TO BE CONTINUED...

forgive my weakness ; for i have not forgiven my enemies.

[behrdara]

NOSTA’S (28) ORIGINAL ADAPTATION OF GWYNETH BERDARA. unaffiliated from the acotar canon & rpc. taken from the books and adapted into various other fantasy media, and my own crafrted lore regarding the religion in sangravah.

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I’m in no way affiliated with sjm, nor do i support her as a writer/human being. I’m just vibing with one of my comfort characters.

extremely canon divergent. I ask please that no one assume anything about my portrayal/canon.

If I follow you, i want to write/plot with you. we love ocs and multis in this enclosure. dupe friendly!

I just really hate sjm and her writing so expect rants about her canon lmao

NO HP BLOGS PLEASE. we don’t support aggressively terf bigots in this house. nor will we allow it from anyone else in this site. just refrain from being gross.

I read everybody’s rules. But if i happen to miss something, please let me know!

we acknowledge tamlin’s trauma in this house and also that rhys is a pos a lot of the time and shouldn’tbe excused for it!

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐬. 

(  an  assortment  of  dialogue  prompts  that  are  a  mix  of  fluff  and  angst  for  all  your  shipping  needs.  feel  free  to  change  how  you  seem  fit.  )

❛ you look happier. ❜

❛ they’re teaching me to kill, but who’s teaching me to love? ❜

❛ it’s hard to sit here and be close to you and not kiss you. ❜

❛ you left like i was never a reason to stay. ❜

❛ i never craved attention until i tasted yours. ❜

❛ if i kissed you, i don’t think i’d be able to stop. ❜

❛ you had my heart before i could say no. ❜

❛ but friends don’t look at each other like we do. ❜

❛ i like you. a lot. like a lot, a lot. ❜

❛ you’d look cuter holding my hand, but whatever. ❜

❛ they say you’re dangerous, but you’re my safe. ❜

❛ you are the peace i crave in this chaotic world. ❜

❛ i need you, you idiot. ❜

❛ i’d be yours, if you asked. ❜

❛ what’s meant to be will always find a way. ❜

❛ i never planned to have you on my mind this often. ❜

❛ you still live in the silences between my thoughts. ❜

❛ we’re not perfect, but we’re perfect for each other. ❜

❛ with a heart like that, you deserve the world. ❜

❛ i will look for you in every lifetime until we finally stay. ❜

❛ it’ll always be you. ❜

❛ i am yours. no refunds. ❜

❛ meet me in my dreams and stay for a while. ❜

❛ please don’t let me forget your voice. ❜

❛ i am in love with a moment we never had. ❜

❛ you steady me and stir me all at once. ❜

❛ i never want to stop making memories with you. ❜

❛ what i have with you, i don’t want with anyone else. ❜

❛ you smile a lot more since we’ve met. ❜

❛ do you think the universe fights for souls to be together? ❜

❛ i may not be your first, but i want to be your last. ❜

❛ i have passed by many eyes, but i only got lost in yours. ❜

❛ i’m pretty sure i didn’t meet you for nothing. ❜

❛ for you, i’ll risk it all. ❜

❛ i’m happiest when i’m with you. ❜

❛ i wonder what i look like in your eyes. ❜

❛ you’re important to me, you piece of shit. ❜

❛ and now you’re a stranger with all my secrets. ❜

❛ it terrifies me what i would do for you. ❜

❛ anywhere with you is everywhere i want to be. ❜

❛ my soul just wants to be closer to yours. ❜

❛ you’re still my person, even if i’m no longer yours. ❜

❛ you didn’t just break promises, you broke me. ❜

❛ some people search their whole lives for what i found in you. ❜

❛ you return like autumn and i fall every time. ❜

❛ i think about kissing you all the time. ❜

❛ maybe i’ll see you in another life if this one wasn’t enough. ❜

❛ the most beautiful part is, i wasn’t even looking when i found you. ❜

❛ your eyes hold everything my heart thirsts for. ❜

❛ you are enough. a thousand times enough. ❜

❛ a sky full of stars, and i’d still watch you. ❜

❛ i broke my rules for you. ❜

❛ in your eyes, i found gravity. ❜

❛ you have no idea how much i like you. ❜

❛ my heart is so full of you i can hardly call it my own. ❜

❛ so do right people with wrong timing get a second chance? ❜

❛ i pushed everyone away because they weren’t you. ❜

