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" & now im wondering if a gas station is all i'll ever be "

[sanya-zpg]

I want to say, I am more comftable writing suicide notes than love letters because I'm scared of heartbreak, but that would be a lie.

You see, love letters are for the hopeful or the hopeless, and I am neither. I'm an evergreen tree used to seing the world around me fade colorless. I'm a ray of sunshine entering into the neighbourhood's abandoned house through a shattered window, visiting its ghosts.

I'm the smell of freshly grownded cumin and the light from street lamps reflected on puddles left behind by heavy rains. I'm neither hopeful nor hopeless, and that, I've learnt to make peace with.

So I will stay here, reading the suicide notes I once hoped to use but never did and live, because one day, love letters wont make my hands bleed. One day, I'll smile at all this.

[stay-close]

“I feel myself shutting down, closing off, like I should tell people, ‘No, we don’t use this heart anymore. It’s too fragile.”

— Courtney C. Stevens; The Lies About Truth

[latuphi]

Sedih? Pasti, tapi apalagi pilihan yang kupunya selain berproses menjadi kuat :')

[pussy-likes-pussy]

I just realized that no matter how hard you’ve been trying to keep a relationship or even friendship because you thought you could never live without them, it really is not worth it when this person caused you so much pain and the relationship was mostly one-sided and toxic. It’s very important to remind yourself that although you spent a lot of time with them, also had good memories and laughed a lot together, if there’s no or maybe bad communication, lack of trust and no understanding, then it is in fact NOT worth fighting for, believe me. So please love yourself and don’t feel guilty for leaving. You’re not being egoistic, it’s called self-love and your mental health matters

[fildzarahman]

“Meskipun sempat berpikir untuk mundur, berjuanglah hingga akhir. Dalam hidup, banyak hal yang kau mulai tanpa tau akhirnya.”

— Oh Sang Sik, dalam Misaeng. (via latuphi)

[biebergomezcy-blog]

[stay-close]

“When I am silent, I have thunder hidden inside.”

— Rumi

[agirldying]

[desultory-suggestions]

I know that after the abuse you suffered it’s hard to feel worthy of being here. But I know you are good, you are strong, and you will work everyday to make sure no one has to feel the pain you did.

[traumasurvivors]

My trauma didn’t make me stronger. I made me stronger. My trauma just made me traumatized.

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[furiousgoldfish]

Trauma will often feel like ‘I just need to get my shit together and stop being so fragile, emotional and incapable of doing basic things’, but don’t be fooled, it’s because you’re re-living some goddamn awful torture and utter abandonment from the world that you’re in this state of vulnerability and pain. It’s a learned minimization of your horror. You’re frozen in events of being broken, forced into vulnerability then despised and humiliated, and driven to insanity by working so hard yet being punished for it, which drives in the lesson that nothing is worth doing. Your feelings make sense when you consider what was done to you. Nobody would be able to just 'get their shit together’ and go on about their life if they had that forced onto them. This is not your fault.

[bpdamn]

sucks that i’ve lost my life to mental illness just because some people thought it was okay to treat me like shit

[survivor-positivity]

it’s okay if trauma has made you angry. your subconscious reaction is to protect yourself, and sometimes this is how it’s expressed: it doesn’t make you a bad person

[okay]

All I Ask

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]