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In love with a lot of Johns. Salvadorian. Team!Ivar, Artist. Instagram: Ruthl3ssBe1nlaus1

[some-weebs-posts]

Most Ship Names: This ship name is a combination of the two or more characters' names who are in love with each other.

Detroit: Become Human Ship Names: This ship has a bunch of numbers because we like to do math here and add the android model numbers together. Good luck figuring out which ship is RK1700. And RK1600. And RK1000 / RK1K. And G9.

[homeb0ys]

Netflix: Are you still watching?

Someone’s daughter:

[blindmagdalena]

thoughts on ep 4?

ohhhh man this is gonna be really long and disjointed because i just finished the episode. i'm just gonna be focused on the homelander stuff here bc i feel like that's what we're all here for lol

the energy he brought to that whole situation gave me the most intense anxiety. i feel like not even he was entirely sure how all of that was going to go down, but as soon as he was there, all these memories that he had repressed started flooding to the surface. obviously his relationship with Ryan is causing a lot of his trauma to come to the forefront, and this is the culmination of that.

i think what caught me the most off guard was how run down the place looked. a concrete basement with shoddy computers and post-its everywhere. a bunch of techs. it was so small, and yet it's like homelander said. it was a lot bigger when he was a child.

it was their day job. it was his whole world.

that very first moment when Marty calls him John, and he corrects "Homelander," in that boyish voice, i almost burst into tears.

the moment where he's staring at the incinerator made me feel ill for him. i already knew what was coming, and it didn't disappoint.

"I had nightmares about that exact moment, and you can't even remember it."

i had chills throughout this entire scene. it was such a succinct way to lay out how dehumanized he was his entire life. that so many people stood by and were so desensitized to his torture. they tuned out his screams entirely and played little games to pass the time. all while he watched.

this time, when Marty calls him John, there's no quiver in his voice. "Homelander," he corrects firmly, smile tight and closed. direct eye contact, waiting for a challenge. but they won't. he knows no one will stop him. not just because they can't... but because they simply won't. they wouldn't save a child. why would they save Frank?

"You're sorry? Now?"

this whole scene is such an interesting parallel to his conversation with Vogelbaum in s1, where he asks, "You want forgiveness? Now?"

something he rightfully denied Vogelbaum. in this instance, however, we see Homelander enacting his vengeance and giving that forgiveness... but only once they're dead. only once they'd paid his price. once they've suffered as he did. I forgive you.

the only time anyone expresses remorse for what they've done to him is when they're faced with it. when the regret eats away at them not for the harm they caused, but the damage done to the world, or to their own safety.

immediately following that, we see him call Marty over and not just apologize, but very specifically he asks, "Can you forgive me?"

it's perfect foreshadowing for what he's about to do to him. can he forgive the same thing Homelander is about to?

the scene that follows is so profoundly uncomfortable i had a lot of trouble watching. the reality of Homelander's life and teenage years is something that we as a fandom have always been very cognizant of, but seeing it addressed so plainly on screen was both nightmarish and vindicating.

i remember being really squicked out by his comment regarding Ryan getting Zoe pregnant, but it makes total sense that raising Ryan is bringing a lot of his own childhood sexual trauma to the surface. there's SO MUCH to be addressed here that it could be it's own post. but what's great is when Homelander calls an end to it: it's the moment Marty says he's sorry.

"I forgive you, Marty."

this is all about Homelander accepting what happened to him. facing it and the people who were part of it head on.

speaking of...

BARBARA. i know she's public enemy #1 right now, and rightfully so, but i found her so profoundly interesting. did she know Homelander was there? she didn't seem surprised at all. why would she come without backup? how did they even contact her with everything shut down? i don't know, but whatever the case, i really got the impression she already knew what she was walking into. she made a real attempt to get Homelander away from the other scientists, but he wasn't going to be swayed. they were already doomed.

she antagonized him. They were just doing what I told them. It's not their fault. It's mine. Leave them alone.

it's very apparent to me that among his fractured personalities, she represents the kinder motherly one. she, like Stan Edgar and Vogelbaum, are elevated above the other scientists. she's a figure of authority and she spoke to him as such.

"They were scared."

"I was a child."

