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HIGHLY PRIVATE multi - muse OC blog. written by nicole. mun is 22.

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

i know it’s been a little less than a week, but i am feeling a little better. but. i’m thinking about revamping this account. meaning a new blog, url, etc. i would be only following those who i know i will interact with on a daily basis (or plot with and know we will eventually write stuff out). so i wouldn’t follow everyone back. not trying to be rude by that, but it may come down to it. 

but i am thinking about removing muses. meaning if they only get 1 person interacting with them, then maybe i’ll take them off. i kinda don’t get a lot of muse that way either. i’m thinking about adding canons or something, but we will see. 

we will see if this is the end game to begin with. nothing is set in stone, but this is what i’ve been thinking about. 

not trying to be rude saying this either, but it's about making my experience on here enjoyable. that i feel comfortable doing what i am. that's what we all want, right? an enjoyable and comfortable experience playing the muses that we do. i don't even know if i'm making sense.

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

hiatus notice.

i’ve thought a lot about this the last few days and i think it’s in my best interest.

truth of the matter is that i’m just not feeling like writing or roleplaying. i need to take a step away from this account and focus on other things. i’m graduating in a few months and i’m going to be actively looking for a full time job or at least a part time job. i need to figure out what i want from that and where i see myself going in that.

and it’s not fair of me to make you guys wait for replies without notice, because every time i go to do drafts, i just can’t. i’ve been feeling my replies have been shit anyhow and i don’t want to do that. i’ve said this a lot, but it’s true and i’m not the same person when i was at 18 years old. things change, and i don’t want to fall into this cycle if i know i’m not enjoying myself like i was in the past.

it’s nothing anyone did, it’s all on me. i don’t want anyone to think that, because it’s personal stuff going on. not stuff that someone caused. so i can’t tell you how long this feeling will last or if it’s just a phase i’m going through. i could be here by the end of next week, who knows. i could be gone for a few weeks, months, again, who knows. and if the case does come down to where i end up leaving for good? then so be it. i probably won’t deactivate because i might want to come back some day and i like keeping my memories on here.

if you want to stay in contact during this, we can. i have my personal @johnnyrzezniks that i’ll be on through mobile during the week. or you can ask me for my Twiter, Facebook, Instagram (which might be a weird way to stay in contact tbh), or even my number but I’m only going to give that if people message me about it.

I love you all. I do. Thank you for everything and I’m glad to have you as friends. I’m not going to say that this is good-bye, because it’s not. It’s just going to be a little bit of time away from each other.

-Nicole

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

hiatus notice.

i’ve thought a lot about this the last few days and i think it’s in my best interest.

truth of the matter is that i’m just not feeling like writing or roleplaying. i need to take a step away from this account and focus on other things. i’m graduating in a few months and i’m going to be actively looking for a full time job or at least a part time job. i need to figure out what i want from that and where i see myself going in that.

and it’s not fair of me to make you guys wait for replies without notice, because every time i go to do drafts, i just can’t. i’ve been feeling my replies have been shit anyhow and i don’t want to do that. i’ve said this a lot, but it’s true and i’m not the same person when i was at 18 years old. things change, and i don’t want to fall into this cycle if i know i’m not enjoying myself like i was in the past.

it’s nothing anyone did, it’s all on me. i don’t want anyone to think that, because it’s personal stuff going on. not stuff that someone caused. so i can’t tell you how long this feeling will last or if it’s just a phase i’m going through. i could be here by the end of next week, who knows. i could be gone for a few weeks, months, again, who knows. and if the case does come down to where i end up leaving for good? then so be it. i probably won’t deactivate because i might want to come back some day and i like keeping my memories on here.

if you want to stay in contact during this, we can. i have my personal @johnnyrzezniks that i’ll be on through mobile during the week. or you can ask me for my Twiter, Facebook, Instagram (which might be a weird way to stay in contact tbh), or even my number but I’m only going to give that if people message me about it.

I love you all. I do. Thank you for everything and I’m glad to have you as friends. I’m not going to say that this is good-bye, because it’s not. It’s just going to be a little bit of time away from each other.

