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[oe9]

does anyone else secretly have that “i liked it before it was cool” complex but wont admit it

[whataboutsargeantcrunch]

it’s more along the lines of “you guys were fucking making fun of me for liking this before it was cool” kinda complex

[anglophile-rin]

Also a “I super excitedly tried to show this to you years ago and you brushed it off and now you think you introduced it to me and that is infuriating” kinda complex

[genderspace]

How to Make Love to a Trans Person by Gabe Moses [queer slam poet]

Forget the images you’ve learned to attach To words like cock and clit, Chest and breasts. Break those words open Like a paramedic cracking ribs To pump blood through a failing heart. Push your hands inside. Get them messy. Scratch new definitions on the bones. Get rid of the old words altogether. Make up new words. Call it a click or a ditto. Call it the sound he makes When you brush your hand against it through his jeans, When you can hear his heart knocking on the back of his teeth And every cell in his body is breathing. Make the arch of her back a language Name the hollows of each of her vertebrae When they catch pools of sweat Like rainwater in a row of paper cups Align your teeth with this alphabet of her spine So every word is weighted with the salt of her. When you peel layers of clothing from his skin Do not act as though you are changing dressings on a trauma patient Even though it’s highly likely that you are. Do not ask if she’s “had the surgery.” Do not tell him that the needlepoint bruises on his thighs look like they hurt If you are being offered a body That has already been laid upon an altar of surgical steel A sacrifice to whatever gods govern bodies That come with some assembly required Whatever you do, Do not say that the carefully sculpted landscape Bordered by rocky ridges of scar tissue Looks almost natural. If she offers you breastbone Aching to carve soft fruit from its branches Though there may be more tissue in the lining of her bra Than the flesh that rises to meet it Let her ripen in your hands. Imagine if she’d lost those swells to cancer, Diabetes, A car accident instead of an accident of genetics Would you think of her as less a woman then? Then think of her as no less one now. If he offers you a thumb-sized sprout of muscle Reaching toward you when you kiss him Like it wants to go deep enough inside you To scratch his name on the bottom of your heart Hold it as if it can- In your hand, in your mouth Inside the nest of your pelvic bones. Though his skin may hardly do more than brush yours, You will feel him deeper than you think. Realize that bodies are only a fraction of who we are They’re just oddly-shaped vessels for hearts And honestly, they can barely contain us We strain at their seams with every breath we take We are all pulse and sweat, Tissue and nerve ending We are programmed to grope and fumble until we get it right. Bodies have been learning each other forever. It’s what bodies do. They are grab bags of parts And half the fun is figuring out All the different ways we can fit them together; All the different uses for hipbones and hands, Tongues and teeth; All the ways to car-crash our bodies beautiful. But we could never forget how to use our hearts Even if we tried. That’s the important part. Don’t worry about the bodies. They’ve got this.

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I read that youre 4'11". Im 4'10" man! Haha its good to know that im not the only one! I still have yet to find a transguy shorter than me. Where are you from, friend?

Neato~!Yea I rarely see other guys our height. It makes it super fun to find clothes, right?I'm originally from the Florida panhandle but I live in SW Florida now (Sarasota)

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Are you gonna be posting a video soon? I miss yo face xD

Yes it is on my to-do list ! Several different videosI can't tell you when I'll be posting because I don't know when I'll be able to but it will happen~

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So I just had this moment of realization while going through some of my old things at my parents' house This is shug (as in "sugar"). He was my childhood companion, and probably the most important thing to me for years. Because of his pink bow, people would seem confused when I told them he was a boy, or they would laugh or say, "but she has a pink bow, isn't she a girl?" But I just shrugged them off, because he and I both somehow just knew he was really a boy. How's that for foreshadowing~

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More #EXO / work in progress Someone come learn this choreo with me~~ #exogrowl #exok #eureureong #dance #kdance #kpop #popdance #dancepop #kaykay #kaikai

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Do u guys like #EXO ?¿ #EXOK #exothunder #notactually thechoreoforthis #kpop #kdance #kwiggles #ireallydontmearmaybebaby

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Hey I just started following you on tumblr and YouTube. :) has your injection process changed any from when you first injected T? Like technique wise I guess? :)

Heyhey, I don't know when you asked this but I hope it wasn't too long ago ~But thanks! :)I haven't been able to think of anything that would've changed, though I did try inserting the needle at different speeds and slightly different locations to see if either of those had anything to do with it (turns out they didn't, at least not that I observed)I still don't really know what the deal was, but I've been using androgel for the past year and haven't had any complications with it aside from it being mildly bothersome to remember to put it on every day

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What happened that you got suspended? YouTube is an ass sometime :(

I wasn't suspended, it was like a technical error - I started my channel before YT got swallowed by Google, so when that happened it permanently linked my channel to my school email, which was an issue because it was ultimately under the school's control which meant I only had limited access, so I tried to switch it over to my personal email, and at the time I guess YT was still struggling to get their shit together and something in the process got messed up and my channel kinda got lost and for a while it was completely inaccessible. It just took a lot of poking and prodding and flailing my arms around in the air to get someone to actually help me and give enough of a shit to stick around to make sure the transfer worked.

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To my YouTube peops - working on some choreo for ya ~ I owe you a 2-years-on-T update, don't I? Thanks for being patient 🐶 #BTS #bangtanboys #wearebulletproofpt2 #btsbulletproof #kpop #khiphop #dancepractice #sweatyhair #whatsleepschedule

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#doghat

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can't stop reblogging Error screencaps not sorry

[ryangoslings]

ERROR // Leo

[jiminjuseyo]

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Finally got my YT channel back after months of having 0 access to it I am so so sorry for disappearing I'll do my best to respond to as many messages/comments/questions/things as I can Also will be posting an update soon, hopefully Thanks for stickin around ~

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You know you should probably go to sleep when you're reading your to-do list and you try to scroll down with your finger and then you remember that's not how actual paper works

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The saddest thing that's happened to me all month #somuchkimchi #why #sad #sosadwhy