❛ you were worth the wait. ❜

❛ c’mon, we’d look cute together. ❜

❛ if you take care of everyone, who takes care of you? ❜

❛ i think i might be in some kind of love with you. ❜

[behrdara]

SOMEONE needs to discuss the internalized r*cism/xenophobia that az and cassian feel towards themselves and the other illyrian. and the feelings of inadequacy that rhys must feel being half illyrian half prythian like? feeling as if he has no identity as either of those. feeling he isn't "enough of" neither, that he isn't accepted by either of them.

az and cassian feeling envy of rhys for being half high fae, having "better lineage" vs rhys feeling envy of cassian and az for having a clear strong identity as illyrians!!

i'm just saying let's talk about it because janet won't!!!

[behrdara]

"tell me a happy memory."

voice is a soft hum, fingers keep on weaving the bracelet with utmost care. she wonders if he notices her dragging out the task she's focusing on. gwyneth can weave a bracelet in a few seconds, her lithe fingers are perfect for the delicate yet quick motions of braiding them. her grandmother was quite proficient at weaving water plants, or so the story goes.

"just one. i don't really enjoy doing this in silence," she wants him to speak, to open up. she's gotten used to chatting loudly with emerie and nesta while braiding bracelets. the silence bothers her, leaves her with too many thoughts, "i'll tell you mine if you tell me yours." @darkslautr

[behrdara]

"i brought you something!"

with a bright grin, lithe fingers rapidly wrap the blue scarf around the shadowsinger's neck -- it perches sloppily around his shoulders and leaves a slight trail of wool on his dark clothes.

the scarf is hastily knitten, yet woven with a simple pattern that leaves a thick, sturdy garment adequate to the crude winters of the night court. in the bag tossed over her shoulder, gwyneth carries more scarves, all in different colors. she fails to mention that she's had to ask one of the old grannies in the town square to teach her how to weave the garments - sangravah never had this cold, frozen days. the autumn court is dry, and cool and filled with pine trees that never grow old.

"i guessed you could use something to warm you up," nose scrunches playfully, inspecting the shadowsinger with playful approval, "you look quite handsome in it, if i do say so myself. i believe i've yet to see you in something other than black." @siphonedshadow

[behrdara]

do you want… a starter 👀🫦

[behrdara]

Gwyn is the type of girl to go up to Az and ask him of he can bend his arm back in a ridiculously complex way and then laugh in his face when he cant do it as far as she can

[behrdara]

" so, then you seal the knot like this. see? it's not hard at all. "

teaching johanna mason how to make sailing knots is not something gwyn ever expected to do in her spare time. truth be told, johanna mason makes her nervous, for the simple fact that she wears her anger on her sleeve, and that's not something they were supposed to do in the past. however, at the same time, gwyneth admired her for it, and now, intends to mimic a bit of her bravery.

johanna mason has nobody left to return to. she's said it multiple times. gwyneth hasn't, either. perhaps misery will appreciate some company.

" it gets easier with practice," gwyn smiles, takes another piece of rope after tossing the knot on the sand, " i know you're bored out of your mind, but indulge me a bit, all right? we're here to make sure annie doesn't leave her bedrest. " @70won

[behrdara]

" i didn't mean to... "

voice is trembling, body is trembling, wrapped in finnick's coat, gwyneth inhales, exhales, over and over and over. it reminds her of hyperventilating during her games, because there was no water in the arena, not to swim, not to drink. not after they found out how well district 4 kids did in the water. memories flood of slashing the back of the district 2 boy, of being covered in his blood until the gamemakers signaled the ending of the games.

sometimes, she still feels covered in his blood. this time; she is covered in someone else's, but the feeling doesn't really change.

