🧨 ARSON 🔥 @beavholio - Tumblr Blog

freak. weirdo. creep

#persona #my art #doodle #pen scribbles #arson posting #beavis and butthead #beavis #lords of acid #beavis fictive #art storage #pen sketch

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His hair awesome istg

#goals #megadeth #dave mustaine #80s #80s thrash #thrash metal #90s

when he wants u so bad he has u at gunpoint 🖤💙

#arson posting #beavis and butthead #earl #crazy relationship #beavis #beavis fictive #ig

wish old friends treated me less like a stranger… but heh I get it. My fault for not being present because of stupid dissociation…

Umm I think I made this in 2014? Ceramics class.

I no longer have it.. eh ):> broke..

#my art #old art #ceramics #rat fink #thing #arson posting #fink #monster #oc

scribblez

#idk #ocs #ig #my art #arson posting #pen #scribbles #pen scribbles #schizo #alters

toddianuzzi

beavis and his comic-accurate boy-friend

#my pathetic ass when #beavis and butthead #earl #comic lore

fictionkinfessions

Reminder that it's always okay and healthy to distance yourself from your source if it's bringing you serious distress

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beavholio

thissssss

I dont hate it. but it gives a weird home sickness that I dont really want and I dont want to be codependent on anyone anymore.??¿¿

chronicsymptomsyndrome

setting small objects on fire over a sink will fix me. pretty sure

#pyrophilia #pyromania #grounding techniques

old stuff

#OLD ART #found it #ren and stimpy #tiger #trippy #fink #fink art #arson posting #beavis fictive #trippy art #my art

god .. god damn being a fictive from a source that now ‘embarrasses’ you, kinda sucks.

I mean eh.. few others in this complicated vessel like it. I hate that I cringe at it now. Why? I don’t know probably because its like watching how you were once. Naive, aloof , you know? A follower. But hey, at least I had some fun. Its hard to try and obtain that sense of freedom again. Nothing seems fun anymore. Dormant for too long, friends are different now. Or in pairs, I don’t have that anymore. Being a duo? So I’m confused or either more psychotic. I hate that. I hate how my mind hallucinates so much I spiral or space out too long. Crazy. ‘Fictive’ I don’t know a correct label, do I need one?

Wish I can reach out to people. I can’t.

I miss laughing at stupid stuff again, but it’s not easy. Anymore. When I do, I feel bad after or get bothered at myself for regressing. Brains are complicated, mine needs to be so fried that I stop feeling these feelings and getting progressively frantic.

But I journal here, so I don’t embarrass anyone’close’ to me, because in the end it’s just

‘ you’re being stupid Beavis’ probably, although the name Arson I do prefer, but I can’t escape that name I had since 2012 or something, I don’t remember.

Its 5:32 AM, sleep just seems pretty ancient these days.

#idk #arson posting #schizo #weirdo #did system #fictive alter #journaling