[beatmebitemewhipme]

Boys

[n0autonomy]

yeah sorry camo pants and boots again

[hassansrumpusroom]

[beatmebitemewhipme]

Ive been training my boy for a little while and I finally eased him into taking it all for the second time ever last night he thinks he cant do it until Im all the way in and then something clicks and I can tell it starts feeling really good and his hole opens right up and makes it so easy and wet and hot. I kept thinking about what you said while I watched it pump in+out of him, him moaning and begging, rocking back against me like he was in heat, hole glistening with lube, I hadnt even thought hed be able to keep it in but it was the easiest thing in the world once he got used to it and especially once he realized what it meant for him. Sudden male, new homosexuality. Ive been working my way up to this since we started seeing each other almost a year and a half ago now he didnt let me until top surgery was healed+done and his cock got big enough that I could convincingly lube up my hand and stroke his hardon in my fist and and our voices got deep enough that when we pant we sound like men fucking but Ive been grooming sodomy into him for so long I knew if I was patient I was in for something really so perfect. Perfect blond boys anal virginity which I tenderly deliberately coaxed out of his cock along with his come Ill lock inside me and keep safe forever

[pleatherdyke]

Once my ex sent me a picture of her at work using this handheld grinder to scrape smooth the jagged irregularities of parts made at the foundry she worked at and her hands were grey with iron particles nicked and bruised I miss catching her before showering after getting off work and dragging my mouth along the grooves and veins of her hands & watching her ash her pipe into the carpet

[stonetakes]

First block in what will become a whole quilt

Heat transfer print on cotton - quilted, cotton yarn, leather

[beatmebitemewhipme]

Reflecting poorly on my prospects of liberation due to the financial burden I think I would prefer lipo-contouring unfortunately my urgent need means I may have to settle all I can think about every day when I look at my closet in distress is what itll feel like when I can just put on a black shirt and pair of jeans and leave the house. No sports bra. Oh God even just the thought that Ill still be waiting for so long makes me nauseous

[beatmebitemewhipme]

Intox this overstim that I got wrestled down and thrown into the dirt and beaten so hard that I couldnt stop my legs from being yanked apart or prevent my violent penetration ... so. I dont know who else is cutting themselves open to entwine their intestines with one others or whatever. I cant stop dreaming of forcing bruised bloody stone butch masochist to slowly straddle me trembling in anger and in pain. Yes boy you can and you will take it

[beatmebitemewhipme]

I think about him and I can hear the blood rushing

[beatmebitemewhipme]

Missing IMSL so bad its what I think about while Im trying to fall asleep and everything I desire directs me to find some way to make this into my twenty-four-seven life how can I be in constant contact. Counting down the days till women of drummer which no one will understand except for myself and X. I might whore myself out at the next party and lick boots for tips

[beatmebitemewhipme]

[beatmebitemewhipme]

Writing reachout emails for a dyke-queer kink collective and drinking a 5.9 pbr and realizing I may have stumbled into something perfect although Im sick as a dog with an upper respiratory issue which keeps happening when I smoke too much for a couple days and is making me worry about the state of my immune system and Im nauseous with longing for my leather testo-butch best friend who lives hours and hours across the border and truly the only thing working for me right now is that I get to write filthily-worded emails and that I have a ticket to women of drummer paid for by someone Im tied to by virtue of our shared leather and blood. 50 days until women of fucking drummer until I get to meet Leslie Anderson the first Ms Bootblack 1999 until I get to be in Chicago until I get to be driven to Maryland by my brother-in-arms

[beatmebitemewhipme]

If I were to grab your face and force my fingers between your teeth to get your mouth open and take the time to beat you like a dog it would be because I could tell how badly you needed it, which clearly you do desperately enough that you dream about it, and I would get some sadistic pleasure out of watching you contort in pain and your willingness to degrade yourself, but mostly my satisfaction would come from your eagerness to submit to my control and relinquish yourself to my use of you and your humiliation. Yes I hurt you and dehumanized you and I did it on purpose but I did it because I care enough about you to give you what you need. Is there anyone in your life you can recreate this with or can you only experience this in dreams with the leatherdyke you fantasize about online. Drugged and pliant and scared and in pain but so horny it doesnt even matter

[beatmebitemewhipme]

[beatmebitemewhipme]

[beatmebitemewhipme]

Making it slowly into the gay mens leather scene seeing as the womens crowd isnt working out for me and hasnt been for a year whether its because leatherdykes are predictably difficult to break open or because Im just unlikeable is regrettably beyond me at this point so is the lesbian politicized melodrama I just want to lick leather boots in the club ... still have yet to meet any testosteronized leatherbutches my age a demographic which I think is the only one Ill ever truly be swayed by and the absence of which is another reason why I feel bizarrely isolated in the womens scene even surrounded by masculine old dykes something just doesnt mesh meanwhile fleeing to men's spaces means Im at least running into transmen regularly enough that I can almost approximate the feeling of sameness Im looking for but its a shallow replacement. I think I got too spoiled at international ms leather and now Im adjusting poorly to the lack. Im starting to worry that nothing will satisfy me in the end but something discouragingly specific

[beatmebitemewhipme]

Getting drunk on rum straight from the bottle stripping down and putting on my chaps and self-disciplining with the black flogger that has the strip of leather tied around the handle, the one that fell off Xenon's own hand-made one during his self-collaring, which he presented to me full of adrenaline in front of his elders, the back of my ribcage stings for you tonight