Iâm back to a âI am too anxious to do Activities outside the house but I hate myself for it but I canât do Activities because too much anxiety and I hate myselfâ
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Iâm back to a âI am too anxious to do Activities outside the house but I hate myself for it but I canât do Activities because too much anxiety and I hate myselfâ
I am Bad mentally today
We go on vacation in a couple of weeks and Iâm really worried that itâs going to turn out like my weekends do, with low moods and too much anxiety to leave the house or socialize
Iâm mentally really struggling :(
Asked C to make me 1 scrambled egg and a piece of toast and it was taking ages so he came out and offered it to me and was like âI donât know what happened, I think I put too much milk, but theyâre super wateryâ
I can barely eat slightly watery scrambled eggs because of the Texture. I asked him to make me more :( and feel super bad even though he had offered :(
C came home and told me thereâs a strawberry fest this weekend in a town near Noni if I want to do that tomorrow instead, but his cousin is there now and has been driving around for an hour trying to find parking
Need to go to cvs in the next two hours and I donât wanna
Okay but whatâs the evolutionary benefit to the persistent relationship fears and doubts (both about him and myself being with him) in the few days leading up to my period???? I have had this with all (3) of my boyfriends over the course of the last 16 years!
My birth certificate replacement came in the mail but they didnât cash my check yet?
I am super bloated and gassy this morning. Like visibly bloated. It hurts.
Itâs cramps đ«
C and I made a plan to go to the beach tomorrow and Iâm already brainstorming ways to get out of it, even though it was me who said âI want to go to the beachâ several times in the first place. Why am I the worst person ever??
I need to buy some new bras today I think, I usually have a red rash under the band when itâs hot after wearing a bra but now I have one in between my boobs as well. And theyâre lasting a lot longer. I havenât worn a bra since like 4:30 yesterday afternoon and itâs still pretty red.
I am super bloated and gassy this morning. Like visibly bloated. It hurts.
the persecution of lefthandedness is insane to think about because it was so intense for so long, in some places still is, without any clear profit motivation. sheer love of the game. as late as the 70s at least they were smacking my stepdad's hands for it with a wooden ruler at school, to this day he's in weird ambidexterity situation where he's not great with either side and notably clumsy due to poor hand-eye coordination. just wtf
It is fascinating to me that people also think of handedness as an example of bigotry that just...went away. As you note, it...hasn't in some places. I know people who grew up in the mid-late 90s who still had this problem.
But also, and this is really important to keep in mind regarding bigotry that still causes in many ways larger problems, that the structural problems are not actually fixed.
If you go to any computer lab or public library, the mice will be on the right side of the computer. Sometimes they can be moved. Sometimes they can't. Many computer mice are curved to only fit in right hands.
It is impossible to find lefthanded scissors without going to a specialty store, because most scissor makers don't even make them. And it's not just a matter of grip; the slicing side of the blades is obscured if you use righty scissors in your left hand, so your cut is off.
All those signing pads with the little chained styluses? Almost always on the right side, often not even long enough to stretch to the left. Makes signing for lefties extremely difficult.
I caused actual muscular problems in college having to twist around in order to write at right-handed desks in college when there weren't enough lefty desks--and there never were. Some classrooms didn't even have a single one.
I could go on.
But the point is, bigotry isn't just a mindset shift. People can't just decide they're not bothered by that particular difference anymore and everything's fine, because society is still structured and designed to cause problems for marginalized people. And they're never even going to notice all the little ways their life is bent to convenience them that inconveniences others.
When kiddo was learning to write, their teacherâwho was a beautifully kind, caring, compassionate person who even thanked me for making them aware of certain kinds of left/handed supplies, because their new toddler was a lefty and theyâd never even thought about itâwas teaching the kids a method for word spacing that involved placing their free index finger down at the end of each word and then writing the next one.
Pause for a moment, especially if youâre right-handedâand Iâm being serious here, physically do this if you have two functioning arms and handsâand grab a writing tool in your left hand. Now place your right index finger down and try to start writing a word next to it.
Yeah. Great technique, huh? Really convenient and comfortable and easy. đ
I sent in a small baggie of small popsicle sticks Iâd custom painted for them and labeled with their name for kiddo to use instead, but ultimately they stopped because it wasnât as convenient when nobody else had to get something out.
Writing in English is difficult enough when youâre left-handed (most of our letters are designed with pull motions, but lefties must push), but even other foundational basics are made more difficult than they have to be, because their needs arenât considered, even in situations where overt hostility isnât intended.
Even now, in an older grade, theyâre now all sharing a lot of the supplies, but my kiddo has their own pair of labeled lefty scissors they keep in their personal cubby. Teacher was 100% chill with me sending them in, but didnât even consider to take the step further when Iâd asked about whether or not they had them to just⊠get some for all the lefties. I know there are other kids, know some of them personally. (I made a set of writing spacing sticks for the single one that I knew of back in 1st grade.)
Regarding computer mice? Kiddo had standardized testing last year. They do it on chromebooks now at their school. They did their entire first day with the track pad instead of the mouse, because none of the teachers proctoring or assisting even knew you COULD switch the sides/toggle a setting to switch which button was the dominant select. We happened to have one at home thanks to remote learning during Covidâs early days, so that night we sat down together and found the setting ourselves so they could fix it the following day. But on a student account at school, they couldnât change that setting. And? None of those teachers knew enough about technology to be able to override it. So even when I went above and beyond and personally sought out the skills and tools to help my child level the playing field on their own, the teaching staff was so unaccustomed to even considering this as a need or problem, that they werenât able to remove the incredibly basic barriers to a fair schooling experience.
And this is honestly a good school, with staff that care and work hard and take 99% of bigotry concepts very seriously, teach about truth and compassion and how to recognize at this kid level a lot of the basic seeds that can grow into hate and hurt and also healing and helping. But the fact that left-handed needs are different? It is so ingrained to default to right-handed layouts that even left-handed staff donât conceptualize these problems, because they were taught the exact same way.
10 pm hits and I get super paranoid and anxious about my relationship, even as heâs cuddling me đ
I do not like the direction the book Iâm reading too!!! FMC said at the beginning she didnât want kids! 80% in and sheâs accidentally pregnant (she had the implant so they didnât use condoms and she miscalculated how long she had it so it expired)