"They were scared!"

and he does recoil at that. we KNOW Homelander hates being feared. it was his trigger with Madelyn, it's what kept him from lasering that crowd, and it's a blatant, desperate lie when he says to Starlight, "...being feared is a-one okie doke by me."

"Everyone was terrified of you from your first breath."

she breaks his heart a hundred times in this scene. from the reveal that he killed his mother in the same way Vogelbaum told him his son did—the source of that lie?—to the statement that their greatest success was making him obedient by withholding love. by turning his heart into a pit of need.

a sharp juxtaposition to Vogelbaum's You're my greatest failure.

and then she says to him no matter what you do, you will always be human.

here's the thing about Homelander's humanity. he doesn't associate it with kindness or love. he associates humanity with all the worst things that have ever happened to him. cruelty. selfishness. betrayal. his entire life he's been used and abused by the people who were supposed to protect him.

of course he doesn't want to be human. doesn't want his SON to be human. look at what humans have done to him. they're vile, they're vicious, they're dirty.

in another life, that desire could have been his drive to be good. if he'd only had a single fucking example of it.

"I'm not human. And neither is my son. And I'm gonna raise him so that he knows it."

in other words, he'll raise his son the way they failed to raise him. Homelander wants desperately to raise his son with the love he never had. he just doesn't know how to.

ultimately, like Vogelbaum and Stan, Homelander can't bring himself to kill her. he tears apart the people she tried to save, and he leaves her to stew in her own fucking mess.

[xieyaohuan]

Barbara Findley and her relationship with Homelander

I have many thoughts about Barbara Findley and her relationship with Homelander, so I'm going to try to unpack some of them here. Their relationship is interesting and twisted -- she's more fucked up than Vogelbaum in many ways, and despite all that, Homelander is still trying to get a sign of approval from her in this scene, and leaves her alive in the end.

First, like the other scientists, she still calls him John. He recognizes her immediately (no big surprise there -- he was asking for her earlier and was disappointed she was offsite).

Unlike with the others (or with Vogelbaum, for that matter), he does not berate her for calling him John or try to correct her. My guess is, in this moment, it doesn't even occur to him that he could ask her to call him Homelander, like he did with Marty just moments ago.

She gives him an order, to put Marty out of his misery.

He tries to act nonchalant and like he doesn't care but follows her order immediately.

He tries to regain control by taking her into the bad room. She's still calling him John, and it still does not occur to him that he could try and get her to call him Homelander instead.

She interrupts him effortlessly when he tries to give her a piece of his mind:

She does make an effort to save the other people in the lab by taking responsibility.

He's clearly upset when she tells him the others were scared of him, "terrified from your first breath".

Now here comes the first interesting part: Homelander tries to get reassurance from her that she wasn't scared of him. Or rather, he knows that she wasn't scared of him (since he can and could read her vitals) and wants a reassuring answer from her as to why that was:

It almost seems like he's hoping for an answer along the lines of, "I was not scared of you because I knew you would never hurt me. I always knew you were a good boy." For a very brief moment, it looks like he's genuinely hoping she'll say what he's always wanted to hear (but has never heard) from her mouth, some kind of expression of love for him.

Instead, she tells him the ugly truth why she was so certain he would not hurt her.

Now, here comes the second interesting part: Unlike Vogelbaum, she still works at Vought, and from the way she tells the story, I get the sense it may have been her idea to bring in the psychologists and try to engineer his need for love.

It's pretty clear that, unlike Vogelbaum, she still takes pride in her work. She knows there's a really good chance she's going to die today, but she's still proud of what she did. Unlike Vogelbaum, she does not consider him her greatest failure.

On the contrary, she seems to consider him the success of a fucked up but (to her) intellectually stimulating experiment, and she outright says so:

It's a double punch because she tells him that engineering "human" needs in him, the thing he hates the most, was a greater success than developing his physical powers and making him the strongest man on earth, something he clings on to as a source of pride.

Homelander reasserts himself and gets his revenge by killing everyone in front of her. And it could be argued that he's punishing her by keeping her alive. Maybe he's telling himself he's letting her live so she can witness his rise to godhood, his overcoming his humanity, which she said he would never be able to do. But ultimately, I think that even after everything she's done and after everything else she's just confessed to him, he just can't get himself to kill his last parental figure.

[sternen--staub]

occasional posts from users

[ann-decart]

reblog if you make occasional posts

[be1nlaus1]

to honor the fact that my babygirl is being more loved by the fandom, another 4 versions from my previous practice !!!

