Too Many Words

Started as breakup poetry, but as I forget him I'm branching into other areas.. Everything here is original poetry ❤️ drop me a message and say hi ❤️ I would love to know if my work makes an impact on you My main is NightTimeSusurrus so you'll get a follow back from that account!

[beginningofgoodbye]

The hardest part 

Is coming home 

And greeting a ghost

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The memories of loving you 

Are mixed with the scent of booze 

A funny haze I can’t see through 

Wool over my eyes and I tell you its you

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Your cheek looked so smooth

I felt like I should want to reach out

Forbidden and tempting

I can only ever look

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We held hands for the first time today

What ever I was supposed to feel

I didn't

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The way your body moves under the sun

Like a secret, newly shared

I could devour you

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I don’t even know who I’m broken-hearted over anymore 

Because I don’t want either of you back 

My heart is aching for someone 

I’ve never met

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How cruel To dream of both of you  And wake  Alone in my bed

[beginningofgoodbye]

I've missed you

For more time

Than we spent together

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Tick tock

Months with you flew by

Time

Now you're gone and seconds drag

Time

That something so mathematical

Time

Could be so fluid, flexible, unfeeling

Time

Time heals everything

Well it could hurry the fuck up

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I didn’t even realise 

I loved you 

Until you left 

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To you

Dear x,

I haven't seen you in a month. I haven't talked to you in a month. I miss you every day. I thought I'd be relieved that you were gone, but I just feel empty. I'm sorry about the way I treated you when we were together. I'm sorry about the way I talked to you. You needed me to be gentle and patient and I couldn't be either of those things for you. I know it's no excuse, but this was one of the worst years of my life and I wasn't in a place where I could love you the way you needed to be loved. I hope there's another chance for us in the future, but I know that's not likely. I miss having you in my life. I miss waking up to you. I miss the quiet moments that I was learning to love. I was learning to love you. I'm so sorry. About everything. Please come back. I can do better.

Love me.

Love, me.

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Love yourself.

Please.

Love yourself.

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Regret

I don’t regret a lot

I make mistakes 

But I stand by them 

But you...

I regret the way I treated you

I regret the way I talked to you

I regret how I let you 

Just walk out the door

And I didn’t say anything 

Maybe you’d be here now 

If I’d called you back 

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The only ones

Who know I loved you

Are me

And the moon

[beginningofgoodbye]

If I write poems

About how much losing you

Hurts me

Then I'm just admitting

That I cared

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Like a sky full of stars

I fell into you

Watched in awe

As galaxies and universes

Passed me by

Falling through your eyes

Like a sky full of stars

I fell into you

Now you're gone

But I keep falling

There are no stars

[beginningofgoodbye]

I know it’s not my job to heal you 

But, god, I want to