Change is Coming

24 | just a lesbian with several mental disorders who needs a place to let it out | 5’6” | sw: 174 lbs | cw: 133.6 lbs | gw: 124 lbs

[ohlivee]

un matin sur deux

[beautifulsom-eday]

listen i haven’t lost any weight in over a year but i’ve maintained 134 and let me tell you. i love being thin. this is only a BMI of 21.6 but i feel so skinny in fact i don’t think i’d want to be much thinner because i don’t want to feel any weaker i mean my arms are already frail enough. but it’s weird because i hated my body for so long and now i love it and don’t want to change it? were ADHD meds the key the whole time? was everything else just a result of leaving that untreated??? idk y’all. i’ve also been grappling with the fact that i may be on the spectrum but i’m not sure what’s just ADHD and what could be autism. i do feel sometimes like everyone else got a manual for socializing and i never did. i’m getting off topic but i think i’m going to try to build up some muscle to feel stronger and look more toned but i don’t want to gain any weight lmaoooo and that’s how i know i’m not like better because weight gain still terrifies me though i am trying to unlearn that

[sweatermuppet]

violence is the appropriate response to oppression btw

[amourstreetstyle]

Miu Miu Spring 2021

[apocalypseswhore]

me and the girls who still use tumblr in 2022

[mentalchillness]

me, going from actively suicidal back to passively suicidal again: well, glad that’s over

[borderlineprettymuchdying]

the mental equivalent to kicking dropped ice underneath the fridge

[beautifulsom-eday]

logged in for the first time in a month and saw my current weight in the bio and i’m definitely a few pounds up from that and shit hurted y’all but i’ve been drinking like 6 days a week for 4 weeks straight so maybe don’t do that girl what

[beautifulsom-eday]

lmaoooo all these people posting for eating disorder awareness week or whatever and i’m like idk half cringing half like realizing half the people i know have disordered eating habits?????

[inkursion]

@rhibrai

[luvmeinthedark]

being pretty in the passenger seat is just one of my many fortes

[borderlineblitz]

My day everyday

[beautifulsom-eday]

had a breakdown and i think my fiancée saw my sh marks 🤪 so fun for me

it’s just embarrassing really and makes me feel guilty more than anything else because she deserves someone who isn’t so fucked in the head

[beautifulsom-eday]

i’m so fucking miserable it’s insufferable

[teachagainstfascism]

i just have this persistent feeling of “i’m not doing enough” combined with “i don’t have the energy to do anything” and it just really fucking sucks

[millthompson]

[dankmemeuniversity]

[sad-empty-lost]

My special talent is assuming our friendship is a burden on you and you dread hearing from me. So then I stop talking to you to ease the load and ruin what we had