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Thoughts, inspirations, muses, and feelings from years, for years to come. 

[becauseimchangingthisagain]

17.07.24

Today I cried over playlist I made you last year that I never ended up sharing, as I’m reminded that the stabbing pain of grief is most felt in the absence of occasions, where there once was joy and love to share. It’s the first birthday in almost 10 years that I won’t be greeting you, because you disappeared without a trace on mine, and I can’t keep chasing you as I always have.

I wish you well nonetheless. I wish you joy and independence, love never ending, but I also wish you wisdom and recovery - enough to speak your truth and save the relationships worth fighting for, and a love for yourself so deep, that you recognize when it’s given to you too. I hope your heart mends itself, so you may see how special you have always been, and carry yourself with the grace and accountability that your little self deserves of you.

Most of all, I wish you courage to extend the compassion of closure towards those whose hearts no longer wish to keep.

Happy birthday. I will always love you, soul sister.

[metamorphesque]

When Oscar Wilde said Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation, and Jorge Luis Borges said I am not sure that I exist, actually. I am all the writers that I have read, all the people that I have met, all the women that I have loved; all the cities I have visited.

[metamorphesque]

And Salman Rushdie said I am the sum total of everything that went before me, of all I have been seen done, of everything done-to-me. I am everyone everything whose being-in-the-world affected was affected by mine. I am anything that happens after I'm gone which would not have happened if I had not come.

[perfectfeelings]

“Being replaced. I swear, that shit hurts more than a breakup.”

—

[why-am-i-breathing-deactivated2]

[dsxsbx]

[thoughtkick]

“The soul usually knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind.”

— Caroline Myss

[rawmeyn]

[arabellesicardi]

beauty/beauty by rebecca perry 

[tylerknott]

“Is there anything you need that I’m not giving? Am I still enough?”

— Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson

[kevingetem]

I pray that none of you ever fall in love w/ someone who makes you hate the way your heart works. You don’t deserve any uncomfortableness.

[wordsthat-speak]

“How strange it is. We have these deep terrible lingering fears about ourselves and the people we love. Yet we walk around, talk to people, eat and drink. We manage to function. The feelings are deep and real. Shouldn’t they paralyze us? How is it we can survive them, at least for a little while? We drive a car, we teach a class. How is it no one sees how deeply afraid we were, last night, this morning? Is it something we all hide from each other, by mutual consent? Or do we share the same secret without knowing it? Wear the same disguise?”

— White Noise (Don DeLillo)

[kaizendid-deactivated20200409]

Y’all ever get upset about (1) thing and then suddenly get upset about every single thing that’s happened to you in your entire life

[melancholy---kaleidoscope]

You tell me to just stop being so sad, but you don't understand what it's like, feeling like something is constantly crushing your chest

@pizza-and-insanity

[jacaylsdcbhsdhk-deactivated2020]

ODE TO LIFE (1) / (2) / (3) Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things / (4) / (5) Keith Haring, Journals / (6) / (7) / (8) / (9) / (10) / 

[purplebuddhaproject]

“My darling girl, when are you going to understand that being normal is not necessarily a virtue? It rather denotes a lack of courage.”

— (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

“And so she said, it is not your fault for not loving me the way I wanted you to. It is my fault for expecting too much from you.”

— Lukas W. // Coffee thoughts #191

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“Perhaps the biggest mistake I made in the past was that I believed love was about finding the right person. In reality, love is about becoming the right person. Don’t look for the person you want to spend your life with. Become the person you want to spend your life with.”

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