A work in progress

I am an artist in training and this is my work.

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More sketching, I call this one 'guy that kind of looks like Nietzsche or something. 

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Graphite, sloth skull. 

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Some very very late gold fish for my best friends Birthday. 

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Here's some digital art that I’m probably never going to finish.

Finishing an art piece is something I've always struggled with and these last few months I really haven’t finished a lot. I think it’s because I’m continuously not happy with my work. It’s not that I can’t see how much I've improved over the last two years, it’s because I’m still not at the level of artistic ability I feel like I should be at. In all honesty I don’t even know where that level is or if it’s even in sight. What’s frustrated is school forced me to finish things, even if I didn't like them I would have to turn them in, but when I have control over my own projects I end up crumbling without the structure. Nothing ever feels finished; nothing ever feels like it’s going to be finished.

In order to be a better artist I really need to move past this. My goal the next few months is going to be to finish as many pieces that I can no matter if I like them or not. 

*The first drawing is of this Deer Prince cosplay

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I did the Witchsona thing. 

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Panted quick magpie skull. 

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A watercolor of the skulls of a small dog and rat I painted about a month ago. 

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The Brain Scoop is my favorite show on YouTube and Emily is pretty much my hero.

Go watch it now!

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I did some Welcome to Night Vale fan art! 

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Sooooo I was in an art show this weekend and here are the paintings I put in it, and an up close of one almost finished and a photo of some of them matted and on the wall at the show. so yeah that happened. It was cool. 

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Day 3, I'm doing some digital work. Here is a big sister from bioshock two. 

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Day two, I was having issues with the new red paint I got. I also am trying to keep these paintings under a half hour so, they may not all me great. Anyways still life of a broken animal skull, I have no idea what it is. 

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I'm going to try to do one quick still life a day until the end of year. Something sweet and simple without much thought put into it. Anyway here is day one I guess. 

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Videos by Zefrank always manage to make me feel a little less alone. 

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I'm working on Graphite drawing of a ... uh dog skull? maybe? I'm not sure my step-dad found it. I'm going to probably do a water color as well 

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Experimenting with ink, sketch of a mostly decomposed bird. Sometimes when you accidentally drip ink all over your illustration you just have to go with it.