[be1nlaus1]

I like them himbos 🙏🏻 art by me

[p34ce0fm1nd]

went into the theaters for a casual watch and came out wanting to see john walker take it up the ass (specifically from bob)

[magnetic-rose]

thunderbolts fandom only existing for like... four days and already having so much absurd and annoying shipping discourse is just another side-effect of this enshittification of fandom that's been happening since *check notes* voltron and the pandemic imo.

but one of the most annoying recent fandom trends is forcing characters into this nuclear family dynamic and the way it's made shipping discourse unbearable. "alexei's the dad, bob yelena and ava are the big siblings and bob is the little brother," on paper, is a harmless headcanon. the problem is the weaponization of these family headcanons to fuel ship wars.

bob and yelena have a deep bond in thunderbolts. you can interpret it as a sibling dynamic. you can also interpret it as romantic or queerplatonic or literally whatever you want. the problem is the same people who call bob yelena's "little brother" are simultaneously saying that any romantic interpretation of their characters is "incestuous weirdo behavior."

like, can we not?

and while boblena is the ship that's taking the most heat right now, i've been seeing hostility towards any variation of any thunderbolts ships. john/ava, john/bob, bucky/alexei, bob/void (which, lmfao, is SUCH a typical ship to me that people getting up in arms about it just proves we've let too many normies into fandom spaces). even yelena/kate is catching strays right now. and it doesn't have to be this way.

again, can we not? just say you're not into any of the ships and move on with your life.

these are not siblings. these are grown adults who grew to care about each other after experiencing traumatic events. "found family" trope has gotten so out of control it genuinely makes fandom less fun.

[syaska-3]

[accounting-wunderkind]

Y'all just hit reblog when you see "gay" and "bread"

[fix-ur-heart]

[walkingnearfoxes]

I watched G20 and here are my thoughts no one asked for

(spoilers obviously)

This reminded me a lot of 80s disaster films where the plot is super basic so you need to rely on strong characters and high stakes with a dangerous environment. No elements of that were felt here authentically

Antony Starr and Viola Davis gave an awful script their best shot. Love them both for that

Whoever wrote this script has never seen a real family interact. May have never seen real people

Can we please take the outdated “teenagers hate their parents” stereotype and yeet it off the helicopter with Rutledge

Rutledge definitely lived

I would let Edward Rutledge ruin my life

I kept expecting a “she’s got help” moment of women empowerment but thank god there wasn’t one

Why did they only mention Sutton’s PTSD once when that could’ve been a uniting element between her and Rutledge???

My husband kept laughing at the very incorrect tech jargon

“SCHVITZING IN THE SAUNA” is the funniest line I have ever heard

Of course the British character is a stereotype. Why not just have him carry tea around?

Everyone here is a bit of a stereotype tbh

I would let those twin guards in the kitchen ruin my life

The only character I carried about was the South Korean humanitarian. She could stab me any time

“100 years ago neither of us could vote” well thank god racism and sexism don’t exist anymore

Goodness gracious this was not the right timing in the current American political climate

I still don’t understand bitcoin

[memewhore]

[official-mugi]

This is probably the most inclusive post ever made on Tumblr

[hoodiegal]

“What country is this about?”

“Yes.”

[scuorge10]

The fandom needs to actually start separating EPIC from the Odyssey.

“But in the Odyssey—” okay but we’re talking about EPIC. Last I checked Odysseus doesn’t actually spear Posideon with his own trident in the book so why exactly are we trying to force these characters from a musical into the same mold as the ones in the books?

[purple-cinematic]

tf you mean S4 Starlight gets bullied for her looks ??? Meanwhile I’m still giggling thinking back about all the times she threw hands. In fact I hope she punches even more people in season 5.

[pipis-envy]

Calling a canon bisexual woman a lesbian becuase she has a female love interest or is in a wlw relationship is bisexual erasure and biphobic!!!!

[pipis-envy]

Same thing goes for bisexual men and mlm relationships!!!!!

[pipis-envy]

REBLOG THIS VERSION TOO YOU COWARDS

[toenail-soup-deactivated2020091]

Same thing for bisexual people in m/f relationships that people call straight.

[sanitymakesposts]

i have sugarcubes.