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Stop Stop Stop!!!!

Everyone shut up please

The anxiety is building in me and I feel sick

I want to cry I just....

I hate this

Stop talking to each other

Please

I guess bruising myself is my new thing. That doesn't count right?

"Just Get Thru It"

How

After all this time

How could you think those words would help?

I need your help

And you're only making things worse

Am I really gonna break my clean streak now?

I guess I have no other choice

How else am I supposed to feel better?

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#I finally broke the barrier #So close to my lowest weight ever

I feel like I'm screaming but someone has pressed the mute button. I'm not exactly sure what I want to say but I wish I could let it all out to someone and just have some time where the attention is focused on myself and helping me feel better? Maybe a hug if it's not too much to ask? It really is to much to ask though because I don't deserve it. I deserve to keep it all in and explode from the pain

I Am The Problem

It's so hard helping others when inside you feel like you just might explode from sadness. But at least when they're happy you feel kinda good.

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#why tf am i jealous #lol i suck