-Nicole

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

hiatus notice.

i’ve thought a lot about this the last few days and i think it’s in my best interest.

truth of the matter is that i’m just not feeling like writing or roleplaying. i need to take a step away from this account and focus on other things. i’m graduating in a few months and i’m going to be actively looking for a full time job or at least a part time job. i need to figure out what i want from that and where i see myself going in that.

and it’s not fair of me to make you guys wait for replies without notice, because every time i go to do drafts, i just can’t. i’ve been feeling my replies have been shit anyhow and i don’t want to do that. i’ve said this a lot, but it’s true and i’m not the same person when i was at 18 years old. things change, and i don’t want to fall into this cycle if i know i’m not enjoying myself like i was in the past.

it’s nothing anyone did, it’s all on me. i don’t want anyone to think that, because it’s personal stuff going on. not stuff that someone caused. so i can’t tell you how long this feeling will last or if it’s just a phase i’m going through. i could be here by the end of next week, who knows. i could be gone for a few weeks, months, again, who knows. and if the case does come down to where i end up leaving for good? then so be it. i probably won’t deactivate because i might want to come back some day and i like keeping my memories on here.

if you want to stay in contact during this, we can. i have my personal @johnnyrzezniks that i’ll be on through mobile during the week. or you can ask me for my Twiter, Facebook, Instagram (which might be a weird way to stay in contact tbh), or even my number but I’m only going to give that if people message me about it.

I love you all. I do. Thank you for everything and I’m glad to have you as friends. I’m not going to say that this is good-bye, because it’s not. It’s just going to be a little bit of time away from each other.

-Nicole

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

i think this weekend i’m going to take some time off from this blog. figure out what i want to do and kinda just…not think about roleplaying a bit? which means i should log off my account on mobile. 

but if you want to stay in contact, you can reach me @johnnyrzezniks, since i’ll more than likely be logged into that account for once.

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

i need to explain what’s going on in my mind lately.

i just…i think i’m slowly losing interest in roleplaying. every time i go to my drafts, i don’t want to write. i delay them for that reason. sometimes my muse is there, but it’s not like what it was in the beginning. i’ve been at this for four years and you know, you grow up. what interests you at a certain age might not interest you later on. 

plus, it’s march. i only have a few more months until i graduate school and honestly, i’m going to be focusing on finding a job. real life comes before roleplaying. 

so, that explains why i’ve been quiet, here and there. i am not going to say what my decision is just yet. i’ll try to do more things with break coming up, but i feel everyone should know what i’m thinking about and what i’m going through.

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

i need to explain what’s going on in my mind lately.

i just…i think i’m slowly losing interest in roleplaying. every time i go to my drafts, i don’t want to write. i delay them for that reason. sometimes my muse is there, but it’s not like what it was in the beginning. i’ve been at this for four years and you know, you grow up. what interests you at a certain age might not interest you later on. 

plus, it’s march. i only have a few more months until i graduate school and honestly, i’m going to be focusing on finding a job. real life comes before roleplaying. 

so, that explains why i’ve been quiet, here and there. i am not going to say what my decision is just yet. i’ll try to do more things with break coming up, but i feel everyone should know what i’m thinking about and what i’m going through.

Send me a "+" and a character you would like to see me hook up with..and Mun and Muse will give their opinion on the ship.

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[nicolexgarcia]

@beautifulmxnds

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oh and an update as to what’s going on in terms of missing credits for my major due to not taking certain classes.

it turns out that the year i enrolled (2014), they changed the requirements for the major, meaning i could take any kind of classes that fulfill a certain requirement. not the specific class that the school system is telling me i need to take. apparently the school system is not caught up yet and doesn’t realize that i did take the requirements, but not the specific class that they had to do in the past.

if that makes any sense. basically the system is not registered properly for the update since i enrolled but i have the requirements i need. they’ll just be transferred over.

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

i applied for two more internship positions with w/w/e and i know it’s already crazy to be planning out my entire thing without even getting a job yet, but.

they both are only 25hrs a week and start in June. which means i could work in may at my summer job to make money while working towards getting my license. then work with w/w/e during the week and work at my summer job on the weekends for money. it’s perfect.

universe, i don’t ask for much, but please, please let me get one of these internships. 

