Maybe I'm nostalgic for the times where I felt like I was actually a little famous in my field but I miss doing Qutie Designs with Jakey :(
Idk if it was the "hanging out with my friends" or the "I actually was a sort of expert in my field where people seemed to value my words about Minecraft skins" or the "the prep for each weekly stream was a challenge and I liked rising to it" but something hit different
Or maybe it's the feeling that I've peaked helping someone else make content since I seem to keep failing at making my own, so my peak comes when me and another person were succeeding together
This is why they say don't accept payment in exposure! I started working with Jakey at a time where I couldn't accept monetary payment and I'm okay with what we have arranged now but also it sucks sometimes that I've done all this work and I KNOW it's good, but no one besides my small circle of fellow creators acknowledges my skill when idk. Sometimes I wish I could be like a bigger audience and have a community around my works instead of feeling like I'm just Me Myself and I when it comes to my works. Like even the 128x skins I make that I put hours into feel like they're starting to be old news to my friends while they put out a drawn art piece and the crowd goes wild. It's just- sometimes it's not fair, you know?