" i didn't ... i didn't mean to kill him. finnick, i just couldn't -- i simply couldn't. not again, " perhaps she isn't as tough as she thought she was. finnick wouldn't have done this. finnick wouldn't have been so stupid. gwyn thinks of her sister, and she knows what's to come, " i'm sorry i called you. i thought you'd be the one to get it better than anyone else... " fantastic, now she's basically roped him into helping her get rid of a corpse. @4thdistrict

[behrdara]

" i brought more seashells! "

triumphantly, she waves the small duffel bag, which contains about a dozen bright pink seashells. smile is perhaps a bit too wide and practiced ( she's been debating what to say to annie all the way from the shore, because she assumes the woman must be driving herself up the wall with so much time on bedrest ). gwyneth cannot say she would blame annie if she decided to jump out the window and throw mrs. everdeen's worries into the wind.

" i know you're about sick of weaving necklaces, however, i found this particularly lovely shade of pink sheashells, and i thought we could mix them with the other ones we have left to- " rapid words come to a halt upon noticing annie's glare. gwyn exhales heavily, shoulders slump in defeat, " annie, don't give me that look ... you know you need to take it slow. mrs. everdeen will kill me if i let you out of that bed. " @70th

[promptfairy]

❥     𝐄𝐋𝐓𝐎𝐍 𝐉𝐎𝐇𝐍   [   𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂    ]   .

sentence starters based on lyrics from various songs by   elton john.   some lyrics have been modified to be more usable .  change gendered language   &   add context to your needs .   happy roleplaying !!  ♡

