It's worth it.

I'm 21.

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My sister: “What’re you going to do with all that food you just bought?”

🤔

Me: “Probably just throw it away.”

Wow. What a waste of money 😓

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Holy heck. How did I manage to pull this one off?

Dang it. Boss told me not to bring lunch tomorrow. I think she’s getting me pizza.

I LOVE pizza 🍕

But I’m going to get fat if I eat it. 😭😭

Let’s see what my morning weigh in is tomorrow. If it hasn’t changed, then I guess I’ll reward my fat butt with 2 slices instead of 1.

Jeez, I make myself sick. What a fatty-McFat-so 🤥

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STOP DRINKING! You dumb butt. Don’t you know how many CALORIES you’re consuming right now?!?

Just stop. Please, just stop.

Stop drinking those “Vodkaritas,” stop drinking those “Apple Crisp Oatmilk Macchiatos.”

Stop! Do you know how many CALORIES are in those??

Stop. Just stop. Be a good girl. You know it feels good when you’re winning, when you’re not filling yourself with junk.

Then why do you choose to do those things? Why do you choose to fail?

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Is that what makes for a good weight loss? To be unhappy?

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I want to be a size 0.

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Overeating = Stress

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I want to be skinny more than anything. Like literally, I would rather lose my boyfriend and my best friend and even my family. When I lose them, then I’ll lose the weight. But first, I have to lose the weight, then lose them, right? Wait, do I lose the weight or should I wait until they leave and then lose weight, does the weight go with them or, wait, weight goes before they go, right? Weight. That’s what I want to lose. But do I have to wait?

Or should I start now?

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I don’t know why I’m so hungry right now, but it’s REALLY PISSING ME OFF! 😡

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25 grams of sugar

A DAY

How the heck am I supposed to do that when literally ….

Hard boiled eggs (1.1 grams) -> breakfast

Plum (5.9 grams) -> breakfast

Melon (14 grams) -> lunch

Meal replacement shake (19 grams) -> lunch

Icing from a cupcake (13 grams) -> why the heck did I do that

Fireball (12.3 grams) -> shouldn’t have done this either

Maruchan instant ramen noodles (2 grams) -> dinner

Popped Reese’s snack mix (12 grams) -> I’m an idiot

Lays potato chips (1 gram) -> really?!

= 80.3 freaking grams of sugar today

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Ok. No sugar is going to be too hard.

I need to figure out the highest amount I’ll let myself eat in a single food item.

…this will take some research.

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No sugar.

No more.

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Basically, drink one glass of water every hour.

Download the ‘DrinkWaterReminder’ app. It’s free.

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Just stop eating

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I am actually really depressed and need to shrivel up in my bed and wish everything I want is unattainable, otherwise I’ll be giving myself too much hope

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I think I saw a real Ana girl today

Not in a picture, but in real life

WOW 😯

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Do I really need boobs.

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