it me.

photos I want to store on the internets.

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It’s been nearly 8 years since I used tumblr. My hair has grown, and I got my septum repierced after it closed during pregnancy.

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Majestic pupper.

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Oh 2017

It's January 2nd, and I'm posting this reflection of the year that has passed.

Just as when someone passes, you reflect to others about that person at a memorial, but you don't do that while they are still alive... or the day of, you do it later.

It's not much later, but that's okay.

In 2017

I hit my year mark at a job I like.

I cried a lot.

I took break from friendships because I was so angry at them.

I finally went to counseling and got on medicine for my depression.

I cut ties with someone who made living difficult, because of the past.

I grew even closer to my husband.

I learned it is possible to forgive yourself (still working on actually doing it.)

I learned prayer works.

I got pregnant, and found out just how much of a sap I really am.

In 2018

I need my friends

I need my family

I need love.

But in order for those all to happen, I'm going to need to give love.

Here's to 2018.

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Our friends came over for dinner.

Our friends include, one of his best friends, his gf, and gramma.

And honestly, ive never wanted to kick his gramma more than today, she is being so negative and I hate it.

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When you could have been having a relaxing Friday night.

But your landlord (also friend, also neighbor, we live in a duplex with her) tells you at 3pm that they are coming to replace your garage doors at 10am, the next day....

Last weekend we did her garage. There was me, my husband, her son, and partially her.

This weekend for our garage, there was me, and my husband. And partially her son. He was there for a Spacey 10 fucking minutes.

Glad to know that our "friends" are there for us. I'm so annoyed.

Also, for 10 minutes, instead of letting him work, she talks and talks and talks to my husband. Meanwhile I'm pregnant, and shouldn't be lifting shit, but if I can lift it, I do, cause they sure as hell are not going to help.

Bullshit.

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I got my septum pierced and damn I feel good.

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So here is the thing. In this world, in this time. There is no such thing as having dudes for just friends. All I want it some friends that are guys, but am I going to get that? Probably not. I have 2. That are just my friends. Nothing else. 1, something almost happened but now we talk about all the shit. The other 1, we get coffee and teach each other things. They are both over 21, so if I wanted I could hang out to almost anywhere with either of them. But there is this kid who works at B&N Starbucks and he is 18, and he seems like a kool kid whom I would like to be friends with but I'm horrible at making friends and I'm scared he will not like the "just friends" thing :-( :-(

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What now...?

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There was snow in San Diego area today! Mind you it was up in the Lagunas, but still! So-cal got snow! In May!

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One was more phocused on the dirt on the windshield. 05/06/17

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Last night I was super unhappy about my hair, and I'm not totally stoked today, but I don't feel as crappy either... At lease I have an excuse to wear my cat beanie🤷‍♀️

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My beautiful hair is gone. Ugh.

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Caught it on a yellow .

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Caught it on a yellow .

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Because I love you, and you make me love baseball.

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This needs to be a poster plastered everywhere in all of the high schools and middle schools in America.

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and colleges

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Boom there it is

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“Sex is like boxing. If one of the parties didn’t agree to participate, the other is committing a crime.” – John Oliver, The Late Show Tonight

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0528 05/02/17 I'm so high up I'll Neverland. -Andy Mineo