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⋆𖦹.✧˚welcome freaks⋆𖦹.✧˚ ★ virtual art diary ★ i <3 u all and i am happy u are here

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new orleans, jazz, poker, alcohol, moldy water

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how to give back you ask?

reciprocity and gratitude bring abundance

look around... everything we need is here

eat the berries that are growing on the bushes for us, and in return, water that bush to give back and show your gratitude

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new orleans

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the trees talk to me

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add a ball

seattle

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flowers in the wild

i love the gifts from the earth

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"ever since i was a little girl i knew i never wanted to tell anyone anything"

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i really have a burning, sick, disgusting hatred for AI

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i have been at war with myself over tossing my old journals... my brain tells me if i croak that people will inevitably read them so i'm like destroy obviously BUT what if i wanna relive those times

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listening to radiohead on my walking man

feeling: vintage

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so many things i still wanna do..... how do i force my brain and body to start

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sometimes i can appreciate tiktok reminding me of songs

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i have been sitting and just staring at everything i want to do but i literally feel paralyzed... where do i start... i want to start sewing, but i also have a collage i want to do, but wait i should doodle (then let's get frustrated because they look like shit), OH but also i need to go on a walk and take pictures, wait wait wait, i now need to plan a photoshoot with someone... i think one reason why i get so paralyzed and hesitant with creating is the perfectionism piece. if i think other people will not understand or like it i don't want to do it. WHO CARES. CREATE SHITTY ART, CREATE FREELY, DON'T FEAR CRITICISM, DON'T FEAR PEOPLE DISLIKING YOUR WORK, ART IS LOVE, ART IS INDIVIDUALISTIC, ART IS WHAT YOU WANT IT TO BE!!!! (saying this to myself and whoever else might need it)

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omg i was just living life listening to music and this song came on shuffle... this was my SHIT during the worst of my addiction, and it has unlocked so many memories i am just... the things music can do to your brain and the impact experiences really have on our brain

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⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ freak you, you freakin' freak ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

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it has been so long since i have posted anything, but i have been in the biggest creative rut ever... stressed about all the things possible. i have never not known stress lol but she is definitely debilitating.

ALAS HERE IS A GELLI PRINT I HAVE DONE<3

GOODBYE CREATIVE RUT

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creative rut, losing the will to live, red wine, and purple acrylic nails