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@bcrnbroken
In this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make. Indie BoJack Horseman RP
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In this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make. Indie BoJack Horseman RP
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In this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make. Indie BoJack Horseman RP
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In this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make. Indie BoJack Horseman RP
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In this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make. Indie BoJack Horseman RP
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In this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make. Indie BoJack Horseman RP
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How are you meant to stop yourself becoming something you don't want to be when everything around you seems to be driving you to that point? - M.
“ Geez, that’s a rough situation to be in. Um. “
Oh, boy, he’s definitely not a licensed therapist, much less someone who should be giving anybody advice. But what is he going to do, shrug it off and go on his way? His conscience isn’t going to like that very much.
“ I think the first most important thing is that you’re aware of the thing you don’t want to become. It’s not just happening passively, you know? Like you wake up suddenly, and you’re 45, and you look in the mirror and realize you’re exactly everything you hoped and prayed you wouldn’t become. You’re not there yet, so you’ve got a little more wiggle room.
“ And define everything. What is it that you feel like is driving you to that point, you know? Is that something you can get yourself away from? I’m not sure what your situation is specifically, but like I said, I think being aware of it is the most important part. You know exactly what you don’t want to be. And beyond that it’s just... identifying the catalyst and figuring out what to do about it. That might not be as easy as it sounds. Or as quick. But it’s something to work towards and fight against. I think thinking about it like that is kinda what keeps me going. I know what I don’t want to be anymore, and I know what I need to do about it. So... it’s something I’m actively working towards, all the time. That’s all you can do. “
In this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make. Indie BoJack Horseman RP
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Let's play "truth, dare, double dare, promise or repeat."
It's like standard ToD, but more extreme.
Send Truth, plus a question for my muse to be forced to answer honestly
Send Dare, plus a dare for my muse to have to perform it
Send Double Dare, a dare, plus another muse's name (or your own muse!) for both muses to perform the dare
Send Promise, and a promise you want my muse to keep, for them to be held to that promise in the near future
Send Repeat, plus any phrase for my muse to be forced to repeat it at full volume
An actor without a playwright is like a hole without a doughnut. Indie Multimuse Hub
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[ I’m moving blogs! so bear with me if you get some extra, obnoxious reblogs ]
when you want to write something really deep but it ends up sounding like
Have you spoken to Diane since the wedding? Or are you guys like not friends anymore?
“ No. I think the wedding bit was a… well, not a necessary, but a much awaited end to that chapter of our lives. I think I kinda knew even before I asked that that was probably the last time we were ever gonna talk to each other. Some part of me wanted her to say it wouldn’t be, but I think I knew. “
“ But it’s good for her. I think it’s good for me, too, actually. I might have a way to explain it that might make more sense than me just… blathering on about nothing. “ He rubs his chin, thoughtful.
“ So, when I was a kid of some age, I worked at this food place for… probably two years or so. It was hell. Like, it was manageable hell because the boss didn’t give two shits about what we all did, as long as we got the people their food, but still. And when I found a better opportunity somewhere else, I put in my notice, and I quit. Well, when that new job ended up being actual hell, I decided to go back to my first job and see if I could get back in with them, since I left in good standing and all.
“ And they took me back, and even though I was a couple years older, and I had a whole different work ethic by then and a new perspective on things, I still found myself doing all the old shit I used to do. Instead of, you know, actually doing work, I’d go hide in the bathroom for twenty minutes, or I’d just putter around and talk to people instead of doing stuff that actually needed to be done because we were slow and nothing mattered, and I’d make myself food whenever I wanted, and it bothered me. Because I knew that wasn’t what I was used to doing anymore, and I didn’t like it, but I worked there for so long that it was just… habit, y’know? And nobody called me on it, so it was what it was. “
“ I kinda think that’s what this was. We were… different when we were together. There’s a reason the saying ‘misery loves company’ is what it is. Sometimes, the habits you form over years and years of repeat behavior leave more of an impact than the things you might’ve learned did, and the only way to break those habits is to remove yourself from the situation and stay gone. You’re living a whole new life, why would you go back to the old one that made you so miserable? It’s a comfort thing. But you have to realize that you’re a better person who feels better when you step away from it. And it’s scary, but… ultimately, it needs to be done. For your own sake.
“ I think being apart kinda forces us both to do something like that. I’m not happy about it. Diane was a very, very good friend of mine. But it needed to happen, I think. “
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Hey, it’s that meme guy from last night? Doesn’t that sound silly. Anyway, I’m sorry for starting a whole thing about questioning your sexuality just for the sake of a joke. In hindsight that was kinda mean. Actually labeling yourself can be weird and difficult sometimes and taking a while to sort that out is okay. Lord knows it took me a while. And honestly it’s cool if you don’t ever want to label yourself. Again, sorry for turning this into a whole thing.
“ No, it was my own stupid fault for pressing the issue. I should’ve just let it be after the first time; I think the second time was what really, uh, made people notice the trend there. I’ll take the blame where it’s due. “
He can’t blame anyone else for messing around with him - especially when he outright asked for it. Just to prove some stupid point that spiraled out into way too serious of a discussion that he wasn’t prepared to have. That in and of itself seems to be a trend.
“ No worries, Meme Guy, you can, uh, let your conscience be clear on this one. But it is freakin’ weird, isn’t it? Sexuality is dumb. It’s like, I already got enough going on in my life, and now I gotta sit here and figure this shit out, too? “ There’s another laugh that follows - less forced and more… relieved, almost.
“ Also, I looked up that article last night, and I was almost positive I was having a stroke for about twelve seconds there. Like, I had to read some of it out loud to make sure and raise my arms up to make sure I wasn’t. That’s– that’s some of the symptoms for a stroke. Trouble speaking and, uh, like if you lift your arms, and one of them droops.
“ ‘The rumor is out of standardize of hoax, according the last reported this singer revealed himself as homosexual.’ I’m losing my shit, who wrote this? “
If Bojack is BI, does that mean the B in bojack stands for Bi now?
“ The ‘B’ at the beginning of my name? I don’t think it stands for anything. Unless it’s... you know, just my initials or something. “
This is the same caliber as that question game from last night, isn’t it? This is internet humor.
“ Uh.... I mean, yeah, I guess you- you got me on that one. “ He forces a little laugh, rubbing at the back of his head. “ I see what you’re doin’ there. “
Hey, don't feel pressured to confront things you aren't ready to confront bc of some faceless dude asking questions. A rough childhood fucks you up when it comes to understanding sexuality, believe me. If you want to give a definition to the things you feel for people, that's fine. It's also fine not to want that. Just do what feels okay for you at this point in time.
That... honestly, did make him feel a little better. There was something about the idea of not being obligated to put labels on things that may have taken a little of that weight off his shoulders. Not all of it, but he certainly felt more at ease, at least. What did he owe anybody asking these questions, anyway?
There was something comforting, too, about knowing it wasn’t just him. Realistically, it was stupid to think he was alone in anything he did or thought or said, but being confronted by it was entirely different. It felt more real.
BoJack’s wringing his hands together, seemingly stuck inside his own head for a few long moments. Maybe eventually, slapping a label on all of it will make him feel better. But right now, this feels alright.
“ ... Thank you. “ Even if he can’t quite articulate everything going on in his head right now, the appreciation is very, very genuine.
