Ivey

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[beejiv]

2.19.19

Just when I started feeling good about myself

Couldn’t help it

Seconds passing over couldn’t help it I’m selfish

Worthless? Walk around my condo and I’m shirtless

Hoping I can call you but you it’s worthless

Spent a couple thousands on some shoes nails and purses

Thinking I’ve dispersed the, thoughts of hatred sitting in your person

About me, thinking thag I’m lying not a doubt please

Telling you I’m changing with a purpose

Never wanna see your face with tears upon the surface

Thought we took the time to realize that time is priceless

Tell me what the price is.

[beejiv]

End of story?

They ask me how I’m feeling

I tell em I’m feeling lovely

Told me that you know me

You know me to be above the

Lowkey lonely moments

They show me inevitably

Feel you in my gut

In my tummy, my teletuby

Winter come around I get cutty

Bumpin to cudi

Night time comes around I get lovey

Do you still love me

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[beejiv]

Do it really matter? What is the experience without the matter***

[beejiv]

10:37

Every time you’re too busy

I take looks at the moon

Everytime I hold you close

Close enough to prove

Close enough to round the afternoon.

Now these days they seem so dragging

Only I could sense this time

You lied and tried to make a tool

Of me meeeeeeee, children.

Don’t believeeeee the children.

So you close your eyes at night now

You dream all day that’s fine

I pray you know the waters deep indeed

Before you there’s no on bended knee

[beejiv]

A conflict

How do I tell her

I won’t be here much longer

I’m either here to please her

But it hurts to lay or wonder

In truth I may need me time

Time to become free time

I can’t do right while I’m focused on deceased time.

[beejiv]

Scared

Scared that one day you’ll say you don’t love me

Leave me sitting lonely by my bedside where you told me

Knowing that your heart attached mines what kept me holy

Now I realize my life is never full not wholly

Here’s to how you used to hold me tight thru nights unknowing

Maybe times the one who tells me life’s just revising old me’s

[beejiv]

Such a thing is so unimaginable and extra and dramatic, until you look at it right in the face and realize. It has been here all along, these actions you’ve faced have just finally brought that to light. Well, alright.

[beejiv]

If it weren’t for these people man I’d kill. My. Self.

[beejiv]

nap time

Sleep tight my little angel Next to me you lay this time But little do you know I know The other men in mind It’s no ones fault but mine alone I’m suffering at home alone Just thinking would she take me back But back to where I did no wrong She thinks she knows no things about me All I wanted was to be her dreams By little did I know about me Honestly was the purest win Now it’s nap time can’t you sleep Now it’s nap time I can’t sleep Many nights I trust in weed Or else I’m up all night indeed My mind walks round the hallways dark Like hearts of spade I’m black as char Coal for Christmas is what I’m getting For taking her heart and doing the splitting

[beejiv]

-FRIENDS-

Lost a couple friends See through lens Everything’s pretend Where to begin Churches plagued with sin Now we look within Feel the soreness in your eyes To the first time they seen real life.

[beejiv]

Surrounded by these voices but don’t want to say a word. I’m conflicted. My love is ever-present but so distant at times. I’m conflicted. Maybe I’m misunderstanding what is and isn’t mine. I’m now enlightened, I realize she’s free and I’m a vessel she may need for the time being. That’s my being, ethereal creature but bound to the earth here for reasons I’m still seeking. I’m conflicted. How does an artist find love when he knows that ones want for a relation is simply greed. Love is freedom, but freedom ain’t free. - Ivey

[beejiv]

[beejiv]

Fear no:

Death Hate Love Power Distance Height Depth Ignorance Confusion Responsibility Reward Neglect Intellect Nor self, Fear nothing.

[beejiv]

Thai chi

Lost as loose leaf Paper thin cuts are deep Slowly shifting back and forth I'm learning self worth I can't love another soul If my soul holds no gold or glow I'll show you well how deep I hold your heart it's swells My eyes when tears fall well I guess that shows my mind Knows modes my body can't Always explain.

[beejiv]

I don't want to be here anymore.

She's the only reason, I love her so much. And I messed it all up. I don't deserve her for s second. I'll miss soccer, I'll miss my family, I'll kiss my pups, and I'll miss my Friends I guess. But I'll miss her more than anything. But I know well see each other again. I love you Laura.

[beejiv]

Chains

Bball frat Cool Felt the love Now it's haze Just not sure What's to be What she feels Maybe it's not for me Bball frat Most be fun Hope she has some I must not be some.

[cabbagerose]

the hill of the buddha, sapporo, japan/tadao ando

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