character blog!

krembearry's character blog! feel free to interact with any of these characters <3 all featured art is mine!

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made a buncha foxes. my new lil guys

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miss soekko <333

she lives in a world with hell and evil things so she like. DOES NOT (very specific) she does NOT do exorcisms. those are MEAN to ghosts. she does spiritual healing <3 truly believes that there is no such thing as evil, and everyone. EVERYONE. is deserving of kindness on their journey to being good. is ENDLESSLY patient. i love her...

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art experiment with @thedawner 's new krita brushpack! i'm having. so much fun. learning about using colors and digital painting, and these are soooo helpfulll

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posts here. look at my new fucked up bird

its name is adja and i dont know much but it works in my weird space hospital that i dont have a name for yet. its a bitch and doesn't speak much but is EXTREMELY expressive. actually i dont know if it can speak. good question. i'd ask but,

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“Of course, I expected my daughter to grow up the same as I did. I expected her to well-behaved, a model student, to be beautiful and perfect. I expected her to change the world; it’s what every mother wants, isn’t it? My daughter would be everything I wanted her to be, because I wanted her to be it. Simple as that.”

“On the other hand, what I want is for her to be herself. I want Cocoa to grow up knowing her limits, but knowing who she is, truly, and living up to that. She’s not a doll. I don’t think that Vidi was necessarily evil or anything- it’s just that she didn’t even try to change. Sometimes it scares me that she might have just... had another kid, with a spouse that wouldn’t try to change her. I worry every day that I’m going to mess up with Cocoa. She’s not perfect, and I’m sure as hell not. We aren’t supposed to be. I think with how boneheaded she’s turned out that she’s more like me than I intended; but that’s her choice.”

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boone wasn’t always supposed to be a single father. he had a kid with his ex-wife, vidania, and fully intended to raise cocoa alongside her. there had always been... off things, but he had assumed it wasn’t that bad. i mean, it’s not like he wasn’t flawed as well. he was busy, anyways. he had been intending to become a baseball star. most baseball players were a bit more lithe than him, but he had a power and impeccable aim, so he had a ton of potential.

vidania started treating him a bit different. not bad- again, just... off. not right. he knew he deserved a little better, but he’d always viewed himself as just a bit too mean-looking to have high hopes for someone else. besides, he’d married her! they’d known each other long enough.

it only hit him fully when he heard the way vidania talked to cocoa. cocoa was still too young to understand language, but vidania talked about alll the expecations she had, everything she not hoped, but expected cocoa to do. she couldn’t even hold her neck up yet, and vidania wanted so much from her... boone didn’t want his child to grow up with expectations like that.

after discussion, it was almost too easy for vidania to pass her up. she just... gave cocoa to boone, went along with the divorce, and left. she put up absolutely no fight. boone almost wishes she had, so he could be a bit more bitter about it; but no. 

the woman he once loved was just someone completely different now. and he... was nothing to her. 

boone had to move on to working in a cafe, eventually running it. he couldn’t watch his daughter from the baseball diamond, but he could have her in a high chair in the corner of the cafe. here, he could take care of her. that was more important than whatever ridiculous dream he’d made up for himself.