Jesse

C stands for Cope with the pain 💫 AuDHD

[bbysung]

unironically trying to teach myself that you just gotta do shit for the love of the game (the game is life)

[bbysung]

do you ever just hate that everything has to have a reason???

i've been telling the truth since i was a kid. i never had a reason to lie; my mom is very understanding. but being autistic has led me into the trap of oversharing. i've very often given details that don't matter to the point i'm getting across because my brain goes "well, it's the truth, so i should say it, right? it's a detail i can remember, so i should obviously share it"

and sometimes i don't even have a point, i'm just saying shit that's true!!! like that english assignment freshmen year where i wrote about the little 'tics' i've had growing up (playing with my belly button while i didnt wear a shirt at age 3, licking my nose 5-7, always wearing sunglasses 8-10, a watch, and then always wearing a headband when i leave the house starting at approximately 13) and the feedback the teacher left me was basically "sooo... your point is...?" (i wish i could remember the prompt 😔)

when working on my stories i hate that things have to make sense and be written with a structure when like..... all the writing i was praised for when i was like 10 had no structure!!!! i was just making shit up as i went!!! even now the most structure i do is a quick list of ideas at the start of a chapter and then separating the sections of the story by chapters. what do you MEAN i have to know what im doing 😭

[bbysung]

turning my blog into a journal where i can get attention and maybe make people laugh or feel less alone !!!!!!

[bbysung]

the first time i ever saw tumblr textposts (i was like 11; im 19 now) i remember being like "holy shit i found my people" and then i made an account and.... did not use it. or i did, but i used it in the same way i used my twitter: as a lurker who only retweets/reblogs things because rejection sensitive dysphoria just does that to you, man... and honestly it was probably for the better because i checked my drafts and there was one text post where all it said was "Gay. gay gay gay gay gay gay" ... the way i know EXACTLY which phase of my internet life that was 😭😭

i'm here now because i have a lot thoughts and i am a chronic yapper. i've been wasting away my life online for my teenage years but i barely fucking do anything while I'm there?? i've gotten so accustomed to being an observer. partially because i don't know what i'd do online. i want to reach people in a meaningful way, and if talking in person is so hard, why can't i just yap online? i can do it in comment sections sometimes, so why am i so afraid of making my own posts? oh yeah the deathly intense fear that i'll be bullied and judged for having opinions and being alive. the fear that i'll make a single mistake. i have tons of writing i don't show to people or do anything with. i've been wanting to make youtube videos, but they're a ton of work that i'm not sure if i'm cut out for. i've started working on multiple scripts, actually! one on understanding suicide and self-injury, one on my interpretations of OMORI my beloved, one where i just list 15 increasingly obscure details about pokemon black 2/white 2 my beloved... emphasis on 'started'

[noolsart]

I need to practice making comics and @brosura has the best dialogue and I’ve been laughing over this one in particular for months now

All credit for this awesome writing goes to @brosura I just attached my doofy art to it

[freckled-lili]

I have a mass collection of YTTD text post memes, so get ready for some spamming oh boi!

[filizit]

The heart rate can raise a lot on Valentine’s Day… to each their reason~

[matrizart]

Expose him

[yoomster]

Hallucination Level 100 just means that Jumpscare Joe gets Sara Level 100

[talentlesshuman]

wohoo! these kids are completely happy and fine :) 

[freckled-lili]

I gotta be honest with you guys, I only wanted to do this thread simply because I just really wanted to see Joe say, “You can get E.coli from eating flour from the bag?!” (you just know Sara half-jokingly dared him to do it tho, pfft).

God I need a new hobby.

[yuunchan]

I needed almost a week to finish this, but I finally did it! I definitely need to practice painting backgrounds more fhfsghgs

[filizit]

A kid’s hat and a maiden’s pride.

[cainternn]

im sorry but if youre not in love with mr policeman you are incorrect

[moon-chub]

[ten-shika]

All YTTD main characters in my style!✨ Borger berg was the death of me aaaaaaa 😩

[startropicz]