason to believe what i do about that point
tw for trauma invalidation, mentions of csa and trafficking, and mentions of cults
okay, so the girl i have been talking about in my past few. tweaker posts. is actually my current gf who i will absolutely be breaking up with because of the insane amount of shit she keeps pulling
i will number each situation just to make them easier to refer back to if needed. ts is GENUINELY RIDICULOUS
1. she has been consistently lying about everything about herself. if this was done by someone who was rq or at least pro transid, i wouldnt care as much bc idk, maybe its like a transtrauma thing. however, she has gone out of her way to make fun of transids, specifically transabled & transtrauma people. also, her lying isnt even the main reason im bothered by it, but rather that she uses me & my bf's trauma as inspo for her stories. and you might be wondering what i mean by this.
WELL. when we first met, within like a month of speaking, she sent a long lengthy paragraph about her trauma, basically giving us a full timeline of everything she had gone through, all with the purpose of informing us that she was actively in a situation where she was being s/a'd every day by her father. now at first, we expressed sympathy, as people do when someone opens up like this. but we quickly noticed that whenever either of us would vent about our trauma, she would take pieces of it and suddenly also have something new to add to her story that was similar. for example, when she gave us that big extensive timeline, she never mentioned anything about trafficking. however, after i vented a few times about my trafficking trauma, she started implying that she had also gone through it. she did very similarly with my cult trauma; i had vented vaguely about my cult trauma, and about how it affected me as i grew up, and at one point emil also vented about his religious trauma. she picked out little pieces from both of us mixed it together to suddenly mention a cult that she had supposedly been in that she had never mentioned before until it was convenient for her because she was attempting to take a media appearance away from me. (<- will elaborate on that in situation 3)
also, after i vented last night about the permanent physical damage i suffered to my hips as a result of the brutal treatment i faced while being trafficked as a child, she is now talking (today) about physical issues being caused. shes never ever mentioned this before at all ever, she is only mentioning it NOW after i have vented about similar. she is claiming this only after trying to 1-up me repeatedly on my trauma last night.
you might think that this is just coincidence, however she has done this numerous times, and she does it specifically with the intention of 1-uping me and emil. all the fucking time. i really dont mind people lying about trauma and such bc at the end of the day, its not really my business. what i DONT fuck with is taking inspiration from my vents about what i actually went through, making it your own, and then going on to use that to 1-up or invalidate me, or steal my media appearances from me??
and while it is possible that these are things that did happen or are happening, i am on he fence because not only do they oddly only come after me or emil vent. also the fact that she herself had said that past friends have left her because of her copying them when it comes to their trauma or struggles.
2. transphobia! yep, thats right. so, due to being genderfluid, i am very on and off with my transition. when my dysphoria is low/absent, i will present as masculine, but when it is present/high, i will present feminine. with this in mind, for the past two weeks or so, i have been venting pretty consistently about my gender dysphoria being really intense and how i am really heavily relying on my feminine media appearances for euphoria because i dont feel feminine enough on my own & i heavily rely on my media appearances for my sense of identity.
so, with all of that in mind; she referred to me as her boyfriend constantly even after i changed all of my socials (that she has access to) to she prns and fem terms. she changed her github 3 times, fully completed rethemes, within those two weeks, and yet she didnt change "boyfriends" in her bio to "partners" until i made it even more abundantly clear that i was already very dysphoric and wanted to be seen as feminine/a girl by her. as if adjusting my profiles and then sending the updated versions wasnt abundant enough. she also had repeatedly used they/them pronouns on me only AFTER i vented about feeling dysphoric. it was never a problem when i was still using he/him prns, only when i went back to she/her. i have made it extremely clear numerous times that i hate they/them prns used on me unless it is a specific headmate OR unless we say that we are comfortable using them. not once during our time knowing her have we said that we are fine using them. ever.
now if that misgendering wasnt odd enough, she also directly misgendered me to my face the other day on a call out of nowhere. i had a cute pastel blue pfp of a character with flowy, long, white hair, i was going by exclusively feminine names, i had vented THAT DAY about transfem dysphoria. yet on vc, we were all joking around, and then said "all men do is lie!" which i found odd because at that point, i had been presenting fem and using she/her mostly on myself for like around a month and a half and had been venting for two weeks about wishing i was a hyperfem cis girl. so i respond "im not even a man!!" because i am not atm. she went silent for a second and then corrected herself to "all cal does is lie!". so she was able to use an incorrect gendered term, but when i correct her, suddenly she doesnt want to use a gendered term at all. also yes i KNOW that the "all men do is lie" joke is a common thing but she has known me as a girl for longer than shes known me as a guy.
additionally, she has also implied that my trans male bf is not a man which is. insane !
