Beautiful and Bored

This is where I come to write.. bitch, and get things off my chest so my depression/ anxiety doesn't kill me.

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Sometimes I just want to disappear.

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When my therapist tells me I’m codependent:

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Same

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Realizing how you’ve grown and how you allow yourself to hold yourself back anyway.

The person sabotaging my happiness is me. Everything could be so much better.

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He said everything I needed to know with a handshake.

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Status since going on three nights. We have barely spoken.

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Little secret no one cares about

I cannot watch movies that involve rape. It gives me a deeply uncomfortable feeling.

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I don’t want to feel.

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I hate my fucking life.

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I need to write this

Sometimes, I want to have another baby. It just breaks my heart that I will never have another.

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you know, it is not very often that I see a gif and experience this strong a desire to put my hand into it.

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It hurts

It’s painful to see others be blessed with a child.

There’s three missing in my life. Two that didn’t survive the pregnancy and one that I haven’t been able to have. There’s an emptiness and it creeps up on me. Today is one of those days. I wish I could have just one more. My family feels incomplete.

[recaption]

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Trying something new and different today

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It's Friday, so tonight, something a little stronger.

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What's scary is it's the first time I've gotten high and it didn't make me feel better. I shouldn't have read my journal, I shouldn't have.

I haven't been so close.

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