“   it’s  a  little  bit  funny ,   this  feeling  inside .   ” “   i’m  not  one  of  those  who  can  easily  hide .   ” “   i  don’t  have  much  money ,  but  boy ,   if  i  did   …   i’d  buy  a  big  house  where  we  both  could  live .   ” “   i  know  it’s  not  much ,   but ,   it’s  the  best  i  can  do .   ” “   yours  are  the  sweetest  eyes  i’ve  ever  seen .   ” “  it’s  lonely  out  in  space .   ” “   i’m  not  the  man  they  think  i  am  at  home .   ” “   mars  ain’t  the  kind  of  place  to  raise  your  kids .   ” “   it’s  cold  as  hell .   ” “   all  the  science ,   i  don’t  understand .   ” “   it’s  just  my  job  five  days  a  week .   ” “   i  think  it’s  gonna  be  a  long ,   long  time .   ” “   don’t  look  at  it  like  it’s  forever .   ” “   between  you   &   me ,   i  can  honestly  say  that  things  will  only  get  better .   ” “   while  i’m  away ,   dust  out  the  demons  inside .   ” “   it  won’t  be  long  before  you   &   me  run  to  the  place  in  our  hearts  where  we  hide .   ” “   time  on  my  hands  could  be  time  spent  with  you .   ”  “   picture  my  face  in  your  hands .   ” “   live  for  each  second  without  hesitation .   ” “   never  forget  i’m  your  man .   ” “   cry  in  the  night  if  it  helps .   ” “   i  simply  love  you  more  than  i  love  life  itself .   ” “   i  guess  that’s  why  they  call  it  the  blues .   ” “   you  can  always  count  on  me  for  sure .   ” “   that’s  what  friends  are  for .   ” “   i’ll  be  on  your  side  forevermore .   ” “   prima  donna ,   lord ,  you  really  shoulda  been  there .   ” “   one  more  beer ,   &   i  don’t  hear  you  anymore .  ” “   we’ve  all  gone  crazy  lately .   ” “   you  almost  had  your  hooks  in  me ,   didn’t  you ,   dear ??   ” “   you  nearly  had  me  roped   &   tied .   ” “   you’re  a  butterfly ,   &    butterflies  are  free  to  fly .   ” “   it’s  four  o’clock  in  the  morning ,   damn  it !!   ” “   i’m  sleepin’  with  myself  tonight .   ” “   someone  saved  my  life  tonight .   ” “   you  could  never  know  what  it’s  like .   ” “   there’s  a  cold ,   lonely  light  that  shines  from  you .   ” “   you’ll  wind  up  like  the  wreck  you  hide  behind  that  mask  you  use .   ” “   did  you  think  this  fool  could  never  win ??   ” “   i’m  still  standing  after  all  this  time .   ” “   i’m  pickin’   up  the  pieces  of  my  life  without  you  on  my  mind .   ” “   once ,   i  never  could  have  hoped  to  win .   ” “   you’re  starting  down  the  road   &   leaving  me  again .   ” “   if  our  love  was  just  a  circus ,   you’d  be  a  clown  by  now .   ” “   i  can’t  light  no  more  of  your  darkness .   ” “   i’m  growin’  tired ,   &   time  stands  still  before  me .   ” “   it’s  too  late  to  save  myself  from  falling .   ” “   don’t  let  the  sun  go  down  on  me .   ” “   although  i  search  myself ,   it’s  always  someone  else  i  see .   ” “   don’t  discard  me  just  because  you  think  i  mean  you  harm .   ” “   these  cuts  i  have ,   they  need  love  to  help  them  heal .   ”  “   you  had  the  grace  to  hold  yourself  while  those  around  you  crawled .   ” “   i  would’ve  liked  to  know  you ,   but  i  was  just  a  kid .   ” “   your  candle  burned  out  long  before  your  legend  ever  did .   ” “   loneliness  was  the  toughest  role  you  ever  played .   ” “   you  flirt  with  any  old  face  that  comes  along .   ” “   i  won’t  be  your  whipping  boy .   ” “   i  was  thirty ,   i  look  like  fifty ,   but  i  feel  like  sixty - three .   ” “   you’re  dirty ,   but  you’re  worth  it .   ” “   i’m  on  a  losing  streak .   ” “   i  can’t  seem  to  get  much  sleep .   ” “   until  i  saw  your  city  lights ,   honey ,   i  was  blind .   ” “   change  is  gonna  do  me  well .   ” “   living  in  the  city  ain’t  where  it’s  at .   ” “   i  can  bitch  because  i’m  better  than  you .   ” “   what  have  i  gotta  do  to  make  you  love  me ??   ” “   what  have  i  gotta  do  to  make  you  care ??   ” “   what  do  i  do  to  make  you  want  me ??   ”  “   what  have  i  gotta  do  to  be  heard ??   ” “   why  can’t  we  talk  it  over ??   ” “   sorry  seems  to  be  the  hardest  word .   ” “   something  tells  me  you’re  not  satisfied .   ” “   you’ve  got  plans  to  make  me  one  of  four  or  five .   ” “   i  guess  this  kind  of  thing’s  just  in  your  blood .   ” “   this  vicious  cycle’s  getting  out  of  hand .   ”

[behrdara]

“ I’ve never seen eyes so blue . ” @soranaisyrennalavrovne ft. sirena

" my grandmother once said to me that we were supposed to have eyes like clear water. but she said mine didn't quite look like that, " a soft chuckle accompanies her words, filled with melancholy for things that never really were. Nireia was never a particularly caring woman ( it is in our nature to be fickle, girl ), and perhaps that is why her daughter decided to stay away. gwyn always resented her mother a bit, for not allowing them contact with their grandmother -- after her death, catrin said they should try to find the other nymphs. it was quite the great defiance to leave the temple to search after such elusive creatures.

but her grandmother still sought land to die, so gwyn surmises that perhaps she did care for them more than she let on.