3. she LOVES to steal media appearances and f/os from me. for example; i was going by tracy when she met me, we had a tracy introject in front, she was calling us tracy, we were sending gifs of tracy saying like "me btw" and such. she went onto take tracy and say she was her, and yk i didnt mind sharing bc i felt generous. but then more recently, she made an irl list and set tracy on dbls dni with no exceptions. hello?? i shared her with you, that was me first, and now youre looking at me and telling me i cant have her? how is that fair like at all??? also not to mention she only even knew of tracy BECAUSE of me. she wouldnt have even gotten into idv if it werent for me. meanwhile, i have been playing idv for the past 2 years and i have had most of my media appearances since the beginning of me playing, INCLUDING tracy. this also applies to my f/os; i have been a luca selfshipper since i started playing the game bc i truly adore him, and she has now put luca on her non-sharing, no exceptions list. LIKE ARE YOU FOR REAL?? i dont even mind sharing f/os, i literally was fine sharing him w her, but then she decided that only she could yume with him? like ok. she also put florian brand. yk. ME. on her non-sharing, no exceptions list despite florian being my primary name and such and also knowing that florian has been emil's f/o for 2 yrs as well. like its fucking ridiculous. she also did this with amanda gaddis, and in fact she even fabricated cult trauma just to 1-up me on my own cult trauma (which was part of why i related so heavily to amanda), and then proceed to sulk and whine when i didnt roll over and give her amanda. she did this with linnea from genshin as well; she literally made up a family member that had never been mentioned ever before and hasnt been mentioned since just to relate to linnea after i had been saying that i was linnea since the girl leaked. linnea also held a lot of sentimental and personal value to me, so i wasnt comfortable sharing her, and i made that super clear, yet my gf themed to her everywhere, started going by linnea, etc. then one day on call, she waited until i had gone to the bathroom to say to emil "now you have two linneas" after i had expressed quite a few times that i was not ready to share linnea because of how much the character meant to me. mind you, this girl claims every pink character she sees. im not exaggerating. any girl with pink hair, she takes, even if you were them first. so i got lucky winning for linnea.
now this next example, i have screenshots to go with it because. ^_^ holy fuck. so silver wolf recently got an sp on honkai star rail, and i had sent something in my channel where i mentioned that she was me. the first screenshot is that. the second screenshot is the first ever instance of gf posting silver wolf in her irls channel.
can you guess who she now has on her dbls dni; no exceptions list? if you guessed silver wolf, ding ding ding ding!! thats right, 9 whole days after i had mentioned being silver wolf, she decided that she was actually the real silver wolf, and then more recently decided that i wasnt allowed to be silver wolf at all anymore.
this also almost happened again more recently (yesterday) where idv released the trailer for their newest character; cléo. i went to my channel to talk about her because the lore we got for cléo genuinely made me feel sick because of how close to home it hit. i sent this:
now. as you can see by the pfps here, we were both themed to cléo. i themed to her first because i found myself connecting so much with her, and then she themed to her and also changed her name to cléo. when i tried to talk about how i related to the character, she proceeded to make it about herself and then try to 1-up me using her trauma.
im not going to include the trauma stuff because i just personally dont feel weird about posting screenshots of the things she claimed. the things she said were a bit more detailed and in-depth than the stuff ive already mentioned, and i am also just genuinely not in a good place mentally to go back and screenshot the things she said in an attempt to 1-up me.
now, while that is only 3 points, each point is just covering a specific topic. these things have been occurring over the span of the last month, and it is only getting worse. how we know that we arent just paranoid and imagining these things either is because she had admitted that her ex friends have left her over the exact same things mentioned in point 1 & 3: her stealing media appearances away from people as well as copying other people's trauma or struggles in their life.
she was not doing any of this stuff prior to us dating her.
like its not even funny at this point i hate it here oh my fucking godd
i cant even begin to explain the entirety of the situation here bc it would be such a long post anf quite frankly i dont think anyone really cares that much but OH MY GODDDD
she seems to be mostly avoiding acknowledging it when i mention it, so i may genuinely just need to come out and say it directly
but im thinking i will start with softer ids or wtv like transbunny and transfictional since i have been super bunnymaxxed lately and also she knows how i am with my media appearances, so yk
we shall see
howeverrr she has posted things before mocking transabled ppl so i have a feeling this will spell the end which idm (its a whole thing, but trust i have good reasoning). im gonna be honest, im more worried about her joining the rqc than i am about her being weirded out and leaving
she seems to be mostly avoiding acknowledging it when i mention it, so i may genuinely just need to come out and say it directly
but im thinking i will start with softer ids or wtv like transbunny and transfictional since i have been super bunnymaxxed lately and also she knows how i am with my media appearances, so yk
we shall see
howeverrr she has posted things before mocking transabled ppl so i have a feeling this will spell the end which idm (its a whole thing, but trust i have good reasoning). im gonna be honest, im more worried about her joining the rqc than i am about her being weirded out and leaving
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