Doing okay in your neck of the woods?
Not really
Some days I feel happy
but most days I pine to be alone
or somebody else entirely
I think about you often
even though I’m not supposed to
And you know I’d kill
to have the Christmas lights in your bedroom
bear witness to another one of our 2:00 am talks
But I have to mean it
when I say you we cannot talk anymore
Yes out of principle
but also because
my wanting has always left me feeling emptier
than I was before
And I know you already know
because you have known me fully once
but in case you have forgotten
I will never stop caring for you.
There are pieces of you so entwined,
so affixed, so immovable from me
That there is no me without you
even if we have to carry on
as if our souls were never touched
by one another