" she said mine looked like the river after a storm had passed, though they were clearer than my sister's. i guess it reminded her that we weren't entirely like her, " that she had once loved a man on the shore, and that man had walked away. gwyn often wonders what love must feel like, " but i guess they still look quite similar to hers ... that is a comforting thought, for some reason. "

[prythaei]

he laughs at that—a soft chuckle. genuine. his shadows like the sound; they wreath around his wings as if his laughter is music they can dance to. “ hm. what would you suggest? i'd like to avoid more wrinkles. ”

his brows rise slightly—the only measure of shock he allows—at her comment. he stiffles his amusement, to save her from any discomfort, but keeps his gaze on her.

“ i hope you'd share your burdens with me... if they became to heavy, friend. ” that word swells in his chest... friend. he wouldn't dare burden her with his problems, but the gesture in itself is more than enough. it means something to him. “ i believe they do, gwyn. ” illyrians are not a particularly talkative bunch. actions speak louder than words, and violence roars even louder. and so, azriel bows his head in true illyrian fashion—for her kind words.

[behrdara]

" well, there must be something other than sparring with lord cassian that you enjoy doing. perhaps we can begin there, " grin widens, enthusiasm pouring through her words. for some reason, the notion of finding out more about azriel's hobbies and likes makes her feel giddy. perhaps because she's never had a friend before other than her own sister, and in the same way she finds nesta and emerie fascinating as company, she feels the same toward him, " or, i could teach you how to weave friendship bracelets. it does have quite the soothing effect. "

his words bring warmth to her chest ( friendship is a concept she treasures dearly ever since meeting nesta and emerie ), and she feels a creeping heat on her cheeks, however, she's quick to conceal it by nudging his side playfully; a gesture of camaraderie she's seen him and cassian do often, " i will always rather share the clothes on my back or the food on my table with a dear friend than a problem, lord azriel. but i guess we can make a pact, to always have each other's backs. "

she returns the bow of the head ( hoping she did it right and he won't feel offended ) and adds, " now, going back to your hobbies, tell me, what do you like to do? "

[behrdara]

a moment of solitude, seeking solace in something that seems to call to her more than anything else. her grandmother would say, in her last years of life, that she wanted so dearly to return to what called to her, which was the water ( gwyn did not understand at the time, how her grandmother suffered being stuck on dry feet ). water nymphs will wither away, like a flower deprived of nourishment, if they are away from the their home, but in her last moment of living, the old woman sought shore to die, wanting not to be seen by the others. or perhaps, she wanted to see her bastard offspring, one last time.

but gwyneth seeks solace not in the water, but in the silence, peaceful and ominous, of a temple. standing before the altar, she knows not who to pray to in this place, but does so, either ways ( forgive my insolence, forgive my intruding ). and when footsteps echoe behind her, dissipating the divine silence within the temple, gwyn turns around, rather bashful, " i didn't ... i didn't know what to do. i -- where i come from, we keep our heads down when praying, but i don't know -- " her hands still carry the tattooed ink, which all priestesses from sangravah have on the back of their palms, and they press together as if pleading to the other woman, " can you please teach me how to pray here? " @soranaisyrennalavrovne ft. sorana lavrovne ot lukomorya.

[behrdara]

Water nymp and mermaids when..

THAT I WAS THINKING!!!! can i... throw a starter at ur mermaid girls 👀🫶🏻

[behrdara]

another thing about water nymphs is that despite their bodies looking like gaunt, lithe trees, they still look more human than the fae/high fae. because the water nymphs cannot do glamours, they look far more humane than non-glamoured fae. and while most fae walk around perpetually glamoured ( i like to see fae as extremely vain and prideful creatures, wanting to look appealing and beautiful and nonthreatening, even when around each other ), gwyn can't do it for long periods of time, so the fact that she looks a bit more human than most full-blooded fae is helpful.

[karlrincon]

Today’s “Ring of Fire” eclipse. from, Bryce Canyon National Park.

Credits: NPS Photo/Peter Densmore.