Wanted Dead Or Alive?

Usually sad stuff tbh, just need somewhere to express my feelings.

[beautifulsadness91]

History will always repeat itself. I always get reminded of that.

[beautifulsadness91]

No matter how hard we tried, we just couldn’t fix us.

- hardest pill to swallow

[beautifulsadness91]

I know I’m not gonna get the truth so I’m not even gonna ask anymore.

[beautifulsadness91]

Yesterday was my 20th birthday. I honestly didn’t think I would make it this far but you helped me overcome the shit in my past and for that I will be forever grateful. Thank you.

[beautifulsadness91]

When will I stop expecting people to love and care for me as much as I do them?

[beautifulsadness91]

I often think I’m too difficult to deal with and a burden. It seems anytime I’m upset no one really knows how to help and just brushes me off. In my mind, I know exactly what I want for comfort and it seems so simple. Idk if I’m just too complicated or I try to find comfort in the wrong people.

[beautifulsadness91]

I’m sorry I overthink and ruin our day. I’m sorry I don’t know how to express my feelings properly. I’m trying I really am, but if my whole life I’ve been told to bite my tongue... it’s hard to break a habit.

[hatin]

there is so much hurt and sadness inside of me and i have no idea how to control it anymore

[beautifulsadness91]

You constantly tell me that you want to know whenever I’m hurting or feeling bad but every time I do you’re never there. You’ll leave me on delivered or answer every 30-60 minutes. So what’s the point if you’re never there when I need you?

[beautifulsadness91]

I hate your inconsistency. It makes me question everything. How can you show me so much love one day and then act like I don’t exist the next?

[beautifulsadness91]

If your significant other messaged you right now saying that they are having a breakdown and feel the need to sh, what would you do? Genuine question, what’s your first response.?

[beautifulsadness91]

Nothing changes. It’s just the same shit over and over and over and over and over.

[beautifulsadness91]

I just want to feel like enough for once.

[beautifulsadness91]

Every time I think I’m getting better, I fall right back to where I was all over again. I’m so tired.

[beautifulsadness91]

I will always miss you. I hope you’re doing well.

-messages I never sent

[lmm-43]

The way I care for people makes me wish I had somebody like me in my life.

[irlbeb]

sketches for out of lust, out of love (2018)

bevin macutay