Aren't these the moments we live for

[beasyou-are]

I scratched under my boob through my tank top veeeeery lightly and it definitely left a scratch mark 😬

[beasyou-are]

Other gross things happening:

The skin on my arms is changing colors, like a discoloration in an uneven pattern, some skin is darker like a bruise. Not happy. Still can’t make myself shower.

[beasyou-are]

I bought a cooling blanket for summer use a few weeks ago because the quilt I had at the condo for summer worked well with the central air but we don’t have that in the apartment so it’s always warmer. But I keep waking up alternating hot and cold. I was doing that with the quilt in the winter based on when C was under the blanket or not (he kicks it off) but it’s annoying to wake up shivering and then sweating in the summer!

At the condo I used a thicker blanket C got me for the winter but our bedroom here gets much warmer

[gatheringbones]

tbh a lot of my advice boils down to “hey you know that terrible horrible looming thing you’re doing your best to avoid and distract and escape as much as possible but no matter what you do it just keeps looming and looming and ruining your life”

“just, fuckign, run straight at it screaming.”

[quasarkisses]

i needed this as a background

[spectrexviiii]

[ruhrohrexia]

i wont worry about it i say to myself with the always worried disorder

[sunsetbuddie]

we used to get christmas episodes of television. halloween episodes. valentines. we used to get television that felt like part of your life. like it was happening alongside your life. now we mostly get 8 episodes dropping all at once every two years and they don't have time for any of that. i miss characters living alongside us

[beasyou-are]

I am like genuinely very concerned about our IT guy because June 3 I emailed specifically asking for a desktop computer for our new staff at the daycare, he said he could do the end of the following week, I said perfect sounds great. Thursday I emailed him to see if he was still delivering and he said he didn’t hear back and could be there today at 1 pm.

Then in a separate thread on Friday, I emailed him asking for a laptop to be delivered to our office. In both emails I specifically named the people receiving each device.

He called me at 1 today and said he had the laptop with him but wasn’t sure if that’s for the daycare and I said no, the laptop is for the office, and reminded him who it was for. He had never responded to the email on Friday. Then he calls me at 2 and asks if he’s supposed to be delivering a desktop to the new employee at the daycare because she’s working from a Chromebook right now. I was like uh??????? He was like “oh I must have missed that in the original email” so I pulled up the email and it could not have been more clear what I was asking like I am so confused and concerned about his mental state right now?? And it makes us look so disorganized and unprofessional!!!! I am Big Stressed about this!!!

(The person who had her position before her moved to this office and took the desktop with her because that made the most sense. We also did not have any heads up from the director that hired her that she was starting so we couldn’t order the computer any sooner than we did.)

[beasyou-are]

I took this issue very personally and had a noticeable physical reaction to it. Something to discuss in therapy?? I’ve calmed down lol

[beasyou-are]

Doing tech research in my favorite place (Reddit) and the amount of people responding negatively to other people asking for troubleshooting advice or complaining that the are having an issue with spectrum on the spectrum subreddit is…..wild! Like are y’all okay? And then they double or triple down on it! Like let people complain on the complaining forum please.

[iero]

T-shirt that says "I'M SORRY FOR THE PERSON I BECOME WHEN I'M OVERHEATED"

[beasyou-are]

Love that the daycare staff never communicates their issues to me and expects me to fix them??? I can’t fix it if I don’t know it’s broken! They’ve had internet issues for months with it cutting out daily and they’ve had service techs out there and the last one said they don’t know what’s wrong and we’re going to escalate it but it seems they never did??? Even though I tell them to text me every time I found out it hasn’t been working!!! Like come on! I can’t fix things that I don’t know are broken.

And they’re not even the ones who contacted me this time!! It’s the tech guy to suggest reaching out to the internet company again!

[beasyou-are]

I am like genuinely very concerned about our IT guy because June 3 I emailed specifically asking for a desktop computer for our new staff at the daycare, he said he could do the end of the following week, I said perfect sounds great. Thursday I emailed him to see if he was still delivering and he said he didn’t hear back and could be there today at 1 pm.

Then in a separate thread on Friday, I emailed him asking for a laptop to be delivered to our office. In both emails I specifically named the people receiving each device.

He called me at 1 today and said he had the laptop with him but wasn’t sure if that’s for the daycare and I said no, the laptop is for the office, and reminded him who it was for. He had never responded to the email on Friday. Then he calls me at 2 and asks if he’s supposed to be delivering a desktop to the new employee at the daycare because she’s working from a Chromebook right now. I was like uh??????? He was like “oh I must have missed that in the original email” so I pulled up the email and it could not have been more clear what I was asking like I am so confused and concerned about his mental state right now?? And it makes us look so disorganized and unprofessional!!!! I am Big Stressed about this!!!

(The person who had her position before her moved to this office and took the desktop with her because that made the most sense. We also did not have any heads up from the director that hired her that she was starting so we couldn’t order the computer any sooner than we did.)

[beasyou-are]

I’m trying something new at work. I typed my to do list like I normally do with all the things for the day. To combat being overwhelmed and not knowing where to start so not starting, I wrote the first 3 tasks on a sticky note to focus on. Hopefully this helps the executive dysfunction!!

[beasyou-are]

Update: it took 3 hours to do the 3 easy tasks on my first note. Wrote my 2nd note with 3 slightly more time consuming tasks

Got the first one and half the second one done (waiting on someone else) and then I …. Completely worked on something on the big list but not my sticky note so once I finished that I wrote it as task 4 on my note lol

[beasyou-are]

Just sent a picture of my staff meeting notes to my pal because I’m pretty sure I only wrote down half the information I need for something a coworker asked me to do during the meeting last week 😬

I was like “I’ll definitely remember the specifics of this!” And then bam migraine

[beasyou-are]

Really should’ve done something fun yesterday because on Saturday we maybe have a cookout with his family (his cousin is visiting from out of state with his family but his aunt hasn’t actually invited anyone yet???) and then Sunday is Father’s Day with my family

[beasyou-are]

C said the last time he went to Shaws there was a sign with the strawberries saying that there might be a shortage of strawberries over the next few weeks because of the weather in CA 😭

[beasyou-are]

C always asks me to read to him fully knowing I will not do that. Last night he asked when I was getting my kindle to read and bed and I said “sure… once upon a time,” and he whined “no you have to do the voices….. like the different narrator voice you do when you read to me” and I was like “I don’t do voices” 😂 and he frowned

(It’s one of his “bits” he does but I found this iteration of it more amusing than usual)

[beasyou-are]

I was running late leaving this morning and went to pack my lunch and the 16 ounces of almond milk in a shaker protein bottle spilled out and filled the lunch box and then leaked onto the bench cushion