[lizzleolsen]

365 Days of Elizabeth Olsen 29/365 | Red Hook Summer Los Angeles Premiere Aug 14, 2012

[dailymarvelkings]

I think every relationship is going to go through a few rough patches. Those are what make it stronger, I think.

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

“Literally so glad i’ve taken a break from wrestling though like can you imagine doing Birdiebee and travelling everywhere for shows? I’d literally die. But oh my gosh- let me send you some Birdiebee stuff and let you try it you’ll love it honestly!”

“Taking a break from wrestling seems like the best option. It’s hard to step away from it, I bet. But, it does take a lot of time from your personal life. I can’t imagine what it would be like! Yes, please! I would love to have some cute Birdiebee clothes to wear during workouts and just relaxing at home.”

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

His dark eyes studied her face for a minute before flicking back to the paper in his hands. She was just as annoyed as him, he could tell. But he’d been in this position before and he’d learnt to hide it. “No matter how pissed y’are righ’now you gotta make it work or they’ll drop y’faster than a sack of potato’s.” he shrugged slowly. “We just gotta…why don’t we just do you as you. I mean. Gotta make you stand out right - i’m an old timer I don’t need no big break. You be my manager- like, the whole woken Matt is a lunatic so you play the manager who looks after him. You don’t gotta be all freaky…but you get to make the big decisions on my career and the matches…” he trailed off, offering her another shrug.

She took another look at the paper and everything it said on there. Kelly was frustrated to say the least. What she came for in this company was to wrestle, not to be a manager of someone. It wasn’t a role she was familiar with at all, so she didn’t know if it was going to work or that she would be able to connect at all with Matt’s character. But, he was right about it. If she didn’t perform well in this position, the higher ups might not see potential in her and drop her completely with no chance to redeem herself. “I suppose…” her voice started to trail off before she bit down on her bottom lip, looking over the script once more. “Basically I should find interesting ways to distract your opponents, try to get you big matches, that kind of stuff? Though I am letting you know ahead of time, I’m not doing any kind of laugh resemblance to yours.”

[xobriemodearchived]

[text - Hubby]: And it seems like these days they’ve got you working even more, but that’s Mania season for ya. We are about to make up for it for days as soon as you’re home, just saying!

[text - Hubby]: You know me oh so well! I love seeing you in other ways too, so perhaps you can return the favor?

[text - Hubby]: I don’t even know! I think it means the person looks good enough to eat? I have no idea, and Trin has to explain things to me all the time, because I just don’t get it. Hey, at least you aren’t like me, and they’ve tried to teach you how to twerk. Now that was a disaster!

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

[text; Breezy Baby]: It seems like that they do. If they’re going to have me covering a majority of Mania matches, they’re going to have me involved with the stuff beforehand. Oh? We are? I love the sound of that!

[text; Breezy Baby]: I do know you oh so well! I can definitely return the favor. Most certainly. ;)

[text; Breezy Baby]: I mean…it could be taken in a sexual context and a non-sexual content? I don’t know. Trin has to explain that kind of stuff to me too. Oh my god! I’ve seen your twerking on Total Divas and it’s not all that great…but could you imagine me doing that? I would be the worst twerker between us.

[bossvbanksarchived]

[text - My Little Gypsy]: I mean even if you did think it was a bad thing, I’d still do it. Ha, kidding!

[text - My Little Gypsy]: These kinds of presents. You still get all huffy with me when I buy you expensive things!

[text - My Little Gypsy]: They have clearly taken on our personalities, because we are always getting into trouble too ;). That reminds me, they need a new scratching post.

[text - My Little Gypsy]: We still need to decide on a date. Mmhmm, I just got out of the shower too ;). That’s 30-45 minutes too long, but I guess I can use that time to take more pics, ahem!

[beautifulmxnds-blog]

[text; My Love]: I know you well enough by now to say that you would do it again. I know how you are. But, are you really kidding?

[text; My Love]: I do get huffy with those gifts. You don’t need to buy me all these expensive things, you do know that, right?

[text; My Love]: Well, we are some great teachers. This family runs on trouble. ;) Should we get a giant one with the little houses they can sleep in?

[text; My Love]: We do. Maybe Mania weekend? I know that’s kinda a cliche for you wrestlers, but my birthday is around that time as well. You just got out of the shower, hm? ;) I don’t mind getting more pictures.